$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$!
Where are you!!!!?

Bought a Sony camera and a Lenovo laptop.
Sitex was freaking crowded.
"Bad economy" my ass! The way people spent today.. fwoah. The queues for each booth were 50-people long at least, and it was crazy trying to walk from one end to the other.

Well. I met a new friend. (:
He's Chris. And he's got this awesomely cute dimpled smile.
And he differentiated himself from all the other salesboys because he was genuinely interested and we had an intellectual conversation. Not like "Eh I want to jio you out leh".
(Don't think he reads yet so yeah.)
Haha and he's tall enough.
Sadly...
He's attached.
(damn!)
Why are all the cute guys attached!? Or are asses?

Nick: I really go to look for computers and not computer salesmen okay!

I'm gonna skin my laptop and make it kool. (:

I'm so dreading work next week.
Another week of mindless slogging. Man do I envy slackers or what.
I haven't had one day to enjoy my holidays... And guys are so complicating my life up.
@*(&!)(*$.
Hahahah well, at least I have the 6th to look forward to! :D
I'm going to ECP with Natty and we're gonna be Naughty. (:
I'm planning to skate my butt off and get a even bikini tan! Finally, a chance to flash. O:
Hahah no I just need some opportunities to wear my whole bikini collection out lah.




I miss you all man. ): (But I miss Martin most, shall admit)
Those were the good old skinny days man.
But good news- i'm helping out for the performance! :D
And that also means I get to see Alisha's flattened-because-not-allowed-to-style Mohawk and her in a DRESS. Ha, ha, hahahaahh! Okay shan't rub it in anymore.
But you'll still look sexy luh. I'd still wanna do you.
O:
O:
O:

Oooops. My secret is out. Lol.

And Gautaman and I are SO set on Burger-ing. (;
I tell you- i'm gonna order the whole restaurant and burn up your cash dude. Watch out. O:
Problem is, I forgot when. Oooops.

I've settled Nick's date. Whoots whoots whoots i'm happy. (:
We need some havoc. Clean, un-alcoholic fun. Hahaha omg let's start planning.


And finally...
YES! :D
*Punches fist in the air*
Good job Noelle. Pat yourself on the shoulder. (:
No guy's gonna get you down.

I wanna go all Miley Cyrus-ish and scream stupid songs.
Because right now they make alot of sense to me.

It was awesome but we lost it
It's not possible for me not to care

Confessed to Alisha.
I knew it for quite some time but I never liked spelling things out. Perhaps I was waiting for something to change first. And somehow things would be better.
But for once, spilling the truth didn't feel good at all.
The One seems like such a joke at the moment. In any case, thank you babeh. (:

But nothing's ever gonna change
Until you hear, my dear

I'm gonna spend a truckload of money today at Sitex. ):
How can parents do this to their children!?! When they wanna borrow the camera, i'm so going to charge them. D: The more I think about it, the more pissed I get.

Yesterday brought back so many memories I nearly wish I didn't go.
It's so queer how it doesn't come as naturally to her as how everything did before.
And then i'm reminded of someone who's allergic to coffee but not caffeine, and alcohol- but only light alcohol and takes hard liquor. Missing out on two of Life's Best Things man.
Now I think- such a waste! But at least they're happy.

Awesome plots and unhappy endings.
Cliche-d stories and Happily Ever Afters.
Take your pick. It made me bitter.

Screw all those moments I told myself you'd be the first.
And how I would smile when I thought about you.

I need to stop spending. Pronto.
Reminders:
-I'm waiting for a new bag to arrive.
-I've ordered a heap of things from F21 already.
-I've just received a new biker jacket.
-I am freaking broke.
-Christmas is in less than a month's time.
Wake up wake up- just cause you're working doesn't mean you're rich! D:

Haha i'm quite tempted to see if any bubble tea shop wants to hire me.
It sounds so fun lah. (: In two weeks i'll be completely jobless.
And that's when i'm gonna die with no allowance at all. Uh oh. :/


Welcome home.
I hate being so soft-hearted.
And I hate how I always end up giving in to you.
One last chance- you screw up, and we're done for good.

Remnants of yesterday- the taste of a mistake on the tip of your tongue. It's an awful feeling to watch everything you loved burn up and enter self-destruction.
Enough said. Never enough thought.
-Noelle.

1. I met Andrew, who wasn't hungry despite missing lunch- for the first time in my life (:O), at Orchard and cabbed down to Dempsey to support Tessa.
Hahaha she let me off scot-free- why would I need cushions... But Andrew was more than willing and bought $34 worth of cushions- two of them, to be exact. I don't think she reads... *Rip-off!*

2. T was either busy, or her mum was around, so A and I walked around the entire area killing time. I swear it was awkward! Haha it got better after a while. We checked out and slacked at nearly all the furniture shops (there were at least 10), visited Jones the grocer- A's new favourite shop, and had Ben&Jerrys.
My God. Like what, 3 hours alone with Andrew Lim?? Hahaha NIGHTMARE I swearr.
And great, now the two of them think I am The Biggest Player Ever. Thanks alot guys:/

3. Andrew's friend Clement (sp?) came, and brought along his girl-friend Thalia (sp?).
Thalia's a great girl- we had to endure the boys' nonsense for a good long while. And she's got the looks, height, body, BRAINS, whooots everything! Hahah luckily she was around.
Clement's just a weird, hyper, retarded boy. ... Yeah.
The two of them look quite good together.. O:

4. Left around 7, where A and T managed to hitch a ride for us all the way to Orchard, luckily!
Thalia had to leave, so imagine how distraught I was! Gooseberry, much.
It was such a nightmare trying to find seats: gave up at Food Republic, waited for a good half an hour at Taka's basement foodcourt. Thanks to VICIOUS aunties. Haha I swear they are Scary, with a capital S! The lovebirds were so loving. Yucks.
Hahahha if not for C, I would've ran off a long long while ago!

5. Walked and shopped around the area + Coffee.
Guys can be so gross with their ideas on sex. Hahaha and I am not proud of how I can your "jokes" so quickly. Had to rush home cause an upset Mum called, and it was past 9.
Well, thanks for the day guys(: C, especially.
Don't worry, you might not look or act like you have the brains at all but you're well on your way to Vjc! I wish I could say the same for me though. ):

-We didn't tell T that her button was unbuttoned after all. Hohoho...
-I made two new good friends today. Rather unexpectedly, I might add. (:
-My impression of someone has changed quite a bit, for the worse.

And,
-I am upset by how tactless some guys can be.
Perhaps you don't realise how important you are to me.
Or maybe you just don't care anymore.

Perhaps I should stop being so stubborn and start listening to everyone. Seriously.
Is it wrong though, to try to make things work? For once?
Starting all over sounds so good.


Tired and bad ass-ish,
Noelle
The girl with the terrible ez-link card.

You know why we could never work.
You know why we didn't work.
You know why you've never told me you loved me.
(okay it happened once, but it was probably in the heat of the moment.)
I'm not the one you want. And so,
Why the hell do you want to try again??
Why the hell do you want to confuse me?
Why the hell are you making me hesitate?

I hate you.
How many more times do you want me to get upset over you?
Do you have any bloody idea how many times i've cried?

If you aren't serious,
Stay the fuck away from me.

I was planning to ask you what time your flight would arrive.
But now I just wish it'd crash.

You've just killed whatever I had for you.

If love was a job, i'd be permanently unemployed. I've been retrenched a good few times already.

There are some things I hate about the office.

1. Remembering people and their names.
When you have 20 adults in the office, it's not that easy.
2. Awkward conversations.
Conversations for the sake of conversing.

I just returned from the washroom, where I met this lady.. Who works in the office.
-I cannot remember her name.
And so she begins asking me things. Because it'd be rude to ignore. And it's inevitable that everyone knows I exist because I hog the machine that everyone NEEDS every day, every hour. Plus, I am Samantha Lim's Daughter. No one should dare to cross our path.
I hate toilet conversations cause we're usually in the toilet to do SOMETHING- pee, crap, apply make up, be vain, re-do your hair...
And then now, we have this obligation to reply.

You could now infer that I was busy doing something. Hahaha.
After our pleasant, short conversation, she leaves. (I still do not know her name but she knows mine now.) And she says: "Enjoy. (:"

I stone for a bit. Before I reply: "Uh cya! (:"

Really, what the hell am I supposed to 'enjoy'?
De-oiling my face with oil paper?!
...
Smart move.

Anyway I cannot resist blogging about it..
But hey hey you you, guess what! (:
Guess what's on this weekend. Hwahwahwahwahwa. :D
Nothing to do with the annoying boy. Sadly.

I'm going to be such a bloody lamp post. But you know I can't say "no" to Tessa.. So yeah. :/
I'm going with the short fart (or so he was called) (now he says he's taller than me) to support our favourite girl. I think he'd rather Stop and Stareee at the girl for the whole time anyway.
I'll get goosebumps and i'll be a fat gooseberry. ):

If you happen to need curtains, home accessories and everything of that sort,
Please head down to Dempsey this weekend! T and her momma are setting up some stall.
All for a charitable cause, I might add.
Although I personally have no need for any bedsheets and I don't know why anyone who needs such things actually reads my blog. Hahaha must support luh.

And here, i'm reminded to publicly insult...
Me: "Hey hey you you"
You: "sup"
Me: "I don't like your girlfriend"
You: "which?"
I swear: I cannot stand egoistic guys. Hahahahah my goodness D, which bimbo wants you!?
If you got SOOOO many, then just go lorh. I don't care. O:
But, get well soon. (: Take care you, bloody bastard.

Anyone wants to head to the beach this weekend? I need to get out. (:


Omg I so need to stop slacking and actually work.
Have fun Alisha at your aviation management thingo. (;

Can't get enough.

What if I was good to you, what if you were good to me
What if I could hold you till I feel you move inside of me
What if it was paradise, what if we were symphonies
What if I gave all my life to find some way to stand beside you

Reading blogs-
I can't help but agree.
Love is senseless.
Perhaps that was the word I was looking for all along.

I should honour myself with a trophy.
I got through today! (:
I take back whatever I said about the old dude who sings weird chinese songs, because he's a cool cool man. Why?
1. His name is Ken. (rings a bell? :D)
2. He offered me a SULTANA Marks and Spencers cookie today!
Which was so awesome it made me happy. Hahahahah.
3. He used to be an SIA steward.

O_O
?!?!?!!?
Omg, HAHAHA I swear I find that so cool! :D
No wonder he has awesome people skills. And is indeed very gentlemanly.
And dresses well. And can talk to everyone and anyone, including an unfriendly teenage girl.
Cheers to him. (:

And I think whoever likes me is gonna drop me in two seconds,
Because.. i've grown fat. ):
): ): ):
)':
Which isn't that much of a surprise. I must be one of the luckiest working people around.
Monday I had some awesome Shao Rou rice, which is by far the most fattening.
Tuesday I was treated to pasta and coffee and apple crumble at Spinelli's by Aunt Cindy.
Wednesday I was treated to the MOST AWESOMEST baby pork ribs at Seah Street Deli (At Raffles Hotel, zomg) and drinks by Dad.
And today I kept myself going with multiple cups of Milo, tons of Chips Ahoy! and Oreo and Old Chang Kee (thansk Mum) and Subway.

Hahahaha it's so much better than staying home and eating home cooked meals.
I love them, but who gets treated to good food so much??
(Actually Dad and I were heading to The Billiards Room at Raffles Hotel for a buffet lunch but the place was full. It serves the best buffet around, I swear. Bloody expensive though:/)

Mum's still asking me to throw a party-
Look, who the heck am I going to invite=_=
Different groups of people that won't mix? Hahaha so awkward. ):
I know Mum wants to show off her brilliant cooking and hosting skills but sorry your daughter isn't as competent. But, I do still want to bring someone home to show Mum and Dad.

):

I want to have something to be proud of.
I want to show you off to everyone, because I think you're great.

Omg shhhhh. Stop thinking!

What is with my MSNNNNN.
Well anyway. Only a few more days to tahan before I get my new lappie. (:
Haha omg shucks I can be so materialistic... But honestly who wouldn't be happy with a new laptop? Or a new phone? Or a new iPod, or camera, or anything?
Look. It's human.
(:

Feeling dead and whatever, explained with the previous post.
I so need to head off early to bed.
What and who the heck am I waiting for. :/


And. No Nick, I will not "dump his sorry arse", whoever you're talking about.

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear i'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he's taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

Touch, taste, smell, hear, look.
I like it in that order.

Everything's going so wrong today.

Yes I am indeed blogging in the office. The secretary's out and almost everyone's out. Hawhaw.

I've got this bad headache and i'm guessing it was cause by a restless night.
Couldn't sleep well at all manzxzxz. I don't think you even have to guess why.
And of all days, the RED bitch decided to visit today.
So now i'm having horrid cramps.

And the awesome cereal I had for breakfast, complete with dried strawberries, came out earlier.
What the heck??

My palms are swollen with paper cuts that are on the verge of getting infected.
I think i've contracted some sickness- sore throat, cough, runny nose and a permanently blocked nose.
And I feel damn cold today. I'm totally ruining my look with Mum's shawl. :/
My polo tee, berms, sneakers look. Haha yes andro = good. (:
But now i'm ):

Yes I am indeed doing nothing but blogging about it.
Well, what on Earth can I do? Severe all ties with my body? Yes I wish I could. =_=
Out of sheer desperation, I took Panadol. Which bloody doesn't work. I told you medicine doesn't work:/

And you know, my playlist is so completely unhelpful.
It's full of songs like..
Secondhand Serenade - Why
Lifehouse - You and Me
Jason Mraz - You and I both
Howie Day - Collide
Oh my. ):

I don't want to turn the office into some sad sobbing post.

Note to self: Get a grip girl.
You've still another 6 hours to slog your arse off.

If i'm invading Sitex later, I think i'll faint somewhere in the crowd and no one would find me.
Hmm. Let's see how it goes.
Damn bloody distracted.
I miss my boy. Scratch that, he's not even mine.

Even my brand-new cheery lime Converse sneaks can't cheer me up. ):

Dear Lord,
Grant me this one boon.
Help me get through today.
Please don't throw anymore shit at me.


Desperate and desperately seeking you,
Noelle.

Please.
Don't give me that bullshit. The D I knew would never give up.
He would bounce happily back everytime I tried to push him away.
Why the hell is everything going wrong?

Please.
You really think i'd be happier?
You really think he deserves me?
You know exactly how to make me happy.

Please.
Try. You know you can.
Three words, eight letters- say them, and i'm yours.
It's an offer i'm making. And one that I expect you to take up.

Please.
You're hurting me alot more than you know.
I don't ever want you to go. You know it.
I'm just testing the waters- I need to know that you're the one.

Please.
Call me a biased prize.
I might be giving a second chance but i'm rooting for one side.
Because I can't forgive some things just yet, but admittedly, old flames burn strong.

Please.
Cause all I want for Christmas, is you.
And if you rephrase that: All I want for me, is you.
Stop me from changing my mind. And i'll never change it again.

I'm already so deprived of my Gossip Girl:/
The next episode's next week, can't wait!

But I got overly impatient today, and well, I finally gave into temptation and went to read the spoilers. And in essence, I can tell you exactly what's going to happen for the next few episodes already. Hahaha and well, i'm not going to spoil it for you. But,
There's going to be a character called Andrew.
Who doesn't actually appear in the show because he went sailing with a bunch of friends, sort of drowned and died. (:

Now, why on earth do I find that so funny? LOL. :D
The next thing they could do is take a real life photo of Andrew Lim and put it in the show.

Hahaha we'll see when it comes. (:
Go figure.
But it's getting so predictable don't you think.

Shhhhh, Chuck Bass in only boxers turns me on. Completely.
Well he turns me on just by appearing, actually.
He's my favourite bad-ass. He should get a Singaporean girl! Hahhaa omggg i'm so hopeless. :/

Loverboy's MIA. And it seems like that's going to turn permanent. ):
Wth. I'm sick of being able to do nothing. Yeah like everything's up to him.

Screw it. He doesn't need me anyway.

Honestly, i've a reason why it was so hard to let go of ******.
And i've managed to justify it with evidence. It's so hard to find guys like that nowadays.
Who spends every effort to make their girl happy, to smile and say nothing at all when asked about it, who holds his promises completely and who appreciates everything that comes their way.
I'm envious of what they have. Cause looking at the current situation, it seems i'll never even be able to find a good guy=_=
Quality over quantity you know. Lol. Hahah no I don't think I can boast of quantity just yet.

I nearly died of a heart attack today.
The scanner died. And then the computer died.
I just sat there in utter disbelief. Bloooody scary.
Haha thankfully it just took a couple of restarts and it was normal.

The office is getting more interesting. In many more ways than one.
I think i'm going crazy or turning desperate or both. Wth. But, it's not a guy.

I think that's just worse right. :/ Argh i'm so screwed.



3 more days.
And i'm still clueless. Do you really think we'll work?
Don't you think it'll be awkward? ): I'm afraid.

Miracle happened today.
Andrew talked to me. :O Lol.
Welcome back to Singapore. I'm SURE your girl missed you terrible.
I'm a little sad you didn't fall off a cliff:/ Yes, I am indeed petty.
It was nice catching up although i'm being left out on the juicy stuff. Wlao.
(:

Mah Bow Tan never come online today. Damn sad luh. ):
I'm experiencing similar symptoms as your Exgfs okay. How now brown cow you tell me.

If you haven't noticed lately, I've been feeling quite down, out and outright miserable.
And my body is completely not helping.
My hair, after one year of not growing, suddenly decided to shoot out, and now it's longer but really, super out of shape. It's so terrible! ): It's a sad mane disaster.

I miss short hair.
Anyone game to snip snip with me? (:
I'm eyeing Katie Holmes' hairrr.

And so I went to dig through my folders for pics of short hair, but better yet,
I found my old pics. I'm quite surprised I even have pics... But here goes. Sigh.

Note: Upcoming Comedy.

Pics of Short Hair:D:D


Aisyah


Fuhua


Fuhua again, and yeah that's damn act cute I know:/


My bung tendencies.
Apparently Fuhua cut herself form this picture.
Why, shy uh? (; So what if I kissed you uhhh.


Ines- during CNY. Don't mind the ugly braces please.


HAHA OMG THIS..
Uh this was the day after I cut my hair. I swear everytime I see this it cracks me up!
I don't ever want to look like that man. Bloody embarrassing.


Mysterious Man.
...
Aww.
Don't get jealous.
Brudda S. (:


Birthday brownie cake = Awesome stuff.
Ines had cooler bangs back then. (;


Other random pics..


This is hilarious. God knows what we were doing. Aisyah sure was smarter than me.
Wait. My face looks plastic.


And,
HOHOHOHO
...








OMG I found this! Lol. Lol. Hahahah.
(:
I know I look like a ghost, I don't know why. WHATEVER luh. Besides the point.
But omg, he was so much more handsome back then man.
Hahah I still look the same:/ It's been 2 damn weird years. I still can't quite remember how I managed to make him take neoprints with me..

If you still don't know who that is...
Hahaha fly to Japan. (;

L.Y.M! HAHAHAHAHAHAH.
:D
Omg.
So hopefully that satisfied you girls. Hahah always ask me for picture but I don't have...
Now you know. (:

Wah piang my abs cannot take it already.
Okay enjoy your night. (:

Ps. Can someone please go collect the phone. It's bloody rotting at the repair shop already:/
Don't make excuses!
Am I still your charm, or am I just bad luck?

Flyleaf - I'm So Sick.

4 more days.
Thinking of everything makes life unbearable.
And yes, it sure is unbearable enough.

I'm calling out to you.
You have no idea how lonely I am.

A thousand other things I can't put in words.

Finally, I feel alive.
I feel a surge of happiness.
I feel ecstatic.
My heart rate's up. I wanna dance, I wanna sing.
:D

Let me just enjoy that for a while.
Before my thoughts come back.

Uh oh.
...
But what on Earth am I gonna do!?

So there we have it.
My first major dilemma.
Call me a mean bitch for wanting all. I am one. I've said it too many times already.

You have no idea how I hate my twisted brain. :/
My power-hungry, shrivelled, oily, messy, greedy brain!

Damnit. Never mind.
I might not have to make that decision after all.
Let's see who lasts. Better yet, I myself might not last.

Cheers love.

Work tomorrow is going to be such a fcking bitch I tell you.
*Great, Mum just told me we have to leave earlier.*
But at least I got a pay raise. (:
And if you didn't already guess why i'm working-
It's to buy a new camera for the family since our old one's lost in my room.
It's a case of Not My Fault But Have To Take Responsibility.
Life is a pain in the arse. ):

But with luck and perseverence, I could probably pay for that damned thing with this week's pay. Work hard, me:/
Oh right and so if you're a camera-geek or are looking out for a good new cam, please let me know what's a good one to get! (: I'm never touching a damned Samsung again. Sucks like hell.

Haha yeah i'm planning to get one this week.
Along with a new laptop. Look Government, you should totally love me.
I'm trying to prevent the oncoming recession!

Right and yesterday, I spent a lot of money on Forever 21 things. :/ Haha but it's really alot cheaper online straight from the site! I checked the prices at Vivo and they're nearly twice as ex.
Ordered 7 items, 2 for Nat, 2 that I really want and the rest I don't care. Sell lah. (:
The feeling of spending is a natural high. No drugs or booze needed, just tons of dosh.

Shaun, Nat and I are seeking jobs. Shaun's not going back to Robsinsons and Nat decided that she needs to get off her cute lil butt and do something. My job's just a temporary stint and it isn't enough to last me the holidays:/ For those who know me, you know very well how I don't get any allowance during the holidays right. It's really sad.
So I suppose we'll be gay and all look for a job together(:

Haha and well, you're seeing this again:
Get well soon D.
I'm trying to be nice here. (:
You say your head is spinning like a disco ball and you know I like disco balls but I don't like you.
You fall sick all the time, you drop your phone into the toiletbowl, you don't ever initiate a conversation, you diss my efforts to talk to you cause I always have "wrong timing", you ask other girls out on Facebook, you haven't asked me out since forever and what the hell,
You've disappeared from my planet nearly entirely.
I'm angry but I won't tell you i'm angry. But now you know anyway. D:

Don't date bitches, Ryan.
Don't pon school, Gautaman. Eh and thanks for keeping me company today with your weird little messages. Haha if you want to know about "joint fluid" and "hanging legs", please approach him.
He gives very visual and realistic descriptions. Very.
Nick- i'll ask you out for dinner soon. Msg me when you see this! How's dinner tmr(tuesday)? :D

I did tell you that I think all guys are arses right.
Yeah. They bother the hell outta me manzxzzxzx.
But what to do, the girls have completely vanished from my life except for Naughty Nat.
Who's damn funny- she's been flirting with guys! O: Hahah worse, ONLINE! HAHAH.
Omg why you always get made fun of by me. I'll Bridge you tomorrow again love. (:

Alisha is not counted as a girl.
She's... MY girl. (: Now that's entirely different.

Oh yes that reminds me.
I saw my primary 6 best friend today on the Mrt.
Eugenice Chen.
She stood right in front of me for like 10 minutes I think.
1. She doesn't recognise me.
2. She's completely more than bung.
3. She's a whole head shorter than me. She was never that short!
Somehow, that makes me sad. I miss you girl. I was going to call her name or something but there was this girl beside her and.. uh yeah. Well. O_O Whatever happened to our Crash Your Place and Dress Up Girly and Fantasize About Guys and Diss People days? :/


Finally, to the last guy arse:

But you know what,
Please don't count on me. You know I can't promise you anything:/
You broke it once and I don't trust you much anymore.
I don't want to play you either.

So your only ticket out of this hellhole is to win me over.
Or leave.
You've been warned. Bring a jap girl back home if you can luh. (;

All thanks to Ryan, well not that he did anything wrong,
I AM BLOODY PISSED.

Samuel Ow you bloody ****er. You're going to get hell the next time you see me.
1. I can't stand guys who scheme to get to the girls they want.
2. I hate guys who lie.
3. People who put on false fronts should just go to hell.
You have really, really disappointed me:/ But in all honesty, I still miss our friendship.
Although that might mean just slightly more than a peanut to you.

Right haha so i'm actually in a good mood apart from The Shocking Truth About Sam. Ow.
Cause I just came back home from Vivo with Shaun and a new buncha friends.

"I just don't understand it. How can guys get multiple orgasms!?"
"This shows Dennis doesn't watch porn."
"You mean like we can cum multiple times? .... But no, the book said ejaculating and orgasms are different!!"
"You should get the book."
"Yeah but it's $35 bucks!"
"No wait, actually we should share. Seven guys in our class!"

Hahahah yeah those are poly year 1 guys for you man.
Uh let's see, Dennis, Faris, Weiling and her Ex. It was pretty funny the whole time although i was asked out for nothing in particular. But i'm so touched that Shaun treated me to chocolates. (:
That is just the most brotherly thing ever!

Well I thank God my bro is not at all interested in sex, and didn't get engrossed in the Books.
We went to Page One and there was this section on Family & Relationships.
And well let's just say some people got so hooked on to the books. What awful titles though:
The Orgasmic Diet, The Sex Bible, Seduction, How to be Sexy (lol!) and yeah.
You can imagine:/

Not that my brother is gay. He's just a man. Not a hormonal boy.
Hahaha and he says most Montfort guys are manly. I... have to agree luh. (:

Work tomorrow is going to start late due to a meeting! :D
:D :D :D :D :D
You have no idea how happy I am to be able to sleep in, even just for an hour more.


Okay enough.

1. Gautaman!
You see your name here? Hahahahah get well soon okay!
He got his leg dislocated by a friend during waterpolo. I swear it's so violent. :/
And that got him a Ambulane ride- btw i'm jealous. I've never rode in one, and a hopsital visit.
Good for you=_= And so our fragile plans to meet today disappeared.

2. Ryan.
Cheer up. (:
You deserve better despite being such an idiot.

3. Noelle.
Stop being hung over a guy who doesn't bother to even talk to you.
Stop thinking about him 24/7.
Stop letting your feelings overrule your mind.
If you're angry, scream and shout and cry.
Start getting out there and having some real fun.
And go back to the someone who wants you.

The places we belong to.

But thinking about it,
I'm not even angry.
I don't feel anything.


Love,
Me.
Ps. I just miss you. Two weeks and five days? You suck. ): ): ):
Please. Stop. Breaking. My. Heart. Already.

To: Noelle.

I want to procrastinate.
I want my feelings to go haywire.
Well, I have another 8 days to decide. But what makes you think it's gonna work both ways?
I want to falter. I want to hesitate.
I want to screw my mind up so badly.
I want you. But then I want everything.

Been thinking thinking thinking since last night and honestly the more I think the worse it gets,
The more I wanna beg him to wait for me, the more I want to burn everyone up.

Rawr,


You know what.
I'm so happy the concert's over! (:
I didn't fall flat on my face or make any major mistake so i'm glad. And overall, the concert was good enough. Had many technical errors thanks to the crappy crew and AVA system, but whatever.
The most ridiculous thing?
I have to send the costume I wore to dryclean, and pay for it when I offered to help the school.
=_= It's $15.75?! My gosh. Performing is not cheap okay.
And no, there sadly wasn't any damned disco ball.

On a random note, I think Mr Jasper, although a big ass, looks slightly hot in glasses.
Hhaha like suddenly, whoa he's so professional. But he still isn't good lo:/
Just ang moh and tall. Sounds good huh.

The food today was the best free food i've ever eaten in school.
No more lousy catering- the fried rice was FWOAHHH.

I got pretty high, I think.
And for the rest of the day, you could hear me singing.
Hahah yup and I think it's contagious(:

Douse me in perfume, line me in black, try me after vodka.

Unglam photos of me are with Crystal. That *****! Haha she's in love with P. Hilton.
Nothing in this world can stop us tonight,
I can do what she can do so much better!

Sushi-ed with Naughty Natty after the thingo.
I love it once it's past 8pm when all the sushi prices are slashed.
Shopped the shops, especially Topshop and Cotton On. Topshop's so.. boring and empty now:/
Nat's having a mad obsession with shorts and tells me she wants to buy black, white, grey, the checkered one in Fox, and many other ones. Craaaaaazy. (:
We're tryna look for a job. Haha I know i'm still in one but I suspect i'll finish the workload in another two weeks and maybe i'll leave.

And whoots, i'm gonna be paid weekly! (: So I don't have to wait till I finish everything.
Yeeeeeeeees.

PSLE results are out and honestly I cannot be more open how TKGS is.
Some random dude started talking to me in the office and asking about Tkgs. Hahaha uhhh maybe I was a little too harsh but it's true anyway...
Oh and this same dude plays "Ni wen, wo ai ni you duo shen? Wo ai ni you ji fen." non-stop in his office. And sings along! And sadly, his office is right smack next to the all-in-one magic machine,
Which is more or less my permanent turf.

Haha it's a magic machine cause I think the office will just die without it!
Fax, copier, scanner, printer- those huge things that keep shaking. Haha I swear it SHAKES alot.
Even my aunt told me I could go listen to my music when she walked past and heard the singing.

But i'm quite happy i'm there and not elsewhere.
Dad's got a big project with Singapore Cancer Society and somehow is in the building next to mine maybe 3 times a week, and Mum's more or less in the office. Met Dad for some super Subway for lunch and man is that therapeutic or what(: I love my parents.

While working, I found out alot of things. Apart from seeing the huge 7 figure amounts. O_O
Insurance policy payouts are affected by many things, including scuba diving and sexuality.
Because apparently on the Lifestyle Questionnaire,
If you are, or have been Homosexual, Bisexual, or have a sexual partner who is from those groups, you're considered in one of the High-Risk groups for HIV-AIDS as said by the Health Promo Board.
And if you dive too deep, I infer you have a higher possibility of dying.
And those mean, you might be given less favorable terms. D:
Why on Earth is real-life just so creepy. They keep track of everything!

But it's also really interesting, cause hhohohoho, Biology knowledge comes in handy.
There are tons of medical reports around, and haha they are people in the office clarifying if the presence of red blood cells in urine is good or bad. Plus all sorts of injuries and disease. (:

Yes imma geek. (:

Me and my head-banging music, with my sweats and tanks and my too cool for anything midriff-flashing cropped jackets. Whooots, i'm on a roll.

Am not gonna bother doing anything about guys anymore.
Some are so problematic, so unforgiving, so fickle, so annoying, so confusing or just so random!
Figure out who is who and you get a lolly from me.
Yes I will just sit back and wait. It's fcking tiring and i'm tired enough already.


I swear I never meant for this,
I never meant
Don't look at me that way
It was an honest mistake

I'm really craving for the grey Tshirt dress that Serena wore to Blair's party long long ago:((((
Can't find anything similar and I feel so so so so so deprived.
Anyone who can find something similar gets a big kiss from me. (Yeah who wants lah=_=)

Buh bye.
You snooze, you lose.
I wanna get you on a high but i'm shy.

I hope you see this before you leave.

(You tell me don't reply so I no choice put here loooh. =_= Haha.)

L.y.m, i'm really glad I talked things out with you today.
Call it fate, or a big big misunderstanding. I'm so sorry if I made you upset.
And I sincerely wish you the best. Cause i'll always love you.
In some way or other.

Things change, and we should move on.
While I might've moved on a little quicker than expected, please don't blame me.
Don't be sorry either. Although I must tell you that i'll always bear some grudge against you.
It's human nature and well, you were pretty mean.
But I forgive you. Wholeheartedly. Just haven't forgetten yet.

Don't procrastinate, don't think too much, don't confuse yourself. And please, take care!
Crazy guy, why think so much?

Bon voyage my friend.
(:

Whooots i'm damn tired from today manzxzxz.


Warning:
Super long post ahead.
I bet you just groaned. Hahahahaha pai seh lao da!

Haha okay anyway, I must say i'm damn happy that it's a misunderstanding.
Dommy!
You're ABSURD.
HOW COULD YOU LET YOUR PHONE LAND IN THE TOILET BOWL!??!
Who knows what you do in the toilet man! Tsk tsk.
(;

Big big huge huge THANK YOU to Alisha because you are rockin'!

10 Things You Should Never Do If You Perform On Stage:
1. Say "Shit!"- cause it's audible you know.
2. Stop smiling.
3. Tuck your hair behind your ear.
4. Pull your Tshirt down.
5. Scratch your butt. Please please please okay, I beg you.
6. Slouch, scratch whatever and run off the stage before the curtains close.
7. Forget to shave.
8. Paint your fingernails green.
9. Walk like a gangster before you enter the wings.
10. Talk on stage, even while smiling- it's so obvious.

Yup, all of these happened today during rehearsal.
With reference to No. 7, i'm quite disturbed that many China girls do not shave their pits. I have no idea why it's a strictly Chinese thing, but it is as obvious as a patch of red blood on a white sheet okay! Wlau. And you know how many China scholars we have in Tkgs right:/
Chow Jia Ying got scolded by Chiam yesterday cause her nails were the shade of my pinafore.
And mind you she's doing ballet in the long, romantic style white tutu. Hahah:0
My jaw nearly dropped when I saw no. 5, wth! Haha it was one of the American Graffiti girls, not gonna pinpoint cause it'll be damn mean. It's the most unsightly thing ever.
You're not a guy and you're not Dominique Lee either! (he does that on a ten times daily basis)

And from backstage, I hear multiple "SHIT!"s every time there's a dance.
Hahah some even say it while smiling and flashing their teeth, damn funny. It's bad though! D:

That Mr. Jasper went hysterical at some of the dancers today.
Well it's Chiam's choreography, so not much can be done anyway! Thank God for that or he might change the dance and we might have to perhaps do everything Cabaret style.
Complete with burlesque outfits and cheesy smiles? Who knows. Hahah.

Oh right and I heard something completely wrong and hilarious today.
The juniors (not named for protection) mentioned that Ms C gets horny. Especially when PCD songs are played! Like she goes into a mad series of body rolls and sexy moves and makes everyone do them repeatedly. Honestly, that is the worst mental image I have ever received.
Hahahahahahah omg NO HOW CAN YOU ALL TALK ABOUT OUR TCHER LIKE THAT?!?!
AND NO I WILL NOT ACCEPT THE THOUGHT OF MS C GETTING HORNY! NO!
Not to "I'm telling you to- Loosen up my buttons babe, uh huh" and "Imma do my thing while you're playin wit ya ****" and "Dontcha wish your girlfriend was hot like me?" anyway! Oh God!
D; Yucks.

Besides, uh.. I think the juniors completely cannot do sexy moves can.
They are as stiff as chopsticks. Sure fail one lo! :/ Ahyo Dance Club like that how luh:/
Hahahahahaha I have evidence to prove my stand!

Watch American Graffiti tomorrow- I think there's a body roll somewhere with the umbrellas.
Well. I assumed it was a body roll... :/ Hahaha oh no, how can dancers not be able to body roll!?
They either do the top half with the head only, or just do something similar to Mr Bean's dance.
OH YEAH and the SYF item, Rising Sun!
There's this chest isolation part that NO ONE can do right. Tsk tsk, sec 3 seniors some more okay. I swear it makes me crack up and want to teach them how to do it right:D Sounds like some proper dance prac- haven't had those in a long long while.
And at the same time, teach em how to crump and shake without looking like they're having seizures.

I'm sorry my juniors, my tongue is particularly sharp today. (:

Yeah but sadly, I got bullied like hell by a junior today.
Curse you Crystal! (I found out it was a C and not a K. Oooops:D)
We were playing Mastermind and I idiotically (omg) guessed the right number and had to do a forfeit. And then I suddenly found out that my shirt was stained with stuff from a broken glo-stick, wth! When I came back from washing at the toilet, I was greeted with a dare that kept changing throughout the day. =_=

It was,
Go up to the Security Guard post.
And ask the security guard:
Uncle, am I... sexy?
(complete with fluttering eyes and sexy moves and a cute smile.)
(Crystal does it perfectly.)

BLOODY HELL.
I DIDN'T DO IT OKAY. WAH LAO, SABO ME UNTIL LIKE THAT!
It was that or pole dance with the door, or the drawer, or Crystal as the pole, or alot of other things. Or walk past the guard post screaming "I'M A BARBIE GIRL, IN A BARBIE WOORLD!".
The rest of the time I was at school, I was saboed by them. Cause we have to walk past the guard post on the way to backstage, and you know how many times I have to run back and forth. SOMEONE even shouted: Eh Winston! Noelle got something to tell you!

I fucking hate the security guard can! (not Winston, the malay one.)
EVERYTIME I GO BACK TO SCHOOL HE SAYS:
GIRL, WHERE IS YOUR PINAFORE?!? COME HERE, I BOOK YOU.
AND WTH, I'VE GRADUATED! Yeah and Pamela responded this morning with a "BOOK LAH!".
Daaaamn funny(: I usually just throw him a dirty stare and roll my eyes, very very openly.
Which gets him really pissed but that's exactly the point. (;
And he doesn't allow me to walk out of the school for LUNCH without wearing my pinafore.
HELLO, HELLO!? BE THANKFUL I EVEN BOTHER TO WEAR PE SHIRT OKAY.

Blardy annoying!
They should just give him the sack because he sucks and I want to take off those butt-ugly shades of his, jump on them, let some dog shit on them and force it back on him, pluck off his nails one by one, shave his head botak, then set fire to his pants.
I better do something to him before I leave man. Rawr.

I'm quite happy I completely survived and didn't receive a single scolding from anyone today(;
I brought nothing but my pointe shoes, didn't wear tights, didn't wear pants.
Just danced in a tee and fbts, barefoot. Hahahah thought Chiam would totally murder me.

Life is good once you've graduated. (:

Oh right, Dance Club is really having a sec four farewell! :D :D :D
I was so upset that we didn't have one because every other CCA had one and we gave the previous sec fours the best farewell party ever! Yeah we even paid to have MEDALS made for them with their names and stuff on them okay. O: Don't play play.
And it's on 29th December, just TWO days before my birthday. (: (:
No haha i'm not expecting presents lah, just make sure enough pizza is ordered.

Did I mention how PROUD I am of myself?
You know i've always sucked at Daidi or wtv it's spelt right. I'm sure you'll laugh if you play with me:/ But we were playing Asshole today, and omg, I won twice! :D
I was King twice in a row! Hahahaha really happy okay. Nat, vvvvv surprisingly was the asshole. Hahah she's an awesome player but dear Lady Luck simply wasn't on her side today! (:
Plus we Bridge-d to my satisfaction today. Am contented. (:

I think there's alot of variations.
King, Queen, Prince, Social Worker, Prostitute (poor Miranda:D), Toilet Bowl???
Then there's the President, .... Asshole one.
And I think some people just anyhow make up names lah. Hahahah wl.

Gloria Oh just wouldn't stop picking on my phonics today.
IS IT A SIN THAT I PRONOUNCE "IDIOTIC" AS E-DIOT-IC AND NOT E-DI-OR-TIC!?
And I must say, the Beef Hor Fun at Magic Wok is awesome. I'm so going to smuggle a pack into the studio tomorrow(; It's just heavenly! :D Best food around our school area man.







Nat and I went to walk walk walk Parkway after Dance(;
Was really fun, just like the old times.
Went to Topshop and she absolutely I insisted that I tried on clothes with her.
She picked out this blue sequined gross big bow tunic for me, damn mean lah.
But I decided to indulge her anyway. Hahaha can someone please feed the girl lard and oil!?
LOOK AT HER WAIST. It's non-existent! Hahah anyone next to her looks fat.
Not posting the rest of the photos cause I was wearing a sports bra and everything somehow looks obscene.

I fell in love with this red checkered skirt:/
It costs $49 cause it's a sale item, and it only has one piece and that one piece is size 6!
My size! D: Haha even the salesgirl told me she tried it on and loved it so much, put it back cause she didn't have money. But I told myself not to splurge. ): I wanna kick myself.
Nat tried on this gorgeous blue satin tunic that costs $79, and holy cow there's only one size 6 (and it's Petite) left! Its at Raffles City. Haha I made the girl call nearly every outlet. O; Oops.

And you know what, I finally know where the keychain is from:/
I should've guessed that not much effort was made because there's a whole pot full of those alphabet keychains on the counter of Topshop. Good job Topman, very good. =_=
Haha wl not fun.

Had our sushi, did our make-up and leukoplast and plaster and deodorant rounds, as we used to do nearly every day. My gosh i'm gonna miss you lots Nat:/

I'm going to work tomorrow.
And so you can expect me to bring a luggage full of nonsense to work too.
Two extra pairs of slacks for the juniors, extra leotards (white, and skin) for the juniors, make-up for everyone (it's gonna be a huge pile, knowing how much I have), tons of hair stuff, yada yada yada. Haha I swear everyone's always borrowing my stuff during performances!
And I pray nothing of mine goes missing): Will not let off anyone who loses my Diorshow mascara! Or the eyelash glue, because I think i'm the only one who has a bottle. Uh oh. :/

I have no idea what to wear to work tomorrow. Really. It's been tough combining slacks and canvas shoes and still looking presentable! And more clothes to change = more luggage.
D: What a nightmare. And I still have to rush to school early. Grrrrrreat.

Tomorrow's my last performance with Tkgs.
Tomorrow I don't want to fall flat on my face.
So yes. Go Dance Club, we're hotstuff! (;

All I want is a cup of Starbucks, a shoulder rub and a full body massage.
Oh dear me.

A pile of fat blobby jelly on a rough squeaky chair.

Hi everyyyyone. (:

I didn't mean to cheat, but I think Wendy (the secretary of the office who looks after me) thinks badly of me now. Cause I had to sign in and out and apparently you know how my watch is always fast... so I "signed out" ten minutes earlier. Hahaha wth, what if she complains??
Die man. :/ Friday go back and change.

As always, I was early for dance.
So I had my favourite pontian wanton mee, and took a quick shop around Parkway for hair stuff.
It's been ages since I did everything up in a neat, clean bun... Looked botak, yes.
And yeah, I happened to go to the toilet.


I noticed something was different.
Haven't been to this toilet in a while, so I don't know when it happened.


Click to enlarge, please.
It says, HANDICAPPED ONLY.
Whoa, I wonder who caused such trouble.

I wanted to burst out laughing (thankfully i wasn't in uniform) but it would've been weird.
Cause I think some guy suspected I was tryna take a photo and kept staring at me.
And it would've been weird to be caught laughing outside the (smelly) toilet right!
:/
Ah well.

Yes, my eyes are tres sharp. (:

And during dance, I was helping Nat to open the superglue. Didn't want to sew on crochet pads to our pointe shoes- It Is My Most Hated Part About Ballet Cause It's Fcking Difficult.
Cause she's so damn sua gu and didn't know that you're supposed to use the sharp end of the cap to poke and she was looking for "a pokey thing". Haha and so I poked it open for her.
And got my entire left hand covered in superglue.

I wanted to save glue (I found out later that that tube cost only $0.60) and started wiping it off on the stuff I wanted to stick, before getting yelled at to wash it off. And despite running desperately to the toilet, some of it hardened. And my hand was stiff and plasticky and gross.
It couldn't be washed off!
I was gonna cry trying to wash it off cause I thought of all the scary things that could happen to my hand. And while I was having my melodramatic moment, nearly tearing already,
Some AUNTIE came in and scolded me for using the MALE STAFF toilet.

BIG DEAL, isn't my hand so much more important!?!?
(What if they come in and then you scream "RAPE!!", won't they be dead!? *in Chinese*.)
Bloody pissed you know.

Nat had to reassure me that my hand was fine throughout. I'm never going to be 'smart' again.

Dance was an improvement from yesterday.
I'm so completely in love with Rising Sun. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh!
Lucky sec 3s. And American Grafitti looks better(:
American Grafitti doesn't look as cool as it sounds (damn it it isn't hiphop!)- but it's basically a collaboration between Band and Dance. Hah it's really cute cause the juniors have shiny silver tophats and umbrellas and scarves. Scarves that each cost $360 and have ugly orchids printed on them. =_= I hope the school didn't pay anything for renting them. Fugly things.

I swear the smoke machine is damn annoying! It looks great though.
Pssssst pssst psst and more smelly smoke comes out. Does anyone know what the vapour is?
Eldds guys? Hahaha seriously and I have to stand right in front of the thing for the last maybe 1 minute of Les Sylphides. Can't see a damn thing. If I fall off stage you know why luh huh:/ But it also means the audience can't see a thing, and they won't see if I screw up! (: Haha but my solo cannot cheat luh.
Right smack in the middle, how!!?!? It's the worst solo ever. So octopus-y and fake, please.

The Choral Reading is going to S-u-c-k.
The Skit is bullshit, fake, immature, and gross.
It's completely unpresentable for 55th Anniversary! :/
Hahah and there's been a rumour going around that the school is going to rent a big DISCO BALL (!!! :D :D :D :D :D) for... $10,000.
Wth, I didn't know Disco Balls were so ex! But you can't trust rumours lah.
Our fugly pond which originally rumoured to cost $10,00 to build was recently said to have cost $100,000. (Or $70,00, $50,00) Hahah our school girls uh! Very terrible.

But i'll totally kill to have a Disco Ball. It's gonna be so rad! :D
Not like anyone else can appreciate one there though:/

For no reason in particular, really,
I found a new old song that I like!
Sugar Ray - Answer The Phone.
Hahaha I will never ever fall out of love with primary school hits from B182 and the like:D
Damn fun! It makes me wanna dance know, seriously.

Oh I didn't tell you this, but I remember doing the Macarena at Prom while dancing.
Best:D

The signals all are flashing red
It doesn't matter what was said
This bed is much too big without me and you
This all seems so ridiculous
Why can't we just get over this
Don't make me say the obvious
Without you


Answer the phone, I know that you're home
I wanna get you alone, and do it again, do it again


You know you love me.

I feel her
Slipping from my fingers
Now that she's gone
I'm sleeping with the light on,

Alisha. Trust me, I won't let you down.
Thank you for being there for me once more- I promise i'll let you do whatever you want to me after this if I mess up or fail to make things better. I'll let you scan through all the guys and date only those you approve of. I'll stop being critical of your taste in girls. I'll get you a new girl? (:
I love you girl. (:

Heading to work soon and I pray nothing goes wrong today.
I've got a thousand things to bring for dance, so I think i'll leave out the make-up for everyone.
I swear that's the most fun part of any performance.

Made off
Don't stray
Well, my kind's your kind
I'll stay the same

I've had enough.
I just want to finish today and emerge in one piece.
How can dance rehearsals ever end at 8pm?!? It's damn crazy can.
No more crap from Mr. Jasper and Mrs Lim, no more paper cuts, the juniors don't piss me off (which btw, has never happened. they're the best:D) and hopefully I don't mess up the dance.
Or i'll get it from Ms Chiam and i'll just roll over and die.

And wait, they don't love you like I love you.

I stare at my phone again.
Didn't it say, I'm outside Borders?
I look around. I'm at the right place. I pace the ground for two minutes.
Impatient. One last look around- nothing. Who the hell gives wrong directions?!
A shrug, a sigh. I walk in, but I still fail to find a familiar face. I give up.
How embarrassing- walking around for two minutes, alone? Looking lost?
Girls should never call first, but i'm breaking the rules.
"Hello? Where are you??"
"In Borders lah!"
"Where...?"
...
"Oh. I see you."
"You do?? Where??"
I nearly laugh aloud. A smile crept up. It's been a day since I smiled.
He looks up, he catches my eye. I hang up without saying a thing.
I felt the urge to bolt. He probably would be too stunned to give chase anyway!
But well, you know I didn't.
I walk. What the hell, girls should never have to do this. Why is the guy just standing there?!
.... ):
But I smile again. Something just made my whole day better.

Anyone who can recognise all the lyrics that have been running through my head-
you have blardy good taste. (:

I want to set everything on fire.

Just finished GG ep 11, and I liked it. Much better than the past few.
I know how pathetic it is to be blogging about it, but I know some people are even more pathetic.
Asking an "important" question if ep 10 is worth watching.
So here I am. Hoping that ep 11 interests those people and that one of them might just talk to me. I am the most pathetic shit ever, we all know.

Nothing else is worth talking about.
So i'll just tell you here that I had an awful day of 8-hour dance prac, and i'm feeling terrible.
Thanks Nat for accompanying the grouch the whole day. I think I ate way too much anyway.

Oh wait I take that back.
There was something more interesting.
As some might have figured, I had a quick.. "fling" with R just a few months back.
Sure I didn't tell anyone about it but I thought it was rather obvious anyway.
And R being the infamous idiot he is, dumped me. (my ego couldn't take it if everyone knew)
I got my apology peacefully last night, after a surprising conversation with him (I gave my ex some girl advice. Cool?) And i've got the reasons wrapped up in a little short story i've yet to read.
Theresa- seriously R, couldn't you pick a better name? That was S's first serious love!
Finally, I can tie that bloody knot and put a clean end to everything.
Why on Earth would anyone want to dump me huh? I'll tell you when I decipher the story(:

Haha sorry.
That's really the only bullshit that has came out of me today.

Lym: Enjoy your holidays. You're free.
In case you were wondering, I did say the same thing about you. Only worse.
Like give you a wax BEFORE I burn you up. You.. deserved it.

Ah. My funny bone has disappeared, I can't think straight, I can't do anything straight.
Today I've been, as with the past few days, crying like mad.
Because well.
I.. did something?

Forget it. I think you can guess.

I really don't feel like working and dancing tomorrow. I'm so sick of all this.
If you knew that I needed comfort, that I was feeling insecure, would you help me?
Are you going to blame me for not understanding and not being patient?
If you are, remember the times you made me cry. Why? Because I spent much time and effort and gave you everything I had. It's time we made a compromise.
I can't do everything everytime. I have nothing left to give.

The only Noelle addict,
I want nothing more than to tell you:
Please be mine.
You know me, you know how I feel- and I need you.
I admit. Shamelessly, openly, honestly. For you only.

I am on the brink of losing my mind.

I can't take it anymore.

Fuck,

Ooops, not supposed to swear today. Cause a few juniors are coming here to check Prom photos! Haha I swear those kids are damn cute.

Went to work till 1, then had lunch and rushed off for dance.
Sustained many paper cuts and folder cuts, so don't be surprised if you scrutinize my hands and find blood. Metal fasteners are damn sharp and are THE WORST inventions ever.
Workload = mountain, wonder how i'm going to finish it man. And like last night, every new person I met could not stop going on about how much I resemble Mum.

Mum was kind enough to accompany me for lunch and I rushed for nothing-
Ended up reaching school at 220 when prac only starts at 3pm:/

I killed my feet and starved my toes of blood and oxygen during prac.
I've completely lost my hard skin and such protection from pointe shoes, so yup, i've freshly developed a few huge blisters. My feet are tingly now. Well, dancers have ugly feet right. :/
I completely suck at this.

F.

So what if you don't mean it..

We only DANCED for less than an hour out of the five hours I was there.
Bloody waste of my time... But staying with the juniors was worth it.
Rising Sun is one of the best choreographies i've seen for a while and i'm so sure you juniors are gonna get a Gold at least at SYF(: Haha my God I really wish i'm sec three so I can do the item!
It's.. amazing. Tons of potential, sleek canons, flashy moves- whoa.
So much better than our SYF item- but still nothing can beat Japanese Inspiration.

Which was the SYF dance when I was sec one.
I remember how proud I was cause very very few people were selected. The yellow flare kimono was the best. The make-up was the worst shit ever, like three layers of white stuff! We even had to paint the insides of our ears and entire neck white okay. And tons and tons of blackened eyes. And the pouty red lip. Hahah yeah we made the best Geishas in Singapore back then.

And then we re-did the item at Sentosa when it started raining and our make-up became Singapore's biggest Halloween nightmare. Haha I swear it was completely "The Eye"-worthy!

The old times seem so much more... fufilling.
When all I did was dance and play. And didn't give a shit about anyone.

You still do it.

Had Punggol Nasi Lemak with Krystal. It was my... first time eating it actually.
Good stuff. Krystal's damn funny and hectic luh. (:
Za boh, i'm going for dance tmr all because you owe me money okay. O$P$!

Speaking of dance, I don't think i'm going back to Crestar.
Cause now some shitty relief teacher took over. And I suck way too badly.
Ballet... isn't quite my thing after all.
In fact, I don't think i'm even gonna continue dancing:/

Don't say it's a waste of my talent.
I never had much of it anyway.



Okay i'm sorry. I'm in a really bad mood.
I don't know why but everything's just been going wrong these days. (work, dance, yada)
Some might tell me "It's your choice what"- true, but that doesn't make things better.
My sole comfort pushes me away, abeit unknowingly.

I wish you knew. What you're doing t me, how I feel and what I think.

And I seriously feel like escaping to a little corner where no one can find me.
Because the only things I want to experience right now is my phone wildly vibrating, and to hear a sincere "Sorry,". All i'm doing is allowing myself to be crushed. Over and over again.

Soon.
Goodbye.

Yikes, i'm dreading tmrw. I wanna die in my sleep tonight. :/

I was thinking way too much.
And hahah yeah i've totally been crying for nothing.

Dinner was average.
I've got two distant cousins who are my eye candy during CNY. Only one of them showed today- I think he's the groom's younger bro. And please, he's from Vjc(:
Need I say more!?!? :D
Hahaha but obviously i'm not his type and I don't even know him. Wasn't even at same table pls.

Going bright and early to work tomorrow. (with Prudential)
You have no idea how laaaaazy I am already.
And then I have to rush off for 5 horus of dance. Which I can promise you less than 1 will be used on the item i'm doing. Blardy *(Q&#()*$&!.
Damn pissed can. And currently the situation doesn't make it feel any better.
):

And baby, i'm really really sorry I can't make it tomorrow.
I could go on all night about how bad I feel and how I wanna kick myself for it.
But i'm sure you won't screw up! (:
You've got the lyrics all in your head. Just relax kay? You're awesome. (: And you've done it a thousand times before. I have absolute faith in you.
And I mean every word.

D, I really miss you lots.
You have no idea. );

I swear if I miss your next gig, I will get struck by lightning, tsunami and earthquake.

Alisha, you'll be my eyes and ears tomorrow(:
Report everything you see at the perf back to me!

Toooooooodles.

By The Strokes.
Awesome shit! :D

Whoa, got a big shock this morning when I saw my cbox flooded.
Haha eh thanks to all who tagged(: It's... rare.

Ummmm.
Hi. (:
Just fyi, I'm not gonna dump D or something. Because I believe in the phrase:
Innocent until proven guilty.
Hey come on it must have some truth because even our dear Government, the Judiciary acts with this in mind. Sure it might've caused some terrorists and such not to be kicked behind jail...
But uh whatever. Not helping my argument.

And I think between the both of us, we all know who the bigger player is huh. (;
Not saying i'm proud of it but well..
"The sea has many fishes", or as Ab puts it, "The forest has many trees".

Besides, you all know how drama I can get.
And most of the time I blog what I feel at the very moment, so it usually sounds alot worse than what it actually is. It's still true, just not as.. severe as it seems.

In any case,
I trust this idiot. Who has disappeared off the face of my planet in recent days.
Because there's something deeper than all this.
Because I was offered the most valuable thing a man could give.
It's never one-sided. As unlikely as it seems, it's important to everyone.

We all want that first time to be the most magical moment of our lives.
I'm flattered that he trusts me with it.
He's taking a risk here, because you all know how many random flings i've had:/ And for someone to accept that and still stay is a blessing.
Come on guys. Would you date a player who's probably half-lesbian?
It's not that easy to deal with.

Besides it's not like I can blame him what!
"Eh you- don't go to school anymore. You've got to go out with me everyday!"
I can't possibly do that. Ambition over girl- it's completely normal and sane.

My heart is mine.
You could win my body and my mind over, but i'll never give myself away.
Unless of course to Alisha lah. Hahah she's absolutely the best(: Can't live without her.
Baby, i'll be your lesb partner!
(Give me ten years to morph into another Tila Tequila. I need a boobjob first luh- i'm too flat.)

Eh Dominique.
Ask you uh,
...
What on earth did you do to earn such wrath from people?!
Tsk tsk. I swear if you're guilty of something, i'll scream the crap outta you.
You know how loud I can go uh. (: You're gonna die.

And HOI!
I'M NOT A VICTIM. You think i'd let myself be victimised so easily?
My ego's a little too big for that. Haha wl it totally hurt my feelings can. Sniffles.
If I hear that again, I swear i'll hit the roof.
And the first person to blame him must be me. So halt your horses, fair maiden.
The culprit's mine.

I think i'm way too lazy to head down to Pasir Ris for Nad's party.
Besides lunch today smells damn nice, and i've gotta tutor Shauner.
Oh gosh he showed me this song yesterday that was... about a Gay Bar.
The lyrics are so awful and wrong but the music is way good!
Hahahahah check it out if you dare. Electric Six - Gay Bar.
Don't know how and why my bro knows such shit. Hahahaha.

Can't wait for dinner at Fullerton(:
Sadly there isn't going to be any Blackjack. The only good thing about weddings is the Food.
And my family loves extravagance so it'll probably be awesome(:

Don't you agree that pore packs are the best inventions ever?
It's damn therapeutic to see all the gunk on those strips after you rip them out.
Okay sorry. Info overload.
Still love those things lah:D

Sex on Fire.
Still thinking about the song. It really has got some possessive power man.


And btw,
Who ever enters a battle without a backup plan? (;

You man-izer.

Xoxo,
No.

I remember the times we spent together
on all those drives
We had a million questions
all about our lives
And when we got to New York
Everything felt right
I wish you were here with me,
Tonight

I remember the the days we spent together
Were not enough
And how it used to feel like dreaming
Except we always woke up
Never though not having you here now
Would hurt so much-

Tonight i've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
Tonight

I remember the time you told me
About when you were eight
And all those things you said that night
That just couldn't wait
I remember the car you were last seen in
And the games we would play
All the times we spilled our coffees
And stayed up way too later

I remember the time you you sat
And told me about your Jesus
And how not to look back even if
no one believes us
When it hurts so bad sometimes,
Not having you here,

I sing,
"Tonight i've fallen and I can't get up
I need your loving hands to come and pick me up
And every night I miss you
I can just look up
And know the stars are holdin' you, holdin' you, holdin' you
Tonight"

You crybaby.

My eyes are sore, my heart is hungry and my ears can't stand the silence.
I am obsessed, addicted, infatuated, call it whatever you like.
And how i'm going to survive my holidays is one big enigma, because somehow I get the feeling that i'm going to be all alone. Even Christmas doesn't sound inviting.

Why?

Ever felt like you gave so much in return for nothing?
Like how nothing seems to go the way you want and goes beyond worse?
How time is never made for you when you offer all the time in the world?
Hi Nicholas, i'm joining the club. It's never good to suffer alone.

When?

Been hearing a few weird things lately.
1. Shweta told me last night that she's heard about D and I already, from someone.
Refuses to tell me who, when and all, how mysterious.
2. Sacha told me yesterday during prac that Andrew Lim told her to tell me that he knows her because i'll give some big big reaction. And my reaction? "Oh that jerk."
Dear A, not the whole world is in love with you. Keep it as a part of your past.
Oh and don't fall and die while climbing in India. Your lovergirl's going to be way heartbroken.
Poor her. Sniffles.

How?

Been drowning myself in everything Indie today, since I invaded Shaun's computer and stole a whole bunch of songs. Mainstream doesn't feel as assuring.

Will you?

Anyone who gets me Kings of Leon - Sex on Fire gets a big hug from me.
I'm in love with the song. Lyrics seem ambiguous but really, they're are just deep.
And the chorus is simply: You, your sex is on fire.
Caused a hell lot of controversy.
Rock on.

Please.

WAH LAO I JUST LOST MY WHOLE ENTIRE POST.
DAMN ANGRY.

IN SUMMARY:
I WENT THERE LATE. THANKS TO THE STYLIST DOING GOD-KNOWS-WHAT TO MY HAIR! BUT STILL HAD TIME TO MEET ASHLEY:D WE NEED TO GO OUT BABY.

1 FOOD WAS LOUSY.
NO ICE-CREAM, JUST SOME FRIED RICE. NICEST THING WAS ONLY POPIAH.

2 SOME GIRLS WERE JUST FCKIN HOT,
AND I COULDN'T STOP STARING AT ONE, OR MAYBE TWO OF THEM. HAHA MANAGED TO GET A (VERY UNGLAM) PIC! BUT I'M AS STRAIGHT AS A HAIRPIN OKAY.
T'S DRESS WAS AWESOME! NOT HOW IT SOUNDED LIKE AT ALL.

3 EVERYONE IN OUR GROUP LOOKED FAB!
ABIGAIL SHOULD RIM HER LOWER LID WITH EYELINER EVERYDAY! DAMN NICE.
HAHA OMG I'M SO HAPPY WE ALL SAT TOGETHER;D
I'M QUITE UPSET I DIDN'T WIN ANYTHING FRMO THE LUCKY DRAW;
DK GOT A 'FASHIONABLE' BAG- WHAT A JOKE! DIONNE GOT $10 PP VOUCHER.
AND IF I HAD WON THE SAMSUNG 10.2MP CAMERA, IT WOULD'VE BEEN THE PERFECT REPLACEMENT FOR MY MISSING ONE! ): ): ): ):

4 MY FAVOURITE PART,
DANCING!
:D
DAMN FUN!
GOT REALLY HIGH(: WAS MORE OF A MOSH-PIT, I COULDN'T TAHAN BEING SQUASHED, SO WE (DANCERS) HEADED UP TO STAGE AND LOST OUR HEADS SHAKING AND CRUMPING AND GRINDING AND WTV.
YEAH MY SKIN WAS DAMN THICK AND I WAS DAMN HIGH.
YAN WAS WHOA. SERIOUSLY HIGH! HAHAHA AND THE MAKESHIFT STAGE NEARLY GAVE WAY THANKS TO ABOUT 10 GIRLS DANCING, JUMPING AND SCREAMING IN THEIR HEELS. HAHAH CHEAPO SHIT.
WHEN "FLO RIDA - LOW" WAS PLAYED, EVERYONE GOT DOWN AND DIRTY AND OMG, IT WAS SERIOUSLY THE BEST FUN I'VE HAD IN A WHILE! HAHA HOT SHIT.

MY INNER PARTY ANIMAL SAYS SCREW THE OLD POST,
I'M PARTYING THIS HOLIDAY:D
(EVEN IF IT INCLUDES DRUNK AND GROSS GUYS, BEING SQUASHED, SWEATY BODIES AND DRUNK GAUTAMAN GRINDING GIRLS!)

5 GOT MANY STARES FROM TEACHERS- MRS CHAN,
ONCE I GOT OFF STAGE. HAHAAHAH BUT I LOVE MRS CHAN TO BITS LAH.
MDM GOH PAID ME A REALLY NICE COMPLIMENT THAT I WON'T FORGET!

But without help, last night really wouldnt have been so good.
Thank you Mum and Dad, for worrying with, about, and for me! :D

WTF THERE'S A FCKIN LIZARD RIGHT BEHIND MY MONITOR!
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT'S DAMN GROSS PLEASE.
I HATE LIZARDS.

Uh i'm typing with the keyboard far, far, far away now.

Right and i'm really glad I got there and left in one piece.
Excluding some damage that i'll show you later..

Had dance prac yst afternoon, which was really dull.
We're doing Les Sylphide again, for the third time since i've been with Dance Club=_=
I've got my solo part back, and it's really not a good thing.
It's all en pointe! D: D: D: D:
I'm going to die. I don't know why they want us back when it's only for like 10 seconds and besides, Gloria Oh can do my solo way much better than me! I haven't gone en pointe for ages:/
But the juniors are so lovable(:

And it's confirmed.
Monday's practice is from 3 to 8pm.
Omg I am so screwed. ):


The part you've been waiting for!


Favourite girl Ashley and me!


Camera-shy Ab:D


Glam glam Amanda.


Aisyah! Who wore a dress, surprise surprise:D


G. Nat and I, after dancing. Haha my hair managed to stay in place, not bad uh.


Ho Hui Xin! She looks like the mafia:D "Jon Bon Jovi"'s drummer eh!


Us, The Fake Netballers.


Cute girl Melody!
*I just realised that we wore nearly the same thing.
Check dress colour and necklace out:D



Pardon the rare narcissism(: My make-up!
And those eyelashes are just fab aren't they.
(That $2 stuff from Daiso does wonders! Cheapo number 1.)


The damage.
Yeah i'm damn upset that my Daniel Yam dress got torn. And now Mum's nagging me to sew it back. It wasn't because of the dancing, or I ate too much, or I had trouble putting it on..
Found out when I was halfway through my dinner:/

Delayed photos of ma Fav Girl's Mohawk in the Makin'!
:D




Yup you could probably see the damage done): I really miss your hair la babe.
How??
And because I didn't have the final product, I went to steal one from Facebook!

For the benefit of those who can't view Facebook photos,



There. Crazy huh! It's a star, and the funniest thing was that the stylist used a blue pen to draw a star before he cut it. So imagine a blue star in the middle. Hilarious! :D
TOLD YOU NOT TO DYE YOUR FRINGE.
And there are three stripes (Adidas style) on the other side.

All these are only possible thanks to someone's camera,



Thanks D(:

(Man do I love Photoshop or what.)

For more unglam photos, please head down to Facebook! (:

Have a great day ahead beloved readers.
I need to help that ass of a Shaun out with his Economics, cause he's got a test on thursday.
Feeling the blues cause it's so quiet without you here.


<3
Me.

Alisha, you're right.
I should never ever fall for a guy.

Wah can you please stop breaking my heart or not!?
Very open I know, but you're seriously damn.... MEAN.
I conclude. (with T's aid)
You're girl-friend material, not boyfriend material.
Girl-friend like watch GG, go for facials together type of friend. Yeeeah.

And that thought upsets me. Argh.
I swear if I receive anmore shit from any guy, i'm turning lesbian. I swear.

I have commitment phobia.
I think it's just jealousy, I think it's just insecurity.
I think i'm afraid of the thousand girls, I think i'm afraid of Facebook.
Please won't you just promise me?
That you mean everything you say although your actions can't express what you feel, although you are terrible at commitment, although you can't give me what I need. Which is your time, all your love, and effort.


So today was the fabbest day, spent it with Alisha.
She... cut her hair.
No. She shaved her hair off.
Mohawk mohawk!
And luckily for you my dear, my computer's being funny and refusing to upload the photos, so yeah. Hahah but I don't have any photos of the finished product!
Because once she was done, we got too engrossed in Subway cookies.
(:
I love them. They'll never break my heart.

Alisha looks cool, btw.
But... uh. I'll help you dye the fringe back dear(:
Hahah you know you look fab in everything lah!

I escorted her to Grand Copthorne.
And suddenly, the place seemed familiar. Thought i'd get lost and die trying to find my way home but noooo. Cause similarly, I sent R to some event there last time. (yeah you can imagine how long ago THAT was.)
So I walked back to Great World City.
That, along with the now demolished pool centre, was where we- R, S, and I- used to hang out. Uh, while we were still talking, or dating, or hanging out, or... yeah. (:
Brings back some memories. Some sweet, some i'd kill to forget.

Speaking of killing, i'm feeling murderous.
First person I wanna kill: D.
Second person: Myself.
Third person: Ines' friend, Constance.
THAT ANNOYING LITTLE ***** CALLS OUR HOUSE LIKE TWENTY TIMES A DAY AND TALKS TO MY SIS FOR 3 HOURS AT ONE SHOT. OH MY GOD I SWEAR PRIMARY 2 KIDS THESE DAYS!
Fourth person: INES LEOW.
Who has become SO egoistical and annoying and proud, thinking that she's the only one who lives on this planet and that EVERY phone call is for her and EVERYone must give in to her.
DREAM ON, SIS.

I've no idea why i'm not happy AT ALL, because well, it's the END OF O LEVELS.
I feel as though i'm completely aimless now, which sucks because I love having STUFF to do.
Uh call me mad but i'm quite tempted to go buy Jc books just for the sake of studying now, even though I might not be going to Jc at all. :/ See how.

Haha and thanks to Gautaman,
i'm giving up all my dreams of joining waterpolo. ): ): ): It's scary.
And well, he's supposed to bring me diving and see those giant clams and fairy sharks and what else, which sounds really way cooler than anything i've ever done.
Strangers make the best confidantes, really.
Someone new, some fresh air, a good change, a new light, you know.

But no more new guys. I think i'll suffer a nervous breakdown if this continues.
One guy at one time, and honestly I think that's already alot to handle. :/

"If he's serious, he's worth a shot."
"So is he worth investing your time and effort in?"
"Remain as friends with benefits kinda thing you know"
"But again, don't fall too hard"
She's the only person I didn't regret. At all.
She dares to insult me, plays with words, and is the most honest person i've ever met.
Haha does that explain why I couldn't get over it? Or how I held on despite knowing it was impossible? Or how ****** loves her so?

Indescribable. No words are big enough.

Am finally ready for Prom.
Got my shoes and a clutch today, a really last minute thing at PP. (surprise surprise)
Will take lots of shots tmr to show my kaypo readers.
Hope we're given a nice table, hope the food's good.
Can't wait to see T in her dress which sounds slightly... scary, hahaha.
Can't wait to see everyone.
Certainly don't want to see myself trip or fall or something.

Nad's throwing this really impromptu party on Sunday, so please come everyone! :D
It's our chance to spy on the neighbour and well, everything's always fun as a group.
Belated belated way belated birthday party.

You know. What's going to spoil my day tomorrow?
DANCE PRACTICE.
HOLY COW THAT COW ASKED NAT AND I TO GO BACK FOR REHEARSALS. BLARDY HELL, IT'S ENDING AT 3 AND PROM'S AT 6. I regret agreeing to perform for 55th Anniversary, honestly. One of the worst mistakes of my life. And it's rehearsals every day next week, I think. Including Monday, all the way till 8pm. D: WTH!
(I think it's not updated but i'm still thinking the worst case scenario)

Fuck it, i'm leaving early!
Not missing a minute of seeing that (idiotic) boy.

I SCREWED MY CHEMISTRY PAPER 1 UP.
COMPLETELY, TOTALLY, SCREWED!

Well apparently, so did alot of other people.
I'd be happy if I could get a 30/40 for that paper. But we wouldn't know right?
Unless you're like Abigail and dig through the TYS for similar questions. (;

I hope the setters get stuck in the toilet bowl today.
I hope they get a bad hair day, everyday.

I want to kill them but I can't curse them openly because don't you know?
THE GOVERNMENT MONITORS BLOGS. And they might sue me for defaming the education system and worse, what if this gets to Cambridge?

Well. I was prepared.
But what the heck, how are we supposed to know the multiple uses of paraffin when it's not in our book! Just to confirm, so that I won't get in trouble...
*flips through Chem Book,
Oh holy cow. Page 382. Fuel for aircraft engines, for cooking using oil stoves, for heating purposes. Fantastic. A small little unnoticable portion in a table, 1 mark- GONE!


This strengthens my stand that Nadiah memorises the textbook. All of it.
But still, as we know now, that isn't the way to score. O:


And the first question on the condenser is such a b***h!

Alright so if I get an F9, you know why luh huh.
There goes my bright future.
Road sweeper in the making already man. :/

Often they say that the full impact of our actions only hit us the next morning.
Especially when the previous day was full of rushing, having fun, acting without thinking-
Just like drinking and getting drunk and getting a hangover.

-Editted.
Gah.
The after-effects of yesterday are certainly not good.
Once they hit you the next morning.. uh oh. Call it a hangover on not alchohol, but you.
I think, I doubt, I distrust, I fear, I run.

But thank you anyway.
For waiting for me and for understanding.
Means the world to me, really. You might have to stay a long time though:/

Honestly, I don't know what i'm doing. I don't know if it's right.
I can't promise you anything.
Just wait. And win me over.

Going to watch GG, and I must must must head out today.
And get all my crap ready for Prom.
"it's just Prom"- oh how I wish it were! It's probably the most scrutinising, unforgiving event ever.

Xoxo,
Me.

I nearly died today.
Well at least it's a good way to die.

Three, or 3,
Is definitely the number today.
Hours, times, and... well, you know.

Wah lao I can't even pee in peace you know!
D: It's serious. I'M serious.

In any case, the surprise, which wasn't very surprising, was an eye-opener and completely up to standard. So i'm dropping charges against D. But hell no, no Rihanna ticks were included): ): ):
Thanks to all who worried due to this morn's post, and no, we didn't break up.
We aren't even together anyway:/

You know, I saw the coolest shit ass toilet bowl ever today.
It included a seat warmer, a spray that had a few different functions, and alot of other things.
Sadly, it wasn't working. If not... hohoho you can imagine how much water i'd be wasting. (:

So yeah.
I think the place was totally rad. Looked like a hotel suite, I swear! :D

Does pain work both ways? Hmm.

I've been told that i'm super impatient.
Sorry luh. I'm apparently supposed to wait till The Right Moment to officially mark my property, because the property says that.. uh actually, the property didn't say anything. =_=
Uh, we should play that annoying song about "I'm so tired of being your unofficial girl" or something like that. I swear the song's stupid, but hey the lyrics totally work the moment.

I did quite a few Chem MCQ papers, with the highest score being only 38/40.
F, how the hell am I going to get full marks?!?! :/
Good luck to me.

To all C. Science people:
Celebrate the end of the monster exams like mad.
Party till you lose your heads.


Cookies, and bed, and TeeVee, and soccer, and mirrors, and sink tops, and towels, and Chocolate Chip, and curtains, and grass, and hair, and cameras, and 43, and sofas, and bathtubs,
And sorry for being so random:/ My head's just in a mess now because I think i'm gonna Screw tomorrow's paper up, badly.
AND BECAUSE I'M TOTALLY NOT PREPARED FOR PROM AND HAVEN'T GOTTEN ANYTHING TO MATCH THE DRESS! Which explains why I might be hopping down to PP to do some quick shopping tomorrow:/ Am going to D-i-e please.


Saying I love you
Is not the words I want to hear from you
It's not that I want you
Not to say them
But if you only knew


How easy it would be to
Show me how you feel
More than words
Is all you have to do to make it real
Then you wouldn't have to say
That you love me
Cause i'd already know


What would you do
If my heart was torn in two
More than words to show you feel
That your love for me is real
What would you say
If I took those words away
Then you couldn't make things new
Just by saying I love you


SORRY = IT WON'T BE DONE AGAIN.
CAN YOU AFFORD TO SAY SORRY?
I know you can't. And I know why. (;


In case you're wondering how i'm feeling right now:
I'm frustrated yet happy.





Bearing with it, (I wanna kill you D, it hurts!)
Noelle.

Ever experienced this feeling, like your heart literally aches?
Well. It came in pangs last night.
Throw in a bunch of hot, angry tears too.

Should've known better than to... fall for someone.
Sigh.

I told you I might be a little too much for you to handle.
Why didn't you listen? :/

But sincerely, I hope you're feeling better anyway.
Because you know I want only the best for you. And despite how last night went, you're my awesome boy. And yes. I told you you're mean, you jerk. :/
My ego tells me not to forgive you easily. No one who messes with me gets off scot-free.
Five more hours.

Well,
The best way to cheer up is to confide, and talk to people.
Luckily or not, some new random person msned me. And thank goodness he's better than Raphael, who appears to be a pimp looking for prostitutes.
Is Gautaman really a prince's name? O:
Thank you, anyway. (:

And and and,
I want to watch Quantum of Solace. :/
Because I wanna be a Bond girl.
...
That was a bad joke. Haha but come on, Bond girls are drool-worthy okay(;
Apparently i'll have to go solo or find someone to watch with me because this particular boy is damn blardy cheapo and only watches movies at home online. (Or borrows sch dvds.)


Step up your game, boy.
Or you're losing me.
I'm serious- don't f around with me.

Waiting for a message that's not coming, till I fell asleep and woke up again to 'No unread messages', till someone else messaged and I realised that I should stop expecting it to come.

Doesn't make much sense but yeah. Pathetic, I know.
Good morning y'all. (:
I'm really bored and have no idea what to do today, so because i'm desperate i'm gonna get out of the house and find myself a nice pair of shoes, hopefully.
The rain came at a perfect time and kept me tucked in bed(:
I absolutely love it.

Since i've got a heap of skincare products from presents or unwanted by Mum,
I'm gonna start using them today. Except the anti-ageing ones?
And don't you ever feel turned off by unwrapping a present to find body lotion? Sure it smells good but seeing as I have... 7 new bottles, please don't buy me anymore this year kay? Hahah.

My room is so cluttered! :/

One more day,
One more week.
And did it occur to you that in one more week, it'll be a month? (:

And talking about next monday, Lidia wants to go too(:
Haha omg I think we'll all either be laughing our arses off or screaming our heads off.
Both include losing body parts, but I hope it'll be the latter? Anyway it doesn't matter much lah, cause I know D's awesome and that's good enough(:

Toto is $300 million.
Holy cow! If you touch, you'll probably get like $2 million at the least!
Even my dad asked Ahma to buy. Hahah it was hilarious luh.
Must really learn from my Ahma man. She somehow touches 4D and Toto quite often, always wins at mahjong, and always wins at blackjack!
Unless she's playing with Gerard as banker. Haha Gerard's awesome at blackjack- damn scary!
Can't wait for CNY already:D

Speaking of that side of the family, I might be seeing them this Sunday(:
Someone's someone's wedding- there's been too many to remember- and Mum opted out, so i'm accompanying Dad. Who knew i'd have another occasion to wear my Prom dress so quickly?
Besides, Fullerton = good food. And i'm sure it'll be alot better than.. Peninsula Hotel.
Gasp. Prom. ): I hope the food's good at least.

You know, I kinda miss S.
He's a great guy. (: Sigh.

Some things don't ever go according to plan.
Yeah, who would think they'd find a potential partner while shopping at Topshop anyway? (;

And to hell with Pet Society. It's a sad sad way to pass time y'all.


Yours always, (don't you just wonder who? :D)
N.L.
Ps. Stay for a bit and check out the playlist (;
Hey baby, our favourite song is here. Hahahahahahah!

One thing you could never have enough of?
Good advice.

Seriously, especially when it comes from your girlfriends. (:
Caught up with babe Alisha this afternoon and I think she's the most hilarious girl ever.
And I think i'm really going to miss my singlehood. O:
Haha yeah lesbian tendencies, totally. Though I must say that my stand stands- if I ever wanted to turn lesb, it'll be for only one girl. I think that's pretty obvious right. But what to do now?

You know, Alisha always, always supports me in everything I do.
And she's absolutely the best person to thrash things out with.
And she never judges me for anything I've done- be it embarrassing, skanky or outright dumb.
I can't imagine the rest of my life without you babe.
Haha we're a 2-in-1 package deal? You take Alisha, you take me along too. (:

And I know that if any guy dares to bully me, she'll take him down.
She's damn strong now, scary okay! I bet she has more muscle than most guys.
O: Breaker what, what to expect? (;

But if you talk to her, you realise her english is damn "power"!
Or inklish, in her language. Haha and "so many action" is not correct lorh.
Yes even if the "action" in my life is so little that it can be counted. No need to rub in please.

I heart you lots babe. (:
Muuuuuacks!
I'll update you soon. You're gonna look blardy hot for Prom. I'm jealous):

And.

Dinner was awesome.
You know why?
Haha cause I helped cook it(:
Penne pasta with bacon tossed in basil leaves. Oyster mushrooms and asparagus.
Whoa i'm getting hungry again.

I'm trying to get rid of my uneven tan. And those ugly tan lines, too.

My resolution for the next few days till Prom?
-No fast food, especially fries.
-Lots and lots of water.
-Faithful application of sunblock.
-Attempt to consume more vegetables, those horrid, hard green things..
-Three sets of crunches a day, minimum.
-Ample sleep of at least 5 hours a night.
-Scrubs. Body, face, everything. I love scrubs:D
-Moisturiser. Tons and tons of it.

Feel free to make use of the above list for your own good.
We don't want to turn up to Prom with signs of O level stress. O:

Shaun and I are supposed to cook lunch today.
But I guess we're out of creativity and the fridge's kinda empty, so Ahma volunteered and we retired back to our rooms. Our parents have vanished, btw. Many reasons.

Honestly, I woke up smiling today. (:
Because the only thing on my mind was Tuesday.
And believe it or not, I had a dream about it okay! Haha not about IT, but the different reasons behind it and why D refuses to tell me anything. Well, curiosity got the better of me.
And even weirder, the dream included Ep 10 of GG. O:

I swear I think too much, even unconciously.

I bet this is gonna give D some satisfaction, but I really can't guess the rest of the surprise, because this already seems too good to be true. What else could possibly make me happier?
Haha and I don't think I have an escape route anymore-
NOBODY, NO ONE, believes me when I tell them, "I'm not his girlfriend!"
Fish bucket. It's true..

Why I want to escape is a different matter- don't you know that D's scary? :/
He could squash me easily! And has moodswings of a PMSing woman.

Am I loud and clear,
Or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm,
Or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer,
Or we just getting more lost?

I'll show you mine,
If you show me yours first.
Let's compare scars,
I'll tell you whose is worse.
Let's unwrite these pages
and replace them with our own words.

Right so please ignore the burst of soccer-loving previously,
although i'm still upset that Man U. lost... (2-1 to Arsenal)

Well. Dom refuses to tell me the surprise, doesn't want to tell me which day he might need to see me next week, doesn't give away anyyyy clue whatsoever,
So I give up.
Although I highly, highly suspect it's Rihanna ticks(:
Actually, anything from him is a nice surprise. (so mushy and gross, I know. sorry luh!)

And if you haven't already guessed,
I've got a dress for P-r-o-m.
I know everyone's probably expecting a really pretty, elegant, elaborate dress, but it's nothing like that. It's very very plain, very boring. And well at least it only costs $95.
Yup i'm sorry to disappoint! Even Mum was shocked, and Shaun couldn't help but complain how plain and boring it is... Surely, the ravishing beauty will not be Noelle. ):

I'm left with searching for a pair of strappy heels, probably in silver or champagne, and a nice clutch, and a nice diamante or diamond choker.
Oh and just in case, it's a red dress.
So anyone who plans on getting a red dress, PLEASE DON'T! I had to call Nadiah quickly before getting the dress cause our dresses are from the same brand. Hint hint hint, you should know lah.

Haha omg today was hell-ish.
At Daniel Yam, I bumped into the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.
My primary 3 and 4 best friend, Dawn Teo and thsi girl called Fiona if I remember right.
G NATASHA! HAHAHAH.
And omg Gloria Tan (4/2) too. We're the last-minute prom dress desperadoes man.
If it weren't for my thick skin, I would've died and rolled over in embarrassment.
Haha they were all queueing for the changing room and LUCKILY I tried my dress at the other outlet at Tangs first. Otherwise, i'd be looking pretty desperate too. (:0

But in any case, I heard the bestest thing from Dom today.
(: Thanks babe. I swear your slightly perv comment about the dress made me happy!
Hold on, must boost my ego a little..

Kareem Abdul-Jabbar says:
looks damn good:D
Kareem Abdul-Jabbar says:
BUT
Kareem Abdul-Jabbar says:
even better without anything
Kareem Abdul-Jabbar says:
-winks
Noelle ; says:
...

You know I love you right? (:

This cheers me up!
Even though Man U. lost, and even though no one else loves the dress as much as I do.
And even though I couldn't find a matching pair of shoes and all today.

Well.
The thing that cheered me up most today was Dommy's surprise.
I only know a tiny, tiny part of it; he's trying to be Mr Oh-So-Mysterious,
BUT OMG I'M SO EXCITED!
You know, this beats front-row Rihanna tickets hands down. (: Don't care about those anymore.

NO MORE HANDICAP TOILETS!
Hahahahahah omg well, at least for a bit.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhh! :D :D :D :D :D
You have no idea how elated I am right now.
This makes up for everything. How you're forever busy, how you don't make time for me etc.
I just wanna stuff you in my bag and kidnap you right now. (:
One day's not enough, nothing's ever enough. If I could, i'll stop time.

Get well soon and enjoy training and whatever nonsense keeps you away tomorrow kay?
Haha oh btw, does anyone follow S.league? Sorry luh I diehard EPL fan, what to do.
Manchester United looked totally weird in blue today, haha and did anyone see Ronaldo's hair? Abit the funny uh. Well. At least Messi always looks good!

And well, we must always be sensitive to others.
Don't stay upset Nick. (:
It might seem that nothing goes right, but it'll all be better in time.
You know you'll always have me here. To get through the tough times to come.

Tuesday's going to be my dream come true. (:

OMG WTF WTF WTF HOW CAN MAN U BE LOSING?!?!?!?!?!
SCREW YOU ARSENAL.
GO GO GO MAN U!
(IT'S CURRENTLY 2-0 TO ARSENAL BLOODY ****)
I'M FUCKING PISSED. THIS IS NOT HAPPENING. 20 MINUTES MORE, HOW?!!!!!!!???

Arsenal and Liverpool fans must be hopping happy now lah. Wtf. Mum's celebrating in advance cause she's behind Liverpool. DOESN'T ANYONE UNDERSTAND MY PLIGHT?!

And it seems like someone else is too engrossed in watching the match too to reply my sms!
O:
You terribly boy!
Hahaa omg and tell me the surprise pleaseeee?

Gooooood mornin'.
I lazed in bed for two hours this morning.
Nothing beats the comfort of my blanket. Sigh.

Took a quick trip down a recent memory lane, namely the messages in my phone.
It got me thinking about things, how they used to be, how they are now.
Yup. I'm sure you know it's changing. It hasn't been that long, just coming to three weeks, but it feels as though... I've known him for ages. I actually can predict his next sentence.
("My butt's damn itchy luh.")

But as much as I hate it,
I think we're better off this way.
No commitments, no obligations, no nothings.
I'm ready- but I don't think it works the other way.
Which makes me feel like kicking myself in the butt for once again, having horrendous timing, for expecting so much from him, and for not being independent enough.

I'm in jelly mode.
Everything and everywhere is aching, especially after walking lots with...
Nick,
yesterday at Ps and Orchard. I swear that completely killed my legs.
Haha but it was great fun! He bought this blazer... that I have a few issues with but nvm.
It was nice and relative cheap(:
Walked around. Was forced to eat dinner at Macs since everywhere else was packed.
And he unceremoniously ran off without me to go and meet someone. How gentlemanly=_=

Then fortunately, Mum called and I met her at Raffles City.
Where we shopped some more and obviously, we failed to find a nice dress.

So aching and all, we're still going shopping later.
Gawd. Someone get me a wheelchair already.
But i'll keep my fingers crossed- it'll be worth it if we find something today.

Imy.
More than you can imagine.

Xoxo,
Christmas.

Got you where you wanna go
If you know what I mean.
Got a ride that's smoother than a limousine,


I just got owned by some daaaaamn spicy rojak that Ahma bought home.
Whoots! Very shiok(:
As you know, i'm unable to take chilli.
But nowadays I can't eat anything without a bit of chilli. And i'm completely in love this bottle of Thai chilli sauce, which is sweet but still spicy. Oh goodness(:
Yup. I'm becoming a chilli addict.
And of course there's my undying love for wasabi!

I'm suffering today.
I can't walk with my legs together, or lie down and get up properly without clutching my abs.
My butt's aching.
And so are my thighs, right shoulder (DAMN PAIN), whole right arm, right thumb and lower back. All thanks to yesterday's work out at badminton, as well as my impromptu work out session with Aisyah. Which consisted of my favourite sets of cruches, leg raises, planking and alot more I can't quite remember.
My arm even trembles when I lift the water jug. Can die.

You know, if I don't make it as a businesswoman/ entrepreneur/ executive of some sort/ supermodel (HAHAHAH joke joke joke)/ or any other occupation I have in mind,
I could be a personal trainer!
Hahah must ask Aisyah later if she's aching. (:

So today was supposed to be my Stay At Home and Slack day.
And i'm supposed to only get up at 1pm. But obviously I got up way earlier.
I'm supposed to get myself down to CP to check out new stock and get some belts,
But i'm way too lazy- I can't even walk properly.

Despite all that, guess what i'm up to later! (: Around 4pm.
I'm sort of excited about it cause i'm heading down to Orchard to get a look at some dresses for Prom and such. But you know, you'll never guess who asked me out. Hwaahahaah. (:
(it's not as scandalous and exciting as you think, anyway.)
Maybe you'll see some pictures later.
Can only wonder how i'll survive walking through Orchard. Think my legs might wobble.

I like this guy.
He's got the nicest eyes, spouts the most horrendous vulgarities, doesn't have a minute of spare time, smells the best, is the pickiest boy I know, is dead dead stubborn- that's worse than me, has magical fingers, talks a little too much, is extremely random, is as good natured as a tree,
But refuses to be impressed. And honestly, i've never heard him laugh.
If you see a How To Impress Very Stubborn Guys book, please get me that for Christmas. Sure i've worked with Very Stubborn Guys before, but they can be impressed!
With this guy, my "skills" are as good as nothing. Damn it.

Like all animals, we try to impress a potential mate.
There might not be a need for it, but it's in our nature. And when you like someone, you want to make them feel like The Happiest Person on Earth, all the time, with you. (:

In other words, i'm desperate for some of this guy.
I admit. :/


Baby you got the keys
Now shut up and drive

In love and both hating and loving it,
Noelle.

I've changed my mind and decided to come online to blog(:
Still feeling a little sore. I wonder why.

Anyway I just want to (hopefully) make Dom smile when he goes online.
This is his homepage, you know(: And I hate seeing people upset.
Hmmm it'll probably be hard because he's lethargic, sick, half-asleep, busy and has a ton of things to do. But i'll try my best.

There will be no public Dom-bashing tonight here(:
I think he's had enough. He would really be scared away if I continue luh:/
And you know how much I don't want that to happen.
Plus, he's really sick and getting sicker and yeah. I don't want to make things worse.
Kindness begets kindness. Wrath begets wrath.

Hi Dominique. (:
I don't regret waiting till late and skipping dinner for you tonight.
It was worth it. Even if you might've looked like an eskimo travelling in Singapore.
I'm really really glad you didn't get into trouble, cause you have no idea how much the words "fine" and "court" scared me. Think before you act, young man!
You.. never seem to do that anyway. Hahah.

And thanks for sending me back home.
Means alot to me. (:

There was this REALLY weird moment.
When I first spotted D among his soccer friends. And he saw me and gave me a big hug.
Then two seconds later after I took like, two steps back,
Two of his malay soccer friends suddenly embraced him. Like, together.
For quite long. And they were so INTO it, I swear!
Hahah omg it was hilarious. At least they've got a sense of humour.

But goodness. I was mistaken for his girlfriend. (they were pretty loud)
EH I'm not! (: It's not that easy to get me you know.

Today's badminton/bowling/eating/pool/ball/cards outing with the group was... Terrific:D
I swear we had so much fun it can't be expressed in words.
So i'm not gonna bother trying.
O:
Never saw that coming right.
Haha yes i'm totally serious. And i'm sorry.

My right arm trembles.
My eyes are red.
My body is in agonising pain.
And I want to do is sleep. I really can't stay awake anymore.

Catch y'all tomorrow. (;


Love,
Noelle.

I love Panda(:
(Peyton, Abigail, Noelle, Dionne, Amanda!)
How cool is that. Thanks to the creative genius, Pctxp.
Haha outing today was fun. With some people pretending to be in movies, some people getting interrogated, and some just being... awesomely hilarious.

Right so I take that back. Getting interrogated was so, not, fun! D:
It was the Most Embarrassing Situation of my entire life!
Have you ever seen me turn that red?!? Come on even blushing when D says weird stuff was better than today. But what to do when you've got friends like mine? (:
Haha and I swear Amanda you're damn funny. And very... direct. Painfully direct.

And once again, I blame D. As much as I enjoyed my part in it, it's your fault.
Cause you're the man and you initiated it and in any case, I must preserve my pride.
(And screw yours. :D)

THERE'S NO CHAPTER TWO OKAY. I'M NOT SAYING ANYTHING ELSE!

Get well quick Dom! ):
I don't know what else to do cause i'm not there and you're busy everyday.
I swear I want to chain you to the bed for 24 hours minimum and order a doctor stationed there.

Wait wait wait.
Not that I want anything else to do with beds and chains!
Ahhhhhhhhhhh! D:

Right so back to the outing.
HSM3 was the movie choice, and my GAWD some parts were just way corny.
But it was really fun to hear the whole cinema laughing and squealing and screaming and "aww"ing all together, and then laughing at ourselves again.
Corbin Bleu is... damn hot. (:
Ah. A girl can dream.

I'm gonna miss being slightly unstraight because it's nice to hold a girl around the waist.
Especially when the girl you're holding has... curves a la J.Lo, and cute love handles to boot.
Hahah omg omg omg i'm kidding. I'm not hitting on Xp! That's just wrong.
I'm just... enjoying her... uh. Curves.

Chinese paper this morning was... enjoyable.
...
Why, shocked? (: Yeah despite not touching/reading/writing any chinese for months, I found paper 1 quite easy and paper 2 just so-so. I felt completely off writing chinese characters for the first few minutes. Haha yup I need to be prouder of my Chinese origin and stop being so English.
I guessed the entire MCQ for paper 2. Pray that i'll at least improve on my grade?
I swear i'll squeal like mad if I see an A2, or just faint if it's an A1, for chinese on my O's cert!
It'll be the Biggest Accomplishment of My Life.

Well actually,
I've conquered bigger things.
(:

Okay I apologise.
I have no idea what's wrong with me apart from me slowly turning into a.. girl with raging hormones who doesn't think it wrong to blog about it. I'll just do it.. discreetly.
You ruined my clean, innocent life. D:

Met Alisha baby at the Fence after the paper.
And my goodness I miss her like nuts): Rhymes with something, dear? Hahahahaha!
Shan't rub it in. But it brought back 2 year old memories. And their group indeed still is planning on bringing down the Fence that separates Tkgs and Tkss. They assaulted it today, actually(:

We need to go out. I need to rant to you the thousand things that've been running laps around my head as though it were a mere field. Don't you miss me too? (:

We're in the midst of organising a Badminton outing tomorrow that i'm not planning to miss.
For once. Or for the first time, actually.
Because you know and I know that i'm planning to work out this week, and all that exam stuffing and pigging certainly has forced me to shape up. And the best thing to do after the exams?
Nothing beats a game with friends. (:

Maybe a skate at the beach might. It's been a while since i've done that actually. (:
And i'm completely looking forward to falling by accident, on purpose, on someone in the hopes of squashing him or pulling him down. Violence seems more appealing these days.
As does getting rough. (:

Yup.
And i'd like to publicly announce that i've been called a "fucking loser" (yesterday) by none other than the boy who works at Topshop. Deliberately or not, you still did it.
And that shattered my shattered heart into minute pieces of... heart.
I might not be petty with other things but vulgarities near me, or worse, AT ME, do not go unpunished. You're going down, D. (:
(discounted and postponed till you're fully well.) (I have a conscience unlike you.)

Ps. Those who'd like to avenge me, feel very free.
Who's the one now?
Nice from far, but far from nice. It's gotta be me.

Pss. As mean as I sound. I'm going to make a public declaration.
I'm not gonna spend on myself from now till Christmas.
No fancy dinners, shoes, bags, clothes, bracelets, lingerie (omg nooo), and everything I love.
Because i'm gonna start saving up. Cause I want to get you the Best Christmas Present in the World(: Although i've yet to decide what that is. No more bad Christmases, I promise.

Who's the frog lusting after the swan?
You, or me?

Today's just slightly emo.

Caught up on GG- I must admit despite how everyone's raving about Ep. 9; There Might Be Blood, i'm not a big fan of the episode. Sure it was drama... but just not quite nice?
Well anyway, I had my fill of Chuck-gazing and I am a contented girl. (:

Or maybe not.
My stomach's been growling the whole day.
And i've been thinking about stuff lately.

Perhaps i'm feeling insecure.
Because you're so wonderful and kind and perfect that I don't think i'm up to it.
Even your flaws make you perfect.
I'm just... not that good.

I bet you're thinking what a bitch my blog can be.
Especially the post two Thursdays ago, and yesterday's one.

I'm painfully honest. Honestly painful, if you'd like to add.
I'm having doubts about myself. And i'm hesitating.
So young and so dumb.
I'm sorry babe. Don't know what's wrong with me.

And because i'm a good girl, i'm planning to skip out on parties next month(:
Yup that means no ZoukOut, no New Year's Eve parties, or anything that's got an age limit.
For once i'd like to be underage and enjoy clean, clean fun. No drinking, no late nights.
I'm serious. O: So too bad if you were planning on dragging me out.
Or unless you can persuade/ bribe me. (:

I chose not to buy my shoes last night. Cause i'm effing broke.
Hmmm but had a cute conversation with D about shoes.
He loves feet. What a weird fetish, I know! So obviously he's for strappy.
I'm against most strappy shoes cause I always get blisters. (and dancers have ugly feet)
But we agree on stilettos:D They're so sexy right.
I'm glad he's tall. I could wear the highest heels but still be shorter(:

It's less than $23 a pair! ): ): ):
If you find some money to spend and adore shoes, check the sale section at urbanog.
I swear American stuff are so pretty. I'm totally against Singapore letting the SGD depreciate against the USD, despite how beneficial that is to our economy.
I mean, it's not that substantial... And yes i'm a horrible contributor to the debit items on the current account. Admittedly(:

Great. I don't even have a dress for Prom yet.
Hearing how Nadiah bought her what, 5-inch heels doesn't make me feel any better.
She'll be like, 190cm lah):
And I can only gape in envy at girls who buy Daniel Yam gowns. I'm nowhere up to standard):
It's next Friday. Oh goodness.

And that'll be the last time I see everyone this year.
I'll miss alot of people, actually. You'd be surprised(:

Will probably read through the Chinese books later.
:/ What's the point of retaking if I go to jc cause I still have to take??
I regret choosing to retake.

Goodness who is Raphael?!
Raphael says:
just a stranger, try to find a gal to chat
GOODNESS WILL WEIRD PEOPLE PLEASE STOP ADDING ME ONLINE? IT'S SCARY YOU KNOW.

I'm going to pig on some Koko Crunch.
And i've lost weight. 2 kg more to go(:

Waiting for things to load,
And waiting for things in my head to simmer and die off.

Is it me, or do I actually miss someone?
That someone whose sweater smells but smells in a nice way.
Who always lugs a bag around that weighs 5kg at the least.
Who has eyes the size of needles and hair like grass.
Who hardly swears in front of me and as unseemly as possible, behaves like a gentleman.

God no, i'm really not hinting anything this time.
I just think it's a waste.
Wth. I'm rather certain he doesn't read anymore- he's got a certain habit of doing that.
But if, let's say, somehow another two years later, we're at this same junction, again,
I'd choose to follow you.
I know i'm such a bitch and this has been a total repeat of whatever happened two years ago, and you probably still don't forgive me or forget it, but I don't think i'd ever be able to move on properly without knowing how things would've worked out.

Right.
That's a first for me.
Not knowing what I had till it was gone.
It was always the other way around, but I know i'm the one missing out this time.

I told you I was moving on.
So please disappear from my head, don't pop up again, until two years later when you're free and hopefully i'm not free then. Because currently, only one boy can make me happy.
And I don't ever want to change that. (:

Did I tell you my parents met when Mum was 17 and Dad was 16?
Seems like an awesome age, doesn't it. (:

On the other hand, i'm getting terribly grossed out by apparent tastelessness.
While some guys are a Godsend and hardly lacking, some are just... hopeless.
With their egos the size of Jupiter and not ever knowing when to stop boasting.
About... nothing, in particular? Right. Airheads and more airheads.
I hardly puke but reading that crap makes me bulimic.

No more written papers, excluding Chinese! (:
I'm gonna be a cheenapok tomorrow so expect an entire post in chinese.
(nah i'm just kidding) (i'd just die)

All I want for Christmas...
Is you.
And for you to run your fingers through my hair and drag me under the mistletoe.
It's hardly even the holidays but I love being optimistic.
But the one thing I hate about Christmas is definitely:
The Noel Song.
It pisses me off every time! Haha everyone, do me a favour and please please don't sing it in front of me. Even if you have the voice of an angel and the looks of a Greek god. I'd still murder you.

I've just learnt.
The only way to Noelle's heart...
Is Shoes.
Haha yes i've finally found something that's better than lingerie (and bikinis). And i'm on the point of buying 3 pairs of shoesO: Obviously I won't cause there'll go everyone's presents..
And I haven't the heart to do that):
Oxfords, booties, mary-janes, t-bars, platforms, everything! I can't resist.
I promise to get myself a pretty pair of shoes the moment I get working. (:

So remember,
Noelle loves shoes! (;
(totally reminds me of Xp's impersonation of Barbarella)

So many things can happen while waiting for GG to load. Wow.

Hi-ho, hi-ho
I can't remember the rest of the lyrics. Snow White can kiss my arse.

Right hi everyone, i'm back,
And aren't you happy(:
Got drenched on the way home due to the cats and dogs raining. Nice english no?

Met Ab and Xp, and Dk, for a Macs study session this morning.
My eyes were reportedly puffy, and I wonder why... Ironic right.
Hmmm. Xp and I were checking out this pair of cute angmoh guys and I can only wonder how they always stare but don't do anything! And please lah, he's cute and he's NOT FAT. (:
And in return, this bunch of ITE guys kept staring. Xp was totally freaked out because one of them's supposed to be in jail! Let's see.
That's Lid's ex-boyf's ex-girlf's current boyf, or her ex-boyf's best friend.
Confusing, but I got it right(: Yeah and zomg, how could you leave me alone to their stares and go to the toilet! I didn't even see the angmoh guys leave! ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):

But I swear, I missed Xp and her fun(:
And her fleshy fleshy ass and chest. Hahah it's... soft. O:
I learnt that when she nearly sat on me.

For those who listened to me and studied what I studied for SS, you would've thanked your lucky stars. (i.e. Alisha:D) Because all 3- or the only 3- themes I studied came out.
-Transnational Terrorism, Iraq-Kuwait (I didn't study Diplomacy and Deterrence:D)
-Governance, Healthcare
-Globalisation
Yeah, I totally thank my lucky stars! I was wondering this morning whether to chiong Northen Ireland/ Sri Lanka and Venice, but ho ho ho, Venice vanished. (:
Thankfully I felt under-prepared and forced myself to photocopy the textbook in my brain for the themes I did. In any case, i'm fucking happy:D

And i'm sure everyone, or most people, would be too!

Now i'm trying to ignore all my other subjects, cause I either screwed them up or they were way too easy. I think i'm gonna die for Combined Humans anyway because you know how badly I did for elec. geography.. And well I fried Bio. So there flies away my 10 points, and all the benefits that would've came with it.

Well, enough about the study-talk.
What the heck am I doing here sitting in front of the computer?!?
If you didn't already know, we're left with only Chinese/ H. Chinese paper on wednesday, and MCQ papers next thursday and friday.
Goodness. I should be out a-celebrating! Catching a movie sounds great.

Alas, my guai kia roots don't think the same. (actually i'm just a loner; no one wants to go with me)
I could've headed out to drink, like how our famous boy's going to tonight. Freaking jealous can:/
I could've gone out on a date, a la Daphne Khoo and Alfredo.
Well. The million things I could've done. :/

In order to build up my social status, and have some points for conversation,
I'm gonna spend my day on Gossip Girl season 2(:
I've been feeling so deprived- plus D didn't have episode 1 in his iPod so I missed it out last night, so yes. I will watch my heart out. (:

And i'll spend some time with my favourite boy in the whole wide world!
I miss that chubby blob of fair skin and fats so much. Luckily he still recognises me.
And omg, he can call me Jie Jie now! (:

I'm fried for SS.
Shaun's frying me.
And in any case, i'm in a sorta bad mood.

Met D after the (postponed) match, made a trip down to Queensway.
D's stomach is practically the Black Hole. O_O
And he spends money, or plans to spend, like he's got mountains of cash.
Well. He probably has a hill, if not a small mountain.
Bought his Eastpak after much bargaining with the Auntie.
That was $14 off. O: Not bad not bad.

Ikea meatballs are my love.
I will never stop fantasizing about them.
I will never stop loving them.
I don't mind living on them.
The tangy cranberry jam, the creamy sauce that has the perfect consistency, the succulent meatballs and the soft, lightly smushed potatos...
I love them. (:

Apparently, guys are out to impress their dates only on the first date.
Subsequent dates are no longer sponsored and in some cases, i've gotta pay.
Chicken nuggets. I swear i'm going to marry a rich man, or die alone with my own (big) fortune.
Hahaha. I'm happy I have the conscience not to free-load off guys. I like being independent.

Well. Uh. We'll leave the rest to your imagination and our... memory. (:
Our outing made my day completely.

For the first time in my entire life,
I received a complaint about my blog post being too short, causing apparent "disappointment".
Whoa whoa whoa. I guess tonight's post seems a little short too.

I need to brand D with my iron.
It's high time girls start noticing he's taken.
Bracelet sounds good?

One thing that never fails to scare me...
Seeing christmas trees on sale.
...
YES OMG SHOPS HAVE STARTED SELLING CHRISTMAS TREES!
This means, holy cow, CHRISTMAS IS COMING!
HELLO IT'S ONLY THE START OF NOVEMBER- OMG IT'S NOVEMBER ALREADY?!?!?

And along with it comes the present dilemma.
Shopping for the girls and the family's relatively easy, I mean I know what they need and want.
BUT DOESN'T ANYONE AGREE WITH ME THAT GETTING PRESENTS FOR GUYS ARE BLOODY DIFFICULT?!?! IT'S THE WORST PART OF BEING A GIRL. ):
Thankfully, i've only did that once this year. (Mr. A)
Yeah and well, either I stay away from guys during christmas or get really horrid presents.
But there's no running away this year.

WTH AM I GONNA GET FOR DOM?!?!?
Ahhhh I swear this is the hardest i've ever faced. He's practically got everything he needs and gets himself everything he wants. And plus the things he want are crazy. Let's see.
-A new Canon digicam. (his Nikon one works perfectly leh!)
-A Longchamp Le Pliage bag. Omg do you know how much one costs=_= Go google it.
-Me. And that's priceless. The numbers are in millions and billions(:
-An Eastpac that he's getting tomorrow.
And the list goes on. He's so materialistic you'd think he's a girl.

And looking into my wallet...
Oh. Crap. I have less than $20.
HOW THE F AM I GOING TO AFFORD ANYTHING!?!?
Haha hello he's spending in the hundreds and i'm spending in merely the hundreds of cents.
...
Right that was bad.

I desperately need ideas.
Even if it's "okay" as long as it's from me and costs only $2.
IT'S NOT OKAY LUH:/

Oh right please remind me to bring Am's christmas present on monday.
Is it the last time i'm seeing you before Prom? :/

I should go get Ab a dress. Or maybe just the bra, then she can buy the dress to match it. Hmm(:

If he's not well by Christmas,
I'll buy him a carton of Panadol/Decolgen/Vitamin C pills/Zinc Acetate pills.
Yeah sounds like a plan(:
(and just add another carton to his room. He's got cartons of Skittles, FBTs, and whatnot.)
Wah lao!

I woke up this morning feeling good. (:
Little was I expecting to see another msg from Lym, but I must say i'm happy we're still talking.
I really thank my lucky stars for you. Thanks for everything, including the good luck.
And though we didn't work out again, you know that I still love you.
Always have, always will. (:

Haha now to my current muse,
PLEASE GET WELL SOON D!
I swear you get me worried although I don't seem like it.
Must save some of my pride right.. (:

I did the hardest thing last night.
True enough, my wish came true. I ended up having a quick chat with T.
And for the first time in my entire life, i'm not gonna listen to her.
She thinks D and I are better off as friends.
Urgh i'm honestly quite upset that I got swayed so easily at first, but i've decided that we deserve a chance. Sigh. You have no idea what I sacrificed for you! :/ Haha appreciate it man.

Ironically,
I went to sleep early last night, the earliest since like 2 weeks ago,
But I woke up the latest today. Hahaha crap i'm so lazy.