After today.. I am tempted to spit out one word:
"Bitch".

Met C, lunched and headed to Vivo to meet everyone. Plans for Sentosa were scrapped due to the rain, but somehow Inez, Den Choooooo, Trish, C, Darren and I ended up playing frisbee in the rain, in the puddle(: That was.. quoting Zach, "The funniest thing I have done in my life". (:

Met up with the rest, as well as the Centre Table Canteen Gang:D Jason was completely forgotten, left alone at City Hall uncontactable due to his dead battery. Anwar looked like some gangsta with the chain and tag and black sweater. Jolene's bag was the envy of all and I think Thalia's faster with her leg in a cast than without! (:
Ah and some drama happened and we split ways.
Me with the most of the CTCG.

Dinner was the most hilarious thing I have ever, ever sat through! I seriously couldn't stop laughing lah. Anwar's absolutely right about Karen's and Thal's laughter- I swear anyone who hears them CANNOT HELP but laugh along:D One's too fake and one's like hiccups!
And today was the first time I actually got to know Jason and Jolene(:
In summary,
Jason is a pervert who daos, acts blur, is half deaf, hunches like mad and has an ass wayyyy too fat even for his size. Jolene has a chest so small- it's hard to even find it. Hahahah wait wait don't get angry, angry woman! :D


Thank you Nat G(:
At least I know it's not abnormal and I seriously will not bother about it anymore! We better survive the next two weeks- being blocked in for Syf, Talentime, everythinggg. D:

I am not really looking forward to tomorrow.
Well, at least Zach promised to accompany me if I felt left out! (: And chances are... for sure, yes I will be left out. Ah nvm lah, just to make Andrew happy(:
(Shit I tell you i'm so screwed cause I haven't a present for himD:)

Seriously I think it's best that I don't say anything.
Mindplay- the continuous switching between insensitive and oversensitive is something that does not go well with me.



Perhaps you don't know how all this is making me feel.
There's always this nagging feeling of inferiority and patheticness. Ah what the heck, it's my just desserts ain't it.

And if there's anything wrong with me, it's nothing.
Depression is just an inch away.
What's with the facades, anyway.

Maybe they really aren't what I thought they were after all.
Gah- how unnecessarily complicated.
Friends.
Really? Hah. I am so confused.

Anyway.
Perhaps I really should've opened my eyes and dug my ears out thoroughly. For a while, I really did believe you, but the more I hear, the more I know, the more I think differently. What can I actually do but listen when you tell the whole wide world everything- and maybe even more than everything?
What are you trying to do?
I can differentiate between the truth and everything else. Since it's in the past, why can't you just be honest?

If you screwed up then just say so. Nothing can be done anyway. There's alot of difference between 2, 20 and 200.
What
Do
You
Want
Me
To
Do?

Am finally for sure in Syf and it's a big big blessing and a big big curse. Zaki was in such a good mood today it was nearly as though a unicorn rode through our studio. (I'm sure that'll excite Angeline) Dance today was pretty fun and slack(: Slutty dance with Slutfy and the guys failed to execute it right. Hahahhahaha and seems like we've got many new additions to our TT group.

Dinner treat from C! (: It's rare okayyy.
I also don't really know why I can't help but walk into Diva everytime I walk past. I just get happy seeing pretty hairbands lah(:

And thanks Alisha dear for listening/ comforting k. (:

Finally,
one question for you.
What exactly is your problem?

Go figure.

Wah super super tired. :D
Went jammin with Immy, Clem, Zahf and Trish. I think my voice is half-gone but it was so fun and funny! (: Trish I hope you're okay!
Clement was sorta doing a striptease while jamming. Like in a minute his pants were rolled up into shorts, and then the next minute his shirt was nearly all unbuttoned, and then within the next minute he nearly stripped to his boxers. Ffffffffffreaking funny! :D Hahahaha LUCKILY he didn't strip off his pants (totally) lah. I think if I saw anymore of Bart Simpson.. i'd faint. But somehow I think Trish was excited. Hmmmmmm. (;

Then I had a really NOT FILLING dinner with C before he rushed off. Super measly portions wtf. What's the opportunity cost of doing your homework? I better be the next best alternative lah. ): Hahahaha!

I wanna go eat steamboat lah, the don't-know-how-many steamboat stalls look so good! D: Plus we got a full view of an ass and it being scratched. It was disturbing... seriously, girls these days. D:
-tsktsk shakes head.

I'm so screwed cause I have absolutely nothing done for The English Fair and our skit's tomorrow. D: Gah. And I have to do uhhhhhh econs, uhhhhhhhh bio I think? And I do not like our relief tutor for math- I want Mr Lim back cause he is the awesomeest:D

And because I thought the make up samples I ordered were going to be small measly packets that can barely last three usages.. I bought ALOT. And I am so shocked by the size and I have no idea what to do with the excess eyeshadows. I think I have enough black to last me the rest of my life lah! Bloooooody big packet can! -_-
So I shall find time to go press the pigments and create a pretty new palette! (: So exciting. But damn mafan and messy.

Hahah omg btw I really don't know how you kena there lah!

K going to bathe and start on my work!
Cause someone's probably downing maggi mee in a matter of minutes and doing tutorials like mad. I feel like such a slacker.

Sometimes when you can't hold it in any longer, it's best just to let it out- as messy and complicated as it makes things.

I nearly forgot-
Hahahhahha noooo, how could I forget;
Happy 2nd month babeh(:

My impromptu present very sweet right. Hahahahahah.

I have a new resolution- not a promise, but a resolution. (cause some annoying people will tell you OH PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN, what bull. Annoying right...)
I resolve to be more selfless and understanding.
I know I can be super unreasonable and super demanding and I have super little tolerance but because of my new-found inspiration, I will improve (for the common good of all).
...
Yeeeah.
(:

Forget about the drama that happened today, and like every day for the past few weeks, and FOCUSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.
Hahahahahha okay that didn't quite fit but nvm. (:

And you SOOOOOO need to thank Mr A okay!
Andrew says:
you know what a joker clement is right...
Andrew says:
you really dont need to be so emotional about things he jokes with
Andrew says:
yes maybe he went a little overboard
Andrew says:
but he doesnt mean it

(: Defend you leh! Andrew's my EYES into the mind of a guy.

I can't wait till Saturday. (: Or Sunday. Sigh.


And just a side note,
There's a reason why he's a part of my past.
The more I think, the more it hurts, because I feel like I was merely an object and just another one of them. Every day we grow, I suppose.

is not such a good day.

And I wonder why.

And I think I should stop being such a crybaby.

Am procrastinating- should be rushing out tutorials for tomorrow but currently I'm too all-over-the-place. Plus I feel a bit sick after getting drenched walking home. Yikes.

Thunderstorm. Has it really blew over?

Anyway to take my mind off things.. I went shopping.
And uh oh, I see more stuff to buy!
I'm eyeing:
A black cotton blazer.
An oversized assymetrical pocket tee.
A pack of studs to go DIY my stuff.
A NEW PAIR OF SHOESSSS.
Believe it or not.. prices are: $15, $12, $19, $20 respectively

Studs are in y'know. (:
They make everything and anything look edgy and edgy = sexy, but please throw in good hair and good everything else otherwise = freaky = FAIL. I wanna shred up a tee and stud it! Ah but i'm so lazy.

I should find some time to go walk Bugis Street cause i'm so broke but I want new pretty things! And feed my undying fetish for cute and gay hairbands and bags and everything. Cmon it's super easy to recognise me in school right- amongst the black and browns and navy heads.. (Mine's usually red lah) and my neon tote!

Anyway, Austin tipped me off again.
The AAR, this Friday, 10pm(:
FOC!
But C isn't going so I doubt i'll go unless someone wants to come with me:D I think after Dance i'll just roll over and die though.

Am going to Andrew's party, with C, for a bit on Sunday(:
Just had a nice talk with him- cheer up A!
I'll see your floppy mushroomy hair on Sunday yeah.

Okay I can't stop thinking about the stuff I want to buy.
Nick would totally flip hearing that a girl's cotton blazer could cost $15 when his one cost $50 plus- and that was like effin cheap already lah! And and and shoes... omg SHOES... :D I think i'll get those velcro straps over one. Hahah damn I miss velcro straps!

Shit i'm getting so excited over stuff.
Mum scolded me and told me to save since times are bad):

OH YEAH I MUST TELL YOU.
From today onwards, Nicholas Kwa = Ball.
Just call him Ball.
He called me Stick so I was trying to think of a good rebuttal.. and don't you think Ball is so apt! (: And he was crapping about how a ball could break a stick but lol NO a stick HITS the ball! But somehow together when you put ball and stick together.. it seems wrong.
Lol should we get another ball?


Gah i'm so tired I don't think i'll do all the tutorials... just the most necessary and then boom i'm off to bed.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EVcyNANK5cY&feature=channel

A very big huge
GOOD JOB:D

To Cg's 17/09 Ultimate Frisbee team- we came in second right behind the TA boys! Super proud of my CG now, more than I previously was!
;D

Zaki didn't come for practice today, which means we're all gonna DIEEE on Friday when he comes back and if he isn't in a good mood.
Ah well. ): Ms Wee's technique class today was pretty fun (hahah I know some people are in disagreement!) but I think i'm going to ache tomorrow. Especially my right lower back and inner thighs. D:

My appetite's becoming slightly worrisome- it DOUBLED.
I eat TWICE the usual for every meal. Wth! Lunch was chicken rice + rice and wanton mee. Dinner was dinner + Soup Spoon's big bowl clam chowder + bread. I think i'm gonna grow damn effin' fat at this rate zomg! ): But i'm so hungryyyy and my stomach calls for some lovin'. ): Can't say No.

Then perhaps I should really appreciate PE lessons with all the running and whatnot. They made us do the circuit today and I have grown a strong dislike for 'dips'. Hahaha and I think dance is enough to turn any flabby girl 36-24-36! I hope it will. (: Magic numbers magic numbers!

Bus-ed home with C who was in such a rush. -_-
But thanks for waiting! (: And then at the bus stop, I spotted this really spooky baby doll (you know, the old fashion styled blue eyes curly hair) and pointed it out to C.
He actually jumped up and yelped- it was like an inch away from actual screaming! Hahahahahahaha yeah lah it was scary.. but I suppose there's no harm in telling you that he absolutely abhors dolls cause they scare the living daylights out of him.
No harm at all. (:

And then it was my turn to get really spooked when walking home alone cause I saw something suddenly move inside this locked car.
I am still a little bit uneasy. ):

Yuan Song today tried different accents..
And all of them were so terribly CMI and hilarious I swear he's such an innocent kid hahahahah! And he doesnt even know what CMI stands for-_-
"Want to go play LAN?" (Indian accent)
That was the classic.
And Yan is even more hopeless- she doesn't even know wth LAN is!
HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAH:D

And as usual we stole a whole fistful of sweets to share at the back row, during Bio tut! :D Hahaha thank you to Shaun who desperately shouted out answers just to get sweets-_- And and they sang like STAND BY ME throughout okay. Hahahah I am FOR SURE going to get solid defined abs by the time I graduate, at this rate:D

Plus, Reuben has OCD. O:
Ha, ha, hahahahahahahahahhahah:D:D:D:D
Wah lao he's super funny and does gay actions alot alot alot!

Oh and voila, it's a sheer miracle we got through Talentime auditions.. and I think we're gonna embarrass ourselves. D: But since it happens to me on a daily basis, I don't mind luh. Hahhaa let's just think of something and go have fun(: And Imran's group SORT OF got through too! Zomg. Damn cool can:D

And ever since Saturday, that that that song Imran's song has been stuck in my head! I don't even know most of the lyrics cause he mumbles through them but the tune is seriously stuck:D
But everytime he sees me...
"YOU KNOW YOU SHOULDN'T"
Wth-_- I cut your hair with my kitchen scissors then you know.

Actually my haircutting skills not bad k I cut my hair most of the time(: Doesn't look that bad riiiiight. Hahhaha which reminds me maybe I should go for the ITE exchange programme thingo. You go to TJC to go to ITE- a bit no logic but nvm.
I think i'll kill myself at this rate.
So many things to do!
I doubt i'm running for HC unless I can cope with school.
I want to run for Dance exco.
THAT seminar.
Syf.
yada yada etc bobo cha cha yeah you get the point.
Hmmmmmmm.

Sad to say I still think it's a biiiiit awkward for you to talk to me right): Gah you look happy and bouncy all the time these days so at least, at least you're fine. (: Hope you liked my little lollipop!


Anyway, Kudos to you if you know what day tomorrow is(:

Quickie before I rush off to do my math tutorial 3.

Life's generally.. good. (:

I've got great girlfriends.
Great boy friends. (spacing here is very impt)
-J's on smiling/greeting/talking terms yay what an improvement:D
I'm making a lot of new friends.
I'm losing weight.
My appetite is increasing.
I've got an awesome CG.
Dance is goodish.
My pimples are vanishing.
I'm eating more fruits and veggies.
I drink milk by the carton.
I feel happy and busy.

Well apart from the all-too-normal "SCHOOL DAMN SUCK LAH", "HOMEWORK DAMN ALOT LAH", "DAMN TIRED LAH", "OMG DAMN SIAN", "WANT TO SLEEP SIOL"- we're all doing pretty good, no? (: And of course I thank those who help me through! Like Woo Da Bian and Sotong and G-string and Reub and Clam and Immy and Girl etcetcetc!
(Yan, Denise, G Natasha, Reuben, Clement, Imran, ASHLEY!)

Hahahaha okay fine so there might be someeee drama and unhappiness (common) between Boy and me but it's tolerable.. and I shan't bother too much about it. Whatever rocks your socks lah(:

Talked to the ex-sort-of Dom last night and it's kinda weird to talk about certain topics! Haha but really I meant whatever I said. (: Sigh. So please bai tuo help me out this one time and I will be eternally grateful! Or at least, i'll try to be. (: Better not make Dom angry these few days.
DOMMY YOU VERY HAMSOME K!
(: Ha, ha, ha, ha, hahahah.

I swear I completely became a stone during dance today idk why.
It was uh painful but bloooot, sweate, and teres are often worth it.
Leon refused to buy me dinner/ watermelon ball so sad!
Kenneth is a really nice guy omg I want a brother like that. :D Lucky girl. Ashley was roflmaoing at C.L's jokes that weren't even that funny... but it's so cute to see her laugh! Hahaha and C.L. don't be jealous of Reuben k, you're not that bad! (: You're a math genius rmb.
Second best, dont be too sad! (second best out of two, though..)

Pontian wanton mee quality is degrading like mad lah.
I want to complain.

PS. ANYWAY I'M QUITE UPSET TO FIND OUT THAT MY BANDWIDTH HAS EXCEEDED AND I'M GUESSING LIKE WAYYYYY TOO MANY PEOPLE READ MY BLOG. SHEESH. DARN LAZY TO GO UPLOAD ELSEWHERE (PHOTOBUCKET SUCKS BALLZ) BUT I WILL GET DOWN TO IT SOMETIME THIS WEEK CAUSE I CANNOT STAND MY BLOG LOOKING UGLY BYEBYE GOODNIGHT SEE YOU TOMORROW LOVE XOXO! (:

I think I was too naive.
How could I ever have believed you? Badmouthing, hateful thing.

I've probably apologised more times than you could count.
What's this? You can do this to other people, but others can't do it to you? What's it to you anyway? You're not serious- you weren't serious, rather. If you were you wouldn't be like this now.

You know what this is? It's an Ego problem.
Perhaps I really should've completely punctured your happy bubble of pride. If you aren't happy with me, just come straight to me and curse. What are you trying to do now? Would this hurt me more?

And everyone, what the hell.
You really believe everything you hear, don't you.
For the believers: you really are too shallow.
If I reciprocate his feelings, i'm a whore. And if I don't, i'm a major bitch? What do you want me to do. What would you do? Are you saints?
Geez. I don't give a flying f--- even you're a J-fan; get a grip.
And in any case, it's my rep that suffers. It's amazing how I even have a rep and I really wonder who I should thank for it.

But i'll just shut up and take it.
I don't blame you. I just thought you were different.


And I thought it was all getting quiet and disappearing.

Anyway my bubble of joy hasn't been popped- I can't wait till March hols:D Or till Thursday/ Friday/ Saturday/ Sunday- if only I have time!
It's kinda funny how we're all acting up now. (: Ah, the things teenagers do. It's all good and fun to be young don't you think. Rebelling in our own secret little ways, revelling in the joy of new-found territory.

Dance pracs next week... scary.
But since it means more time with the very wonderful dancers, I am more than willing to forgo my bodily peace and mental capacity. (:
They're such warm bubbly crazy funny people don't you think.

While i'm left to ponder my values and valuable thoughts (hahahaha yeah riiiighttt).. ah heck it. Dinner's a-calling.

I am tres proud of myself cause I got my ass down to doing the damned Econs essay. (: Despite being in such a go-out-and-play mood today!

Auditions sucked lah the judges gave bad comments. But they give everyone bad comments... :/ Whatever. Met Mr Imran in a really tight tee hahaha and the rest of them since they auditioned too! (: And I was wondering what sort of dilemma he was having-_- CHEY!

Nat Yan me went to find Kenny Choong Lee (I am really hurt lah) and Ding Xiang at City Hall for lunch. Practised the dance sets for a bit before Dicky and Kenneth magically appeared! :D Then we all went to eat and I pangsehed. (;
Heeheehee.
Bused home with Clement and then we walked around the neighbourhood and the stretch from my house down has like three temples. We should allocate our time to doing more meaningful things-_- Like um. Going to playgrounds and swinging. :D And STUDYING OMG.

Anyway that stupid boy is such a pangseh-kia. ):
But I will tryyyyy to tolerate and not beat the shit out of him.

Okay tomorrow I must:
Chase everyone for their photos for the contact list.
Go do my stack of tutorials.

Dang. JC workload = supermassive black mole.

Dancers. (:
Went out for dinner with Nat, Yan, Dicky, Kenneth, Leon, Choong Lee and Ding Xiang after dance till like.. 1030pm. Tried the WATERMELON BALLS whoa damn good. Thank you Ding Xiang for treating us! :D Next time we treat you k.
Talked about all things ranging from uh the female anatomy to fortune telling.
C.L.'s such an asshole and he's just biased against me- even the seniors agree with me. But he talks the most and the most entertaining things so we all just let him do whatever he wants lah-_-

SLUT was wayyyyy too sexy for his shirt. Hahahahhaha! And he was my double wacko partner so that was kinda funny:D Reuben the pon-kia went for bonding session and seriously i'm super impressed by him and his effiency lah.
Both productive and allocative leh. Maximum consumer utility man. (Not that I consume him) Plus he's the really cool type of guy who doesn't really give a shit whether you're female/ hemale/ shemale. Instead of all the guys acting cool and nonsense in front of girls:D

Tomorrow morning i'm going to be an alarm clock and wake people up to go for Talentime auditions. We're gonna screw ourselves twice over but let's have fun at it anyway:D I mean, how can ------ --------- not be fun! :D Hahahah I think it'll be just me and Nat but heck. Also planning to help DX and CL out with the dance sets so they don't get screwed when Zaki (re)appears. CL you should at least start being nice to me tyvm.

Good luck for XXX's climbing comp tomorrow(: I know you goooooooooooooooooood lah but please don't overdo it and get injured k. Pangseh King. (:

I think phones are the best inventions ever.


I'm falling in love with dance all over again.
Happy thoughts, happy girl. (:

Lum dee la da dum.
I'm home finally- gah what a long tiring day.
I realised I picked up "gah" from somebody. Ooooooops.

Hahaha I think Kor Woong's really quite cute and fun to tease:D So infer infer, you guessed my pastime for today. But secrets stay secrets!

I think I ought to be lauded for remembering all 4 sets of the Syf dance! It takes up such a large space in my brain D: Buttttt i'm sorta dreading tomorrow's prac since Ms W's gonna be around and she's... scary.

Super tired today cause intelligent me called up Mr (Sexy) Imran and talked till 2am. It's one of the most.. uh, direct conversations i've had in a while. But he's trying to be so mysterious so it's kinda funny lah(:
Stupid boy if you make fun of me some more.. you die. DIEE.

Anyway, thanks C(: For accompanying me and all. I completely forgot it's Mum's birthday tomorrow, so I got her a very very last minute gift!
And guess who we saw at Parkway..
Cai Miao! Who I didn't even recognise until she called me and I realised she was sitting right in front of me facing me like 1 metre away-_- Hahaha her hair still soft soft one leh!

Okay big big problem Idk what to wear tomorrow cause you should know my wardrobe has a grand total of only two normal teeshirts that i'd allow myself to be seen in- the rest being tanks and camis and tunics. And seems like Nick and Clem have somehow managed to gang up and they tell me "polo tee and jeans" and so I think I might just hop onboard and go in "polo tee and jeans" too.
Eeeyeeer those two uh.
Was planning on going bung in a shirt and all but.. damn hot lah.

OKAY I AM GOING TO SLEEP EARLIER TONIGHT CAUSE IF NOT I'LL JUST DIE SERIOUSLY PLUS TOMORROW GOT DANCE.


Sometimes I wonder how it would be like if we were like the older times before things got complicated. And I want so much to ask: "How're ya?" "Where're you headed?" but apparently it must be so embarrassing to be seen even talking to me. I smirk at your attempts of carelessness but then again i'm really not surprised you don't even treasure our friendship.

I shan't rub it in but I suppose you should go think about why I said "no" in the first place. And remember the day you made me cry. That was the turning point dude.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Don't be upset. It's not worth being upset over.
(:
You're the star, after all. And I was just merely another one.
Such a long, bad dream you had. I could never make up for it.


Papa Roach - Scars.

We all need love.
And it would please me to no end just to hear something nice.
But I think that's a little too much to ask for sometimes. So I shall be contented with what I have and no matter how black my face might look... I thank you. For trying and for tolerating. And for being so cute that I occasionally forget why i'm even angry (when i'm angry) and have the sudden urge to pinch your cheeks till you scream in pain.

Selena - Dreaming Of You

Because it hurts like hell; it's heart-wrenching to imagine what i'll feel if someone did that to me. And to you, you who has been so great to me.
I must be the cruelest, worst girl you've ever met.
Please hate me. Because I can't bear it any other way.

These tears are for you.
It's too late to do anything else.
It really hurts. But i'll take it quietly, alone.

To you:
Thank you for everything. You'll always be my very special friend. And I promise: i'll be around for you whenever you need me.

Yours sincerely, and always.

I'M THE ONE WHO WANTS TO BE WITH YOU
DEEP INSIDE I HOPE YOU FEEL IT TOO! :D


Yoooohooooooooo everyone! :D
I know it sounds so gay but i've been really high/happy these past two days I don't know why. I'm sure the dancers would know... with my butt-poking and what not. Boooooiiiinggggg! (That's the springy sound btw, don't know how to actually spell it- think King Koil!)

A3.raWr .Got Milk ? says:
i havent even had my 1st chem tit before
Noelle ; says:
...
Noelle ; says:
CHEM TIT.
Noelle ; says:
TIT.
Noelle ; says:
ANWAR.
A3.raWr .Got Milk ? says:
the i is next to the u.

I swear Anwar's super entertaining and nice and it's nice to talk to him. Talking about tits and tuts and u and i and all. Plus how he crashed OAC for no reason except that it looked fun and there are people he knows-_- But the log rope thingy right in the middle looks damn tough lah. Tried to do it a few times before but always fail.
):
I will go crash OAC one day too!

Dance today was pretty fun. Learnt the 4th set and I honestly can't remember anything now cause I kinda suck. Kinda sorta whatever. So because of people like me, we're having an extra practice on Thursday.. which means 4 dance practices this week, which means 4 times of bruising and knee-scrapping and skin loss.
Yeeeeouch!

I think i'm getting used to the lecture/tutorial mode and I pride myself for actually doing some of the tutorials(: Yay good job N! Tmr's pretty slack- no tutorials I THINK except PW and a few uh lectures. Btw, wth is contact time??
OH YARH, I announce my new Bff: Reuben! He's a dancer and he kept me company for most of the day since Yan wasn't around. Hahahah and we laughed at everything and everyone especially Shaun Pang and Benedict Choo and Earl.
Who went like.. (in chinese language in chinese)
"I want to be skinny. I don't like fats. But I don't like losing weight. I like to eat."
Hahahahhaha it sounded hilarious I swearrrr.

I think I became the 10th boy in my class can.
They think i'm the loudest girl, wth. ):

I think i'll just sleep through tomorrow.
(:

Had some time to kill, so I went with C, I, Z and T to the bus and they had some really hardcore (okay exaggerating) singing session. And they left us with some really disturbing parting words... like "PLAY SAFE UH!" "BE CAREFUL!" and etc. It's my retribution- I did the exact same thing to Hongbin. ): Hahahahaha KARMA OH NO.

Anyway after dance, C treated went with me to a romantic cheap candlelight hawker dinner(: The western was good leh. We had to wait 20 minutes for the dumb bus. It was dumb.

I sorta kinda miss talking to ------ leh.
Screw the weird timetables and how we never get breaks together. Okay actually two days only lah hahaha what am I complaining abouttt.
Anyway,
I'm in a good mood now. (:

Anyway heard a few rumours that were pretty funny..
About Imran and me. Hahahahahha eh how can like that lah!
(: But he's so nice. -goes soft.
Except that he kicked a cushion right straight to my left eye today. It hurt like F okay. I was tearing lah. Idiot aim me for hwat.
Coincidentally my left eye was the one that Clement's spit flew into when he was talking. Shit I think at this rate I sure kena infection lah.


YOURPENISWHERE.
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA.
(your pen is where lah.)

Because tomorrow looks really bad..
But really promising.
I'll go to school with a big bright smile on my face, and my toot toot backpack and my funny low ponytail hair (Lol alot of people not used to it leh) and a TIGHT rubberband so that it doesnt fly off during dance especially with all the doubles.

Anyway I'm a teeny, teeny bit jealous.
):
Of someone (obviously a girl).
And I feel like shit. ): I don't know why.

Why am I so superficial..
Why.

Anyway, Dance.
Fwoah today was fcking madness lah, dance until no breath wanna faint wanna roll over and die. And I was observing people.. I know a good dancer when I see one.
Was a beeeeet disappointed. A bit.

But moving on to brighter happier topics,
Choong Lee was like my entertainment for today. He's so funny during dance it's like a 3 hour abs workout lah:D Hahahah and I made many new friends with the dancers today, damn cool. Uh uh uh I remember names! A few lah. (: But I swear Choong Lee hates my guts or something lah. He doesn't even want to sit next to me! Hahaha then he always as kme why I laugh. Which makes me laugh more.

Yan's sick tomorrow how now brown cow):
Sigh my girl partner is gone and I will be alone.
Actually my CG's effin funny lah. Shaun/Phinton/Finton?? And EARL. Hahahahha and like Yuan Song wears his specs on his head like sunglasses and the girls are all damn cute I just keep laughing lah:D
"I have a phobia of fish".

And today you all saw a very rare side..
I was in an extremely high/happy mood and I went around hopping and skipping and yakking like mad. It was girly but really fun! :D Hahahah I don't know what happened today lah. Sunday's Crystal Jade too good already- maybe I should go eat more often.

Anyway what's the best mix for the yoghurt thingy thingo in school??
Yan's strawberry mango apple idk what else one tasted funny. Hmmmmmm and okay I know i'm boring and I always eat lemon chicken rice but I like what so not complaining and I think it's really funny that the guys in my cg are super punctual and they know where to go which is like a miracle considering guys are hardly ever like that if they're not geeky/ nerdy.

Okay I think it's a sign i'm tired and i'm so random I think sunny side ups are pretty and I wanna see a pretty boy tomorrow. I'm getting a doughnut for breakfast because I think someone's feeling generous and I wonder if I should go up to someone else and ask him what he really thinks cause everyone's telling me different things.


Bread - If.
The most beautiful song ever written.
(apart from Love Of My Life, maybe.)

The Good Old Days.
(Nat in the background is so cute right!)

The good old days where the only things worth my worry were my failing grades. Where i'd brush off every stare as though it were just a speck of dust. Where we'd all have fun just being together.

But i'm contented- we're happy now. (:
Perhaps i'm the only one with the occasional pangs of depression of emotional distraught but at least we're all together.

There are so many things you can be sorry for.
But should you be sorry for them?
I think it's a misunderstanding. But maybe I don't want to clarify it cause I don't want to continue hurting you. Perhaps I want you to let go. Perhaps you're too tired to hold on anyway. Perhaps.. it might've just been a mistake on your part.
Are you tired?
It's tough right. ):

If it's this, don't be sorry.

In the words of Sherwood..

Don't blink, don't close your eyes
And most of all don't apologise
It's me who's got the demons to wrestle now

There's a patch of blue in the stormy sky
A memory of a brighter time
Where everything wsa new, and less watered down
Before the summer turned to brown

Uh yes I love lyrics.

No matter what, I don't blame you for anything.
You're not obliged to, anyway. (: You've been so great to me- I just want to be there for you whenever you need me.
Sincerely.


-Editted.
Oh. Oh fuck.
So is that what you've been thinking??
Omg duh YES IT'S A MISUNDERSTANDING!
Omg Noelle you can be the dumbest girl in the entire universe.

Your actions contradict your words that contradict your feelings.

I asked her to stay but she wouldn't listen
She left before I had the chance to say, oh
The words that would mend the things that were broken
But now it's far too late, she's gone away

Every night you cry yourself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


On a separate note.. i'm bored.
Tomorrow's monday and in response to my unwillingness to go to school, I feel like doing something(s) way out of the line. Yet without actually breaking any written school rules.

-Knee lengthed socks aren't allowed.. so a few cm below the knee should be alright? I should go buy some neon pink ones or something like Anwar's candy stripe one. (:
And go pouf up my hair and iron my (LONG) bangs flat and go looking like some Jap.
-"Hair accessories should be kept simple"
Ha,ha,ha,ha,hahahaha I think I ought to be caught for my Mickey Mouse hairband (as named by many). Hopefully I don't get any anal teachers.
In fact I was planning to wear some thick obnoxious disco hairband to school tomorrow... Ooooooooooooooops.
-I might purposely sport some loafers or oxfords to school. (:
-Or cut up the tie and machine it into a bowtie and wear it. :D
(sounds like my kind of DIY plan huh! :D)

But because i'm not completely brainless.. I'm scared by the rest of the stuff under "Failure to Comply" and will only go as far as I can without geting caught. ): There goes my fun. Dang.

Anyway does anyone agree with me that the new shirt is fugly? The cut: terrible. It's baggy, it doesn't "fall" nicely and it poufs up. TG it's only full-u on wednesdays!

I think i'm going to die for math soon. I should really find some time between all the crazy SYF pracs to go for tuition. ): No wonder S found it hard to get through J1 cause of his canoeing.

The taste of your breath, I'll never get over
The noises that she made kept me awake
Oh
The weight of things that remained unspoken
Built up so much it crushed us everyday

I've got to stop thinking so much and get to bed before 1am every day or i'm going to die. I already feel like a zombie.
But it's kinda near-impossible to do. Sometimes I wonder (for hours on end) why i'm so caught up in all this and why I shouldn't just put a gun to either of our heads and pull the trigger. My self-esteem can't take anymore bashing.

Of all the things I felt but never really shown
Perhaps the worst is that I ever let you go
I should not ever let you go, oh oh oh

It's not over tonight
Just give me one more chance to make it right
I may not make it through the night
I won't go home without you


History. I snigger. The past is just meant to be the past- it doesn't define you, it doesn't determine your future.
I don't think I can put this away so easily. Depression looks inevitable. You're too selfish/ selfless. You don't really care bout what I feel.

J: I hope you're feeling okay today. (: Really really.

My Vday is like the worst lah. Hahaha okay fine i'm exaggerating.
Some people expect me out on some hot date with posh dining and some passionate lurrrrrrve-makin session but hell no. -_-
(I don't even have a date. And my halfdate's not hot.)

Firstly, I must thank a special somebody- Austin! (:
For completely cheering me up when I woke up. Dang if only you weren't busy huh. Although we met only like twice, i'm seriously touched. (:
Hope you had a happy vday!

Urgh, as you might've expected.. my plans to stay home and mug completely failed. A last minute arrangement led me out of the house and to Clement (The Asshole). (: I swear he's damn mean cause
1. He broke our promise to go out on Vday and went to arrange stuff with other people-_- Eh a man is as good as his word okay. You. ):
2. He didn't give me a present. (let alone flowers- hahahah)
3. He didn't buy me lunch (hello $3.50 only!) despite his pay.
4. He makes me say things I don't want to tell him.
D:

Butttttt, thank you for today(: For finding some time to squeeze me in (it was probably out of guilt though) and buying me milk. Eh after everything I said/ wrote you didn't actually say much lah. What's that supposed to mean! Answers boy, I want answers. -_- We'll go try the waffle buffet next time k.

You owe me. (: Alot alot.
Halfdate cause it's not the real thing lah.

Sent him to Ps (i'm such a gentleman) where he met everyone else and then I went home alone (he's totally not a gentleman). I'm kinda freaked out how everyone's openly displaying their love in public (eg wild kissing complete with hands tousling hair) today. It's no excuse- besides if you really want to do it then do it everyday lah. Some poor deprived adults might just get turned on and then go complain k. You never know.

Maybe that's why they complain so much about us youngsters.
Hmmmm.

Our timetable's completely disgusting.
I realise the vast difference between CGs that take MT and those that don't. How come one subject makes so much difference? -_- AND OMG I WANT TO COMPLAIN. My CG has PE after Computing and like so many of us don't take computing. ): So we go home one period later. Cmon spare a thought for us and fix pe on some other day lah-_-

I never knew there was computing in my cg.
In fact I never knew people actually take computing.
(seems like an unpopular subject)
D:

C's class ends earlier on 3 days and the same on 2 days.
It's really enviable.
Nat's class is about the same.
How could be be dismissed so late everyday): ): ):
I'm in agony.
Siaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan.

Okay anyway Mum's really upset about her new haircut.
Actually her haircut's nearly always the same just that she makes a fuss about it all the time and makes it sound different. But well this time it's really a bit different and it's.. not so nice. Well clearly my dad doesn't care because he likes long hair and my mum has been cropping since before I was born.
Point is- her hairstylist sucks.

And we had a conversation during dinner..
D: Vday's the worst day to eat cause they just dump a set menu and on normal days you can get ala carte so much cheaper and nicer.
M: It's just like eating on New years. Ah. We should like celebrate Vday like two days before or after.
N: Like how?? "Hey it was valentine's day yesterday, let's go out and eat!"
-_-
Hahahaha I swear it's practical but it's funny right!

Anyway right now i'm shopping cause HT's having a mad mad sale ah omg! :D :D :D :D and I got that brother of mine to buy some things too heehee very happy very accomplished and there goes my scholarship money! D: D: D: D:

PS. IMY.

Tomorrow is a Stay At Home And Mug My Ass day.
SAHAMMAO.
If I can commit to my homework. I will try my best(:

Stupid brother just dropped his plans to go running with me. For once, ONCE I agree to go running with him but then he pangseh. Thanks alot Shaun. -_- You owe me super alot can.

Today I think I went a little bit weird.
I seriously don't know where the huge appetite came from. But I just felt like I needed something to do and that nothing was being absorbed into my system so I downed the second plate of chicken rice and finished the bottle of green tea. Or perhaps I was just pissed.
Why how at what- I don't know exactly.

But i'm sure you get the vague idea.

It was fun though, hanging with the group(:
We had such a laugh over Denise and Yan being entirely clueless about "69". It was thrown into some pickup line whereby you + me = 69.
Hahahaha and they kept asking! :D

If you have things to say, say it then. It's not as though letting it out would kill you or something right?

Caught up with Rachel Seah! :D
Man I miss sec 2 days man!
We did the craziest stupidest shit.
I remember how we would sing HSM every recess complete with imaginary mics and dance moves and Troy's defecating facial expressions. And the time ------ put liquid paper on the teacher's chair and Mdm Goh sat right on it with her new expensive black trousers. Yikes:D
It's kinda sad to lose touch with your friends. ):
Or worse, to fall out with them.

Went out with J to get some flowers after that. Valentine's Day is just another corporate scam because you should find time to surprise your loved ones as frequently as you can, not only on Vday!
But then i'm such a hypocrite cause I like Vday presents. (:



I'm concerned about J.
Shit i'm so so sorry- I wasn't sensitive (at all) and I vaguely remember saying some mean stuff and I really wish you'll feel better quick because I miss the noisy happy J and there's no reason for you to be upset!
Gah I'll piggyback you if it makes you feel better? D:


Didn't run for RR.
And perhaps I was feeling just a little bit too nice cause I was waiting but as usual, it was completely ignored and in vain.
Should've just went off, really. All I wanted was to smile and give a pat on the shoulder. Yeah but why should he want it when he's got the rest of the world to do it-_- What a friend.

Then it kinda hurts me to know that you can't rely on such people.
"No time", but what's with all the outings?
I really don't want to say anything because I know i'll probably explode. It really isn't worth the while since your insides are all rotten.

Don't be such a hypocrite. Don't give me excuses.
Go out and have fun with everyone else.
I don't want to care anymore.
You can fool everyone, but not me. I look right through you. I know what you're thinking. And since you don't have the strength or courage or dignity to do anything, just forget it. Why hesitate? It's not important, clearly.

What concern? I don't need your pity nor concern.
I'm cold-hearted, after all.

Okay now i've just added more things onto my chest that I need ot get off. Great-_- I should go find a punching bag. Something that screams but stands still and lets itself get hit.

Oh by the way, a huge warm thank you to everyone who wished me a happy vday! The presents (few but so cute) meant alot to me. (: And so I made sure I had something in return to give- hope you all liked the flowers! Because they made me feel so happy and I thought that it would brighten your day up too.


Note:
Tonight's a fucking bad night to mess with me cause i'll just laugh at your stupidity. Who else actually bothers with anonymous taggers? I think you're all just a little bit deprived of fun and maybe you get criticised so much so you come here to let loose.
Whatever the case is, I advise some cold water on your head because it clears your brain of silly thoughts that make you look ugly and wakes you up so that you can actually think. That said, go find something meaningful to do.

Today is superrrrr tiring can.

I'm getting the impression people come to read my tagboard instead of my blog but I guess it's not very important because the important people (to me at least) read the more important part of my blog which is really, the type of crap i'm typing now.
(:

I'm quite sick of the gossip so I shall a deaf eye and a blind ear to all the muttering and pointed fingers and stares. As should you. (:

K I admit I was really lazy to go for dance... Wanted desperately to go home and catch some shut-eye and mug up. But I went in the end- we learned more steps and I think anymore of it might just cause a blank out. C.L. was DAMN FUNNY- I cannot help but stare at him when he dances cause it's really very entertaining:D I think all of us deserve a big pat on the back for being so enthusiastic and all lah. (:

Oh yeah Nicole if you read this don't worry I wasn't buay song lah I was just very tired and stonish(: If only you were J1!

Bio lecture was probably the most memorable- with the tonnes of cold jokes which sent us into spasms (of laughter). But the pace was like VRRROOOOM and I think if I don't mug, i'm going to set my own ass on fire. D:

(kay i'm so busy tagging instead of blogging)

DID I TELL YOU I JUST GOT MY HEELS IN THE MAIL?? :D
They're freaking four inches lah. So sexy I could just faint.

It's quite fun speculating what nonsense comes up next. It gets a tad annoying sometimes.. because it's kinda dumb how some people can judge without actually knowing me. You know I don't mix well with girls. So that makes me a flirt? -_-
Good mathematics, JC students.

And you. The day you take pity on me is the day I'll hate you.
You are not that great. And I am not that pathetic.

Who are you to criticise? Who are you to care? Who are you who thinks you must be right? Who are you to mock? Who are you to deny your own sins?
There are many sides to a person. Haters show their worst. And it sickens me to think that some supposedly academically gifted students could be so morally stupid. Ugly society. The real world. Something we have to get used to?
Or something we have to change?

Zero proactiveness.
That's our society for you. Or most parts of it, anyway. Is it a sin to generalise at such times when the evidence is at our fingertips? Will more accusations come?
I question. Where is the fairness?
Where is your dignity, and your balanced judgement?
Where are the role models of our country? In front of the computer, hating? Sitting around the tables, bitching? I smile to myself.
At least, at least i'm not like that. (:
I am far from morally perfect but I'll tell you now that I am direct. And honest. I will not stand for cowardice.

That was some verbal vomit that I needed to get out.


To the boy:
Let's just be good friends- the way it used to be(: They don't know the joy we shared and the many times it hurt, but I know you still remember. So don't feel bad, don't regret. Don't be such an ass because it's not going to help.

Perhaps it's true what they say. And perhaps you'll be happier off with them. And perhaps I just wasn't made to fit into your world. Because perhaps you're not ready to accept me in.

How an entire day passed without a word.. I don't know.
Cold, cruel you.
And colder, crueler me.

I want to cry.
):
I've now got this super fugly bruise thanks to some cage which banged into me (stupid lah!) and it hurts like hell lorh. Worst, it's on my neck, and it was bleeding-_- Damn gross. I'll look super odd with a plaster on it tomorrow lah.

Tomorrow.
First time i'm wearing Tj uniform. Some teacher asked me today where my uniform was-_- Pick on me for what huh Mister! (But I thought he was quite cute) UHHHHHHHHHHHH anyway. I look damn cuckoo. You'll see tomorrow. ):
(At least my skirt isn't calf length.)

Today was.. bad.
Okay it was good until like the SC talk. Then it got awkward for me and I had to bite my tongue to stop any remarks and twiddle my fingers. I swear I couldn't take it. If I had the balls I would've stood up and ran off, far far away. Note to self: stick with the dancers. Nothing will go wrong that way-_-

It's so wrong to smile the whole day but feel like dung inside.
What am I supposed to do.
Not like I can run and hide. As much as I want to.

It got better after that. (:
Justin and I went to Subway!
I wanted to laugh at his reason for always, ALWAYS ordering a wrap
("It's not unglam!")
and i'm kinda turned off by his umm Healthiness. Cause i'm probably the most unhealthy girl who eats the most junk.

Fine so what if my Subway shat and looks unglam.
-_- Whatever luh.
All sandwiches are like that!

I want to complain.
In response to most of the things I say, I get a:
-Ma foot luh!
-Your head luh!
from Justin and it reflects on his superbly limited vocabulary and his accent. Ackkkcent. Hahahahahah like "my" becomes "ma".
Ma foot= horse foot. Eh it really sounds like that! D:

Honestly can't you be a liiiiiittle bit nicer and say:
Really?
Oh Noelle I didn't know! :D
OR
Oh my Gawd that is so cool. :D
OR
What a (pleasant) surprise! :D

Ha,hahahahahhahaha. The day I hear that from J is the day we girls all lose magically weight and attain a curvy 45kg, 1.70m figure or guys grow six-pecs and 20cm. -_- Okay but before that I think i'll laugh until I pee in my pants and faint. (:

That's a little bit gay.. actually.

Everything also my head, my foot, my ass. Wahlao.
You hoe. D:

Met my CG today, and I got elected as Treasurer.
NO ONE TOLD ME IT WAS A TWO YEAR JOB LAH. I GOT SCAMMED OKAY. WHAT THE HECK! ): OMG.
The guys in my class are DAMN funny. All a bit retarded but DAMN funny:D
Like:
"Hello. My Name Is Earl." :D
and alot I can't quite rmb. They seem quite cool so far. I'm.. contented(:

I think I need to start mugging.


I don't care about other things, but..
The next person who thinks J was the reason for the break up, go dunk your head in shit water. Don't you dare belittle C. Don't you fucking dare.

Don't assume you know me. You'd never know how bad that fall was.


I bite my lip. A thousand things I couldn't say.
You'll always have a piece of me.
Remember the better days- those that made you smile.
I didn't have the courage to say anything- I still don't- but I'll keep quiet because I only want the best for you. Someone more tolerant, someone nicer, someone prettier, someone who you can stand.
I'll just watch on, quietly.
And take whatever insults i've yet to be hurled.

I'm smiling.
Because I can deceive.
Because a smile is the last thing I want you to remember.

I'm going to get blue and black knees tomorrow thanks to all of Zaki's awesome choreo which bruised our knees to no end. SYF prac today was fun and braincell killing, sorta. But I guess most of my time there was spent looking at other people dance.
Set 1.5/ 5, done. (:

Looks can be so deceiving.

Some people look so nice but are such two-faced bitches, some people look so innocent but are nothing close to it, some people seem so cute but stab you so hard and get satisfaction from your bleeding.

Tjc's such a shallow, superficial, greedy place.
What's with all the hype and gossip? "It's life".
Ah why bother. We're merely pawns, just another form of entertainment. Forgive me for degrading myself to such a level.. But it's so blatantly true that people just need a topic to go on about and well who asked Justin to be so... soo... infamous!
And soon I think i'll be labelled a flirt, slut, bitch, whore, etcetcetc. Let's just be prepared lah. I need to go practise my bitch slap and my flirt wink in front of the mirror because you never know when the need might arise right.

Okay enough jokes.

I dread tomorrow. Oh Imran, I think I need some comfort. ):
Thanks for companying me today lah, I felt so so out of place.
Imran shirt-less sitting on a tree, K-I-S-S-I-N-G! :D
Whoots. (: hahaha don't whack me luh.

And of course.
Clement Tan. Shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh just forget it k. (:
Peace mann.

Tomorrow's timetable sucks. Really. And all the contact time and etc and what the heck, I think i'll sleep through most of it. I think i'd die if there was dance tomorrow. Roll over, shrivel up and cry. Hahaha and I don't want to go road run!
(Okay stop whining.)

I turned down Austin's offer to FOB today, I feel so bad! Sorry):
Alone on Vday. Dismal thought but it's time I wake up.
Presents. Ironic. So damned ironic. Don't want to think.

I'm trying my best not to give a fuck about you.
I can do it.
Because I am better than that.

You don't even know half of what I feel. Maybe not even a third.

On another planet...
Tsktsk. Everyone.
Don't get worked up. (;

★Justin don't leave me hanging says:
Rumour has it that I kissed your forehead.
★Justin don't leave me hanging says:
fking nonsense
Noelle ; says:
hahahahha thats better than i kissed your cheek right.
★Justin don't leave me hanging says:
ya but
★Justin don't leave me hanging says:
ANYHOW ONE

HA, HAHAHAHAH! Tj oh Tj, you disappoint me.
What'll we be hearing next? It's.. pretty amusing, actually.

I'm so sorry.
I didn't meant to hurt you in any way. I hope you're alright, I hope you aren't upset, and I hope you won't think about it and just go with the flow. Thinking when you're confused doesn't help at all):
I honestly don't know what I did to deserve a great guy like you. I feel so bad. Thank you for everything thus far. (: Really.

Tj Dancer.
Got into the SYF item. (:
Auditions were super tiring lah, must've did the sequence like 30 over times. But it's worth it since I have a PDP now. (:

Yan said this just now..
"Eh Noelle your boyfriend made it through dance auditions too!"
..
(she forgot the "Ex")
No C didn't audition- but his lookalike did! Hahah C.L. right. Made friends with him lah. And he got in and he's staying(: So fun.
I also officially met Jason today. (:
Shan't say more. Hohohohohohoho.

My shoes (heels) have arrived. :D
Fetish for hairbands/ hair ties getting obnoxious.

I'm going to distract myself with Econs and dance. Screw it.


Everytime I talk to you I feel like crying.
Why the fuck am I so stupid.

You don't even fucking want to.

Ps. J: I'm so sorry. Just give me time.

DingYuan the geek and the many others behind him. I swear this was the funniest photo all orientation man. (:

I think I slept a little too much today.
Missed going to the market this morning and ended up going at 11am.
Missed going back to the market to collect my skirts at 2:30pm.
(Shit I think I misplaced the 'receipt'!)
Missed parents and Ines leaving to go out for dinner.
Missed a surprise visit.

Actually it wasn't so surprising... Don't know why leh.

I asked my maid if she saw anyone walking past our house and she said she saw a bunch of guys who seemed drunk and I think they called her "Auntie!". Lol the way she said it was damn funny lah. (:

Auntie says you must put an aspirin tablet in the vase- I seriously don't know why but let's see if medicine keeps my flower from dying(: And also she says that you shouldn't give roses- I can't remember the reason- but it's like so common here so nevermind? Haha eh we should be lucky if we even get flowers these days lah. (:



To the person who spent $$ on this,
Got lost and had to take many buses to reach my place,
Put in his effort just to make me happy,
And left this lying prettily on my gate:

Thank you. (:

49 seconds.
It was so comforting to hear you again. (:
But are things still the same?

Cool-off period.

My shoelaces are all in a bunch and I keep tripping for you.
You're still the one I want. But.
...
Screw it. My sentences aren't very coherent.

6 days more.

DY is an expert system hacker- we found out the CGs of nearly everyone yesterday(: Haha and the results were only supposed to be posted tomorrow lah. It's really great to make nerdy geeky friends like DY cause he's really nice and helpful and etc!

I'm quite sad i'm leaving my OG and meeting a whole new bunch of people in CG 16/09. I think i'll miss everyone- although I don't do well with the names.


Just came home from O-night.
We rehearsed there from like 9 plus all the way to 5pm. With alot of slacking and the like in between but nvm. Met a few new people, but I must mention this awesome dude called Imran! He was playing the guitar for Tj Talentime and most of my afternoon was spent sitting down with him and singing/ yelling and being serenaded to.
-sighs happily.
And he, without any complaints whatsoever, gave me a really good shoulder rub nonstop for like 10 minutes and I made sure to ask for more throughout the rest of the day. But sadly I think someone's jealous of him lehhh. (:
Petty petty..

My feet are covered in blisters. Fuck.
And alot alot of people lost/ are losing their voices and so they sound really funny sexy.
Nat's damn cute can! :D

Breakfast with Clement was nice(: Except that we ate the super oily friend noodles (but nice leh) until damn gelat and I sorta lost my appetite after that.. Clement's cute hor. Even guys say so leh. (: Uh oh!

Justin got caught for his hair and was made to chop it off early or get 100000 points deducted, and so he's now ummm less shaggy. And he shaved two lines at the side of his head. Hahaha and immediately, I thought of my BABY A! :D Alisha I miss you lehz.

My item went fine, wasn't that funny nor boring.. But oh my God, 4 Headed Broadway was effin' hilarious mostly cause of Justin who was so completely uncreative and continued the song with "ooooh"s (complete with hip wiggling actions) and alot of "and"s. I laughed so hard I think they thought I went queer.

Most of the items caused me to stone.
...
Seriously.
Clem threw the orange glostick I got for him):
Damn mean lah that boy. But too bad I got soft spot for him lah.

Some semi-professional band came to play and there were okay except for our sucky tech support system which screwed their performance more than twice over. But it was really fun like singing and jumping and screaming etc. (:

J sent me all the way back since C was unavailable (and flirting). Tsk tsk. Showed him Nick's place and the two of them got a brief romantic midnight meeting. Mum managed to spy J from afar.

"Why he so free can send you back??"
"Don't know leh. Really don't know."
"He's not that hopeless leh. Quite decent. I thought you say your batch don't have, all nerd nerd CMI one?"
Ah technically he's not my batch. (:
And my batch has decent guys lah.. C lorh. There are a fewww decent ones but seriously none are very hot.

I should show her C and see what she says.


So i'd like to thank the following people for my wonderful day:
Clement, Anwar, Ahmed, Imran, Gnat, Vanessa, the SC members who helped out for the event and of course, Justin.
(:
Eh what the shit, he knows Dominique S.L. too leh! Omg.


From my newfound BFF. (:

Everyone, I have something to announce.
....

I AM SINGLE.

FUCKING SINGLE!


Yeah it's true.
Am I sad?
Umm. For more info, please ask me or Clement Tan directly. He's been converted from the boyfriend to the friend. Apparently like half the world including the whole of Tj know that we're together. How the heck?? But whatever. Not anymore lah.

Never mind, let's be friendly and not hold grudges k. (:

I just came home from Suntec and i'm super duper freaking damn tired cause everyone went crazy and got high while doing the mass dance- well actually not many people were doing the mass dance, most people were around around and it was really funny cause Adi and his other Indian friend played the traffic police and stopped people and kept blowing their whistles and basically it was just damn fun and I think I shouted myself hoarse but I don't think i'll lose my voice.

Phew.
(:

And I just got this forwarded email from Abi Tan and it had a photo in it which totally made me rofl omg Phoebe you're like the meanest OGL ever lah! Hahaha but super entertaining, nontheless(:

I met some really awesome people today. Ahmed, Anwar, Vanessa, Justin, etc(: Whoa I remember their names, so proud of myself plz. We had alot alot of fun rehearsing for tomorrow's O-night!
And so I got pretty close to Justin throughout the rest of the day, which was pretty cool despite him being an infamous flirt and famed for having a sickeningly sweet tongue. Well it's not that true lah, he's a pretty decent guy. (: And he reminds me a hell lot of Andrew. Same hair, same build, same shoes, etc?

Tomorrow's the big day and I am freaking out because i'm not a comedian (At all) unlike my fellow friends and I hope I don't screw up. I'm missing out on mass games and all that shit but I guess it's okayyyy since I have good company. (: And I really don't know what i'm gonna wear lah. So vain right? Hahaha sorry luh, can't be helped.


The more I hear, the more I doubt.
Are you getting sick of it?
What am I in it for, anyway?

Because I and my nice, concerned smses are being ignored,
this is for you.



If this look looks familiar to you..
You've been staring at MY FRIEND TOO MUCH.

D:
TOO MUCH LAH YOU ALL.
How can like that tsktsk shame shame on you.

(That was taken quite some time ago when I was bored and being ignored on MSN. And I really wonder why lorh.)

He has a habit of doing that face (only more exaggerated) to me when I say some stuff. Like when he's feeling all omg noooo what did I do again why is Noelle like that again! Oh fuck i'm screwed or no no no no don't say it! or shit! etcetcetc. Next time i'll whip out my camera and take photo then I show all you people what you're missing out on. (; Hahahaha!
I simply am unable to show you the exact imitation because for one, My Eyes Are Big. And for two, he's seriously a classic comedian.


Oh.
Oh I am being ignored no longer. (:

I am so tired.
D:

Orientation's getting fun(: And really busy and tiring. But i'd continue blaming myself for being so terrible with names- I cannot remember half of the names of my fellow OGMs. And those whose names I can remember.. are mostly guys.
BUT I KNOW FACES.
(:

Sorry lah, I talk to the girls but they all are pretty square and guai (first sheng, mind you) and they all seem more or less similar. And they stay on one topic for ages- usually the topic Nicole and I were previously on.

Samantha Oei has since left us for the almighty Vjc.
Well screw it.

And there's a price to pay for being outgoing and sociable.. You get sabo-ed for many things. ): So yes, i'm stuck with performing for O-night.
WHOSE LINE IS IT ANYWAY (: (Questions Only)
It's such a Wonderful thing how and why I got selected and such a terror that i'm the only one representing my noble clan, Verelda.

The audition for it this morning was average, didn't think i'd make the cut at all cause all I did was.. tell a joke (a really urhrmmm pickup line) and act out two scenes (nearly kissing a guy but then he burps suddenly in your face) (boy was cross-dressing and dancing to Britney Spears when Mum walks in- I played the mum).
It was really funny actually:D To watch, of course. Not to.. yeah. Hahaha but like great job us! (: I think we did well.

And then I met a bunch of other group guys who i'll be seeing tmr for rehearsal. Hahah they weren't confirmed a spot but they were so excited about it and kept asking me how I got it and freaking out BECAUSE THEY WANTED IT.
Argh. I wanted to like give them my spot!

Shucks. Fry me already, won't you my dear friends.
):

I hate that skinny as hell Vs boy (Ding Yuan) for totally leaving me alone and gleefully sabotaging his chance of performing onstage alongside ME. ): How could anyone say "no" huh! So very upsetting right.

I think my OG has cool people.
(:
Might not be the most enthusiastic and lively butttt we have a fairly decent mix of people too. The rowdy boys who throw paper planes during talks, the bimbos (quite clearly shown), the nerds (APLENTLY) and some nice quiet sensitive boys.
I'm quite happy they know my name (cause I can't rmb theirs) and talk to me:D

But the guys there are..
....
.....
......
):
You sense my complete lack of excitement. Except of course for my (VERY) bipolar rockclimber friend Clem- he might cry if he thinks i'm not excited- and some, a very few number of J2s. Our batch...
....
.....
......
Ahyo.
-waggles finger.

I HEARD SAJC GOT FREAKING ALOT OF HOT GUYS CAN. SHIT. OMG WHAT AM I DOING HERE.
D:
Wahlao!

But i'm not complaining cause everthing went rather smoothly today. The boy wasn't a bitch this morning hahahahah (HE USUALLY IS) and for ONCE I was treated like a GIRL and not some rough gruff guy. (:
Plus I must say he looked damn cute with his (actually 'my' would be more apt) hairband and rolled up sleeves walking around holding a fluorescent pink poster for Tj Rockclimbing. Haha so fast fit in already huhhh! Eeeyeer.

And as for me..
My plans are:
-BCME, all H2.
-Dance.
-Maaaybe run for House Council. (:

Not joining Muay Thai, Chamber (????) Ensemble or Student Council, tyvm. If they had Wing Chun.. I might consider. Ip Man is the shitz.

And so i'm falling hopelessly for my darling OGLs who make my life so terribly hell AND JOYFUL AND HIGH. Heh heh heh(: And if not for Nicole, I would be stuck loning. For the next two years. I'll queue with you tomorrow at the bookshop to attack back at the uniform aunties.

Because I just don't mix with people that well. :/

Tomorrow- rehearsal for O-night at 8am (dreading), heading to Suntec in the late afternoon for our fun fun mass dance! :D

And I have to say this..
I'm happy I get to see, even if only fleeting glances, my hugging partner boy everyday. (: Even with everyone around and yada.


Till I find energy to blog again.
Love you kiss you bye.

Day 1 was tiring and boring and average.

Samantha Oei and Nicole Yap were my main company for the day (thank you my dears) until I made friends and shook hands with a Ryan Lee and a guy who's really named Bagus. The OGLs are warm and friendly- especially that Diana girl. The once-in-a-while-mentioned EQ was.. slightly awkward. (:

My OG's certainly not the most enthusiastic.. well except the few rowdy boys. And of course that skinny as hell VS boy who probably lives on twigs and leaves and seeds and has blood group AB and I know this because he announced it to EVERYYYYONE. -_-

Don't try so hard to be liked. That's my rule.

I got to see my Ashley alot today. I think i'll buy her a pack of strepsils- at the rate she was getting hyper, i'm quite sure she's already down with a sore throat.

Then some upsetting incident happened and I don't really want to think anymore.

One word.
Respect.

It'll get you through everything smoothly.

MENTMENT.
D:
I'm in a slight state of panic.
Just, slight.

What to wear?
What shoes? Socks?
What earrings?
How to tie my hair?

Oh God. Yes i'm very self-conscious on the first day.

To the point that someone accused me of having OCD.
D:

So my bag's finally packed.
I know someone's going to look like he's going for camp tomorrow.. Extra shirt, TOILETRIES, climbing gear... You think what, OBS meh? -_- Hahaha I shall go watch C climb! (:
Then again I envy such people. They're at ease already, so naturally. And I still have to.. make new friends.
-gulp.
That's scary. ):

I'm a little bit anti-social.
Strange but true.

At least Nick can ferry me to school. (: Hahaha if he drives off without me.. i'm going to fucking murder him. Hohoho. Bet he's so happy lah!

Hmmm.
Okay u've got to seriously STOP spending.
I will limit my spending to..
School stuff.
Shoes, hairstuff, bags, and that's it.

K gotta get myself to bed before 12 tonight or i'm going to faint tomorrow. Seriously.

Someone sucks at integration lah. (:
I'm packing in my lucky pencil because it keeps me calm.
Sigh.

Goin' Where The Wind Blows.