I'm going to forget about Biology. Seriously.
The more I think about it, the more I think i'm gonna fail.

I love guys who smell good. (:
Someone was like a flower today.

Fate is really kind to me. Really really, I could just kick it in the ass.

Let's try to confuse everyone.
Person 1: my "no. 2 crush"- haha that's bullshit lah. My ex-crush.
Person 2: My other ex-crush, the one i'm most notorious and infamous for.

While D was working today,
1 first came in with this girl. And because of D's msg telling me that, you know I rushed to Parkway to see but I missed it by the time I got there. Hahaha yeah well.
And then when he was leaving for dinner (with me:D),
1 walked into the store with 2! Not sure if "this girl" was still around.
D:
Omg. I can't believe I missed that.
And 2 told D that alot has been heard about him from me. Come on lah you know I tell the 2 everything right. Damn it luh! Hahaha hope 2 comes online tonight(: Need to hear opinions.
1 is smitten with 2 and I think it works both ways.

-To add on, Ab tells me that Dk saw 2 at Topshop. 1 must've been too short and was hidden behind the clothes or went into hiding to escape the tongues that would have wagged.
Tsk. (:

My timing's so totally wrong. Hahaha.
Crap luh but who cares. (:
Dinner with D was a cheap affair at the hawker, which is slowly becoming our favourite haunt.
Apart from handicap toilets, cough cough. Hahaha shucks sorry joke joke! (:

And he's got such a superb memory!
He asks to go Popular and after walking for roughly 20 minutes, he still can't remember what he wanted to get from there originally. Hahaha I swear he needs to forget all the Westlife lyrics (and all the other thousand songs) and drink chicken essence or something!

Haha I used to agree whole-heartedly with Joy about this year not being a good one for love,
But you know i'd disagree, fist-slammingly and loudly now. (:
Come on just take a look around.
My neighbour of what, 14 years (I moved in when I was two?) has gotten hitched with a cute girl.
Seriously I feel very proud of him. (:
My neighbour of uh 8 years (he moved in when I was p2) has gotten a girl who's like two years older but who cares anyway. Lucky arse.
Joy herself has gotten a guy.
Sarah... hahah obvious enough.
Nadiah... CM CM CM CM.
Aisyah we needn't say more(: So cute lah.
That's already nearly our entire Group. O:
And 1 and 2. Let's not remind me.
But i'm happy for 2! Deserves only the bestest in the world(:

Well of course let's excuse some people.
The first type being too good and obedient and shy, my bffs Ab and Am! Hahaha yeah riiight(:
The second type being a bum the whole day and just enjoying life, clearly my dear Shaun.
The third type still trying, waiting, hoping and praying.
It's all too common. We've all been there a few times(:

Aisyah just got me thinking of things today.
Unofficially together.
Single but unavailable.
Haha goodness gracious is that how we are? O:

I should make things better. Here's how. (:
HINT HINT HINT HINT HINT UH, PAY ATTENTION!
I AM VERY IMPATIENT YOU KNOW.
I LIKE TAKING THINGS SERIOUSLY YOU KNOW.
I DON'T LIKE TO ASK THE QUESTION YOU KNOW.
I'M NOT WEARING ANY RING ON MY FINGER YOU KNOW!
*WINK WINK WINK* :D :D :D

Ah holy shit that was hilarious :D
Come on we all know it's gonna happen soon anyway, so don't rush!
I'm sure he knows it all already and is probably planning his next move.
Why wonder so much when it's best to be surprised? (:
Besides, what's a few weeks when we have years ahead?

Alright I think I need to stop.
Poor Ab was already disturbed by a kiss on the cheek this morning. (:

I've discovered a few habits.
On the phone, everytime before D tells me something...
"Eh I tell you something okay?
Don't get angry with me."
The following sentence is always something nice, but I swear that Don't get angry with me scares me alot! I'm getting immune to the feeling already though(: Hahaha. Sounds bad.
AND FOR THE LAST TIME, FOR PETE'S SAKE,
I DON'T STUFF TISSUE PAPER!!!!!!!!!
OR ANYTHING ELSE! WAH I SWEAR IT'S NOT FUNNY OKAY!

I'm going to slack the rest of the night, enjoy my break, and mug my arse off tomorrow.
(if I can.) (you know how lazy I am.)
Sunday's gonna be busy, with Bro's project (Hi Nick:D) and well, you know luh. I can't wait(:
Even if i'm not gonna buy anything cause i'm... hopelessly broke.
It's my first real date with a real footballer! (:
And i'm waiting... again. That's all I ever do these days.
Waiting for my phone to vibrate wildly and waiting to hear "Good Morning!".

OH RIGHT EVERYONE LOOK HERE.
If you're free on the 17th of November and would like to hear some good music,
Or stalk the Hamsum New Guy on My Block together with me of course,
Hahah please do let me know(: D's singing. And he refuses to let me in on the new song set!
Won't Go Home Without You- and that's all I know. :/

And when I see you then I know it will be next to me.
And when I need you then I know you will be there with me.

Thanks for understanding today(: Needed to get things off my chest.
And don't you know? Good things come in small packages/doses(:
That's all we need, really.
I intend to keep my promise to you. But i'm quite sure you forgot what it was already anyway=_=

Here I am, blogging offline first cause i'm waiting for D's break.
I brought it upon myself when he told me SOMEONE was at the shop, and I dropped all plans of studying with Ab. Urgh:(

I screwed up bio.
Yeah probably get an average score:(
My fav topics didn't come out and i'm too lazy to bitch about it. Haha yeah so there goes the science written papers! :)
I'm on holiday mood already.

I CAN'T BELIEVE I DIDN'T BLOG ABOUT THIS YESTERDAY:D
We were at the library.
And Xp and I spotted this really handsome girl. My gosh the emo hair, the lazy berms and the really-don't-care face! Haha yeah omg hot:) :) :)
She was hanging out with a bunch of kc girls, urgh, and so we decided she was part of the phenomena, KC BOY.

Hahaha and omg, soon enough,
After complaining bout the disgusting modern Vs boy, Xp came up with a term for them.
VS GIRLS!
Haha omg was laughing my arse off after that. Bloody funny okay! Haha shucks now that pops up everytime I see a vs guy.
And they're here aplenty at MPH. Hahaha omgggg:)

I really wonder how D's gonna survive till tuesday minimum without his camera. Haha just this morning he took roughly 60 photos. Goodness gracious me. Most bout nothing, but still he's the biggest (in every meaning of the word) camwhores!
Well. What's four days without a camera to impress a girl?
Haha omg you poor thing don't you feel used:)

Right i'm bored. Ahhhh!
Dancing Times is more boring than I thought:\

Oh Prince Charming just came riding on his horse:) Cya later alligators.

I'm blogging again. Due to some bizarre circumstances.

Barely 15 minutes after my post,
4 people offered their cameras(:
I was damn shocked, but omg I cannot thank you guys enough. I wasn't even expecting it and I was prepared to go knock on all our neighbours' doors.
Haha and yes that included Nick's girl, Nic. (their names so cute right)
Both of them uh... hahaha damn cute.

But of course I don't like to depend on others.
So I depended on the only guy I depend on.
DSL thanks so much:D You're my absolute life-saver.
I send you thanks from my Bro who doesn't know all the trouble I went through.

Yup and currently,
I'm also giving Nick sex ed. Hahahahah I swear it's funny(:
I'm out to ruin all your clean clean minds.
(ahya please lah like I got SOOOO much experience to tell you meh?!?)
Yeah. But he's really quite fun to disturb... :D
Nick, thanks a bomb for agreeing to help! :D :D :D :D :D
You're the bestest coolest neighbour anyone can have. Hahahah sunday sunday ketchup!

And my mood's back up cause well, i've got a hot (I wish luh!) date on sunday. (:
Am I excited or AM I EXCITED?!
Hahah yeah it's the S.League soccer star who does nothing but poses at the post lah.

Oh.
...
Omg. Omg... OMG!
I want to kill DSL right now.
HOW CAN YOU TRICK ME INTO THAT LOVE CALCULATOR NONSENSE!?
AND I FILLED IN THE BLANKS FOR MY TOP 3 CRUSHES?!? AND THEY SEND THE INFO TO YOU!? AHHHHH. I SHOULD'VE KNOWN BETTER, COMING FROM YOU!
Hahah you're so full of rubbish!
Can't stand you. And eh eh eh, how's 92%? :D

Oh gosh I still remember how we used to try everyone's names during recess in sec 2:/
Sec 1 and 2 were the best years of my life man. Hahaha.

'Tis the season for decadence.
My dream birthday present to myself?
A set of Victoria's Secret lingerie.
A bustier or a satin slip sounds... awesome! Haha told ya i've got a fetish for undies(:
(yeah yeah I know I got no one to show it off to lah, but who cares!)

Well.
(:
Meeting Ab bright and early tomorrow morning to chiong bio!
Plus i'll be catching a glimpse of my favourite boy. Hahaha that's gonna stroke his ego.
I need to go rest my aching head or it'll burst soon.


Love,
Noelle. (:

Ps. Talking to Dominique about math, differentiation and integration is the funniest shit ever:D

Everything's going horrendously wrong today.
In desperation, i'm blogging.

Emath paper 2 was good enough, and i'm glad I didn't screw it up.

Rushed off to the dentist's after, where I got thrashed like shit.
I've got this super thick wire that's bent to pull every single tooth into a perfect curve. And apart from "power chains", i've got additional bands on the top row.
If you don't understand braces language, you just have to know that
IT FUCKING HURTS
and it's driving me mad cause it's causing a terrible headache.
And I can't even chew bubble tea pearls. Wtf.

Plus, i've been having the bloody cramps the whole day.
I must tell you how much i'm against menstrual cramps.
I didn't do anything, ANYTHING, to deserve them. F.

I can't even study properly cause my heads like bursting, my tummy is cramping up and all.
That's it. I'm gonna mess up Biology paper 2 badly tomorrow.

I skipped out on dinner with Ab and Di and came straight home.
Promised myself an hour's nap before I get up and mug/blog/dally,
But I can't keep that promise cause I fucked up big, big time.

I lost my camera.

?!?!!??!?!?!?!!??!!??
It was just in my room like last week and I haven't brought it out and all and it's GONE.
And I feel so bad cause Shaun needs it desperately for a project he's gotta finish by tuesday, and he completely does not deserve a sister like me who screws things up like this.
I mean, it's not even MY camera, it's OUR camera!
And i've just turned my whole room upside-down, but I still can't find it.

I'm on the verge of tears.
And i'm seriously desperate. I will marry, no scratch that, i'll DIE FOR anyone who finds it.
Why am I such a fucktard?
Screwed.

Right and i'm begging anyone who has a camera to spare till tuesday to lend it to me/bro because I don't want him not to score his As. He needs to drag that GPA up man.

Why is every single thing not going right today?
Excuse me while I sink into my bed and cry my heart out.
I hate the O levels, I hate everything. Yes i'll leave it at that.

Now it seems to me, that you know just what to say
Words are only words
Can you show me something else
Can you swear to me that you'll always be this way
Show me how you feel
More than ever baby

Thanks Xp for your cheese fries(: Hahah yeah I gobbled them up after you left.

Econs paper 1 was... not fun. Yeah seriously.
I wasn't sure of quite a few questions because the answers weren't close, but just all sounded correct? Hahaha yeah well screwed lah. I'm expecting a B3 for econs):
): ): ): ): ): MY FIRST B! (excluding chinese.) Blardy:/

Yeah so to cheer myself up, i'm gonna pig later. (:
Whooops. That's not the way to go but I need short term comfort, cause tomorrow's..
EMATH PAPER 2!
I DON'T WANT TO SCREW THAT ONE UP:/ I don't want to lose to Darrell lah. Hahaha my ego cannot take it- shucks how does he score so well! ):

Forget it. I just need an A1, not an A0. I really wish there were such things lah!
(For people like me and Ab who love to over-achieve.)

Hahah and uh, just had a weird convo.
This is the type of relationship my dear brother Shaun and I share. (:

-:Chocolate:- says:
hello
-:Chocolate:- says:
help me on the heater
Noelle ; says:
okay.
Noelle ; says:
=_=
Noelle ; says:
its on
-:Chocolate:- says:
thanks
-:Chocolate:- says:
(:

Hahah I swear he's such a pig lah. He hardly ever talks to me on msn except for the occasional "Where are you? Mum asks me to ask you." from me. Yeah I know, i'm a nag:/

And apart from that weird convo,
Nick called me today.
Which is equivalent to the sky falling!
Hahah and he'll probably only call because he got dumped/ doesn't know where to bring his girl/ I got dumped/ is having a terrible fashion disaster because he doesn't know whether to wear his black shoes or black and white ones. (he's so vain he gives me goosebumps!)
And there I was trying so hard to figure why he called. Haha yeah so..
Ni: Hello. Where are you?
No: I'm at home.
Ni: Oh. I'm uh, at parkway- (I cut him off)
No: He's not working today.
Ni: Chey!

=_=
The power of my blog. (: Hahaha if someone gets stalkers, they most probably read my blog.

I've got a billion things to do after my Os.
But on the ride home (I love bus rides:D) I came up with yet another list in my head;

Resolutions for 2008, or whatever's left of it:
1. Build resistance to most chilli pastes/sauces.
2. Eat a durian. (i've never eaten durian in my entire life. I'm serious)
3. Go back to my 46kg frame.
4. Get D to sleep before 12am at least once.
5. Get a job and stop being a bum.
6. Discover/find a miracle pimple cream that works on me.
7. Bathe at 530am at least once.
8. Check up on poly courses and hopefully fall in love with one of them.
9. Remove the outbreak of spots/bums/fungal infection on my forehead.
10. Grow thicker eyebrows.
11. Have a successful BBQ party.
12. Dance around all night singing Westlife songs.

Yeah. By hook or by crook, i'm gonna do it all(:

About the other list, The List, I don't think I wanna post it up anymore.
Haha I think it might really cause fits of puking or permanent goosebumps for some people lah.
As long as we know, it's good(:

Speaking of which,
My parents cancelled our year-end holiday to Hong Kong/Shenzhen/Macau, because they're gonna use the money to renovate our entire kitchen. I think a certain kitchen door just fell off.
Yeah my house is like damn cha-chat, everything's falling into pieces!
Peeling paint, yellowing walls, my barely-attached cupboard door (that fell on me once), our noisy and heavy main door, and goodness, the list goes on. My house is damn old. I think it was built like... 20 years ago, or 15 at the minimum.

So cause Mum and Dad were afraid that we kids would get upset,
they tried to book a chalet which obviously couldn't be done since everywhere's fully booked.
Yeah I think i'm supposed to throw some party.
And then Dad went on to hint...
"Eh Noelle you know uh, I get a special rate at Raffles Hotel.. the one at City Hall?"
(Dad's such a showoff.)

Hahah I declined. Shaun and I thought a real party would be more fun(:
So instead, we're getting them to buy a new BBQ pit and throw a party at our place instead.
I've no idea how it's gonna come along but we'll see(:

But how fun can it get!
No booze, rooms off-limits, parents around, small kid (i.e. Ines Leow) around,
Urgh. Depressing:/ Clean fun is rarely ever fun at our age.
Of course, i'd love to play cards all day. Hahah what was the new game we played today?
I won twice. (: Not bad for a beginner lo!
Still, Bridge is my ultimate favourite card game lah. No arguements there.

Singapore's having a technical recession.
Be prepared to feel the pinch when parents decline your proposal of an iPhone for christmas:/
Haha what's with everyone and iPods!

I'm seriously, being serious here, getting hooked onto Britney Spears.
And her Womanizer vid is like... whoa. Whoa. Whoa O; Hahah shucks.
I swear it's addictive! Poor Nad was sitting between Amanda and I who were both singing with the radio. Hahah her ears must've bled quite alot.

And Weezer - Pork and Beans is such a cute song! :D Especially with all the "Uuhh!"s in the background. Damn cute:D Plus the singer's got such a funnily awesome accent.

And if you didn't already know,
Every night's getting more enjoyable. (:
Singing Westlife songs, screeching Radiohead's "Creep", going "It's Britney, bitch", talking about everything from deodorants to iPods and yalams. If only... well. You know the rest of the sentence. (:

HI MR SIOW(:
Damn I should go tell Andrew that you read and he'll totally freak out!

Somehow, i'm all happy and refreshed this morning! (:
Despite sleeping at 3am cause I was on the phone.
If only someone didn't have school, we might've lasted the night/morning.

Had a really weirdly open, gross and interesting chat with Dom, but it was really eye-opening.
And I think it's best to not publicly post the contents since it's... M18 at the least.
What a Dirty Old Man he is:/ Hahahah.

Plus, I got my apology. That's all I wanted really. Thanks for understanding yeah. (:
It's different reading messages and hearing it on the phone you know.

That rough, gruff, sexy voice.
HAHAH OMG i'm totally joking! - he's too often singing terribly high notes to sound anything sexy. What to do with this kind of guy uh. Can't stand not embarrassing him(:
And seriously all girls should stay away from this kind of guys!

Apparently we have alot more in common than you think. (:
I should enlighten everyone with one a day. Hmmmm...
My personal favourite: He can split.
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
NOW ISN'T THAT THE GAYEST AND COOLEST THING EVER!
I SWEAR I'M COMPLETELY IMPRESSED! *DESPITE IT BEING SO GAY!*
(sorry D I really can't resist not showing you off:D)

Yup and now i'm having a quick catch-up session with Fay,
because she believes she must know absolutely everything about my scandalous love-life and thinks that I have a boyfriend. Hahaha! (:
And I wanna kaypo also. (: So fun(ny).

Oh oh oh and if anyone loves Rihanna and is willing to pay $225, you need to call Shurui now!
Haha I would totally go if I had the money, or if I weren't already going with someone. (:

Yucks, my internet sucks. :/
Messenger is totally playing me.

If you hadn't put me to the test and just treated me nicely instead, we would be happy now.
I can do anything if I set my mind on it. But right now I don't think I want to.
If the love I offered was insufficient, if it made you hesitate, and if it led you to think I couldn't be trusted, there's not much I can do really. I'm hurt most cause you didn't trust me despite all I did.
Well, do you still want to try?
I'm moving on. I've had quite enough from you.

Can't get enough.

I nearly forgot Nat's birthday is coming!
Ahhh crap i'm out of birthday gift ideas cause i've given her one every year for as long as I can remember. From deo to tops and makeup? Ah crap.
):

Took like a 3 hour nap while it was raining. It was perfect.
(: I think I woke up too early for tuition.
Tuition was so-so, with Siow accusing A and I of being together for the last time. I think he'll feel quite miserable without saying it so I just let him say. Haha yup, and it's the last time to see everyone. So sad huh): I'll miss Cheekopek quite badly actually. Nice guy.

Finished at 11 and took a bus down to Pakquay (that's how everyone seems to pronounce it),
And spent like 1 hour at the sale section not really looking at anything but trying to decipher D's horrendous writing on the tags. Sale stuff are mostly like size 10 and above? ):
I should've worn the "I am visually stimulating" tee and flashed it at D. Haaha.

Occupied one of the squarish chairs to mug while waiting for his lunch break.
I got interrupted by 3 kids who came to talk to me.
1 damn cute girl asked if I would let her sit next to me. So I shifted my arse and luckily the chair accommodated both of us. And then she started pointing to pictures in the textbook.
(Trachea, the buccal cavity and all the glands)
LUCKILY I was studying the right topic.

Imagine this. (it didn't happen lah!)

"Oh. And whaat's thaat?"
"Uh.. Right. It's a penis."
*everyone suddenly falls quiet and stares at me*
...
"What's a penis? :D"
*her Mum comes and slaps me hard screaming what a disgrace I am to women*

Well yeah. And another girl asked if I was wearing braces.
And how and why. I can't believe kids these days:D SO cute!

I was spotted loning by Fay and her bff-but-not-quite Justin.
She left us to get acquainted and went off to the toilet. He "ran away" from me into Espirit. Haha oh boy yup, I miss her too. And how she loves to publicly scold her friends.

D was finally let off for lunch at around 3.
He was let off 2 hours late because he was 5 minutes late for work O:
And a few other insignificant reasons. Haha claim responsibility for making me wait la bodoh.
We were hungry ghosts.
And he had four cows in his stomach. Or so he said. (:
I soaked my shorts and right leg in soup, and his face was covered in spots of dark sauce.
Best luh. (:

Haha didn't you hear the saying:
It takes a weirdo to know a weirdo?
What has me singing got to do with the rain anyway?!??

Oh right and a few people have probably heard about The List.
No. 2 on The List received an "OH FUCK." from Abigail, which is really rare cause she hardly spouts any vulgarities unless she's dead pissed. Haha whooops(: Really that gross meh...!
Well i'm halfway there already lah. I'll post it up when i'm done.

I like guy figures. (:
Not like the ideal hourglasses of women, but guys with hot bods usually have a small waist, slim hips and broad broad shoulders (lanky legs = plus point). I've been quietly obsessed with this since a few years ago, and guys with good figures always catch my eye. Mum agrees with me:D
Does that explain why I was checking a certain someone out for so long? :/
Damn I feel like a guy now.
Getting turned on by good figures in fitted tees, long legs and deep eyes.. Right don't tempt me!
Urgh. :/ I must be ovulating. (increased levels of progesterone and oestrogen released)

I should go wash my brains.


Anyone wants to mug tomorrow?
I actually feel like playing Bridge. I am Bridge-deprived! ))))):

Midnight phone calls, random messages, a whole lot of bullshit and more singing.
Fuck. I think too much. And i'm feeling like crap.

Charmed and mesmerised.

"Would you like a set meal with it?"
"Uh how much is the set meal?"
"The set meal includes the soup of the day, a complementary slice of cake, and a choice of drink of ice lemon tea, coffe, tea or coke." (this was said in like three seconds.)
"Um..... yeah. Okay."

Somehow, either no one can quite understand D's accent or everyone we talk to has bad english. I swear going out with him is hilarious cause we bump into funny people all the time.

*Yawn.*
Took a quick nap upon reaching home. Am extremely tired, but I can't explain it.

Out of charity I decided to send D to work again.
Because today was at Wing Tai Building and apparently some people can be damn sua gu.
Like they've no idea where it is. Luckily I live just less than 10 minutes away. (:
So I met D bright and early, for it's really a miracle to see him awake before 12pm, and we had breakfast at Hans at Hougang Mall. Which has changed considerably since 1 year ago.

And because we're joined at the hip permanently, (i'm sure he wishes we are) I ended up staying at his workplace for uh.. 3 hours. I think he was begging me. (:
Haha yes it's the Topshop/ Topman/ Warehouse/ Miss Selfridge/ Dorothy Perkin's warehouse sale. And if you're everything but a size 6, you're gonna be quite happy with past season finds and a few skirts and basics from the current collection.
Plain Topman shirts are like $19 apiece, Tshirts are what, $9 each? Whoa.
But I couldn't find anything that was nice and fit me.

Except like, two sets of bikinis.
Which when mixed-and-matched, cost $18 a set.
I was thanking my lucky stars! But eventually I didn't buy it cause I remember my promise of not buying bikinis that are above $10 right. Hahha damn.
It was the bandeau type that I still don't own. Have always been more of a fan of the original triangle and halter types. Well, my next swimsuit is probably gonna be a one-piece(:
Keeping my eye out for a nice monokini.

There was also this gorgeous Warehouse bag going for $69. It was originally $159 I think. (:

D was posted to a pathetic corner selling Adidas shoes. (so out of place man)
Which were all past season and some in very bad shape. Haha well we met this gay-sounding guy who was pretty cool. He buys shoes because he's a shoe-person and he buys EVERYTHING on impulse. House, cars, bags, and all. Yup, omg. O:

And I think D's colleagues threw me alot of dirty looks. Haha apparently someone can't draw a clean line between work and personal life eh?

Come to think of it, I should buy Shaun and Dad a shirt from there for christmas!
Damn. :/

D has just been shifted a notch up in my impression of him because Tessa loves his name.
Haha and I always end up listening to her. God knows why.
And i've been dubbed by her a "Player Fo Life".
I don't deny it lah. Haha omg this is bad. Was just dumped on.. thursday? D:

It's kinda obvious how I don't have a life.
Especially when I hang out with people like D all day and only have that to blog about.
:/ I should start hanging out with other people more.
After Os lah(: I've got a lot of people to catch up with!

But I really really can't wait till 13th November!
8pm(: I still can't believe i'm going for Rihanna.
Well it's not confirmed but at least I have a CHANCE of going right.
The tickets are fcking expensive omg. D:
This is the only one thing I won't feel bad about. I can't thank you enough!
(: So excited:D :D :D :D :D

I'm getting my appetite back slowly. No i'm not turning anorexic.
And dinner smells great. (:

As corny as it sounds,
Love is definitely in the air this season.
A boyfriend is a good accessory to invest in. And to love and to cherish.
Christmas certainly came early for you this year. (:


My $129 dress is not fated to be mine.
Apparently there are only 2 size 6s left in the whole of Singapore, according to Topman.
And I certainly can't afford to fork out $129. ):
Thinking about it makes me damn sad.
I remember squealing and trying it on the moment I saw it, despite no one else wanting to try anything with me. And how it matches my black pumps. And how...
FORGET IT. ): I'll sew my own dresses next time.

- Added in, as I always do after reading some blogs.
HAHAHA OMG, SERIOUSLY.
FOR THOSE WHO DON'T KNOW WHO DUMPED ME, PLEASE JUST ASK AND DON'T ASSUME! EGOISTICAL FAGS. Sheesh omg this is hilarious:D I feel embarrassed for him.

Well, all that matters is my future, and my future starts with a D. (;
Who cares about the guys that dump you or you dump. It's a dog-eat-dog world.
It's always better to win. But when life gives you lemons, please do make some lemonade.
I'm sorry- but I don't miss anyone of you. (: Wait, let's repeat that.

I forgot about you. O_O Whooops. (: Bitch right?

You know you love me.

Hi everyone.

Chinese is very important.
And it is to be noted that Sao(3) Di (4) does not mean mopping the floor but instead it's sweeping. And mopping should be Ma(1) Di(4).

For those who are ardent fans of alternative/indie music, you should be totally happy because a certain band is getting a HAWTT new bassist into their band.
The bassist is awesome lah.. He's good at his stuff, has floppy shaggy hair and swoon-worthy eyes. And now, no i'm not advertising for Topman. IT'S MY DEAR BRO SHAUN LEOW.
WHO'S FINALLY GOTTEN OFF HIS ARSE AND FOUND A DECENT BAND!
WHOOOPEE(:

Ask him for more details. I can't even remember the spelling of their song.
Plus, the vocalist makes everything sound pretty much like Fall Out Boy. I have no idea why.
(: I say not bad lah.

Right now i'm supposed to be ordering Havaianas for Aisyah lah, but I feel damn lazy.
Plus I have no idea if I can even pay for her first because the sum in my ATM is so measly you would think of it as a begger's alms.
And about my own havaianas... let's just say it's in a carton somewhere in the middle of the ocean being shipped to The Little Red Dot. The best part? I don't even know how it looks like and whether it actually fits me. Surprises can be nice(:
Especially when it's from someone who owns 16 pairs of havaianas and has a big headache everytime deciding which pair to wear. Are we jealous? :/

So there you go.
Knowing a guy with impossibly good connections has many perks.
Free concert tickets, cheap havaianas, occasionally free Starbucks, free hugs, Nike and Adidas at half-price (he'll get angry if you buy without telling him in advance so he can give you discount), deep stares, and enough money from working to buy you a Coach bag for no reason at all.
AND YES YOU GET TO MEET PLAINSUNSET AND ALL UP CLOSE AND PERSONAL.
LIKE, SHOULDER-RUBBINGLY CLOSE AND TOUCHABLE-kinda CLOSE.
Well just to let you know,
I'm not dating that guy. Damn did you hope to share the perks with me? Hahaha.
But I still enjoy the perks. (:
(Including $190 tickets that I rudely declined. Who wants to go with you.)

Money can buy you everything, sure.
But you can't buy your way into my heart.
It's priceless (worthless, value-less, whatever).



I'm flabbergasted!
Flabbergasted. flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted flabbergasted.
I'm flabber and you're gasted.


EDITTED.
AHHH OMG OMG OMG I MIGHT BE GOING FOR RIHANNA!
;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

Luckily i'm only blogging now.
Not at 10am, and not like 2 hours ago.

At 10am I was alone at Tampines Macs, was blogging and mugging but the internet disconnected and I lost my whole post.
I supopsedly had tuition at 8.. but I woke up late, because my phone alarm is damn screwed, so decided to pon altogether and just go on monday instead. And I would've been blogging about how terribly bored I was, how someone shuold've really gotten up and stopped his wet dreams, of maybe Chuck Bass and Serena together, and ran out of the house in PJs to meet me.

Yup that meant I completely missed Andrew's plan for our last tuition session!
But never mind lah. Tuition must've been terrible without me. ("

2 hours ago I would've been blogging about how terribly embarrassed I was, how I feel like murdering Topman and how I never wanted to look him in the eye again.

But now i'll thank Mum for getting hold of some malt candy.
Took all the bitterness out of me in an instant... both literally and mentally.

Yup so in between, I managed to wake Topman up at 11, and met him slightly later.
Was supposed to escort him (uh right you wish) to work. Cause I had plans to leave tuition early anyway... 6 hours how to dahan!
Tampines Mall and Century Square are horrible places. Shared a don't-know-what Chocolate thingy at Starbucks with EXTRA CHOCOLATE SAUCE, haha yes I remember that(:

Bumped into Aisyah and Her Friend at the interchange, so funny(:
D has a knack for meeting people but certainly not remembering their names.
And that bus ride was my favourite moment of the whole day.
The rest was... queer.

Nothing else need be said.
Some things are left best unsaid.
And for today, I think EVERYTHING IS BEST LEFT UNSAID.
D:
Yes that is how upset I am. :/

I can't believe you.
I FEEL SO USED PLEASE.

Urgh you have no idea how hurt I am you stupid boy. D:
You're going to suffer my wrath for the next few days, I promise.

Am leaving my place for Grandma's in a few minutes,
but omg I have to say this.

DID YOU KNOW THAT THERE ARE THEFTS AT TOPSHOP NEARLY DAILY?
AND THEY'RE MOSTLY FROM KC AND... TKGS! OMGOMGOMG.
YEAH OUR DEAR TOPMAN'S LIKE THE NEW POLICE LAH. HAHAHA.

K bye.
Ps. I hate guys.

Some things are left better unsaid.
And for once, I feel as though I should keep things to myself. (:
Because it's something between us. No one else has to know.

Sly glances, shy smiles, awkwardly-nice closeness and goofy conversations.
If I had the power, I wouldn't change a thing the way things are.
Traces of you linger everywhere. And I wonder how you managed your way here.

God's playing tricks on me.
I can't find any other explanation.

Amath paper 2 was a real suckfest.
I just pray hard that my paper 1 does well enough.
Emath paper 1 was.. fun. (:

So that added onto my list of woes.
And I have no freaking idea where my huge appetite disappeared to-
I AM NOT EATING. D:

I had a bottle of chicken essence before rushing out of the house,
And kinder bueno for lunch,
And I couldn't even finish my pastamania pasta. O:
I just refused donuts. Kindly bought by my Aunt.
...

Isn't that insane!?
What is wrong with me:/
Some people are probably gaping at the screen now. Knowing that I have a cow's stomach (cows have four!) and could eat all your leftovers and still order another dish.

So let's see how I was late today.
Hmmm emath paper 1 was at 0800, and I woke up at 0720.
I screamed. Which sent Mum rushing into my room. Hahaha it was kinda funny.
Somehow managed to bathe and drink chicken essence in ten minutes, before leaving the house at 0730. Reached like 5 minutes before the paper started. Whew.

And the reason.
My alarm didn't go off at 0530.
More importantly, I slept at 4 something in the morning? Hahah omg I know you think i'm crazy already. How could I risk it with two papers today? Right right yes I know.
Was on the phone from like 12 with The Human Jukebox. O:

I don't think I have much of a life now!
Yup and I am certainly getting more dependent on my favourite gay:/
Haha thank you lots for today(:
You brightened my dismal day with your straightened hair and curly sideburns, big hands and Topshop "NO REFUND NO EXCHANGE" stamps all over.

I've learned alot today indeed(:

Behind all the smiles I feel that i'm losing it slowly.
It hurts too much to think about you.
But then I wonder if it was how you didn't trust me, or that my pride was badly bruised.
Not worth it, not anymore.

AND I CANNOT BELIEVE I'M MISSING OUT TPRAWKS.
OR ACTUALLY, 17TH NOVEMBER'S PERFORMANCE.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.
PLAINSUNSET'S GONNA BE THERE. OF COURSE WITH ALOT OF OTHER BANDS.
AND THE UY WITH NO STAGE PRESENCE IS PERFORMING!
HOW COULD I POSSIBLY MISS IT.
I OUGHT TO BE SHOT SHOT SHOT.

Tuition tomorrow morning at EIGHT O'CLOCK.
To TWO PM. That is crazy! Don't know how i'm going to survive:/

Those who knows Abigail's blog, you need to read it asap cause it's damn funny.
Okay lah, to me at least. (:
What "important day"... Ahya like that also very important meh!

Favourite line (out of many cute ones):
Mirror, mirror on the ceiling, Where is No and Mr.D going?
Hahaha omg Abigail I love you. So funny!

I.. have serious insecurities.

For those who think that I would be moody the whole day just cause a guy dumped me,
You're not wrong.
(come on la it wasn't just A guy... it was THE guy)

I was sobbing my poor eyes out, depriving myself of half an hour's of sleep (i set the alarm earlier so i can snooze it for 30 mins), ate nothing but a Sausage Mcmuffin and a cup of tea the entire day, was distracted the entire day, harboured suicidal thoughts-
But it's over.
Eh i'm not so pathetic. (:
Just had a bowl of soup to assure my dad i'm not turning anorexic or am in dire depression since I refused dinner too.

And besides. Was more upset over the geog paper that I screwed up terribly.
I do honestly think I can fail because I crapped one 8m question entirely:/
WHY DIDN'T I READ UP ON CORAL REEFS. I just want to die.
That makes the difference between a road sweeper and a businesswomanD:
Was so depressed about it. Right, moving on.

So to everyone:
I'm alright now! Thanks for being so understanding and comforting(:
In times of need, you know you can count back on me.
I don't know how I got dumped when I wasn't even attached though. Never mind.

Nicholas yao™ says:
u now very nice alr hor
Nicholas yao™ says:
now u not very scheming alr
Noelle ; says:
yeah.
Noelle ; says:
because i dont have anyone to scheme against.
Noelle ; says:
im at peace.
How true. (:

I already KNOW some people are celebrating the fact that i'm properly SINGLE now.
But don't get too excited.
Because that doesn't mean you stand a chance. And it still hurts.
So do me a favour and don't bring him up again.
Even if it's just to tell me I should've listened to you right from the start because he is a @*^*(&.

And you shouldn't get excited anyway, cause what makes you think i'll take you in?
Hoho, I have standards. High ones. As my dearest gay friend just found out.
...

*GASP*
You don't know who my bestest gay friend is???
It's obviously Topman lah!
He's really the gay-est guy I know at the moment(:
Gossip girl, hairbands, camera-manwhore and all.
(excluding real gays like Edmond Leong and tuition people)

Eh thanks for being nice when i'm such an arse to you lah. You deserve a little bit of credit.
Must be tough eh? Don't worry. Our game hasn't ended yet(:
And I don't like losing.

Princesses and princes, yalams and cute people.
But still, my favourite line of the day...
Do you believe the saying:
Any guy can sweep any girl off her feet- he's just gotta have the right broom? (:

Behind every dark cloud lies a silver lining
And when you close one door, a new one opens.
While you leave me vulnerable and shattered, please look after yourself well.
I know I can get up again. Just give me the time to.
And when that happens, I want to welcome someone new to share everything with me.

Where that someone is... I have no idea. Time shall tell. (:

Noelle ; says:
hahaha dont want to date lah.
Noelle ; says:
still sore about the guy
Abigail says:
okay.
Abigail says:
omg.
Noelle ; says:
hmm?
Abigail says:
i think it's damn funny if you and dmn really REALLY get together.
Noelle ; says:
...
Abigail says:
DAMN HILARIOUS.
Noelle ; says:
ahya dont rub it in lah.
Noelle ; says:
i should go post that up on my blog.
Noelle ; says:
(:


Regarding the same issue...
peytang says:
oh god! he's worst than i thought. oh, i think he's got hairy legs..

Noelle ; says:
you two!
Abigail says:
i'm focusing on my math.
Noelle ; says:
(:
Noelle ; says:
good girl!
Noelle ; says:
hahaha.
Abigail says:
not on hairy legs
Noelle ; says:
you wouldnt want to anyway..
Abigail says:
yeah
Abigail says:
i'll just swear and curse.

...

Abigail says:
EVEN DAPHNE DOESNT LIKE ALFRED TO HAVE HAIRY LEGS.
Abigail says:
lol
Noelle ; says:
yeah(:
Noelle ; says:
hahahahaha ALFRED'S NOT EVEN A MAN.
Noelle ; says:
HAIRY LEGS WOULD LOOK WEIRD ON HIM

Hahahahaha. Omg. Why is everything damn funny.
And here is our victim...

superflydom. keep yourself alive says:
ahahaha because you don't mind my hairy legs?
Noelle ; says:
hahah yesssss.
Noelle ; says:
isn't there like, a sigh of great relief?
superflydom. keep yourself alive says:
ahahaha very much so

(:
I am ze ultimate.

For being so insensitive yesterday, I got struck by Karma.
In the form of an insensitive guy, Mr Andrew Lim.
I spilled out everything last night. Ohmygod. :/
I'll not trust him with any more secrets! D:
Including those of a certain camwhore and of myself.
Haha but still can't wait to see what he's gonna do on saturday.

I am in a horrendous mood right now. :/
And I have no idea why.

Amath paper 1 was good today, and with luck I don't think I made any mistakes.
Checked with friends and myself and i've got a good feeling about it.
But i'll not be complacent. Don't want to rub it in for those who didn't do as well, and I might just screw up Paper 2 anyway so yeah.

It wasn't a very easy paper, some questions were tricky, so with luck,
There'll be no moderation?

Right i'll infer- Rum & Raisin ice cream has two effects on me.
It can send me to euphoria and get really high,
Or it can intensify my current mood.

Thanks so much Abigail for the scoopz treat. (:
Big enough for everyone to see.

I'm pensive now.
And just a teeny bit down.
Because i've been thinking about how things aren't working out, and yes I thought I could do it. But I can't, knowing what the final outcome would be. I am afraid.
Because I don't want to experience pain.

If you can tell me the three words, of eight letters,
I'll promise to continue trying as hard as it may get.
You can't offer me the security of time, nor comfort.
All I know is how you're trying to dissuade me. Slowly but surely.

Is it our turn to end?

It clearly isn't the first time you're sending me into fits of sobbing and screaming at room intruders.

And I feel so terribly guilty.
Because I know that I really did betray her.
Nothing I do can make it up because I know how it's like to feel betrayed.
I don't want to lose a good friend.


I have sinned.
So terribly that it feels like I can't be forgiven.

Booooohoohoohoo! :(
I want very very much to buy havaianas but I am broke.
And I can't believe i'm only buying it cause it's only...
$26!
(throw in $2.50 for postage but yeah that's okay)

ARGH.
The shop's selling it at $49 I think? Daphne wanted to buy it a while ago, the one in purple.
EH it's brand-new and authentic. For everyone who thinks I buy fake stuff (I don't lah) and all.
If you want to partial sponsor, like even $1, PLEASE TELL ME. I'm sore about it lah.

If anyone wants to buy any havaianas slippers, let me know(:
I could get it below $30 for nearly all designs?
Online shopping certainly has its perks.
Oh oh oh you can buy it with Aisy cause she's buying TWO pairs. For who uh... Hahaahah.

Cheap. Unlike splurging on things like TOPSHOP UNDIES... (:
Honestly- I don't own a single pair cause I'll feel as though I was cheated of my money.
And besides, it's the wearer that makes the underwear right?
Sounds wrong but you know what I mean(;

Right so english today.. gave me mixed feelings.
Paper 1 was awesome!
I chose the one word essay topic, which was Greed.
And wrote a simple but elegant essay about a girl who stole. Am super confident of scoring.

Paper 2 was damn terrible.
Summary sucked like shit, didn't know what to write.
Vocab sucked like shit, cause the words were so weird.
I mean, what's the meaning of "gnarled"?!? DON'T GO CHECK THE DICTIONARY THEN TELL ME YOU KNOW, I'LL BLAST YOU. Basically, i'm failing paper 2. :/
Hope there's moderation.

Didn't manage to find any nice ice-cream to pig on to make me feel better. Sigh.
Walking home with Abigail is fun(: Haha it's my only form of workout lah.

I am going to BLOW BLOW BLOW my 360 smses limit this month fer shez,
Cause i've already downed like more than a sixth of them and my bill started only yesterday.
I am going to die. :/

Ahya.

I'm super super down now.
Because of two things.
1. L.Y.M.
Who tends to break my heart every week at least once without even seeing me.
2. And I think we all know already lah:/ I'm so so sorry okay Xp?

Abigail. Don't think too much lah okay. (:
What's done cannot be undone and just pray hard that everything works out.
Xp, i'll let you smack me a thousand times okay?
): And I swear i'll not do anything anymore, and i'll make sure everyone doesn't either.

I am the biggest, most insensitive bitch in the whole wide world. :/
Urgh why do I screw things up all the time. Dont know lah.

Ps.
Dmn if you see this, please don't feel bad.
Thanks for everything yeah.

Blogging cause we're at macs and i'm stoning. And i'm bothered. :\

Fate can be a pain in the ass. It hits you at the wrong time. I feel greatly guilty.

Anyway, I know I sometimes fantasize about stalkers... and seems that i've really got one now.
this stalker reads my blog daily, stalked me on online sites and worst of all, got hold of the tkgs yearbook and found me! Omg;D

You know who you are:) you've been warned againsr messing with me!

Oh right, just fyi i'm not nervous bout english. just... stoning.

DOESN'T THAT LOOK LIKE OUR PINAFORE! HAHAHA.
(compare with stinky pinafore hanging at the side)
Yeah that was quite some time ago but hey, it brightens up my day lah(: Xp's damn funny.

Favourite line of the day...
peytang says:
besides.. not like that 17yr old Dirty Old Man wud care..

Haha yes we know who! (:
I'm here today again because i'm waiting, again. For the same person no less.
Why do I have to do the dirty work?

Speaking of dirty work, I got persuaded into messaging someone in return for a scoop of Scoopz Rum & Raisin. You could persuade me to do most things with that(:
I got so bloody embarrassed can.

Yes more importantly,
I FAILED ECONOMICS.
Yeah I fcked up paper 2 this morning and nearly cried over it.
Appaently so were alot of people.. But nvm. Worst-case scenarios are best.
Mdm Goh focused on all the topics that didn't come out, and omg the DRQ was on POPULATION. I mean, who ever really studies population!
Yes point: I am going to fail.

Chemistry paper 2 was freakishly easy. Which scares me because I could do everything.
And that means they're probably gonna moderate it down, so I won't get my A1 anyway.
Damn.

Which gave me a good reason to call the annoying guy.
Haha I know this sounds weird but I like rough, gruff guy voices! (: Makes me happier really.
Shucks. This is bad.

I must apologise to Alisha for introducing all the impossibly RIGHT people to her.
She ends up getting obsessed with all of them. (:
I've got good taste, told ya.

Bad news,
Mum's classmate's son told her today that Chem paper was too easy too.
Die lah, die.

Anyway, Nick and I have been up to alot of scheming.
And that boy ah... Walao.
He faithfully reads my blog and extracts all the info! Hahaha he looks at my legs (archives photo), quotes what I blog... But yeah we're planning a day out after the Os:D
I better dress nicely so that i'll win the Best Dressed spot in his head lah(: Haha he's such a vainpot! But apparently a few people think he's hot so I must watch what I say lah.

Don't be sad!
You can just join the Go Out with Noelle queue which is getting longer everyday!
Hahah open from 13th November onwards(:
Yeah right, as though anyone (except Nick and CH and maybe a few others) wants:/


EL paper 1 and 2 tomorrow, am going to die for comprehension.
Hopefully the one word essay topic is slightly emo? (: I'll write my way to an A.

Womanizer by B.Spears has been knocked into my head by Xp.
And boy is it addictive. Very very very annoying.
Boy don't try to front, I know just what you are-

Speaking of addictive, someone's clearly addicted to The Tall Guy.
(:

Friendster is my new-old favourite site.
Cause I can't be bothered to update facebook (yes mine's so obviously dead!) and it's not very nice to have everyone reading your wall/ Superwall. Friendster is old but it has that personal touch to it(: Including having everyone's narcissistic shots yeah.

Mugged with Ab and Xp and Fuhua earlier today.
And I left Fuhua due to some unforeseen circumstances...
Including her mum popping by and us all ending at Earle Swensens.
Her mum was about to treat me to a buffet there but I made my excuses and ran off rudely.
:/ I felt bad lah. Sorry Fuhua!

Ran ran ran to Hongbin. (:
Ate at the staff canteen and it's been ages since I had Real Wanton Mee.
It was so fun to stone for hours with him. Cause it's super funny.
Even if it includes screaming (for an hour) kids and a transit passenger sleeping on the floor.
Failed to absorb anymore.

I really don't know how this week would've been without him lah. (:
Haha aww aren't you touched.
And thanks so much for the yoyo.
I'm actually playing with it now, believe it or not, and it's therapeutic! Hahaha.

And to destress more, I decided to torment and irritate Nick.
Nicholas yao™ says:
i have gay traits
Nicholas yao™ says:
but im man
Noelle ; says:
you THINK(:
Noelle ; says:
hahahahah who knows...
Nicholas yao™ says:
LOL
Nicholas yao™ says:
yes..
Nicholas yao™ says:
im in love with ------ too (name censored to protect myself, NO PRIZES FOR GUESSING!)
Noelle ; says:
.....
Noelle ; says:
SCANDAL!
Noelle ; says:
HAHAHAHAHA.
Nicholas yao™ says:
LOL
Nicholas yao™ says:
your head ah


Am waiting for someone to reply, but it'll probably come only after 10pm.
Gotta hit the sack early for Econs Paper 2 tomorrow morning,
OMG WHY IS MY ENTRY PROOF SO CHACHAD!
Yes i'm going to fail, but please just wish me luck because it means alot to me. Seriously:/
I'm going to need all I can get.


Anyway I know you don't care but thanks for the message Yeemin(:
I hate you more than you can imagine you arse!

Sorry for the down post earlier.

I actually mugged at home today(: So i'm rather proud of myself.
Sorry Fuhua for not joining you at the airport.

By hook (or by crook), I found someone's blog which brought me to "Staff"s friendster.
Right i'll refrain from calling him by name.
And apparently it just spread like wildfire once i told Ab. Hahahaha(:
Once again i've nothing more to say than:
It's a small world.
Cause Andrew knows him? Haha and so does Phoebe's friend and alot of people. Well the Lower East Side is too small- and I think everyone's connected by less than 6 degrees.


Listen up.
Nick Kwa deserves alot better.
The best, even. So don't you get him down(:
(If I were a year younger, hohohoh who knows what would've happened?)

While i'm so busy feeling indignant and defensive about /for other people,
I can't do a thing about my own mess. Great.
I just want to run into big, warm comforting arms and sob like a baby, seriously. :/



Then again, who's going to be stupid enough to let me near them!? D:

The Academy Is - About A Girl.
What more could you ask for?

I am so besotted besotted besotted with someone.
And it's really driving me nuts.
All I can think about is his face, his laughter, his hair, his legs, and omg i'm so frustrated.
I am completely sore about it. Everything, at the moment, is wrong with me.
Fck, this sucks. Nothing ever works out right for me.

Plus all the studying and cramming, trying to remember the entire Sue Grant textbook, is completely wearing me out. Am on my way to failing econs paper 2 on monday and marginally passing chem paper 2. I'm so stressed that you wouldn't recognise me now.
(especially with the Einstein hair that I just created. I was having a good hair day for once actually...)

That explains why i'm currently spending $33.50 shopping online for a new bag and a F21 top.

I hate the O levels. Screw you.

Had a great time today.
And I have none other to thank than Hongbin(:
I really have no idea how girls (less than ten years younger) can not be attracted to him.
For he's the only one who can withstand all my bullshit and in fact, counter it. (:
It's a true skill.
Plus accompany me into all the girly shops (F21, Topshop, Warehouse)! Haha I should advertise.
HE'S SINGLE AND AVAILABLE QUICKLY COME AND GET!
*While stocks last.

And also, I was quite happy today.
Actually, really happy seems more like it.
I'm not used to my new phone's alarm yet, so instead of waking up at 6, I woke up at 7!
And that was disastrous cause tuition was at 8. D:

So I rushed out, took the MRT instead of sleeping on the bus (my new favourite hobby).
And somehow someone messaged me.
Guess who?
Andrew! Haha who was also late going for tuition but didn't give a shit.
I bumped into him at the bus interchange.

And man did we get made fun of:/
Just because we went in together, sat together. Darrell who was beside A got labelled as a lamp post- poor guy. But I guess it was all worth it(:
It was great to catch up with him. If not, I wouldn't have survived 6 hours of tuition again.

We did 2 Emath papers today.
I had like 45 mins less for the first one, so it was just 66/80.
And my second one: 72/80.
Damn that Darrell, he got 73 D: Faiz (aka Sexy Lips) is unexpectedly the best in class!
Andrew of course, sucked like shit. (:
Awwwwwww. I'm sure you'll do well on monday anyway.

Indeed, Os are in T-H-R-E-E / 3 days.
Wake up if you haven't already. (:

Wait. Haven't I told everyone today what a small world it is??
I really wish I did something earlier. But I love it the way things are now...
Teasing, funny, full of weird gossip, smiles, insults, and just being friends.
This is really the time to say: We're not fated.

Right so Hbin and I paraded around HARBOURFRONT CENTRE (yes now I know what it's called) and spent the afternoon at our favourite hangout- Starbucks.
Mama Bakery makes the best bread, wasabi and all. I am craving for more right now. :/
Did chem because I don't want an F on my cert.

Dinner at the hawker- was great. FINALLY I get to eat some real food, no burgers, no soft drinks, no Toasted Twister, like, REAL food. But it was a little disappointing. Compared to someone's $3 hokkien mee which was.. A Lot.

Most memorable, or maybe second most memorable.. (: , moment:
Salt.
I had this really huge ulcer which worsened today, so Mr Hbin advised to rub some salt on.
I did. With KFC salt.
WAH IT HURTS ALOT CAN. STOOOOPID. But some sadistic side of me enjoyed the pain, which was starting to make me tear. Haha damn apparently there's a certain way to do it, but I didn't bother. Sodium chloride:/ I hate you.
D: It's like swollen and numb now, can't really talk properly. Haha. Plus, I don't know why but he tires me out lah. No no must be the 6 hour tuition. Right.

And OH this is ALL Hongbin's fault. Thanks for helping/ murdering me with NaCl.
to the very end, oOHn-og-ibn; says:
!!!!!!
to the very end, oOHn-og-ibn; says:
oh nooo..im sorryy.
to the very end, oOHn-og-ibn; says:
u dont combine well with salt..sigh
Noelle ; says:
hahahah i'm not an acid.
Noelle ; says:
I HATE CHEMISTRY D;

Plans to sleep in tomorrow have just been burnt completely- study date with the girls at 8am.
Holy moly. Save me Superman. Am half-dying already.
Xp is in total dismal- please cheer her up. And Staff has a really bad name... :/

Kiwis, Bananas and Peaches.

Thanks Abigail for your jacket(:

Just came home from mugging at T3 with Fuhua. (:
Whooots, i'm really tired.
Stayed till nearly 10 and left her there.
She apparently plans on chionging till really late.

And guess what, Singapore is such a small place.
You see someone everywhere.
Tessa was at Macs too(: with Elli.

Why was I having a terribly bad hair day... and wearing nothing glam?
Right.

Anyway, all the best Fuhua too(: You'll always have me to fall back on lah.
I am going to screw my O levels up really badly.
Luckily they have moderation and you'll benefit from me screwing up.

Studied with Ab, Am and Xp earlier today.
Why is every day so funny? It feels like the Os are just another mid-year exam.
I'm serious. O:
No "Staff" today, thank goodness too(: I think Xp's jealousssssssssssssssssss.
:P

Science prac was said to be screwed.
Luckily I didn't drop to combined science. (:

My phone is my love. I promise not to drop it and always to cherish and be grateful for it.
My computer, on the other hand, sucks to the core.
So i'm on another one now(:

Speaking about love,
Do I miss someone or do I miss someone?
Haha shucks i'm hopeless.
The worst part: It Doesn't Work Both Ways.
You arse. D: Urgh!

Apparently I blog and talk about guys so much, that everyone thinks m life is infested with guys.
Come on, that's bull. But in any case, I shall blog less about them(:
Lest someone get jealous.

I think i'll fall asleep during tuition tomorrow.
FATIGUE
is my new, permanent friend. Damn.
Did I mention how i'm dreading tuition too? I figured it'll be so awkward.
Study session tomorrow with Hbin at Gloria Jeans/ Starbucks!

150th post. That was fast.
And:
My Boyfriend Is Going To Be A Pilot.
(:
Sounds cool?

-Edited, cause I just read someone's blog.
Oh boy, vengence is sure sweet(:
Call me a bitch but that's just the way it works.
You lost out. (:
Karma won.

Anyway,
Indeed, SR's tagboard is really funny to read(:

Got up dark and early at 5 am today, all because I had a breakfast date with Alisha.
Haha and she was still half-asleep anyway.
Hope you like the cheesecake babe(:

Went for tuition with Joy who lives just opposite Alisha (and I wonder why I live in the middle of nowhere...). Tuition was a killer as usual. Don't know how I survived without lunch!
It's no wonder people drop out like crazy since it's so tough. But well, it's seriously useful. Look at my grades and compare them with sec 3 FYE? The one I scored a 33/100 for? Hahaha(:

Special thanks to Eugene Seow who held open the lift door for me even though I was the one keeping it open for all the guys to go out. Gentlemen in disguise much?
It did cheer me up a little. (:

And I rushed home to test out my new phone.
Which Dad just described as "sexy" and Mum as "whoa.".
I am happy. (:
Not because i'm materialistic but because i'm off all the old phones which auto power off every 2 hours, or really suck in terms of signal.
My parents didn't even know it was touchscreen=_=
Hahah they thought it was a slide phone or something. They were shocked.

Met up with the girls at KFC.
Did one Chem MCQ paper despite all the distraction.

"Staff" wasn't working today- thank goodness.
But still we went to Topshop. And I tried on this new dress.
Which is in every way cute and fun. And it costs $129.
Nearly every girl who approached that rack took the dress to try. O:
It's such a pretty little thing(:

I think we'll be pretty much known around the Topshop area soon.
We're probably the most frequent customers they have.

Anyway, i'm really happy(:
Had a brief but enjoyable convo last night.
I'm glad I got it off my chest. And i'm completely grateful for finding someone who'd accept me for what I was/ am(: Even though I might've been called an "arse" a couple of times.

I know I have no life, but that has just became worse because:
I'm falling in love over MSN.
Great job Noelle. Fan-flying-tastic don't you think?

I'm looking out for a bag that doubles as a sling and a tote.
A nice, leather one! D:

Good luck to all combined science students(:
Hopefully Amanda doesn't get a prawn/flower/brain, but instead just food tests. Hahahah.



Mr Peh's tuesday lesson:
Suggest why a woman can still get pregnant having intercourse on day 18.
"The guy got lucky."

Geri just uploaded a whole bunch of photos up on facebook.
And oh God, I know how I always stay away from the camera... but she's only got a few photos of me. Which all show a very engrossed Noelle hugging a very proud Alisha. Blurly.
Haha oh shucks:/ Unglam (and lesbian) much.

Not that I discriminate Lesbs anyway.

Studying is becoming less productive by the day.
I get really restless after 1 hour. Which was the case today.
Xp brought along her friend Lydia.
Who's really pretty, if I might add. (:

As expected, we all spent time at Topshop again.
Xp bought her Elephant undies and I wonder why she loves spending time at Topshop.
I'll admit- "Staff" is quite cute.

Spent lots today.
Earrings, Mccafe's Iced Latte (man I swear by Coffee), Diva's Bow hairband.
That I will go back and exchange because I found a defect. :/

I think I need to start saving up.
This season's stuff are too pretty to miss.

Mum has agreed to pay for my Prom dress no matter the cost. (:
Because we were on the verge of buying one just yesterday night before DBS iBanking went unavailable. Really good timing uh. It was the perfect dress. Sigh.

Tomorrow's the day!
9am to 12 pm, Date with LG KS20(: I'll get my hands all over it once I reach home.
8am to 2 pm, Tuition
2pm onwards, Study date with Ab and Am.

Editing, for the third time=_= 12:09AM.

Guess what.
Andrew saw me at the airport today.
Yeah anyway.

For the billionth time, I kept quiet.
For the last time, I will watch quietly.
For the first time, I feel like my life's just one big fat irony.

Fate is sure cruel.
-------------------------------------------------

Met the cg and a few new faces at Expo.
Lunch at Popeye's at T1. (I think)
I'm terrible at navigating around the airport. I'm sure to get lost.

I made a few new friends today.
To prove that I do not have the memory of a goldfish (Hbin you better read this:D):
Bryan and Jeff. (:
I forgot Bri-an-el's name at first, so I called him with the Ah Beng Like kiss sound. Hahaha and I don't know how to spell his name either:/ I'm sorryyyyy.

I'm sure it's super easy to remember me.
I was vomiting words like mad, and most of them were lame jokes.
But well, it made people laugh so it was alright(:
It felt nice to see everyone after so long! Especially Jeremy and Joel. And of course Hbin.
I'm sorry for being so sharp-tongued with you today!

OH SPEAKING OF JOEL,
We found out that he knows BEVERLY (omgomgomgomg)! And he knew I knew Beverly cause they were somehow talking about a "Noelle". (: It's such a small world!
PLUS, he thinks Beverly is an awesome dancer. Hooray(:

I Will Never Stop Loving Starbucks' Iced Vanilla Latte.
(:
Study session with Hbin at Starbucks was one of the most productive.
Considering that I was doing Chem and we were there for... hours.
The last part became "recreational", which resulted in us drawing random things.
A lion-horse crossbreed?
But I swear he's artistic:/

Jack of all trades, hopefully Master of One.
Work hard, study harder and show me your masterpiece city landscape soon alright(:

Yeshhhh and I came home to an awesome omelet dinner.
Plans for anchovies pasta were abandoned since the anchovies disappeared.
Dad and Mum are super enthusiastic about food these days when i'm around.
Because good food = good food for the brain = better results in a very indirect way.

And another piece of good news:
Mum's getting me an LG touchscreen phone. Which comes with Wifi and all.
And Windows Mobile 6(:
Hopefully it isn't a letdown like Hbin's lousy LG Chocolate Phone with lousy batteries. (:
But apparently, i'm stuck with the same old lousy plan.
Because it's only $14 and that's because Mum gets a 50% off for it.
:/

I'll never have the luxury to spend hours messaging a boyfriend 50 times a day.
Just like how everyone does it.
Whether I have a boyfriend to message... is an entirely different story.
(What a depressing thought :/)

Bio tomorrow with Peh.
9 - 11am.

2330:
Fk.
I feel like shit.

Just be honest with me?
If you don't want it/ don't care, tell me.
I'm not that crazy over you.

Alisha never fails to make me happy.

I feel deeply BBQed.
Just spent hours in front of the pits with my good friends- the satay, chicken wings, Mum's fish and ribs, marshmellows-
I was like, second to Head Chef.
Yeah and there were only two people out of the entire family cooking:/

My face feels burnt now.
Heat facial?

I think Shaun and I are growing closer to Hong Zai.
It's great really(:
But I must admit I have only one favourite cousin.
And he's the handsome-st of them all! I won't let girls near him in the future D:

6 hour long tuition before that was so-so.
Feel asleep nearly. Mr Bean fell straight asleep (complete with head bobbing and slight snoring) and Mr Siow wrote on the board:
1, 2, 3
say "FIRE!"
And just when he wrote finish, Mr Bean woke up:/ Hahaha omg tuition can be so funny.

Harry Potter's real name: Jasper.
Oh gee. Why such funny names...

Right and you know what,
I might not see ------ anymore.
Cause of the change in schedule and everything.
One whole year and I didn't take the chances. What had I to lose anyway??
Yeah I feel like kicking myself straight in the arse.

Poured out my feelings to Joy today and well, it felt nice for someone to understand.

Mrs Siow and Mr Siow seriously need to stop teasing me about ------ lah. :/

Meeting the cg tomorrow(:
Lunch with J and Hbin and don't-know-who before a mugger session.
I hope they don't go: Eh Noelle! Wow. It's been so long ah! (: You look... chubbier.
Anyway J, i'm so very touched by how you're making it such a big deal to have lunch with me before returning to NS camp! Hahah awww thank you. Please treat me to lunch. (((((:

I'm being convinced, by a few people's blogs and everything i've heard and felt so far.
Falling in love is easy.
Loving is hard.
Especially when you're put in the most bizarre of situations-
You like someone of the same sex, you like your best friend, you like someone who likes your best friend, you love a stranger, you love something non-human (dogs?), you like someone who'll never love you back- you know what I mean.
(Some of us are no stranger to a few of the above-mentioned i'm sure:/)

But I think waiting is definitely the toughest, by far and large.
Because you don't know what to expect at the end of it.
Nor who to turn to when you need support most.
Nor what to say cause you don't want to cause unnecessary, unjustifiable stress.
Nor what to do when you feel terrible.



Anyway, BonitoChico has jsut updated with a seriously gorgeous collection so go check it out alright. I feel like buying everything. )))))))))))))))))))):

Do you know why I so hopelessly love Chuck Bass?
(and not Ed Westwick)

He's just like me. In some bad way even.
Not forgetting that he is totally my type of guy and looks yummy enough to consume.
I might add: "Hot." :D
Charming, scheming, confident, in denial, a little rough, and yet gentlemanly.
And indeed I prefer guys who are a little harder to keep. (:
There's a strange reason for it and you'll probably roll your eyes at me.

"I'm... Chuck Bass."
The way he says it with that slightly sexy voice and that smirk makes me smile.
Should I name my future son after you??
Chuck Tan. EEEWWWWWWW.

Btw I think i'll name my daughter Alisha. In honour of the dishonourable girl who not-too-long-ago asked for a kiss. (: Joke- but you know i'm very protective right. Don't like sharing my girl):

Urgh and yes, that brings me (only) to the end of season 1 of GG. Hallelujah.
I watched 3 episodes today actually :/

Might I add that Uncle Alvin the Policeman brought a box of donuts over for us?
And that I ate alot of them?
About, 4 of them?
I'm dead.
I'm going to need a size 20 for my Prom Dress.

6 hour tuition session at Siow's will be my 3rd last one.
But still i'm not game for it cause I know i'll be bored. And he knows that too(: Hahaah.
Plus, there's no... inspiration there. No sunshine?
BBQ at Aunt Heng's place and Thank God it's potluck.
The cooking there has a rep for being unfilling and slightly distasteful.
(then comes the wardrobe problem of "What to wear"... especially if it's also for tuition:/)

And ah well, looks like I have a Starbucks study date with someone come Sunday(:

We're so full of shit and lame jokes man. (:


The Inaugural Rockband Championships.
I'm going to miss youuuuuu. :(((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((((
Cause it's tomorrow and my Os are in a week and 3 days.
Plus I haven't played in ages.
Plus I probably suck now.
The Killers, RHCP, Radiohead, Foo Fighters, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Jet, Fall Out Boy, and all the gazillion other bands I can't remember. Dismal thought!
:(((((((((((((((((((((

Maybe that's what I should ask from Mum as an incentive to Great O Level Results, that can be described with the phrase With Flying Colours.
The entire Rockband set. But I have only 2 pairs of limbs and can't possibly play all at once.
Well, i'd rather StudioWu classes though. Need to get back in dancable shape.
:(((((((((((((((((((((

Econs MCQ turned out to be a 2 hour long session complete with going through 2007 papers and the sec 3's FYE paper. Which meant I skipped Bio completely :/
But I thought it was totally great of Mdm Goh to commend Aisyah. Cause although she's one of the most often scolded and criticised, she's always been the nicest to Mdm Goh.
Which includes even taking photos with Mdm Goh all the time. (:

Met with Abigail at 7AM, super early at Macs for breakfast.
Had a productive mini-study session. The one after school, with Am and Ab, at LJS was totally not though. In case anyone has thoughts of going to LJS at PL, forget it.
The aircon was three quarters retarded, the place was packed once it hit 12 noon.
Which included this St Pats guy I see every morning on the bus to school. (used to.)
Who totally loves to stare at girls on the bus.
He was there with this KC girl. And I thought... "flirt". Maybe that came out aloud?

I think i'm a little too observant about such things:/

Anyway, i've got yet another new resolution.
To stay strong despite the situation. You should know which i'm referring to.
I will not give in to temptation.
I will not give in to weakness.
(: I am not a pushover.

Oh and thanks Edmond for the really sweet post!
I'm so touched(: Hahaha it's great to have support from a good (old) friend once in a while.
Despite me always making fun of you and disturbing and... yeah. :/
Sorry lah. (: I miss the old times already.
(except for the parts where Nick made fun of us, and all our neighbours disturbing us.)

Right I think i'll stop talking about academics and all that bullshit for a while...
Everyone has a few vices.
Guys these days are into smoking, weird piercings, alcohol, and drugs.
Girls have few but serious vices. Biggest one: vanity. Another: material obsession.
So I have a vice of my own. I don't smoke and all but this is still quite bad ass...

Playing cards.
I mean, just watch me during the holidays and Chinese New Year. :/
All sorts of card games, minor gambling, and thankfully it's all in the name of fun.
So i've got my eyes on...





Bicycle Poker Cards. :D
These beauties look totally awesome don't you think?
It's retailing at $14 to $17 a set I think. I saw some at inqbox and on some online shop.
I'll go save up and buy them(:
(Shaun's got his eye on the Riders set no?)

Unless of course, you're rich, or have no idea what to get me for my Christmas, or my birthday (which is inching closer everyday), or you simply wish to impress me for some reason I certainly don't know of, and you buy me a pack(:

Don't say "dream on". D;

For the rest of today, I will:
-Watch one episode of Gossip Girl
-Study Chemistry while waiting for it to load
-Play with my baby cousin
-Study some more



Say Hello to the newly-converted loser who doesn't have a life. :/

Abigail's blog:
Latest Braces Technique
Accredited Singapore Orthodontist Specialises in Braces Treatment!www.EmbraceDental.com/Braces
Can't wait to see her without metal in her mouth tomorrow(:

Men fall in love with their eyes,
Women fall in love with their ears.

Hi y'all, just got home from tuition and for the first time this week, i've finally had some assurance.
Mr Siow believes I can get my A1s(:
It's like a breath of fresh air.

And perhaps Mum senses i'm a little down too.
She just offered me more money, more food, anything I want.
Just so that i'm at my optimum for studying?
For the first time in my life. Whoa.
I declined, of course. I'm not Shaun.

I know no one actually cares, but next week is the one last time I get to see ------.
It just struck me suddenly when I was doing my work. Aww man.
I get to see the others (Amath people?) maybe 3 times more.
And i've done absolutely nothing this whole year.

That's a depressing thought.
I'll miss my eccentric tuition class lots):

Went to school for Bio today.
And we did this Hard Paper from a Top School. That I think I might've screwed up.
We've got bio on again tomorrow after our econs paper!
Damn, I feel like a mugger.
(That reminds me of some song.)

I was sorta surprised when I was walking to class.
I might not have looked back but I know an intense stare when I get one.
Why?
It tingled, actually. You'd be quite surprised if I told you who it's from.

Bumped into quite a few people today.
Including Sarah Teo and Shahiylia.
Now don't get me wrong, i'm totally not hitting on my fellow classmate,
But Shahiylia looks... whoa. Really! She's got a figure that no one sees under school uniform.
And she's got some real attitude.
:O
;D

I'm getting completely hooked onto the idea of saving up for Rockband, since the Asian Edition is out. Which would cost me $300 plus plus plus plus plus.
I'm completely in love with the microphone):

Each morning means one less day of waiting.
I miss you quite terribly.

Anyway, had a chat with T last night.
She hasn't lost weight, despite looking much thinner (and prettier), and has been bingeing!
Immediately, I feel better about myself(:
Although I might've eaten a couple of mooncakes... Which she says has 1500 calories apiece.
Haha but did I mention how I missed our random chats?

Sigh. You know, all the best to you two. I'm sure it'll be just wonderful. I mean it. (:

Today was extremely unproductive.
Completed Bio revision and data-based questions and no more.
(Planned on econs too.)

Right G.Nat informed me earlier on the practices we've to attend for the 55th anniversary.
The first one being right after our last paper on the 13th.
At Ms Chiam's place - Normanton Park, no less. We have to travel all the way there! D:

I really am not keen on performing.
My pointe shoes are probably dead.
My technique has vanished.
And I've put on packs of fat so that means I probably can't fit into my costume anymore.
What a disaster :/
You know what, I think i'll just be giving the juniors a chance to shine really brightly.
(compared to me.)

A good deed?

Biology tomorrow and a whole, lot of meetups. I am gonna be hella busy):
And I just got reminded by Amanda that we have that Econs MCQ paper to go back for on friday.
D: D: D: D: D:

And you know what.
Guys are really hard to deal with. :/

I am not watching Tila again because I'll turn bi too and you know exactly who i'd fall for.
(especially since i'm staying off guys...)
Too bad babe Alisha(: It's not yoooooooo. Haha but you have N already right.

And omg, holy cow,
I JUST GOT HER TO ADMIT IT. O:
SHE'S REALLY FALLING FOR ------!
This means- I predict well. (:

For Amanda.
Your favourite song, of the moment.
That you'll listen to the radio all day to hear.
So now you have it here, (:
Tokio Hotel - Monsoon.
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Added at 9:53pm

Just had a talk with Alisha.
Who disappeared from the face of MSN once I told her to go happily watch Tila,
Who nearly made me cry,
Whom I love dearly for arguing with me and always making me see the other side.
(Especially if it's the side I'd rather not see.)
And who brightened my day up lots. No one else tends to do that dirty job these days.

And for the thousandth time in my life, I'll take her advice.
Even if it includes more crying, more Tila, seeing much less of my favourite person, turning gay, and maybe even getting straight As for the Os. Love you baby, till death(:

I'll wait.
--------------------

I think I might just fail biology, chemistry and economics))))):
Despite my studying I wasn't sure of all my answers for today's Bio data-based questions!
Screw):

On the other hand, i'm kinda happy.
(:
Maybe it's best not to think at all.

Tea with Dad and Bro in a bit, since they're all going to collect their tailored pants.
Hello, I have absolutely ZERO tailor made clothes! Or tailor made anything, for that matter.
:/

I have a sudden craving for Alisha.
You should know who I always have a craving for, anyway. (:
Yikes I sound more desperate by the day aye?
Worry not- i'll make sure I get my fair share of the deal after 18th nov. (:

Curly, shaggy hair.
Sculptered body.
The single cheeked Smirk.

You are a Godsent.
But not to me.

I know I owe my readers a thousand and one pictures... so this reduces it to a 3 digit figure?



Nadiah M and I(:
She bent lower to hide our 15 cm difference?
(One of the rare photos that you can see my cheekbones(: Totally, awesome.)


Cute cute Fuhua and I.
I swear she's the ultimate at making you laugh.

Don't you like my purple braces? Other colours seem rather terrible.


My beloved retard of all time, Shaun Leow.
Ines and Dad in the back.
I wonder how I survive with him borrowing my money like it's water.
And yes, do not doubt that he did that face on purpose! (:
Eat that Bro.



Xp and Ab.
I know Ab's been waiting for this and since she's staying home tomorrow and pangsehing me, here's the reward! (??) I've yet to think of something to dump in the bubbles.. but nvm.
Don't you just love my camera's cute frames? (:
"Life Is Fun" my arse.

Will upload everything once Aisyah returns my cute lil thumbdrive.

Went out according to plan. All that mugging...
Was mindblowingly crazy. Just got home from tuition not too long ago.
I think i'll just crash all Bio lessons in school(:
So i'm going for the one tomorrow too.
Being stuffed in the same classroom with them makes me feel queasy.
Not that I dislike them but they just bring memories back.

My left eye is terribly sore and red.
Earned me a comment from Mr Siow.
It's been that way since I woke up... and maybe yesterday): And my usual method of clearing swollen eyes left me with a sore one so I think something's up with my eye):
Itchy itchy itchy, (reminds me of Like A Band's Ghost Landscape!)

Tuition's getting really dry. ):
Oh yeah except for today, the cover of my pencil flew backwards and landed out of my reach.
I desperately tried to stretch further but failed.
Then this gentlemen beside me, when he was leaving, stood up and walked across to pick it up and return it to me. You wouldn't guess who it was. O:
It was Cheekopek! Actual name: Leon(:
I'm left with deciphering Harry Potter and Mr Bean. ): Those are really tricky.

And today, all love songs annoyed me to the max.
I wish I could boycott them but the radio's packed with them.
I have no idea what to do anymore. ):
What are you really looking for?

All I wanted was a nice, big hug.
It would've melted my all my doubt within seconds.


O's in less than 2 weeks.

I've decided- i'll just stay low key.
And marry my books.
And divorce my heart.

I've got to persuade Alisha babe to come study with me. Plus, she's the only one who can take my mind off things(: No one does it better.
You Tila Tequila addict.

So i've finally managed to talk to Edmond- started with my grandma getting locked out of the house. But anyway, I can't believe he left me out on so many things):
Plus he told Nick already. ))):
To think I used to have a place in his heart. Pah! Hahaahahahah.
That was eons ago man. Ancient times.

Gay boy. With a girlfriend. And tons of make-up.
And going for photoshoots. And getting asked by alot of girls for numbers.
Haha he's your die hard cosplay fan lah. Man, he sounds like a model aye? :/
I should try to become a model.

Both my childhood friends/neighbours have gone and gotten girlfriends.
Yeah and thanks for making me feel even more unaccomplished.

Especially now when I can't even clear my own mess up.

Tomorrow:
9am: Macs study session.
11am: School. Biology with Peh.
After that: more studying.
7pm: Tuition with Siow.
I'm going to busy myself as much as possible. I'm done crying.

Remember?
The first time our fingers intertwined.
"Watermelon".
Tom Cruise.
Long poetic smses.
Flying Fox.
Geeky glasses.
Neoprints.
The thousands of movies.
Your red hair.


I want to walk away.
I want to move to somewhere else.
I want to forget this terrible year.
I want a new face, a new number, a new identity, a new email, a new school, a new environment, and everything I need to forget the past. First Sam, and T, then R (still a little betrayed), and A, then you, and I think I can't take anymore. I love you for you. A little too much.

I'll leave without you telling me to.

And what do I feel?
Numb.
Nothing.
Because I love to escape.
Screw reality this time. Don't let my thoughts settle or the pain set in.
I'm running away from you.

Tuition was crazy today.
Proper update due when i'm not in such a serious mood.

But just so you know, my morning went great. (:
Simply because I got to (finally) spend some time with my favourite person in the world.
(And that's even though it might not work both ways!)

I must admit though, I think I can figure why we might not work.
Sigh. I surrender. I shan't force you, if you don't want to.

Anyway.
The House Bunny was cute.
It's a much better catch than alot of the other stupid movies i've watched this year.

Might finally be able to get my new phone tomorrow.
Let's see how it goes(:

Nothing seems to be going right, and I really have only myself to blame.
This is terribly stressful.. ):
It sucks to be me, at the moment. With a determination to do it but in no position to try anything.

When will I breathe you in again?

Today was so emotional.

So Operation Cleanup was a big, big failure since everyone was fluttering around like butterflies and getting photos taken with everyone. Me included, before my camera went on retard mode.

Thanks alot Dionne for the photo(: It means super alot to me now.
Although everyone was shocked that you were V.Chairman of the class last year.

I always thought I was rather athletic, but it seems that I really really suck at
Arm Wrestling.
Please don't ask for me a match cause I know you'll be shocked at how easy it is to topple my arm. ): And Amanda, good for you- you even beat me at my left hand.

Right and we had our last recess under the old oak tree (no idea what type of tree it is) and started talking about all our primary school days. Where Ellai suddenly came and unceremoniously ripped her pinafore.
Haha okay omg you've got to imagine this.
You know in movies how some guy sits down and you hear a "PIIIIIIIIIIIAK" and then he realises his pants are split? THAT'S EXACTLY HOW ELLAI DID IT.
And her uniform was split at her butt. (: Ahahaha it was too funny!

Then came Graduation Ceremony proper.
And well, you must've known that i'd cry like a baby.
And I did): So embarrassing yeah. But i'm very sensitive and emotional and soft-hearted when it comes to these sort of Goodbye Ceremonies... (this sucks.)

I think what really sent me to the verge of crying was my Progress Report.
Damn I never thought i'd even do well. You must think that i'm a big fat hypocrite right. :(
Don't ask for my results cause it's not important really. Let this be my motivation(:
I didn't expect my Chem to be rounded up and for them to moderate.
So my EL ended in an A1 and my Emath was propelled to a "high clearance", as Mr Siow put it.

Yeah and I think our class has the most, awesomest, kick-ass video making skills.
Come on, who's video was as entertaining as ours? (I overheard the 4/2 girls praising our vid:D)
It was really touching. Even though my unglam-est shot was up.

Then Mrs Chia proceeded to commend the girls with the biggest improvements.
And it wasn't Noelle Leow, it was Nicole Leow of 4/1 who was being praised.
Since when we had a Nicole, I don't know. But in any case, it was embarrassing enough to have my name mixed up. Just like Winnie's "Susanto" and "Sustano".
Which anyway, means that my Mean Subject Grade improved by more than 2.
That's not really surprising cause my Mid Years were terribly screwed.

Study session with Ab and Xp, with this major Librarian Bitch who pissed me off beyond words.
Took lots of cute cute photos! Of them lah, not me.
I'll upload the pictures slowly(:
It'll be fun(ny).

Somehow i'm not that excited for tomorrow):
6 hour long tuition is enough to kill the spirits of anyone.
And I am really out of cash now. What am I to do tomorrow?? ))))):

Average percentage: 70.0
(:

Today was rather eventful. In the bad way, if I might add.

I'm shocked at what Aisyah told me during the block period. O:
From now on, I think i'll (not on purpose) stare at them... and wonder if they did anything before coming to school. Actually, the thought of that pair doing anything is just too...
crude
for me. Omg, Aisyah's gossip is good. (:

Right and my not-so-secret-anymore (I WONDER WHY:/) ex-crush was spotted today.
I still thought only like, 5 people knew. Well anything, doesn't matter.
Heart doesn't skip a beat anymore.
Face doesn't turn red, except from excitement.
Yes I may be excited, but it's more out of curiosity because of T. It's strange and don't bother asking for explanations. And come to think of it, it's the last time i'll see her in school tomorrow. Well along with a lot of other people but never mind.

Did I want to graduate that badly?
I don't want to run anymore.

Point: I'm over them. Close to heart but not quite close at all.

Yes tuition was scary.
Cause I learnt that I may only get an A2 for both math subjects. And that nearly sent me into a fit of panic. Without math, my L1R5 would've plummeted.
Speaking of which, I think i'm 4th in class. (from the quick glimpse of the <20 L1R5 list)
Don't hate me, because I don't think i'll do well for Os anyway):

Last school day and I think i'll cry tomorrow.
What an irony.

I was a teeny bit upset today, to be honest.
Been planning to go out since quite a while back but nothing seems to work out at all):

So what if the odds are against us?
Don't tell me you know that i'll waver.
Don't let me know if you think we can't last.
(Eh honestly speaking, since when in the past have I had feelings that change fast??)

I'll be understanding, i'll give you your space, i'll give you my fullest support, i'll assure you that you have nothing to worry about, and I won't get upset with you.
I know you're having a tough time.
(And the last thing you really need is a wild child to distract you..)
But just don't tell me:
Let's stop. It's not working out.

I'm so far from perfect and so close to being a total wreck.
Especially with my really obnoxious history that I haven't half-enlightened you about- trust me you'll be better off not knowing, but would you stay anyway? (:

Lesson learnt: Don't ask A level students out. It's demoralising how they can reject you 5 times in a row without blinking.


And no, indeed, I don't have a long line of suitors, or any at all because I'm really the biggest klutz around. :/