Unwritten

Hold up
Hold on
Don't be scared,
You'll never change what's been and gone
May your smile, (may your smile)
Shine on, (shine on)
Don't be scared, (don't be scared)
Your destiny may keep you warm,

'Cause all of the stars,
Have faded away
Just try not to worry,
You'll see them someday,
Take what you need,
And be on your way and
Stop crying your heart out

Get up, (get up)
Come on, (come on)
Why you scared? (I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

I am a sucker for Oasis, admittedly. (:
And I wonder why!

Today is my stay home/ be with family day. If I go out anymore, I think they'll fry me. Apparently they think only bad kids (like me) go out so often and we're all made to sit pretty and smile at home and not utter a single rebuttal.

I've got to kill my insomnia- I only sleep past 2 (it used to be past 1) and it's really no wonder how my eye bags have gotten worse.
Not that I can cure my eye bags.. cause they're inherited from my dear Mum. I'm a mix of the best and worst in both parents. What a bummer. I think i'll really die if I continue my odd habits cause I don't think I can survive on 3 hours of sleep a night.

I couldn't sleep last night so.. I ended up reading all the papers.
(:
Good girl right.

I laugh at how easily excited some people get over the things they love. And how can we girls get replaced by things like guitars and cameras... It's sad. We're the girlfriends, and those non-living things? The wives.
Dang.
):

I just found outttttttt..
OMG!
;D
Ashley Chew Lixian is gonna take BCME which means we might just be in the same class! :D:D:D Hahaha and omg, I've been told that i'm in her friend's OG.. with ALOT
ALOT
ALOT
ALOT
ALOT
of Tkgs people.

THEN WHAT EXACTLY IS THE POINT OF GOING TO A NEW SCHOOL WHEN EVERYONE'S THE SAME.
);
I wanna be dumped in the same group with the Cat High boy.

Please say a hot guy is taking my OG.
Because I don't believe there are any hot guys in my batch. Seriously. Bumped into a whole lot of them yesterday while appealing... Urgh.

Added (1:30pm)
My Boyf's in the same OG as a pretty girl called... Denise Choo.
Wah heart pain!
There are alotttt of girls in my OG. Shit. I hope they're L. (;
Hahahah and and C's friend is in mine too.
Okay it's kinda fun prying and kaypoing.

If you're from Vs and you took a Vjc spot,
I do not like you.
Seriously.
:P

Hello Fate. I'll start accepting you in now.

I am close to ripping out my hair.
My printer just died on me. Great job, my friend.
And of all the things I photocopied.. I haven't copied my results.
Great job.

Goodbye to you
Goodbye to everything that I knew

So much for making poor Ch get me paper. I'm environmentally harmful.
I'm at a loss as to what I should do now. And darn, i'm too demoralised to get off my bed because when I walk out and I look to the right and I see my printer...
I see "Hopeless" plastered on my forehead.

For many reasons. Explain myself? I won't bother.

Fine.
You win. And I lose.
Take your prize. I admit defeat.
It was never mine to begin with, anyway. I can't bear it being rubbed in to my face anymore. I'll kill my spirit. I'll give up. I'll start now.

Don't look back in anger.
What should I look back in? I should've never taken the bait. I should've never changed my stand. I should hate you. I should've never stopped doing it.

Hope
Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption

In times like these, the true human nature surfaces. Selfish, greedy and flawed. I'm trying not to be like that. I don't want to be cold. I'm doing my best to comfort others.

Now we know. Tj's a partial 6.

So since when did 2-pointers get rejected by Hwa Chong?

I'm feeling nothing less than a zombie now cause I slept only after 4:30am. Thank you for keping me company, though. Just like how it used to be. It meant the world to me. (:
Despite the hurls of mean words, it stopped the mad ranting/ crying cycle. You're good luh you. And you still remain the person who knows me best. (:

I meant what I said about mugging my ass off for the next two years. Honestly I don't feel like dating.. with the exclusion of one person. And since I can't get that one person, then yes, I don't feel like dating.

Dragging my ass to school and Vj later. It's time to collect my money.

Come to think of it.. i'm quite okay with Tj.
I get free car transport to school everyday (NICK READ THIS LAH, YOU'VE GOT TO SEND ME TO SCHOOL ON MONDAY!), I get to see my favourite G. Nat, I know probably most of the Dance Club.. plus of course, there's our favourite choreographer there right. (:
(The one who left Vj.)

I think if I get rejected, I know why. It's cause I fked up big time in primary school. Whattheheck. Your past never fails to haunt you. Plus if everyone could get into Vj, the whole Tj would appeal there lah. Accept my fate lah. (At least i'm more assured of performing the Syf item:D Vj no chance lah, no time leh)

Although no one can be blamed for being selfish now.. there's an unspoken limit as to how much you can be selfish. Is it so hard even just to talk to me? God.
Call me harsh but..
Even friends do it better.

Thanks Alisha for calling me early in the morning. (: I'm happy for you my dear. And I realised that I actually already read the msg before you called but I forgot I did.. oh dear me, how absentminded.
And thanks Ch for your comfort(: All the best with your appeal k?
"Call me if you need help alright? (:"
Added: Eh I must really thank you lah. Thanks paper angel(: For supplying paper and volunteering to get my stuff photocopied at a shop.

I have nothing else left to say. Just.

Editted.
Fine. You pricks, siding with my boyfriend instead of me. "You're so mean, Noelle!" AH WHATEVER LAH. It was just a sentence.. -_- Please la that ass~~hole~~ deserves it.

It's fucking 2am in the morning.
Can't sleep at all.
Crying my heart out because I got rejected by Vj, and got into Tj.
Crying because I can't seem to find anything.
Crying because I think I'll get rejected if I appeal because of my fucking horrible grades in sec 3 and the earlier part of sec 4. (L1r5 of 28, 29?)

I feel like fucking dying.

But I can't get to sleep either cause i'm helping Dominique S. Lee with his project cause he needs it tomorrow. And I think i'm about done. Thankfully the boy went to bed already (I ordered him to). Please get well soon, D. Being sick is really awful.

So now the only word I can croak out is "Fuck" because it's easy to say and it represents the word of every fibre of my being.
It's a bitch. I've got to fight and win.

God. I'm so fucking desperate. Should I approach the adults for help? Can anyone help? I think my parents would kill me in the morning. I don't think i'll be able to sleep. I don't think I want to sleep. I don't think I want to wake up.

I think once I spend the next few hours digging every piece of paper that represents the better days of my miserable secondary school life, I'll photocopy all of it and give the school one big bloody stack of paper. Better than nothing at all right.
Right.
Right.

Shit I think i'm going schizophrenic.

I plead for help. I don't think I've wanted anything more than Vj (if you don't count SMU and of course a person). But what's the use. Don't think i'll get in, anyway.
Appeals are for the strong, the persistent, and the annoying. Just like me. If I keep thinking that way, I might survive this. Cry so much for what.

And the more I think, the worse I feel.
So yeah, a whole lot of people are appealing. Call me selfish but I don't want to be alone. What if they all manage to appeal to Vj, all but me?
Oh no. What do I want? I am greedy.

Not that Tj is bad.. but Vj is damn good. I don't actually think i'll shrivel up and die in Tj.. but it never feels good to fall short of your goals right?
Okay. I shall keep calm.

So begins the adventures of the Insomniac.

Let's Get Fucked Up And Die.

Maybe I like getting loaded with Youtube videos by guys. (: Especially when it's freaking good music from Shaun (the crazy QOTSA fan..) with quirky cute lyrics. And especially when it's music, just the way I love it, intro-ed by mad, just-damn-good guitar boy D.
How does he get my music taste spot on?

(:

Today was a really good, really tiring day! (:

Ch came to my house 20 minutes early. It was really too good catching up with him. (: He wanted to cab to Orchard but I told him not to be crazy so we Mrted to Dhoby. Got treated to Manhattan Fish Market- omg he's such a rich ~~bitch~~ kid! And I felt really bad for that and bought him Spinelli's after that(:

He makes me smile cause he's such a gentleman. Although he is ~~probably~~ the most egoistical guy i've ever met! He used to be such a small, cute boy who I met at the Tai Keng Gardens playground who'd smile at me. And now he's.. botak, (HAHAHHA omg I miss your hair lah) attending beer festivals, being a complete girl magnet and chasing a bung. Hahahhaha oh God, things have changed(:
He sent me all the way to Dover, INSIDE Sp till I was safely with Shaun and then left. Seriously, what a nice guy!
(Only if you're a nice girl, not easy to get, pretty, and nice to talk to)
(:

Thanks for making me happy and letting me rant and talking to me and buying me lunch(: So sweet lah. :D (He opened all doors and even pushed in my chair for me luh.)
I demand another outing soon(:

And here Ryan deserves a huge apology because I stayed at Sp till 9 plus.. So i'm really sorry Ryan, for pangsehing you and ice kachang. ):
The next ice kachang's on me. Promise.

We had a nice studio today. :D
Bryan The Mighty Pata Pon got me hooked onto Pata Pon and omg, it was the first time I actually played Psp. Hahah I didn't even know how to switch it off... I know some people are staring in disbelief. Wtv.
Choreo-ed a one minute dance and did it till my legs went jelly mode and now i'm aching like crap. Bryan was totally cool and cute today! (:
So engrossed in his Psp. Unbelievable.
He's totally a kid. Never grow up one.

But he's awesome cause he taught me whacking! :D:D:D:D:D
Hahaha so now I know the basics. (: And he wasn't like intimidating or anything. It's kinda funny how he only dances "sexily" and can't break or do modern:D ... And he taught me this other choreo. And and and, he owns ROCK BAND WORLD TOUR.
Zomg, we need to become better friends (not just acquaintances) and go to his house and anyhow whack! I miss my Rock Band. D:

Pata pata pata pon! Pon pon pata pon! Chuka chuka pata pon!
(Faris and I made fun of it: "Porn porn pata porn!" :D)

Bee Ling got totally freaked out by the supernatural today, so Faris Shaun Dennis and I occasionally scared her. (: Hahaha and we shared our supernatural experiences.
Like my supernatural experience with myself (grabbing my numb, cold hand and freaking out) and with my sister (her leg poking way out of the bed above me).

Well it was kinda fun and it'll be a while before I see them again cause I think that's the end of the filming project. (: Was supposed to give a commentary and all but instead..
"Bryan, what do you think of this project??"
"Pata pata pata pon, pon pon pata pon..."
Epic moment. Awesomely hilarious. :D

Journey home with Shaun was fun and funny, long talk about music and being unsociable and I can't deny i'm protective of him and he makes me laugh like crap. (: I only have one brother y'know.

K. I'm sorta happy class party tomorrow is cancelled because if I don't have to appeal anywhere.. we have plans made to go out and have fun. (:
Results out at 8am- i'm going to get up at 6.
Shaun got his at 6 something, Bryan got his at 5 something, omg omg omg wtf i'm super scared. ): Think i'll cry.

NINE MORE HOURS. I'M FREAKING OUT.

And so I sigh. My schedule tomorrow is super hectic okay!
Mum hasn't been giving me any money whatsoever for my life, so i've been traveling, eating, shopping with my own dosh. Wl. My number's depleting.

Meeting Ch for lunch, then SP for Shaun's project, then of course, Ryan for ice kachang. Haha isn't it weird that we make dates to eat ice kachang? I think so leh. :/ I should demand him to send me home. He's never done it before- what an ass.
:P
Think i'll spend $10 on transport alone tomorrow.

Due to an influx of cash, C paid for alot of things today!
-smiles greedily.
Including brunch and movie. I have a love for Ya Kun. :D
Caught The Wedding Game. I have never been a fan of Singaporean films.. and this was one of the better ones, at least. Fann W's body is... not so hot:/

I should duct-tape C and make him quietly sit through a comedy with me. Hahahahah omg ummm, kidnapper-sadist tendencies?

I paid for lunch-tea. Realise we had no proper meals today.

Went french on pool, where I won 2 out of.. 6 games? I think? That's a huge huge accomplishment for me lah. My pool is like my.. 2.4 run. I'm a serious failure! D: (well at least we know there's a guy who gets my sort of timing.. nudge nudge)
Omg omg omg I better buck up for PE in school lah!

Well technically since he's $xxx richer, I should've demanded more lah. It's rare to see me in a girly dress and heels rightt. (: But i'm so nice lah. I didn't charge him for the damage done to my feet thanks to my pretty booties. Remedied them at Daiso with insoles and plasters. I love cheap stuff:D
If I weren't wearing a dress, I think i'd have demanded a long piggyback ride!
(:
Do I bully you?
Never mind I know you want to be bullied, hunny.

And when you're tired and can't find a seat...
Head to a staircase.
(and camwhore)

So we're retarded people..
(Eh look at his arm. Got muscle leh.)

Savour the last few moments of hairbands and long hair, C. This serves as a memento because for the next two years, and two years after that, you know you can't have your long pretty locks! :D Hahahahhaah. My hairband damn chio right.

I'm jealous of guys who are skinny
-stares
and who have really good complexion.
-stares.
):
I am inspired to be skinny and have good complexion and be pretty (by doing nothing but praying).

Omg, I just realised what a gentleman Ch is. He's fetching me right from my doorstep! -sighs. :D Hahahahha IF ONLY MY BOYFRIEND WAS LIKE THAT.
-GLARES.
-SHOOTS MISSILES WITH EYES.
Hahahhaha joke, joke! ... Well Ch stays so close to me what. (:

Don't worry Boyf. (: You are two thumbs up good
Thank you for today and more.

Added:
I'm so sick of Gossip Girl's shit.
Now, Nate and Blair? I'm a love/hate fan of Chace Crawford.. but him making out with Blair (again) is puke-worthy. Chuck needs a hot new girl to screw because Blair's so draggy and annoying. Enough said.
If no one's taking Chuck,
Ed Westwick: I will make you mine:D

Perhaps I should abandon (GG) ship and jump onto a new wagon.
Recommendations? (:

Just recently I wore a new bra. (like this morning)
And while pulling out the tag, I saw that it read:
Enhancing.
O:
Wtf! -looks downwards.
It was actually:
Enchanting.

Chey. -_-

Visited lao gou's place for some seriously fan-freaking-tastic mee siam. I had two bowls luh. :D Omg i've been craving for it since.. idk, two weeks ago? (: Shaun ate until he was covered in sweat. Hahahahhaah.
I've finally found out the relative-who-studies-in-Vjc's name! (: Hawhawhaw. Damn. With people like him in Vj, it's no wonder the standard of guys aren't too bad.
(i'm not thaaat related to him, like Dad's cousin-in-law's nephew or something!)
(so techinically, we're not blood related.)

Then of course, how could I missed visiting Ryan's place! :D
Haha caught up a little with Rachel too.

Ryan and I ganged up to play some card game (shit I forgot the name again) and we tripled our investment(: Omg Dad's damn pro at the game!
Completed an IGCSE math paper for Rachel in a matter of.. ten minutes? But I feel so out of touch with school and the whole concept of homework:/
Had like a minute of time alone with Ryan which was kinda sweet. (: Hahaha ahyo cheer up lah, we're all slave-driven in some way.

Then went down for a final game of BlackJ which we chickened out on after losing $2. :/ He never split his winnings with me luhhh.
Oh wait, in fact I think that $2 we lost was a note you picked up from the table and not from your wallet right! Omg! D:

I miss the old times leh.
:/
With Sam and Darren and Wileen.
And some more than others.

Guitar playing has never been sexier.
(:
That guy was totally making love to his guitar, and it's really one of the bestest! -sigh.
(is that a nipple ring on him??!??)
Hahahha and of cos someone tried to imitate and recorded down this awesome 5 minute test which had MSN convo sounds in it.
(I caused the sounds.) (Oooooops.)

Does anyone (else) cringe when you hear "making love"??
I swear, I always do!
"Making out?? You mean like when I was making loooove?"
Omg. -faints.
It's been a while since that was said but its etched VERY deeply in my head.
It's seriously a bad, bad phrase to use unless you're hot, angmoh, dreamy and serious.
Think..
Chuck Bass. (:

-melts.
(:

I guess this Cny (although not over, yet), I've used certain.. weapons.
Satin, ruffled mock-halter tops/ dresses. (very obvious)
Leg-baring outfits.
Slightly winged smokey eyes.
M-A-S-C-A-R-A.
Plum, purple, pink hues.
Pearls.
Peep-toe heels.

Quite standard lah.
But the combination works. (;

And light coloured (think Baby Pink) lipsticks and glosses do not work for me. D: Geez it's pretty but I look like some cancer patient.
And I should go get a bright reddish orange nail polish. :D

Think I might be going out with Boy tomorrow.

Hello Dad. (:
You are Cool.

And so I find out someone's scheming a way to my money.

I'm home.
O_O
Isn't that just the weirdest thing- i'm supposed to be out visiting.
In fact I planned to follow my grandma wherever she went to collect more of those delightable red packets. Pity I know she's been blowing her whole afternoon away at Aunt Jenny's place, gambling.

Speaking of that part of the family, I was kinda freaked out that they were on the front page of The StraitS Times today. It was like..
O_O Wtfff!
But honestly something about the article just didn't quite work. It gives the nicer, staunch Catholic side of the family.. and not like how they probably have the least problems coping with the financial market meltdown than anyone else. But who am I to judge?
(Yeah. My family has had a reputable number of heavy gamblers and I wouldn't exactly call us poor.)

Well in any case, I was reminded of that and skipped out visiting that ~~casino~~ house because I know all i'd be doing is playing blackjack on a certain green-topped table with mechanical card dealer thingos, for at least 5 hours. -_- And besides my main incentive for visiting is on the front page.. man that's totally not a good, photogenic shot:/

So today I found out another story about my dear brother. I'm a little too accustomed to being sidelined- well he is the eldest grandson of the eldest grandson in our huge family right.
Haha turns out, my dear brother once frequented a stall selling socks.
And while the owner wasn't looking, he took a bunch of socks and distributed them to all the kids around he could find.
....
Shaun Leow, I admire you! Hahahahhaa.
Every year I hear something new about you (egg throwing, green bean in ear, smarties in the tape recorder, beating up primary school kids) and it has never ever failed to make me laugh! :D
Now your Santa Claus worthy act of charity, what's new next year?

The hot topic this year was totally Shaun's bright, pretty boxers (Spiderman- I picked it from Universal Studios! :D), a trend that Mum simply cannot understand.. and occasionally, my short skirt. Hahahhaha(:
What lah I take extra care to make sure no one gets an upskirt view today okay! D:

I must tell you about Alex Evans.
I just melt when I think about him! :D God. He is beyond hot.
He's.. he's.. the best. (:
Right next to Chuck Bass- honestly I cannot decide who I like more. Damn. And I found this out yesterday... C and I have the same taste in guys.
Isn't that just awesome??
Hahah omg if he turns gay I could totally rant about guys luh! :D

Check ma handsome brother out y'all. (:
And betcha can't tell how young (sensitive word) my mother is!

Haircut totally needed, pronto.

Day one- over!

I got bored.
So tada.

Camwhore.

Guys dumping ten thousand photos of haircuts on me, guys dumping Youtube vids on me, guys dumping chio guitar pix on me. Wahlao. What am I, rubbish dump??
I'll go burn all your houses down lah. ):

My bangs are way too freaking long.

Hopefully someone cuts Chace Crawford's sexy hair. I'll die of overkill sex appeal plz! It's wtffffff pwnage. (: And I am thinking about a hair (fringe) cut.

Did I complain about my obnoxious bedsheets??? Mum demanded that my bedsheets be red because of Cny, but of all designs... I shudder. And it doesn't feel that nice either. ): And there's this cow red circle thing pasted on my room door that I will burn to bits the minute Cny is over.

Considering whether to wear my kimono out to visiting tomorrow. I risk getting made fun of but it might make everyone (including my injured grandma) happier. (; I even bought the funny toe socks and slippers! How beyond cool is that. :D

Tan Chinhong it is not gentlemanly for you to ask me out for a walk in the middle of the night even though you stay close to me! Let's lunch together soon. (:
Stop calling me 'dude'!

Crazy awesome guitar. (: Man I miss the older days.
Dsl, I am impressed.

And a Happy Chinese New Year to you too.

-smile.
-screams.

Gig.

1st February, Singapore Art Museum.

(Smile if you know who's sexaee gig we're talking about!)
Anyone else game? (:

Man I seriously miss this (sorta) shit. Gig-deprived, if there's such a thing. Apart from that, i'm waiting for a certain somebodaye's gig. (Hurry up big ass!) (:
Well. I'm a happy girl now. (:

Am stuffed full with abalone and salmon and Lo Hei and fishballs. I think if I eat anymore, my digestive system is going to run in the reverse order. Painting my (toe)nails in an odd colour- an indescribable plum sparkle colour which actually looks pretty. My brain's in desperation, trying to find a nice colour for my (finger)nails. Hmmmmmm.

Perhaps I should do a different colour for every limb?
So fun yet braincell-killing.
(maybe that's why it's fun)

I must announce that i'm going to use an orange coloured Pilot Dr Grip 0.5 mechanical pencil for school. (: It turns out that this little friend has more sentimental value than I thought.
I'll make the $8 plus plus worth it. (:
So touched lorh.
-sniffles.
(: Hahahaha.

Maybe I should run down later for a second dinner.
I like the teppanyaki grill- barbecued clams are the shitz.

I think my sense of style is changing.
I have a sudden fetish for all things zipper, studded and shredded. Plus my Elizabeth Arden eyeliner is depleting as quickly as green tea. This sounds like...
Rebel.
(:
God, being a teenager is fun. :D
(Am very tempted to grab an eyeliner from the MAC counter)

But strange how I show different sides to everyone?
Boyf sees the girly side and probably hasn't met the other half of me. Okay fine, he's seen the crazy temper already. Hahaha oh I pity!
My wardrobe is such a mess. Artsy fartsy, punk, preppy, chic, everything. It's like rojak and char kuay teow together. (: I am proud of it nontheless.

House-addict is ignoring me and I am tres sad.
Hahaha if I had another two months to kill before school starts, i'd have attacked all the shows and become a total stay-home Tv geek.

Mr. Vicodin says:
hahaha my legs?
Mr. Vicodin says:
my fat fat legs?
Noelle ; says:
hahha nope.
Noelle ; says:
your long, muscled legs.
Noelle ; says:
wait, i forgot to throw in hairy.
Noelle ; says:
hahahahah!

Shaun is in the next room singing 'Little Sister' (out-of-tunely). Hahaha perhaps I should help him set up a new fund to get him a new bass guitar. (:

And to someone who's having his reunion dinner now and who has an awesomely cute "sister" i'd turn lesbian for,
Happy first month babeh.
Smile big big now okay. (:

Annoyance at family for biting each others' heads off this morning while I tried to enjoy a breakfast of iced water and egg-fried nian gao.
Annoyance at self.
Annoyance at how things are going.
Annoyance at being unable to get more pigments due to early closure of a spree and because till now, no one's spreeing for my favourite shoe brand.

I am annoyed. ):

But the comforting thought of this moment would be cooking. Cooking makes me happy and I think soon my arse is gonna be yelled down to be useful so.. yeah. (:

Reunion dinners. A time where adults try to make pleasant conversation and new resolutions and kids just eat their hearts out until they can't walk due to bloated-ness. There's something slightly reassuring about steamboats and the way you get cooked too by sitting close to them. I perhaps just have a soft spot for all things cooking and hot and fiery.

Whether you're out to torment me or not.. I don't mind.
I think it my retribution.

Sometimes we're just meant to suffer alone.
Nothing seems more peaceful than solitude. But nothing's more lonely than it. Misery isn't meant to be shared because then it deprives you of the chance to cry to your heart's content.
Why do we regret?
What do we regret?

I will be happy.
Oh- the irony. I hear but I don't listen.
Because i'm so stubbornly sure of my fate.

I hurl a thousand curses at my greed.
Why do we lust?
What do we lust?
Fortune, all the happiness in the world. You. Until then, nothing seems quite enough. And I thought everything would be better because I let the cats out of the bag. But i'm feeling as though a blizzard struck. Cold.

Well, at least it was an internal war well fought.
Perhaps we might soon see some inner peace because I did what I needed to. I laugh at affinity. I shudder at your cruelty.

Forget it.
You promised.
But you'd be damned if you forgot everything- some memories are too pleasant and comforting to be forgotten. Am I scary? Someone made me this way. :/
What's the use of pining over a lost cause?

Annoyance no.4 part 1 cancelled- I see a spree open for my pigments.
Oh, I see the sunshine slowly creeping in. Perhaps my want for material goods occasionally overrides my want for happiness. (:

Warm, and fuzzy.
Some things just don't ever change.
I had a fleeting taste of warmth last night.
Wonderwall-ing and laughing at silly things and cute conditions.

Have a wonderful everything, you.

I wonder how this post came out.
Because it probably won't make sense to you.

Think whatever you like.

Fck.
Andrew and (beer-bellied) Dom are neighbours???

The world is a small, small place.
But then some people are just giants.

Btw,
Crooning love songs to your ex (Ry) is beyond cool plz. It shows how friendly I am. (:
-big big friendly smile.
Hopefully Boyf doesn't get jealous. (: Hawhawhaw.
I'm quite surprised R's windows haven't shattered and his eardrum is still in one piece. And i've convinced Mum and Dad to go visit them during Cny! (:

I must remind Alisha to go and MSN somebodaye. (: Heeheehee sometimes indirect methods work best... Man. I do love -------s.

Everyone: What's the differencce between an andro, a butch, a bung, and a girl with short spiky hair?
You're screwed if you think there's no difference. I'll screw you. D:

Shine.
For you only.

What a cute morning/ lunch.
Had a short but fun and happy high outing with C. (:

A half-drunk girl called me late last night and we talked about all things L before I decided it was best that she went to bed early. She was so cute and high (in every sense of the word) and giggly! :D Gosh.
A drunk guy (who did not actually drink) got high last night and called me, which was kinda cool, and so I sang him a song to cheer him up!
Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down
I hope you're better now. (:

Sometimes it just pleases me to see people who were once the most closest to me doing well, looking happy and having a ball of a time.
Even just on the computer, it brings a big smile to my face and a "That's cute:D" in my head. So what if they aren't with me?
It reminds me of why I fell in love in the first place.
And then it rubs away all the pain and rough parts.
(:

And one of them..
Guess who guess who- you'd be so surprised. (:

But then again, that's only sometimes.
There's one exception. I think.

Just came home- the weather is unreasonably oven-ish today and I got cooked while walking back. Bought myself a new dress and a top, and i'm really happy cause while escaping/ wandering around, I found another outlet of Sk--. (: Overjoy.

I hate people who lurk around toilets/ gossip at toilets/ take ages to clean toilets. But nontheless, I guess it was sorta amusing.

Katy Perry - Thinking Of You.

Met Sam, who looked skeletal from afar- he's the skinniest, really!
Went a-Daisoing before having lunch at Billy Bombers.
Lunch was on Sam. (:
(But Idk why i'm so happy cause he owed me $$)
He's super itchy-fingered! And then when we finished, he arranged the remaining lemon pieces and carrots to form a ":-D". And on top of that.. he just had to ask the manager if it was cute. Hahaha omg he's super funny lah. :D

I owe C a big, public apology here because...

We caught Inkheart.
D: Sorry hun. I promise i'll watch anything you want next time!

It was a good movie, just that we missed the first part of it. There was this super queer old man seated right in front of me who coughed, DAMN LOUDLY, every ten minutes or so.
(URRHHHH HRMMMMMMMMMMMMM!)
Omg, and I found out that he took off his shoes and was scratching his feet throughout the movie. I was disgusted. We purposely took our time leaving to see his face.

Bumped into what seemed the entire SJI, nearly got interviewed for Okto but we ran off. Not so good a day to go out cause school kids are literally everyyyywhere. D:

Bused to Parkway. Sam, you should be so happy luh. (:
Treated him to ice-cream, walked around before meeting Rachel.
Sam feasted his eyes and hands on his "Baby" and was so upset he was not $1000 richer. One day promotion only leh, $1788! :D Okay shan't rub it in.

And that's where everything went downhill.
Rachel brought along...
Lets call them Fat Slut and Jerk.
Played pool- well technically, I didn't do as much as hit a single ball. Sam's once legendary-sort-of pool skills vanished completely (Ha, hahaha) but it was still fun to watch. (: Reminding me of the past, it was sort of.. comforting.

Fat Slut and Jerk disappeared. For about 20 minutes.

And God knows what they were doing in those 20 minutes, but it made Rachel as upset as hell and I had to go find her after that and all. Heart-to-heart talk, which made me feel super pissed for her.

So I pray never ever to bump into Fat Slut because I would go: "Hello you Fat Slut" and savour every creeping moment of her gaping and indignant + bimbotic "Oh, my God, that is so not true"s but it's so true- she can't deny that she's fat and that she's a (probably horny) slut. And I pray never to bump into (Indian) Jerk because I would cripple him with a hit straight to his broken ankle.
I can't believe he's from Vs. I've lately been quite against Vs but he is... incorrigible.

And one more thing FS- save your unnecessary comments about how its cool that we're going out as exes cause it annoys me to no end. Seriously.

Sigh. I feel better now that I have ranted.
(:

Pastamania with R and S- it's kinda cute and funny to see how warm and brotherly Samuel can be. I am seriously impressed but it's really so funny! Hahaha Rachel got a little bit crazy over her oysters, using them for..
"He loves me", "He loves me not"
I wanted to faint.

Bus 48 took 30-something minutes to come, so I was kind and waited with the two of them. Someone's a super duper vainpot. And someone has cute dimples.
I kinda envy how Rachel gets comfortable (physically) with guys so easily. Because to me everything's just... awkward! D:
Hug a guy.. awkward!
Lean on a guy.. awkward!

But all in all, thank you Samuel Ow for the fun day. (:
I seriously missed outings with you and i'm glad we caught up!
And Rachel please develop better taste in guys ty.

The next few days would be C-less. Ah well.
I wonder, what do people from other races do during Cny? Slack at home and telly? I seriously won't know what to do with such holidays. :/

10 days till school starts.

To you: Take a hint.

I think I need a new pair of shoes for school.
(:
This gives me a reason to get a new pair of Converse sneaks! If only my Mum doesn't think that 2 pairs are enough... Ah well. Actually, i'm more of eyeing a pair of Vans. Saw this really awesomeish plaid-printed one.
Well maybe Mum thinks it's a better investment?
Canvas sneaks spoil so easy luh.
:D
Pray hard.

And my Cotton On pumps have totally died (hole in sole, torn at tip, etc) after one month of usage. I am in utter disbelief and applaud myself for being such a hardcore shoe user.
Hardcore shoe and bag user, then.

Or maybe I should just drag my ass to school and collect my $300 and go on a mad shoe shopping spree. But damn it, school is so farrrrr.
Hahah I hope the school doesn't confiscate my money luh.

Why am I blogging now?
I'm procrastinating, actually.
Meeting Sam at 12, and I just realised that my wardrobe has nothing saitsfactory to wear (all new clothes are for CNY) so i'm suffering from a horrible bout of Wardrobe Malfunction.
And instead of frustrating myself over it, i'm blogging. (:

I'll start panicking at maybe.. 11am.
Assuming I don't think of something to wear then- actually that's quite impossible. My brain works better and faster than I think it does?

Actually I don't know why i'm even bothered. Hahah i'm sure it doesn't make a difference.. and S nearly always wears berms and a polo tee/ some Topman tee. I think. So maybe I should just always wear skinnies and a top and be done with it.
And I actually love the skinnies/ top combination- I think skinnies are a God-sent. But then again, that only applies if your legs aren't the size of.. the pillars of the White House.

But still, guys (apart from my blood brother) in skinnies generally don't look good. Straights are always the most flattering- as displayed on a certain guy we all used to know working at Topshop.
I'm looking for a pair of printed skinnies. D:
It's a PITA to find, really.
Houndstooth or plaid would be just perfect. But I haven't found a nice pair... Oh oh oh but there's this pair edgy, zippered skinnies (Black, size 8- two pieces left?) at Topshop, and I think it's sexy. Sexy beyond comprehension, really.
(:

C gave me this really funny phone call last night. I think whispering on the phone is really fun:D And half the time you've got to struggle to make out what you're hearing.. But in any case, no thanks for leaving me alone. D: And your phone battery is admirable.

Oh right because i'm supposed to say this..
We had a really.. cool breakfast yesterday. (:
C's attempt to get a triple-patty Sausage Mcmuffin succeeded- he ordered an extra patty and got me to order Hotcakes with Sausage.
Let's all just say: "Wow."

Come on now.

"Wow."

Okay get over it C, it's just a Mcmuffin. -_- With triple patty.
Hahahahahah you're so easily excited, gosh!
I'll sing to you another day. (:

I really don't quite know what's going on later with S and Rachel, but I guess i'll just go for fun and to act as a bodyguard. (: Ryan, I don't think you'll read this but..
I'll be behind you! (:
And i'm prepared to completely embarrass myself singing to you on the phone in public but since you're my friend of 16 years and 23 days and counting, I don't want to see you upset.
Thank me for being awesomestest k. (:
Although i'm still not willing to pangseh your friend and your sister and travel all the way just to see you.. but i'm sure you understand and will not be petty about it.

I'm sort of imagining the first day of school.
If I end up in Tj...
"Omg omg omg shit I needa go get the bloody appeal form where is it!!!"
"Hello?? Ah boy ah?? Omg are you going to Vj after school to appeal??"
If I end up in Vj...
I'll be meeting a certain someone at the bus stop, and we'll be walking in and getting lost and looking noobish together. Then if we're split up, I think i'll have to make friends.
-shudders.
I hate making new friends, seriously. It's a slight phobia of being stereotyped. And I honestly don't mix so well with girls. So I hope, I hope there are nice guys around. (:

And then i'll stop procrastinating and start going for tuition with Mr S so that I don't screw my math up and can focus on my other subjects. I think i'll just die for chem, really.
(But my boyfriend's good at chem leh.)
Would it be funny studying together?

I think so. I really do. I have no faith in myself or you whatsoever.
We'll probably end up watching Grease and swimming and going shopping. Hahaha shit I need to snap out of the holiday mood. I think I won't want to share Econs knowledge cause he's so smart and can easily overtake me lah. D:
Hahaha okay okay, kidding.. Petty guy.

While coaching Shaun for Econs, I've quite covered the first 6 "topics", up till Market Structures. And i'm quite proud of myself cause I just gave myself 30 mins to study what I don't know;
Oligopoly (sp?), Monopolistic Competition, and the Income and Cross price elasticity of demand. Am tres proud of myself. (:
I feel confident and confidence is good.
(While arrogance is not.)

It's getting late now.
Maybe I should seriously go bathe and randomly match my outfit.
D:
Ah, the horror of being a girl.

I'm such a phony, you know.
But I have no power whatsoever; you defeated me entirely.
So don't expect me to do anything even though I really want to. I suppose you won't want me to do anything, anyway.

Went shoppanggg with boy Clement today.
It's a miracle how we managed to get everything we wanted!

C got his cartoon boxers and after failing to find a nice short-sleeved shirt, we headed to Topman. He met this really cool malay dude who was also the sales assistant at some shop he went before. I spotted this Fred Perryish polo tee (only one piece left!) and so he tried it on. He liked it and while trying, got so friendly with the cool malay dude that he received a 20% staff voucher.
Damn. Our luck is good. (:

Despite having no plans whatsoever, I emerged with a dress, a pair of glossy leggings and earrings! Spent less than $30. Very very proud of myself and feeling super accomplished. (:

I was treated to Gelare and so i'm a happy girl. :D
Ate, walked, enjoyed high views from a certain building, bus-ed home.

I feel slightly neglected. But I understand. (:

Goal until F21 stuff arrive in mail (approx 3 weeks?):
-No visiting of spree sites.
-No more spreeing.
-Spending limited to bottoms and dresses only.

It sounds easy to most but.. but.. not me! ): But seriously i've got to kill my fetish for brand-new, sweet-smelling apparel, wrapped in crisp brown paper arriving in the mail. I swear it's so therapeutic to see "Noelle" scribbled on large packages and the satsifaction received from twirling and prancing around in new clothes.

Okay. Stop.

Well. The next few items on my To Get list...
-A tutu skirt. Well not the real ballerina ones cause I got so many lah.
-A mini skirt, preferably plaid and pleated. (:

Since the boy's decidedly busy and in the ignoring me state for the next few days, i'm going out to have fun tomorrow:D Pool with Samuel and Rachel- what a weird combination, I know- and hopefully a quick sight of Ryan.
I'm keeping my fingers crossed that Rachel doesn't quit her crush and jumps on Sam. Because at this rate.. looks like it's about to happen. D: And Sam's like such a petty, mean guy!
You owe me sweets tomorrow. (: And a proper "sorry Noelle".

R and R.
What a problematic bunch of siblings. -shakes head.

And Ryan's a fan of Jay Chou's fingers??

I found a new way to cheer people up.
Sing for them. (:
As long as it's not "Supermassive Black Hole" or "Come What May", I should be okay.

I still remember.

Oh my God, I see shoes.
Chunky, zippered shoes. Oh my f. I want.
Urgh I want!

Shoe fetish is back, poor wallet. After spending $100 on clothes that i'm not even wearing for Cny.. i'm screwed, I tell ya. But better shop now than later- it's a very tempting distraction from studies you know.

Anyway I know, I can be so mean. ):

And I confessed to Alisha that i'm hopeless.
.new Styleus.alisha < says:
man man lai
Noelle ; says:
just kill me lahhh
Noelle ; says:
-_-
.new Styleus.alisha < says:
*stabs euuuu
.new Styleus.alisha < says:
AHHAHAHA

She takes pleasure. Hmm. Good for you. I think she's the only person I can confide in peacefully. Because my thoughts are so random and erratic and dangerous, just like her. Plus her mood swings are so, so scary! D:

Yes, you're right.

Went to SP today.
I think Sg's really small. I see this guy all the time on the MRT omg!
He has long hair, long fringe, side-parted, dyed brown, and a piercing somewhere, and he usually always wears this beanie. He's small and skinny! I think i've seen him at least 5 times.

Speaking of small and skinny, I think of Ryan.
Ryan ryan ryan ryan why are you like that! D: I swear I don't know what to say sometimes especially with all your hurtful comments and going on about how not so smart I am. And i'm really daaaamn sorry for rejecting your ice-kachang, like the old times offer. ):
I'm still here for you! -big big smile.
You're just greedy. D:

Going out with Clmnt tomorrow and it feels strange that I haven't seen him for five days. Hmmmmm.

God. I just... need to stop being such a loser. But I won't deny.

You. The aftermath of a war.

I really don't know why you're so pathetic and all. It's been two months since you two last saw each other, so shouldn't you have got over it already?
Come on. We all know he's a douchebag and really, there's nothing so great about him. You insist how suave, how charming, how understanding he is.. but remember? He dumped you. And so what if he is all that he is?? There are like.. millions of guys out there.

He's just a guy you dated, and you're just one of perhaps 10 girls he shagged. You know, I think you're just deprived. Deprived of love, deprived of a half-decent shag. But then I suppose after him, your definition of a half-decent shag rose alot.. surely. And so what.
You're a girl. Not an animal, not a dog, and definitely not a guy. Although you do possess a few commendable guy qualities that many guys lack.

Perhaps i'm a little harsh.
I know, I understand your pain.
He told you that he felt you were someone, something really special. And I know you regret not telling him that you felt he was the one. You don't tell me half of your true thoughts but I know you regretted the moment you ran off to date someone else. Perhaps that might've been out of.. Idk, but I guess it gave him the wrong idea.

And perhaps that's why he changed. But then again, it might just be you. Like how he realised after all that you weren't so special (sorry to break your heart darl) or perhaps during that short time he was so busy, he found a special someone else.

You tell me how you could sense it. No wonder you weren't surprised when he told you so. Because you knew him better than you thought, you knew what certain lyrics meant, you took tiny hints from Facebook, you imagined him with that other girl. I feel sorry for you- how could you cry so much, so often??

Are you sure he was serious when he looked at you, and asked:
Do you trust me?
I think ever since that night, you were a goner luh. That line knocked out whatever doubt you had of him and whatever love you had for him multiplied like bacteria in the fermentor. But that was the last bus he flagged for you, wasn't it? You told me you love how he kisses you. I mean, spare me the details, but you sounded so happy, you made it sound like it felt better than heaven.

It breaks my heart to see you cry, really.
I suspect in your head, you see images of him gently holding someone else, serenading her to sleep. And how could he be so cruel? To tell you that he was serious about that someone, to say "sorry" so many times without the least understanding of what you were going through.
For you, I wish I could tie him up in a sack and throw him to you.

Since you do still love him, why don't you tell him??
Why smile, why say that it's alright, pay no mind when it's so clear to me that it's just a pile of bullshit that you're hiding behind? Why are you so scared? You feel vulnerable, don't you. You want to run to him and cry, don't you.

So. I'd say: Go.
So what if he likes someone else? You'll never know what you could get right. You might win. And if you lose.. well you'd be losing something you never quite had. Are you afraid that your shattered heart might vapourise with the next blow?
But it's definitely better to at least tell him. Rather than suffer and rant to other people. (You're making them suffer too you know...) I know he was cruel to you, I know. I know that you're really scared of him now because whatever he says is like a bullet.

Why not tell him that you think he's the greatest guy you've ever met? And that you didn't mind it when the going got rough because seeing him was worth it. If you think he treated you like a princess, the best anyone else has ever treated you, then tell him. Duh.

Well. At the very least, tell him not to say "sorry" anymore since that sounds like "it's over" and it's not very nice to rub salt into your wound.
If, as you say, you think of him every night, you go soundless when you think of him, it's torture trying to forget the short history you two shared, then I think it's clear that you still love him.

Sorry for being so hard-hearted m'dear.
Don't cry, please. (:

Me?
Coming from you, that's really funny.

You make me want to laugh. At myself.

Last minute change of plans, thanks to Alisha.
If it weren't for her "I think i'm wearing my ------", I don't think I would've went! Hahahha we met at ECP, for our tanning session. (: Oh my God, Alisha is really... hot.
-melts.

Haha there was this really weird, queer, funny group of guys... Malay guys.
One of them walked over to Alisha and I, and went "Happy Chinese New Year!"
Hahahhaha and some weird stuff happened which I conclude and summarize.. I think they were hitting on us. D: D: D: Ah, the horror.

Got scammed $0.50 for the showers and um. It was fun. (:
Hawhawhawhawhaw. (;

Then we taught Xinci and Amanda how to order Subway!
Hahahah I guess it's kinda traumtising to newbies right? I can imagine.

They blew their money after that on...

Alisha spent nearly $10??? Mostly on the pirates lah. But she got nothing.
-stiffles giggles.
But she tried to get this really cute teddy for me and after two failed tries.. We gave up. But it looked so easy and it was really cute luh. ): I really wish I got it.

Got onboard the Viking (Twin Dragon??) and it was slightly loser-ish since only the four of us were on it and we were screaming our heads off for fun. Well, maybe not. Amanda emerged really scared and with a headache. Hahahahaah.

Shit.
That felt good.
(: (Although I look gross cause I was sorta squeezing my eyes.)

(Only now do I notice that she kept her towel on ever since we showered!)

Hahaha went back to A's place to skateboard.
Or tried to, anyway.
Till pretty late and after scheming to buy alcohol, we managed to get some at 7-11! I feel accomplished, on behalf of our group. Hahahha tsktsktsk..

All in all, thanks girls for the day- you're an awesomely hilarious bunch and thanks Alisha because I poured out my thoughts and ranted like hell. There's been so much going on in my head lately and most of it ain't so good. ):
But you're like the sunshine lah.
-grins.

Going all the way to SP tomorrow to help Shaun the Ungrateful Ass with his project. Sigh. I feel damn sorry for Ben/ Bryan luh. Did I mention? I made him do ballet:D
Hahahhahahah oh God!

Toodles for now!

I like Tuesdays. (:
How comforting it was to wake up this morning and peer downwards to confirm that i'm normal, that there's nothing wrong with me and that i'm not... yeah. Or anything of the sort.

Well last night was... mad.

Ryan, who drove me up the wall.
But at least we thrashed it out completely. I swear you should be lucky if I don't strangle you during cny. Omg you're so mean. D: D: D:

Dominique. Sigh. I needn't say more.

Then Bryan called in the middle of the night to sing a terrible version of True by Ryan Cabrera just to prove how hard English songs are to sing. Haha and I thought everyone was going to poly Even people like him going Jc luh. (: I better buck up man.
Cheenapok kia.

And C failed in his attempt to be gentlemanly, once again.
Hahaha it's alright luh. (: I give you credit for trying k.

And no thanks to a certain person's mixed signals- you're totally confusing me.
But at least we're talking. (:

Now my brain is so messed up. Although technically, nothing's actually happening.
Spin me like mad till I go totally dizzy and can't think and puke.

I think Youtube has the best shit ever.
Thanks to Hongbin and his seemingly endless list of funny vids that I laughed my entire morning over. You should seriously, SERIOUSLY go watch! :D
"I want you to caress me like a tropical priest."
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G7oGx2dImE8

Haha and and and C with the Japanese game show shit.. oh God.
Hopefully I get abs at this rate. (; I laughed from like the start till the end, seriously. Hahaha crap Koreans and Japanese are hilarious. Sadly the guys look like )@(*$.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MEDqUxIGE-s
"18, 19, 10... 10 10! , 10 10 1.." 20 = 10 10????

Plus, does anyone else love Ellen!?!?? :D:D:D:D:D:D:D

Alisha's a pig. She cancelled our outing and instead, is bringing me out with Xinci and Amanda. Haha not that I mind but.. they wanna go rock-climbing at Safra. Rock-climbing.
Uh oh. I'm screwed.

Because it's hard to let go.

Breaking down never felt worse.
A thousand things I need to say but I know I can't.

I wish things were different.
I wish I didn't think as much as I did.

Hello because i'm so bored, here's a spanking new blogskin!
Hah, you thought I was never going to change it for like a few months righttt.
Cause i'm such a pig riiiighttttt. Whatever.

But well well don't think too badly of me.
This skin was a PITA to edit, I swear! Plus me being me had to throw in some of my own personalization. Or I won't be happy. (cbox, music, stat counter, peekturezz)
Yeah.
Phew.
-wipes forehead.

Thought you'll never see another navigation skin up huh.
Yeah I know navigation skins and me are not quite good friends thanks to my overly wordy posts, but I thought this should be okay. (I just found out that I have to downsize pictures or they'll look funny in this skin. Shit. So mafan.) D:

For the rest of my day, i'll entertain myself with Her World (Feb 09 edition looks super juicy..) and Female. There. I don't have a life. :/
Perhaps one of these days, i'll go visit a certain Samuel at work. (:

I know i'm getting bored and boring...

And it seems that a lot of other people are too.

Perhaps i've been such a homebody these days- too much for my liking, as fun as it can be.

Well anyway. Like me, I know alot (we're talking about thousands here) of people read a few
(in)famous blogs. As lovely and as entertaining as it is, most recent posts have been... dry.
Call me shallow but isn't that all what we're reading for?
Some 'juice', some fun?

Seems like I need new sources of entertainment.

I miss school. :/ I miss the juniors. I miss mugging after school.
Right now, I really pray Vj takes me in. But would it be enough to keep us going?
I'm curious. Then again, i'd rather not find some things out.

Why are you thinking so much?

12:14PM.
Muse - Supermassive Black Hole.
Aren't you happy now Ryan?
Dang, Muse is awesomest(: Hahah.

The scene where the Cullens played baseball!

I think there's something quite wrong with me.
If this continues for another three days, i'm going to a doctor.
But then again i'm afraid to go to the doctor.
So let's just pray it goes away.

Gawd.

Anyway, my day wasn't boring.
Cooked lunch today, tutored Econs (Shaun and his classmates) and went out shoe-shopping.
Studied abit of Econs while at it and gosh, I miss schooling.
Got myself a pair of Charles and Keith heels after walking the (tiny) shop for an hour.

Didn't know they give free shoe sponges (something like insoles).
Daiso sells them for $2.
I should've asked for more.

Recession what.
(:

Hahahha okay sorry that was bullshit.

And so I find out that Sam Ow is going to NP's Mass Comm and I feel so ): that i'm not there too!
I feel so mean after planning to go to the same course and all.
Well perhaps I am mean. Perhaps i'm a hypocrite.
To come out of the hall angry at myself for screwing up papers and sulking when I ended up doing well for them. Yes. I think i'm a hypocrite. :/

Now that i'm alot richer (after my birthday), and i'm able to buy everything that I want,
including even a certain Longchamp bag,
I realise that there are things that are worth spending on and some that just ain't.
And something I really need this season...
A heavy necklace.
Ah bother bother. I hate it when my wardrobe lacks something.
Like alot of chains, at-least chest length, preferably gold.

No matter how many tops i've been buying... accessorizing is always more important. :/
And more importantly, a good bod.
-peers downward.
I think I need to work out. What the heck, i've a spare tyre already.

Because i'm going to be pushed to a side for the next few days by my friend, (sigh. i'm sad.)
I decided to approach my favourite.

Noelle ; says:
so when how why do what
.new Styleus.alisha says:
when - tuesday?
how (to get there) - by bus?
why - because we miss each other
do what - we are good at impromtu stuff. otherwise we can just sit at starbucks / anywhere, and chill and talk.

Omg girl, I love you! You're so much better than any guy. ):
Dang. I wish I were lesb.

Stop drinking so much! Because it spoils your liver/ kidneys and and and you might end up with a beer belly soon like a certain guy I know (he's soon-to-be-beer-bellied, at this rate).\

And here's something we heard.
.new Styleus.alisha says:
dancers dont have hymens

OMG????? I DON'T HAVE ONE??????? WTF?????!?!!?!?!?

.new Styleus.alisha says:
dale said as long as we can life our legs above our heads, we dont

Harhhh. Harrrrrrrrh. Why I don't have! ): ): ): ): ): )': )'': )''':
(I think some of it is bullshit luh.)

I just realised something.

In a bid to find some nice photos and class photos, I flipped through our history book.
Which is total bull because it leaves us, the secondary four batch of 2008 with no specific memory whatsoever. That is, assuming you are not a prefect or did not take part in some event 'great' enough to be recorded in that book. (What a waste of my money..)
Sad to say, most of us are not that extraordinary.
Especially when more than ten years of girls are compiled into a single book.
Sad. Indeed.

However, I was more than tickled to find out on page 90,
(I suspect some people are digging out the book and flipping to the page)
I can clearly see:
1. Abigail Tan
2. Amanda Lee (Aisyah happened to be covered, sadly)
3. G Natasha,
Just to name a few.

...
Then the laughter comes.
Ha, ha hah ah ah ah ahahahah!
:D It's so funny! Plus the expressions.. timeless man, I tell you!
Brings back memories. Of that day.
The day Mrs Lim told us all to stare straight ahead during assembly to get a photo for the yearbook and how we consoled ourselves after that that we couldn't be seen anyway.
Hahahahahha! :D Sigh.

Do I miss Tkgs at all??
Still I feel cheated.
I cannot identify with the book at all. Thank goodness i'm not still in Tkgs or I might have to study Tkgs history.. which is frankly, the worst idea i've ever possibly heard. Really.

Just finished a verbal spat with Mum and Shaun while doing our annual Leow family pineapple tart making thingo. If you want any tarts, just tell me cause i'm sure we have tons to spare.
-shudders
I smell of tarts. Gross. Damn gross. But it tastes good! (:
(Just like anything from my house tastes like lorh)

I'm sure you (if you've tried our cheesecake or something) are salivating!

While at it we were going "Video killed the radio star!" and "Radio killed the video star!"
and alot of funny and mean things. Shaun called me a bitch.
):
)':
)'':

Anyway. Thanks to all who have been worried about me and my emoness these few days. (:
Things are currently peaceful. And I suppose it'll stay that way for a few weeks more.
I hope.
On 30th Jan.. i'm kind of prepared for a um, horrible feeling. (Similar to that of yesterday)

But sometimes it's better not to think and just close your eyes and follow.
I place my trust in you.
(:
~~As difficult as it is after what you've been saying.~~

It's kinda funny how we always fail to get presents.
But hey I got one from Japan okay. Give me some credit there. (:
And thinking of two occasions coming up.. sigh.
No matter what, i'd love to have some sort of gift. Memento. Physical gratitude.
But then I shouldn't say anything because I am pretty much empty-handed too. :/

Get well soon, you. (:
I was so worried!

The thought you planted in my head is so fcking scary to me and it's all I can think about.
God.

Oh God
In all earnesty, grant me this one boon.

Hello there.
The angel from my nightmare.
(:

Anyway if you want to say "Cooool", you should head down to
http://ggamer-freestyler.blogspot.com/
because there are two awesome pics of this awesome person who although does not have near-perfect English and thinks she's been living under a rock all her life, is really an inspiration to me. (: And because it's really "Cooool".

Am I a fool or am I a fool?

It's odd despite my notorious, playful ways how I mostly end up falling deeper than the other, for the other. What am I still here for, when I know I can be so easily discarded?

I don't know.
Emotions steer my brain. They hide my eyes. They pull my lips into a smile.
Because I don't want you to know. And i'm trying to convince myself that you might be different.

I wouldn't like you to know how i'm feeling now.
How vulnerable I feel whenever i'm near you, whenever I talk to you.
Whenever I get an honest answer from you.

What easily thrown words of care and love, what fools we are to believe this facade.
They aren't lies, of course they aren't lies. But neither are they said in all honesty. It's just something said out of courtesy, or perhaps in the heat of the moment, or maybe even to get what you want. Now, isn't that just too normal.

Cancel that. I know i'm the only fool.
What a fool I am to still sit here, still smile, still fervently wish to hold you, when I know it's only a matter of time more till I meet the end because chances are, you probably don't give a flying fuck and you honestly can't be bothered because you're going to be so busy. You just know it.
You don't even have to think about it. It's just.. natural, to you. Why try? It's going to fail, soon.
You are cruel.

Cruel just like him. Just like them. Just like everyone.
I should get going.
I should strike your name out. Forever. For creating such a helpless, disgusting plight.
But i'm not cruel. I'm not cruel like you. I don't want to be.
Unlike you, I won't make the other even tear. Let alone weep.

One-sided, flimsy things. Oh, I pity.

A. Ignore.
B. Give in.
C. Dump him.
D. Beg.
E. Think.
F. Wait and see.
G. Cry.

Which would you choose?

You'd want me to give in. You wouldn't want a clingy girl. You wouldn't mind being dumped just so you feel less guilty. And stupidly, I forgot the things I had to say.

I hope you aren't crying. I hope you're well. I hope you're good. I hope you're happy.
It's what you want after all. Sure, I have a say.
But what can I actually say? If I said "No", it wouldn't stop you. You're funny. You're stubborn.

Sick laughter.
That's all I can manage.
I feel so fucking cheated. What did I get in for, exactly?

Submitting tonight, I think. (All Science/IB)
Vj, Nj, Tj, Acs(I), Acj, Aj, Saj, Mj, Cj, the rest anyhow whack.
I hope I made the right choice.

And thanks to Ryan and Nicholas for keeping me sane tonight. (: I missed you all.

Three small words that ruined my day.
Here I am kicking a fuss over them because i'm upset and I need to rant and hopefully something good happens in response to this.

Perhaps the quickly disappearing kiddish part of me wants to stay, badly.
Perhaps it was wrong to be wilful.
But it worked. It punctured me and for once I was caught submissive.

Who are you to make me feel this way?
Perhaps if it were completed with a 'please' I might've escaped my present mood.
I've never lectured you. I'm learning to accept every part and to morph into a more understanding person. I'd try hard not to leave any seriously jarring remarks.

So then perhaps I should've understood this time and let it pass instead of taking it to heart.
Perhaps I should try to be less sensitive.
But perhaps you don't know how fragile, how easily broken I am.
Perhaps it didn't occur to you at all. (More likely.)

Here I am.
At such times I wonder why and how I feel so alone. A solitary movement because no one can understand my seemingly complex persona. Not even you, yet.

Then I feel a little bit of anger.
Outrage, even. Do I deserve this? (Yes of course I do, or if not you wouldn't even have said it.)
A disguised limp obtained this morning from a slip in the toilet due because I was rushing.
A decision to alter schools (well the 2nd choice one) because it might be easier for us this way.
Close to an hour of hearing my own crazy thoughts bouncing off the walls while you slumbered.

I shudder. How could I be so... dependent, so sensitive, so naive. It's slightly disgusting.

The outcome. The response.
This isn't to cause guilt.
What should you do now?
A part of me says beg for forgiveness. But what for, the mistake is not known.
A part of me says change. But we can't change others, we can only change ourselves.

The most correct thing to do would be to forget about it.
In such situations, sometimes more action intensifies the moodiness. Record it somewhere down in your brain. I made her upset and I don't know why. But i'll take note next time.

So all in all, this is a post about nothing. Nothing in particular.
Perhaps I just like talking in circles because circles are fun and fun to play in.

I was supposed to wake up really early this morning all nervous and jittery and don the Tkgs uniform and rush to school where I would gather my supporter(s) and then head to the office, collect my scholarship money and then stick out a hand for that stupid slip of paper which has my future printed all over it in numbers and grades.

But NO.
:/

Dad went to school to collect my results yesterday so essentially, I received them yesterday afternoon while I was in Japan about to have my lunch at McDonalds.
And then I said not to open it.
And Dad said that it wasn't sealed up and all.
=_=
So yes.

Thank you Mrs Thong for putting me through all the oral practice, letting me coach others for oral and making me write so many compositions that I often felt like hurling many many eggs.
Thank you Mrs Thong and Mdm Azizan for making me write so many essays for Geog and SS respectively that I simply chose not to do some of them but instead just mug the textbook.
Thank you MR PEH FOR BEING THE MOST AWESOMEST TEACHER EVER OMG I LOVE MR PEH! ;D;D;D;D;D;D;D For making us do so many of your ridiculously overly difficult papers and making us think until I knew what I was thinking. I am a Bio stud for life. (;
Thank you Mr Yong and Ms Lee for making my math grades so terrible that I was ordered to go for tuition. HAHAHAHA no i'm kidding. But thank you (scary) Mr Siow for your quality tutoring and for scolding me this morning with a painfully long ass message. ;P

Thank you Mdm Goh for not giving up on me despite my multiple 'missing' essays. Perhaps if I submitted more of them to you, I might've been blessed more. But I hope I didn't let you down(:
Ahya. Less than 5 marks to a perfect L1R5.

Thank you my favourite Mrs Chan. Despite my ugly grade, you've given me confidence and i'll continue to work hard in jc! It's not really my thing, i'm not very good at it, but you make the subject so fun and all so I just whack it lorh. Hopefully the Bees fly away.
Thank you Mdm Tan (actually no thank you lorh but nvm) and the Haha-laoshi for making me write zuowen and teaching me to way to a Distinction for oral (act cute with the teacher) and i'm sorry I didn't study Chinese very seriously and ended up with the same grade, wasting Mum's $24 for retaking.

So go figure.
(:

And I might even consider ASCI. The school fees are high but I think it might be fully covered under the funny scholarship that I still don't quite understand.. but nvm.
But I was quite upset earlier to find out that C had already submitted his choices! ); If we don't end up in Vj, we're gonna be screwed luh. Nj and Tj very the far leh.
Unless I change my mind and go Nj. But eeeyerrr, the uniform uh...
(actually Tj uniform also quite ugly.)
(But then Nick can ferry me to school everyday! :D)

Don't know how luh. I wanna hantum that boy. D:
To think that I was so happy we ended up with the same mark.
And might get to spend the next two years mugging together.
):
TO THINK THAT I HAVE TO GO ALL THE WAY (10 MINUTE RIDE IS VERY LONG OKAY) TO VISIT HIM LATER JUST BECAUSE HE'S SICK AND CAN'T GET OFF HIS ARSE TO COME MEET ME EVEN THOUGH I'M UPSET WITH HIM.
Hahaha but I will not complain. (:

And now I have to make a rather pointless trip to school to collect my $$$. :/
Lazy luh.

But I was quite surprised at my results yesterday. Because if you knew what I was doing during that period, you'd probably throw stones at me. Perhaps he was my lucky charm of some sort.

I don't think you'd wanna hear me go on about my Japan trip because I heard Mum going on all the way back home in the car and I felt my eyes glazing over and then I just started stoning.
I'll upload more pics when I get them. (: Or when i'm not so lazy.
It was pretty fun but it seemed too long. Got bored.

I look like a freaking eskimo.
And I broke out in pimples cause the air was too dry and I grew fat from all the sashimi.
);

For Aisyah. (:
(We got my brother Spiderman boxers!)
Check out the cute Japanese people.

And then I had my retarded moments.
(I was bored and cold.)
I was trying to do the 200 pound beauty scene where she went to visit her Dad in the hospital.
(:

The injury caused by the Japanese subway. Damn bloody pain plus I asked Mum to go rub it hard so that it'll go away quick. I nearly died!

For Alisha.
The only animals apart from humans who engage in sexual activity for pleasure and often display homosexual behavior.

And my nemesis.
For life.
I really hate you.
D:
ROAR.

Would you miss me when i'm gone?

Not bringing my phone cause the parents are very much against it, so messages will be temporarily ignored. But feel free to email me! :D Hahaha a little bit old school but still good.
If you want anything, better tell me quick.

Perhaps there's a little part of my brain that's angry and petty, and stinging because i'm sore that i'm alone today. It's probably a lot easier to smile wryly than to kick up a fuss and be demanding, though. And in any case, that's not my style.
But just know that it would've felt alot better to be in your arms. A soap-opera-ish embrace and promises of multiple long-distance calls- too cheesy but so comforting.

I can't blame you. (:

Ryan's getting me to get a Martin Margie tee. Expensive shit.
Please go wash your right hand before I visit you during CNY, thanks.
Thanks for being around(:

Mum threw in a last minute decision to visit the hot springs. And so she's like:
Bring your swimsuit. Bikini, whatever.
And i'm ?????????????????? because i've been killing my brain cells over thick winter clothing and then she tells me to bring a bikini. Lmao.

I'm kind of worried that I've forgotten to pack something. It's this annoying, naging feeling that you've left out something important and you'll shrivel up and die without it there.
But that's just paranoia. I'm quite sure many have felt this before.
The Kiasu syndrome, no doubt.

You might not know it, but i'll miss you.

Will be back on the 15th, 2AM.
Fatter, with a tonne of pictures and a gothic get-up. (I hope not.)
Take care and toodles, everyone. (:
-blows kisses

While someone's semi-ignoring me and being a prick and probably watching Prisonbreak,
I will blog. (:
Oh screw that- he IS watching Prisonbreak. He'd rather watch Prisonbreak than talk to me.

About whatever happened at around 1:00PM, I would give you one word: "FINALLY!"
It proves there is absolutely nothing wrong with me!
I thank whoever is up there.
-kowtow

We've got a really queer habit of randomly singing (or rather, rapping) T.I. - Whatever You Like and no I am not posting the lyrics up. Hahahah it's... wrong! Wrong! D:
"Late night sex so...."
Ooooooooooooooooops.
Hahahahhahahahahaha.

Yeah I want yo body, need yo body
As long as you got me you won't need nobody
You want it I got it, go get it I buy it
Tell 'em other broke niggas be quiet

Whooooots! Hahahhahaha but I should seriously video C's facial expressions while at it.
It's the most hilarious thing, ever. :D Hahahhahahahah I could laugh till I went mad.

The random little RnB bits in between Queen, The Strokes, Stereophonics, Oasis etc.
His playlist is beyond weird but heck- so is mine.

A very late lunch, gai-gai, got my false eyelashes and my ribbons. (:
Art Friend is a great place to get weapons of all sorts and the people there like to stare.

And then the most damned amazing thing happened!
Clement Tan bought me Rum & Raisin gelato. (With my own money)
(:
Hahahha oh my gosh I went weak in the knees. :D I will overlook the rest!

But not how he made a belching sound that really made me wanna puke when I was feeling queasy and how he bluffed that he wasn't sending me home. D:
And how up till now I still don't have a birthday gift from him.
I Will Never Forget. I shall imprint it here on my blog so that I won't forget. (:

Did I mention how he jumped down from the stairs of the overhead bridge?
I want to tie him to a tree. NOW. Preferably a tree that's within a ten metre radius of me.
Grawr.

Leaving for the airport tomorrow night and two songs are playing in my head..

And i'm leavin'
Never looking back again
You found somebody who does it better than he can
No more makin' you cry, no more 'em grey skies
Girl we're flying on the G5, G5

And.

And i'm leaving on a jet plane
Don't know when i'll be back again
Oh babe, I hate to go

Ha, hahahahahhahahahahahahahahah! WHY SO SERIOUS?
Ahyo but the songs a bit depressing leh.

But I just want to tell you: "Orh bi! Who ask you don't want to accompany me tomorrow."
YOUR LOSS DUDE. ;P

AND THE MOST EXCITING THING OF THE DAY...
DUM DUM DUM!
GOSSIP GIRL IS OUT TODAY!
HALLELUJAH!
-dances wildly
I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR LIKE DAMN ----ING LONG! ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D ;D

(I bet someone's like -_- because he isn't the most exciting thing of the day. Hawhawhawhaw.)
Hahha don't take it personally- everybody who's somebody is watching Gossip Girl! :D
Chuck, oh Chuck, Chuck! :D :D :D :D :D :D Omg he's just the hottest shitzxzx ever and I can go on and on and on about him cause he's just dreamy and half the world is in love with him. (: (: (:

And my most frequently-used line of the day? .....
NANNY NANNY POO POO!
;P
-runs around like hell.

It probably sounds like a joke but i'm smiling myself silly now.
I'm so happy i'm having you to myself tomorrow. For once, ONCE i'm the one who's making plans (shopping, meetups) and none of your usual leaving early, meet people etc. HOORAY!
:D
I promise (publicly here) not to bully you! So if you upset me, if you dare to, I will either:
A. Glare. (unlikely)
B. Shut up.
C. Just smile.
D. Talk like mad and pretend I didn't hear anything.

But believe me.
As much as you piss me off, or even more of that, you make me smile. (:

My nice, smooth, rid of dry skin, smelling of TBS's Boddy Butter legs!
-grins. :D
I pray they stay this way.

Spent the day with C.
Breakfast, beach, lunch, walk about, park, park, home.

I swear to God sometimes I just want to strangle him.
(In the background: "Strangle me! Strangle laaah!")
But i'm a peaceful, un-violent being. (:
Unlike someone.
-glares.

Using force on me is a strict no-no.
And disrespecting me is another.
-glares.

Thanks for today, though. (:
I had fun.

We got approached by this old, 90-year-old man in the park.
Wahlao, he talkedstraight for like.. nearly an hour? Hohoho.
But knowledgable he is, indeed. (C uses that word to sound intelligent. Hahahaha FAIL.)
Approachable, sociable, knowledgable.
But that old man has a few catch phrases:
- Very interesting, yes? (To which C would respond: "Indeed.")
- Now, who is clever- you or me?
- Am I right?

Some of the topics we covered:
Chemical science, languages, England, pirate invasion, spelling, mathematics, years and ages, the English language, my parents' jobs, cars, oil prices, etcetcetc.
I was mostly ?????????????????. Yeeah.

Perhaps most of the gentlemenly charm has been unsuccessfully passed to the younger male generations. No one addresses girls with "My dear lady" and "It pleases me to see your smile".
I have one piece of advice: Watch and learn boys, watch and learn.

Hahahahhaha:D
Went down to the playground for some real fun before heading to the other park for some peace and quiet. It's really hard to have any peace or quiet with C around.
Either he rattles off non-stop or he gets into some tough situation involving blisters and other injuries. Yeouch.
But I suppose I can cover my ears.
And my eyes.

Well at least i'm secretly contented because i'm quite sure I didn't turn out like a certain girl who changed like hell getting together with a new guy. I thank my lucky stars man.
Will zip zip and not bitch (anymore). (:

Then we had a little conversation about the name "Christ" and "Christmas" and "Chris".
That was hilarious:D

Finished A Spot Of Bother by Mark Haddon- to my disappointment.
Planned to bring it to Japan with me as company and comfort but I underestimated myself.
Thankfully, i'm borrowing another (good or so I hear) book!
Found a decent mascara which looks awesomeeeee and it's quite cheap but no.
No.
No!
Cause I just bought myself a new watch. (:
So now we both have expensive-looking watches. Hawhawhawhawhaw.

Music is the ultimate therapy.
Whoooots it gets me happy. (:
Crap I absolutely adore it when there's someone who loves my type of music!

Can't wait for tomorrow cause I think it's the last day I get to see my favourite boy and I think I might cry but i'll do my best to use the day to the fullest because i've been such an asszxzx to him and I feel really bad but it's okay since he's an ass too and i'm sure he'll understand and he will, like me, cherish tomorrow whatever we might be doing (being squashed in a street). Yeah(:

Ps. Alisha Thien Cheong Mei.
YOU CALL ME BITCHY? WTF! F YOU! (No i'm being serious here)
You better go change that cause it's breaking my heart luh. ): -outburst of tears.

I'm starting to miss the awkward, lame Sam. :/
Have fun in Msia! (:
I wonder why guys always end up owing me money. Damn sad!

Today was one of the biggest screw-ups in my life.
I Woke Up Late. Only when C called like 10 mins after our meeting time.
I'm still damn pissed at myself luh. Poor C had to wait for half an hour! ):
And I think I woke up on the wrong side of bed too. :/
Ah. I'm sorry.

Breakfast and walk-about. C won some sticker (now it's mine!) from a game machine. Hahaha it was so weird and out of place but so cute!
Seemed too short, so I decided to escort the boy all the way to Yishun. (: And then I had to come back all the way by myself. That sucked. Hahha welllll, I hope climbing was funnnnn.

I close one eye. If anything happens, I shall not see. (:

The queue at the bank was Crazy. Gosh. But I managed to get my debit card (eh it looks cool luh) and signed up for iBanking so shopping online is going to be a hell lot easier.
-Big Big Smile. :D

I felt decidedly DIY today, so I ended up buying $20 worth of beads, ribbons, etc.
And i've burnt my afternoon making.. 9 bracelets and a (fake) bowtie! Hahaha it's damn cute so i'm going to continue after this:D
I need plently of accessories for Japan can. Or i'll look like some.. boring... fat... blob.

Anyway. WELCOME HOME RYAN! :D
Damn, it was quiet without you around man. Glad you're back safe(:
And on the toiletbowl. Crapping. Urgh that's just gross.

It's so easy to get upset when you allow yourself to be. By loving and giving your all.
But the potential returns could be worth it. I hope it is. I hope you are. (:

An "Nn" tank . Cool aye? :D

I want to complain.

I TELL YOU UHH...

Planning ANYTHING, ANYYYYYTHING with Sam is a Pain In The Ass.
PITA.
I'm seriously serious. Wl he got this party that chalet, want to sleep, cannot wake up, takes 10 hours to do his (bad) hair, yada yada yada. Hahaha but what to do? He's leaving tomorrow.
But i'm so glad Joel's coming later:D:D:D:D:D

I'm tempted to wear my booties out but I think I might suffer blisters! Hmmmmmm.
And i'll probably be a whole head taller than Joel. Hahahahahahhaha(:

But I better take all the time I have to spend it with the people I love.
Goodness, i'm leaving in 6 days! (Actually 5, but at midnight?)
I think i'll miss my baby to bits. :/

And to think that our O level results might be released any day when i'm gone..
Oh my God I do NOT want to come back, rush to school and grab a cert full of Bs and Cs.
I think Mum'll just whack me for not deserving the trip luh. Hahaha goshh i'm screwed.

Then I thought of what I've gotta pack.
My suitcase is gonna be blaardy big thanks to all the thick winter wear, and i'm definitely going to bring my camera. But i've only got one battery, and I don't think it'll last so I gotta pack the charger. And my phone batt surely won't last so that charger is needed to. Then i'm wondering if I should dump my laptop in because I can probably charge both the phone and the camera if I charge the laptop and OMG I don't know what to do!

Okay screw it- I think i'll leave the laptop.
):
Oh my poor, soon-to-rot blog! Oh, my online shopping!! Oh no!!!
): ): ):

But shopping there is gonna be really cheap! They have this 100 and 200 yen store with like everyyything pretty. Haha and i'm going to go mad and run through the streets of Harajuku and come back looking like some lolita gone wrong. :D:D:D
Hahahaha nah, not my style. But gosh I think I should bring an extra empty luggage. :D:D:D

Think i'll look funny in a beanie? (:

I still can't quite believe it.
I think my 16th birthday was an awesomeness-overkill moment that i'll never forget luh.

-I must add that the chocolate truffle cake from Swissbake is Damn Good.
Daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn Good! :D
-Plus Ines always has a habit of looking to that side and not looking at the camera. Show you more picxx next time. Hahahahahha!
-YARH LAH I GOT NOTHING LEFT TO WEAR! And i'm in love with that top, honestly.

I must rave about my pretty blue camera.
I know i've always had something against big, overrated brands (Apple, Sony, etc) and I was pretty hesitant about buying a Sony camera- but it has not failed me thus far! (:
Although yes I was a beeeeet upset when I saw the same camera retailing at Sim Lim for about $20 less like three days after the Sitex fair. But nah, the quality's worth it. (:

Haha anyway thinking of it, PITA reminds me of NATO.
No Action Talk Only.
(really poor English, but it comes from a Cat. High boy leh! TSKTSK)
Hahahah that never fails to crack me up luh. Nato?? What Nato!?

I think he's sleeping. I think.
Sorry for sounding so groggy and sleepy and heading off to bed early (and not talking to you). ):
I promise to give you a big hug!

Shaun and Mum (weird sounding combination, I know) are heading to town later to shop.
And for once, Shaun asked me to come along! Haha i'm so impressed.
(He's the type of guy who forwards me msgs like "Is your sister (ME!) free next week?")
And I'm wondering if I should go! D: Probably leave halfway to meet S and J.

Still mad at S. Wl that PIG.. Hahahahahhaha nah i'm kiddin' (; Can't wait.
But he really is a pig luh. Sleep so much. A DAMN skinny, handsome pig. Hahhahahaha.

Arrgh i'm really upset with myself for missing the Cherry Culture spree cause I can't get all the awesome cheap NYX stuff! ): The pigments and lipsticks are so pretty. Plus it's on sale now and it might reach before CNY and I Didn't Get It! AHHHHHHH! ):
Yesh I am a die hard cosmetics junkie. I will murder you if you steal my lipstick. D:

While I still find it hard not to look at him once in a while, I know he's having fun and living it to the fullest and i'm glad i'm moving on. It's undoubtedly clear that I miss him but it's even clearer that i'm crazy over my new special someone. (:

A good beginning to a new start.

Added (6:00PM):
Thanks Joel Gay for pangsehing.

The past four hours have been life-changing, at the very least.

Big happenings.

1. I nearly died.
And i'm being serious about it. There was a big salmon bone stuck in my throat luh.
Was crying, tried to puke it out and tried to swallow it down.
Adults contemplated sending me to the hospital. I got scared out of my wits.
My 16th birthday, wth??

But then Uncle came to the rescue, with a pair of forceps and a torchlight, the bone was dug out and kept as a trophy. Yeah it's really big luh! Damn scary. D:
Yes, my hero!

So well, chance to ride in an ambulance/ enter the surgery ward = gone.
Not that I actually think i'll get to ride in an ambulance:/ Damn. Hahaha.

2. The huge ass present from Mum and Dad was for me!
I thought it was a coffee-machine cause i'm admittedly crazy over Uncle's one (awesomest lattes and shots, ever! :D) or perhaps a uhge waffle making machine or something.
But it was surprisingly light.

Opened it- it was a daaaamn thick winter coat.
It's really pretty- brownish, fur, everything!
"Lol i'm in Singapore. Why do I need this?"

Mum
Is
Bringing
Me
To
OSAKA! (And Tokyo and somewhere else.)

I was stunned.
God. Oh God. Saw the travel tag and I lost my ability to speak.
(Although I did crack a few lame jokes to everyone's delight)
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

CAN I JUST TELL YOU HOW EXCITED I AM??
It's my first time in anywhere below 10 degrees (it's going to be -1 when we go- and it's reported to start snowing then!), it's the first time I see SNOW, and it's the first time i'm SKIING.
OMG.
Breath. :D AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Mum bluffed me luh! She said the trip was an incentive if I scored good O's results, and then she told me she didn't manage to earn an extra ticket, and so I thought I was going alone.
And when all the office people asked if I was going, I said "no"! Gosh. :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
And she's been secretly buying ALOOOOOOOOOOT of things (thermal wear, etc).

So now it makes sense.
Why Aunt Heng got me a scarf for Christmas. (another ????? present)
And why Mum got me only a pair of leggings for Christmas.
:D
-skips around.

3. NICK IS THE AWESOMEST NEIGHBOUR EVER.
Omg I wasn't expecting anything but WTH! Nick, i'm so touched.
(:
Heehee! Shall not post contents. :D IT'S THE THOUGHT THAT COUNTS MAN.

4. I received a LOT of $$$$ from the 4 angpaos received.
Gosh. Mum's folks are surely not petty with their money! (:

I feel on top of the world even though i'm sweaty, my hair is a bird's nest and my clothes are nothing fantastic. Hohoho speaking of which, my hair has been termed a "new look" by the various relatives. (: Haha they think i'm going for the Jap girl look!

Celebrating with family is something not everyone can experience, and i'm really thankful for their presence. Sure we have our (overly common) disagreements and mental wars, but it's part and parcel of being a family. Quietly, (as compared to outdoor celebrations) I enjoy the peace and love I feel. God i'm never missing out on any family celebrations! (:

A good start to 2009.
(:
I hope it'll be an awesome year for us all!

Love and loving,
Noelle. (:

Happy New Year everyone! :D
No pyrotechnics here but be rest assured i'm a damn good arsonist. (: