The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking,
And i'm tangled up in you.
Met a few new interesting people today.
(: Tkss people are damn bitchy I realise! Hahahaha who knew guys could be like that tskkk. But it was kinda fun finding out what has been going on. Perhaps the other side doesn't have grass that green after all.
I survived today even though I slept at 230! Omg, miracle. (:
Word is spreading damnnnn fast and it's starting to annoy me.
But in any case, it's secondary. (:
You know what's first.
Tonight has been the best night recently.
(:
Oh, I am happy.
Red
Thursday, April 30, 2009
You make me smile
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Why must you come make me hesitate at times like these?
(:
Hahaha oh but I know it's nothing.
You'll never know. (Good or bad thing?)
I suppose it'll just fade away soon again.
The last moments of a dying, flickering flame.
):
Okay will not think about it to avoid emo session. I get that warm fuzzy feeling but I just don't think there'll ever be any chemistry in thaaattt direction. ): And I sort of resigned to my fate a while ago.
(My rant partner is unavailable tonight and doing PI so I must be (: to encourage and all that you know!)
Nvm.
Chuck old, marry future, fuck present.
Hahahha chuck fuck marry who who and who uh!
Which brings my present worry about the future...
What should I do on Friday?
):
I don't wanna waste it.
"Life sucks" is something i'll never say.
(:
Although it seems the be the new happening phrase!
(I might think it but i'm not so pessimistic kkkk)
Anyway since everyone's reacting strongly against me going blonde... How's light brown/blonde mix? :D :D :D :D Plus i'll be beaching so i'll have the tan and the sun-streaked hair whoots I want!
Heeheeheeheeheheheheeeeex.
Btw, GP summary is damn tough omg I don't understand a thing O_O
(:
Hahaha oh but I know it's nothing.
You'll never know. (Good or bad thing?)
I suppose it'll just fade away soon again.
The last moments of a dying, flickering flame.
):
Okay will not think about it to avoid emo session. I get that warm fuzzy feeling but I just don't think there'll ever be any chemistry in thaaattt direction. ): And I sort of resigned to my fate a while ago.
(My rant partner is unavailable tonight and doing PI so I must be (: to encourage and all that you know!)
Nvm.
Chuck old, marry future, fuck present.
Hahahha chuck fuck marry who who and who uh!
Which brings my present worry about the future...
What should I do on Friday?
):
I don't wanna waste it.
"Life sucks" is something i'll never say.
(:
Although it seems the be the new happening phrase!
(I might think it but i'm not so pessimistic kkkk)
Anyway since everyone's reacting strongly against me going blonde... How's light brown/blonde mix? :D :D :D :D Plus i'll be beaching so i'll have the tan and the sun-streaked hair whoots I want!
Heeheeheeheeheheheheeeeex.
Btw, GP summary is damn tough omg I don't understand a thing O_O
Hope
Today... was so extremely embarrassing.
):
Geez i'm such a goose.
):
Okay that didn't make sense.
Haha seriously I feel damnnnn dumb can.
And I have a feeling many many people know): What the heck.
Ah yeahhhh big deal. ): I don't know why i'm so bothered by it either- i'll try to be less observant and sharp and put down the imaginary radar at the top of my head. I need to focus on... paying attention in lectures.
Dance exco interview.
Gah. I think I was in some really serious mood today.
.....
Sigh.
Anyway... I feel a tinge of OMG!
Samuel Ow's hair is... nice and long and emo.
Damn, i'm so going to cut my hair nicer than his. D:
I haven't seen him in ages. ): And ages and ages and ages.
My mind is running all over the place.
PWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPW.
Sigh. And i've got tons of Gp to do!
First US death from swine flu. Sighhh.
It's only time before it hits Singapore- knowing how many flights we have to and fro the West. Then i'll die first because I love roasted pork and I eat it so often you would be so shocked. The most unhealthy fattening thing ever I knowwww but the crispy part is... heavenly.
But if anything happens... i'll stop eating my pork.
Hahahhaha I suddenly remember our little conversation about me thinking too far ahead and scolding random people for their racist comments. ): Eh, it's not my fault k. (:
And I have this thing with "hot" and "pretty"-
I'd rather "pretty" over "hot" anyday.
Any girl agrees? Somehow.. there's a slight unpleasantness about it. I can't explain it very well but at least someone gets my point(:
Napping cause i'm really too tired.
Dinner, and major muggerfest on- tonight!
):
Geez i'm such a goose.
):
Okay that didn't make sense.
Haha seriously I feel damnnnn dumb can.
And I have a feeling many many people know): What the heck.
Ah yeahhhh big deal. ): I don't know why i'm so bothered by it either- i'll try to be less observant and sharp and put down the imaginary radar at the top of my head. I need to focus on... paying attention in lectures.
Dance exco interview.
Gah. I think I was in some really serious mood today.
.....
Sigh.
Anyway... I feel a tinge of OMG!
Samuel Ow's hair is... nice and long and emo.
Damn, i'm so going to cut my hair nicer than his. D:
I haven't seen him in ages. ): And ages and ages and ages.
My mind is running all over the place.
PWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPWPW.
Sigh. And i've got tons of Gp to do!
First US death from swine flu. Sighhh.
It's only time before it hits Singapore- knowing how many flights we have to and fro the West. Then i'll die first because I love roasted pork and I eat it so often you would be so shocked. The most unhealthy fattening thing ever I knowwww but the crispy part is... heavenly.
But if anything happens... i'll stop eating my pork.
Hahahhaha I suddenly remember our little conversation about me thinking too far ahead and scolding random people for their racist comments. ): Eh, it's not my fault k. (:
And I have this thing with "hot" and "pretty"-
I'd rather "pretty" over "hot" anyday.
Any girl agrees? Somehow.. there's a slight unpleasantness about it. I can't explain it very well but at least someone gets my point(:
Napping cause i'm really too tired.
Dinner, and major muggerfest on- tonight!
Toppings
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
I have a sudden random urge to go out.
And as of now, I have 3 people I really really want to go out with. ):
1. Clubbing/ drinking/ party partner!
2. Favourite Boy.
3. Last but not least... Lym. ):
For some reason, I really miss Lym, although it's only been over a week. ): Hurry faster plan another movie date or something pleaseee.
It's just comforting luh(: And your blog posts make me laugh even though it's about what else but rugby... -______-
Let me pick out one of my favourites.
A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done. The monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. if I start to get nervous, I take a sip."
So next Sunday he took the monsignor's advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a storm.
Upon his return to his office after mass, he found the following note on the door:
1. Sip the Vodka, don't gulp.
2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J. C.
7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior and the Spook.
8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.
9. When David was hit by a rock and was knocked off his donkey,don't say he was stoned off his ass.
10. We do not refer to the cross as the "Big T."
11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this and eat it for it is my body." He did not say "Eat me"
12. The Virgin Mary is not called "Mary with the Cherry,"
13. The recommended grace before a meal is not: Rub-A-Dub-Dub thanks for the grub, yeah God.
14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter's, not a Peter pulling contest at St. Taffy's!
Omg. :D
HAHAHAHHAHA.
I'm quite dreading tomorrow.
Cause there's chinese test (how to study for it!) and...
Exco interviews.
Good luck. I think we all need it.
Okay really i'm going to go back and try and research.
After my A's, i'm going to join the education ministry and abolish Pw FOREVER AND EVER. AND EVER!
(If I have nothing else left to do.)
And as of now, I have 3 people I really really want to go out with. ):
1. Clubbing/ drinking/ party partner!
2. Favourite Boy.
3. Last but not least... Lym. ):
For some reason, I really miss Lym, although it's only been over a week. ): Hurry faster plan another movie date or something pleaseee.
It's just comforting luh(: And your blog posts make me laugh even though it's about what else but rugby... -______-
Let me pick out one of my favourites.
A new priest at his first mass was so nervous he could hardly speak. After mass he asked the monsignor how he had done. The monsignor replied, "When I am worried about getting nervous on the pulpit, I put a glass of vodka next to the water glass. if I start to get nervous, I take a sip."
So next Sunday he took the monsignor's advice. At the beginning of the sermon, he got nervous and took a drink. He proceeded to talk up a storm.
Upon his return to his office after mass, he found the following note on the door:
1. Sip the Vodka, don't gulp.
2. There are 10 commandments, not 12.
3. There are 12 disciples, not 10.
4. Jesus was consecrated, not constipated.
5. Jacob wagered his donkey, he did not bet his ass.
6. We do not refer to Jesus Christ as the late J. C.
7. The Father, Son, and Holy Ghost are not referred to as Daddy, Junior and the Spook.
8. David slew Goliath, he did not kick the shit out of him.
9. When David was hit by a rock and was knocked off his donkey,don't say he was stoned off his ass.
10. We do not refer to the cross as the "Big T."
11. When Jesus broke the bread at the Last Supper he said, "Take this and eat it for it is my body." He did not say "Eat me"
12. The Virgin Mary is not called "Mary with the Cherry,"
13. The recommended grace before a meal is not: Rub-A-Dub-Dub thanks for the grub, yeah God.
14. Next Sunday there will be a taffy pulling contest at St. Peter's, not a Peter pulling contest at St. Taffy's!
Omg. :D
HAHAHAHHAHA.
I'm quite dreading tomorrow.
Cause there's chinese test (how to study for it!) and...
Exco interviews.
Good luck. I think we all need it.
Okay really i'm going to go back and try and research.
After my A's, i'm going to join the education ministry and abolish Pw FOREVER AND EVER. AND EVER!
(If I have nothing else left to do.)
Rant Session
On all days you choose to bother me today.
When i'm in a really bad mood and rushing out my PI I have to deal with this sort of nonsense? Think whatever you like, readers. I've had enough of trying to change stubborn opinions- they're losing out on the truth. Once you know me... (: Hahaha.
I should just convert lah.
And turn lesbian.
Oh, i'll be known as the Tjc lesbian.
Then I'll turn nerd.
Then i'll be known as the Tjc nerd (whoa not too bad actually).
And next i'll go for a sex change.
And i'll be the Tjc tranny?
Or i'll gain 30kg by eating 15 meals everyday.
And be known as the Tjc fatty?
Puhlease.
Grow up people. -_-
How old are you, five???
My goodness it's damn disgusting how Tj can have such people lah. You know, it's probably alot better being a major bitch than being a brainless git. Really. Some serious cost-benefit analysis needs to be done.
Besides, i'm just some girl who has rather strong and not so normal opinions on many things. It's always more interesting to let them out right. I don't see why there should be any fuss. Then again, there's hardly anything interesting enough to fuss about here...
And if you want to make some din,
Get your damned facts right.
Two weeks with a really close guy friend does not make anyone a flirt (or a slut). ESPECIALLY SO since nothing happened and for Pete's sake, stop the retarded gossip about the 'lovebite' because there wasn't one.
-_-
O.m.g. Exasperated.
Plus, name me ONE guy i've dated in Tj. ONE.
(C ain't counted duh.)
In my next lifetime, I want to be a great white shark.
You know exactly what I would do.
(:
Speaking of which i'd like to start a petition against miniscule food portions in school. For lunch today I was completely unsatisfied with $2 wanton mee and had to order an extra bowl of lor mee. Yup I eat like a man. (: (or maybe more than the average man) Heh heh hehh that's a bit scary right. ):
Anyway it seems like my... uh, object of attention is becoming increasingly obvious. Gah but really lah it's just what I call physical attraction- nothing more. Well it's really not my fault that some people have really nice, pleasant features right.
The more I hear, the more tempted I am. He seems like he has the personality to match the looks, no? (:
Clement you are soooooo not helping me! Heeheeeex it's not funny k. (: I'm so bloooody embarrassed lah. I think you're gay. (: Nvm, I heart fags. Heeheeeeheheheheeee! But don't fight with me k!
Okay back to Pw.
I am so screwedddd I need to come up with something!
When i'm in a really bad mood and rushing out my PI I have to deal with this sort of nonsense? Think whatever you like, readers. I've had enough of trying to change stubborn opinions- they're losing out on the truth. Once you know me... (: Hahaha.
I should just convert lah.
And turn lesbian.
Oh, i'll be known as the Tjc lesbian.
Then I'll turn nerd.
Then i'll be known as the Tjc nerd (whoa not too bad actually).
And next i'll go for a sex change.
And i'll be the Tjc tranny?
Or i'll gain 30kg by eating 15 meals everyday.
And be known as the Tjc fatty?
Puhlease.
Grow up people. -_-
How old are you, five???
My goodness it's damn disgusting how Tj can have such people lah. You know, it's probably alot better being a major bitch than being a brainless git. Really. Some serious cost-benefit analysis needs to be done.
Besides, i'm just some girl who has rather strong and not so normal opinions on many things. It's always more interesting to let them out right. I don't see why there should be any fuss. Then again, there's hardly anything interesting enough to fuss about here...
And if you want to make some din,
Get your damned facts right.
Two weeks with a really close guy friend does not make anyone a flirt (or a slut). ESPECIALLY SO since nothing happened and for Pete's sake, stop the retarded gossip about the 'lovebite' because there wasn't one.
-_-
O.m.g. Exasperated.
Plus, name me ONE guy i've dated in Tj. ONE.
(C ain't counted duh.)
In my next lifetime, I want to be a great white shark.
You know exactly what I would do.
(:
Speaking of which i'd like to start a petition against miniscule food portions in school. For lunch today I was completely unsatisfied with $2 wanton mee and had to order an extra bowl of lor mee. Yup I eat like a man. (: (or maybe more than the average man) Heh heh hehh that's a bit scary right. ):
Anyway it seems like my... uh, object of attention is becoming increasingly obvious. Gah but really lah it's just what I call physical attraction- nothing more. Well it's really not my fault that some people have really nice, pleasant features right.
The more I hear, the more tempted I am. He seems like he has the personality to match the looks, no? (:
Clement you are soooooo not helping me! Heeheeeex it's not funny k. (: I'm so bloooody embarrassed lah. I think you're gay. (: Nvm, I heart fags. Heeheeeeheheheheeee! But don't fight with me k!
Okay back to Pw.
I am so screwedddd I need to come up with something!
):
Monday, April 27, 2009
It's what we go to school forrrrr.
What do we go to school for?
-Stare at hot teachers. (Who uh who uh)
-Stare at hot boyssss. (: Or girls.
-Be stared at.
-Look good.
-Nothing else better to do.
-A reason for spending money.
-Mix with your favourite company.
-Interesting social politics.
-Look for your future partner. (TaiTai wannabesssss)
-Turn vegetarian. (HAHAHA)
-Eat yoghurt.
-Complain about bad canteen food.
-Hamster Race.
-Bitch about teachers.
-Pon lessons.
A few of the many things we do.
School is so wonderfully fun.
(:
(My arse.)
I kinda like how econs make-up lesson turned out today.
Man, I love roasted pork rice lah I know it's the most fattening thing but the crispy part is damn good! Had my second lunch with Shaun outside school and we didn't even get anything from the teacher.
Well done friend.
And that...
Was the highlight of my absolutely boring day.
But I had a bit of time with ----- so i'm happy. (:
Note to self: Don't ever share drinks with him. Seriously.
Heeheeheeeeeee I want a songgg. You play and I sing leh!
Damn fun:D Okay veh random.
My goal, for the year:
TALK
TO
HIM.
(:
I actually think I won't succeed but... sigh. It's good to have goals. Maybe i'll someday be able to raise a hand, smile and wave. I'll be contented with myself if I can do that k! (So pathetic I knowww)
I'm becoming some super shy mouse who blushes like mad at the mere sight/ mention of.. you know who. ): Omg. I'm becoming obsessed but I can't do anything about it. ): Where are my guts!
Ohmygod, he doesn't want to talk to me. ):
What do we go to school for?
-Stare at hot teachers. (Who uh who uh)
-Stare at hot boyssss. (: Or girls.
-Be stared at.
-Look good.
-Nothing else better to do.
-A reason for spending money.
-Mix with your favourite company.
-Interesting social politics.
-Look for your future partner. (TaiTai wannabesssss)
-Turn vegetarian. (HAHAHA)
-Eat yoghurt.
-Complain about bad canteen food.
-Hamster Race.
-Bitch about teachers.
-Pon lessons.
A few of the many things we do.
School is so wonderfully fun.
(:
(My arse.)
I kinda like how econs make-up lesson turned out today.
Man, I love roasted pork rice lah I know it's the most fattening thing but the crispy part is damn good! Had my second lunch with Shaun outside school and we didn't even get anything from the teacher.
Well done friend.
And that...
Was the highlight of my absolutely boring day.
But I had a bit of time with ----- so i'm happy. (:
Note to self: Don't ever share drinks with him. Seriously.
Heeheeheeeeeee I want a songgg. You play and I sing leh!
Damn fun:D Okay veh random.
My goal, for the year:
TALK
TO
HIM.
(:
I actually think I won't succeed but... sigh. It's good to have goals. Maybe i'll someday be able to raise a hand, smile and wave. I'll be contented with myself if I can do that k! (So pathetic I knowww)
I'm becoming some super shy mouse who blushes like mad at the mere sight/ mention of.. you know who. ): Omg. I'm becoming obsessed but I can't do anything about it. ): Where are my guts!
Ohmygod, he doesn't want to talk to me. ):
First Class
Sunday, April 26, 2009
Am taking a break from PW.
D:
Omg, I hate PW! ): Am so blooooody screwed for my PI, but our GPP is looking good. Heh heh heh job well done everyone, love you all lots(:
It's one of those annoying days where I feel like spending money. F21 calls meeee. ): Which reminds me.. I need a new dress. A decent, everyday dress. (Someone would disagree and tell me that I already have many dresses, no need to spend money, "RICH GIRL" etcetcetc! Heeheehee.) Ah well. ):
);
And I need a new swimsuit for June hols and my beaching.
(I need to even out my horrendous teeshirt and sock tans!)
And new make-up. ):
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
It's time to join the TTS!
TTS stands for Tai Tai Society.
Which was recently set up and chaired by who else but Adeline! Hahahahahaha she put that down on her freaking namecard (you know the one for civics) and the most hilarious part?
THE MOTTO!
Which was:
Find. Marry. Enjoy.
Oh my God I soompa that's the funniest thing i've heard in a while k! (: I've secret aspirations to overthrow the management and head the society! HAHHHAHAHAH okay enough. It shall be kept secret(;
Okay I sort of regret being a good girl last night.
And not going out. ):
I don't like pangsehing people plus it would've been so fun since I would've had good company! I haven't done anything naughty in MONTHS okay. No drinking, no clubbing, no nothing. ): My party animal is terminally ill with thoughts of PW PW PW PW PW PW... and tutorials.
I'm so sorry you!
(about Friday's pangseh too)
We'll have fun next time k. (;
Anyway.
Perhaps I should surrender my mission to be a good girl.
And start dating again.
Because certain things are too good to miss.
):
Ah well!
Not like I stand a chance anyway, especially not when I don't plan to do any chasing. I've decided to start being less of a modern girl (which = guy) and sit back, relax, and wait! Hahahahah oh my gosh what a bum I am. But i'm scared of rejection leh. );
But knowing that I possess higher than the average girl level of testosterone... whatever I just said is probably bullshit. Ooooops.
To you:
Please don't be ): anymore and dao me. ): I'll be very very sad. I treasure, and am contented with, whatever we are right now. (: So don't feel bad nor obliged. You know I can't stay mad at you anyway!
OH RIGHT and I currently have another urge..
I want to go blonde.
No freaking joke.
Okay maybe not platinum blonde, but um.
Ah. Picture in next post!
Upcoming holiday goals:
-Even tan.
-Blonde hair. (or maybe just some extreme streaking)
-Hot(ter) bod. (means.. work out!)
GO ME! (:
Forgive me for the bimbo post, am going to help cook dinner!
(:
WHAT IS WITH EVERYONE'S MSN GETTING INFECTED ):
D:
Omg, I hate PW! ): Am so blooooody screwed for my PI, but our GPP is looking good. Heh heh heh job well done everyone, love you all lots(:
It's one of those annoying days where I feel like spending money. F21 calls meeee. ): Which reminds me.. I need a new dress. A decent, everyday dress. (Someone would disagree and tell me that I already have many dresses, no need to spend money, "RICH GIRL" etcetcetc! Heeheehee.) Ah well. ):
);
And I need a new swimsuit for June hols and my beaching.
(I need to even out my horrendous teeshirt and sock tans!)
And new make-up. ):
$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$$
It's time to join the TTS!
TTS stands for Tai Tai Society.
Which was recently set up and chaired by who else but Adeline! Hahahahahaha she put that down on her freaking namecard (you know the one for civics) and the most hilarious part?
THE MOTTO!
Which was:
Find. Marry. Enjoy.
Oh my God I soompa that's the funniest thing i've heard in a while k! (: I've secret aspirations to overthrow the management and head the society! HAHHHAHAHAH okay enough. It shall be kept secret(;
Okay I sort of regret being a good girl last night.
And not going out. ):
I don't like pangsehing people plus it would've been so fun since I would've had good company! I haven't done anything naughty in MONTHS okay. No drinking, no clubbing, no nothing. ): My party animal is terminally ill with thoughts of PW PW PW PW PW PW... and tutorials.
I'm so sorry you!
(about Friday's pangseh too)
We'll have fun next time k. (;
Anyway.
Perhaps I should surrender my mission to be a good girl.
And start dating again.
Because certain things are too good to miss.
):
Ah well!
Not like I stand a chance anyway, especially not when I don't plan to do any chasing. I've decided to start being less of a modern girl (which = guy) and sit back, relax, and wait! Hahahahah oh my gosh what a bum I am. But i'm scared of rejection leh. );
But knowing that I possess higher than the average girl level of testosterone... whatever I just said is probably bullshit. Ooooops.
To you:
Please don't be ): anymore and dao me. ): I'll be very very sad. I treasure, and am contented with, whatever we are right now. (: So don't feel bad nor obliged. You know I can't stay mad at you anyway!
OH RIGHT and I currently have another urge..
I want to go blonde.
No freaking joke.
Okay maybe not platinum blonde, but um.
Ah. Picture in next post!
Upcoming holiday goals:
-Even tan.
-Blonde hair. (or maybe just some extreme streaking)
-Hot(ter) bod. (means.. work out!)
GO ME! (:
Forgive me for the bimbo post, am going to help cook dinner!
(:
WHAT IS WITH EVERYONE'S MSN GETTING INFECTED ):
Ouch
My eyes are like fishballs now. ):
I can't even open them properly.
I guess i've got to stop.
You're not an ass, you aren't a screw up.
You're the most wonderful person I could ask for, really.
And I try to be as nice to you as I can.
It's just me.
I can't even open them properly.
I guess i've got to stop.
You're not an ass, you aren't a screw up.
You're the most wonderful person I could ask for, really.
And I try to be as nice to you as I can.
It's just me.
Mhouse, II
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Pix.
For more, head to Facebook.
Blogger picture uploading takes freaking long. ):
See those unslightly bulges of muscle! );
My favourite boys.
Can't resist posting this...
OMG, i'm blacker than him! D: D: D: D: THE HORROR.
Nicole, Dingxiang, and favourite (fellow) bitch, Dicky!
Tj Dance! (: Or part of it.
Trish and Ashley.
Boobies!
My one and only dear pic with Jason..
And I find out that my camera sucks to the core without flash.
Nart.
From the nice bouncy curls at the start to this... bian bian hair!
Anwar the psychotic drunk perv lookalike.
I wonder who's fat hand that is.
(:
Feeling the aftereffects of dancing in 3-inches.
My feet still feel like they're dying. );
For more, head to Facebook.
Blogger picture uploading takes freaking long. ):
See those unslightly bulges of muscle! );
My favourite boys.
Can't resist posting this...
OMG, i'm blacker than him! D: D: D: D: THE HORROR.
Nicole, Dingxiang, and favourite (fellow) bitch, Dicky!
Tj Dance! (: Or part of it.
Trish and Ashley.
Boobies!
My one and only dear pic with Jason..
And I find out that my camera sucks to the core without flash.
Nart.
From the nice bouncy curls at the start to this... bian bian hair!
Anwar the psychotic drunk perv lookalike.
I wonder who's fat hand that is.
(:
Feeling the aftereffects of dancing in 3-inches.
My feet still feel like they're dying. );
Mhouse
Hello everyyyone(:
Yup, i'm quite happy that last night went fine. Except for some fucker who ruined my night... Seriously I feel like punching him but obviously knowing my limited strength, it would hurt as much as a mosquito bite. (They don't hurt.) Ah well...
And i'm proud to say that I didn't go shopping or anything but managed to put a retro outfit together. In fact i'd say I was one of the more dressed to the theme ones, but sadly it was a school night, and you can't expect much. (Look at C who came in his singlet and shorts)
PLUS i'm veryyyy proud of myself for managing to curl my hair:D Second time k!
And thank you to the many people who paid compliments and made my night fun. :D The party wasn't thaaat happening but i'm glad I mixed with the people I love! (: Heeheehee I was alot taller than alot of people. Damn freaking fun lah.
Thank you for providing me with all the comfort I needed last night. It was probably the most soothing, peaceful and pleasant moment I've had in a long while. (: You might screw up often enough with your jerk tendencies but you're still very important to me. (: It's things like these that make me go soft. Oooops.
I'll upload some pics tonight. When I get them from Ashley's (and whoever else's) camera!
Am quite sad cause I missed taking pics with a few people.
): Damn.
Yup, i'm quite happy that last night went fine. Except for some fucker who ruined my night... Seriously I feel like punching him but obviously knowing my limited strength, it would hurt as much as a mosquito bite. (They don't hurt.) Ah well...
And i'm proud to say that I didn't go shopping or anything but managed to put a retro outfit together. In fact i'd say I was one of the more dressed to the theme ones, but sadly it was a school night, and you can't expect much. (Look at C who came in his singlet and shorts)
PLUS i'm veryyyy proud of myself for managing to curl my hair:D Second time k!
And thank you to the many people who paid compliments and made my night fun. :D The party wasn't thaaat happening but i'm glad I mixed with the people I love! (: Heeheehee I was alot taller than alot of people. Damn freaking fun lah.
Thank you for providing me with all the comfort I needed last night. It was probably the most soothing, peaceful and pleasant moment I've had in a long while. (: You might screw up often enough with your jerk tendencies but you're still very important to me. (: It's things like these that make me go soft. Oooops.
I'll upload some pics tonight. When I get them from Ashley's (and whoever else's) camera!
Am quite sad cause I missed taking pics with a few people.
): Damn.
Eyecandy = Ding ding!
Wednesday, April 22, 2009
Instinctive.
Retainers are a bitch;
They hurt like hell.
Plus now I can't talk properly.
And I can't snack cause everytime I eat I have to take them off and then clean them and put them back on again. And knowing how much I snack... ): Perhaps it'll help keep my meals regular.
Maybe I should just chuck the retainers. Or just wear them at night. I can't imagine being in school with them);
Anyway, I can't believe I forgot to mention my most favourite part of 17 Again! (: If anyone watched and loved the song they played at the ending- WELL DONE.
It's one of my favvvvvourite songs,
Naive by The Kooks:D Awesome stuff they have!
I guess i'll just wear some normal boring outfit to Megahouse. Ah, I doubt many people will really dress up! No time luh):
Hahhahhaha yes lazy way out.
But i'll put in the extra effort to get the retro vibe k. Promise.
(Hint: CURLSSSS)
Ashley's all for the Twiggy (without the figure) look and i'll go vintageeee. (: But I think i'll be wearing my wedges.. which means i'll be taller than many guys. Oooooops(: Heh heh heh sorry I love my wedges!
Ashley darling, I think you're right. ):
I don't think we have anything in common. ):
But no he's not an idiot (I think)! ):
Omg. ):
Ding ding!
Dance tomorrow, dance on friday, maybe.
Looking forward to it I guess. (:
I really wanted to be held and comforted.
Seems like the aftereffects of last night haven't blown over.
But... well.
And i'm so going to wear my sexy-as-hell bandage skirt out asap. (:
Okay sorry random but it's seriously damn Fwoahhhhh k.
My lingerie fetish is reawakening); I fear for my bank account!
The Killers blasting in my ears= good feeling.
Sigh.
Retainers are a bitch;
They hurt like hell.
Plus now I can't talk properly.
And I can't snack cause everytime I eat I have to take them off and then clean them and put them back on again. And knowing how much I snack... ): Perhaps it'll help keep my meals regular.
Maybe I should just chuck the retainers. Or just wear them at night. I can't imagine being in school with them);
Anyway, I can't believe I forgot to mention my most favourite part of 17 Again! (: If anyone watched and loved the song they played at the ending- WELL DONE.
It's one of my favvvvvourite songs,
Naive by The Kooks:D Awesome stuff they have!
I guess i'll just wear some normal boring outfit to Megahouse. Ah, I doubt many people will really dress up! No time luh):
Hahhahhaha yes lazy way out.
But i'll put in the extra effort to get the retro vibe k. Promise.
(Hint: CURLSSSS)
Ashley's all for the Twiggy (without the figure) look and i'll go vintageeee. (: But I think i'll be wearing my wedges.. which means i'll be taller than many guys. Oooooops(: Heh heh heh sorry I love my wedges!
Ashley darling, I think you're right. ):
I don't think we have anything in common. ):
But no he's not an idiot (I think)! ):
Omg. ):
Ding ding!
Dance tomorrow, dance on friday, maybe.
Looking forward to it I guess. (:
I really wanted to be held and comforted.
Seems like the aftereffects of last night haven't blown over.
But... well.
And i'm so going to wear my sexy-as-hell bandage skirt out asap. (:
Okay sorry random but it's seriously damn Fwoahhhhh k.
My lingerie fetish is reawakening); I fear for my bank account!
The Killers blasting in my ears= good feeling.
Sigh.
Minutes to midnight
Forget about the sadness.
Forget about the sadness to come (i.e. Math test. gg I tell you)
Am looking forward to school tomorrow now!
See, my persuasion skills are veh good lo. (:
And I guess irregardless of the severity of my bad mood, he's always enough to cheer me up. The cute random things he says when he's half asleep, plus our retarded name calling and song screaming. (:
Talking to you is nearly always the highlight of my day.
No matter what,
You know you'll always be important to me too. (:
(Screw the girl lahhhhh)
--------------------------------------------------------
And a nice big fat thank you to Jason(:
For being the absolute knight in shining armour to save me in distress. Omg, how could anyone love scanning stuff I don't understand- it was my freaking job for like months lah. SO BORINGG.
Harvard Law and LSE ftw!
Forget about the sadness to come (i.e. Math test. gg I tell you)
Am looking forward to school tomorrow now!
See, my persuasion skills are veh good lo. (:
And I guess irregardless of the severity of my bad mood, he's always enough to cheer me up. The cute random things he says when he's half asleep, plus our retarded name calling and song screaming. (:
Talking to you is nearly always the highlight of my day.
No matter what,
You know you'll always be important to me too. (:
(Screw the girl lahhhhh)
--------------------------------------------------------
And a nice big fat thank you to Jason(:
For being the absolute knight in shining armour to save me in distress. Omg, how could anyone love scanning stuff I don't understand- it was my freaking job for like months lah. SO BORINGG.
Harvard Law and LSE ftw!
Awful
Tuesday, April 21, 2009
Disgust.
Pain.
Tears.
I lost it.
Clutching my face I walked.
I couldn't go home- no, not like this.
And so a round around the neighbourhood I took.
Such a big long round it was.
I still didn't want to come home.
You used to be so wonderful.
I feel so, so stupid.
Don't worry- no one would know what you really are. I just wanted you to be happy. Everything else is... unimportant. You could be a good friend to everyone, but you'll never know what's most important to you and how to treasure that.
They would never see the other side. They would never see this.
You choose your victims wisely.
What did I do to deserve this.
Your old habits die hard. I am merely a ________ to you.
We are cruel, ugly, selfish creatures.
And I am merely destroyed. Vulnerable, and naive.
Pain.
Tears.
I lost it.
Clutching my face I walked.
I couldn't go home- no, not like this.
And so a round around the neighbourhood I took.
Such a big long round it was.
I still didn't want to come home.
You used to be so wonderful.
I feel so, so stupid.
Don't worry- no one would know what you really are. I just wanted you to be happy. Everything else is... unimportant. You could be a good friend to everyone, but you'll never know what's most important to you and how to treasure that.
They would never see the other side. They would never see this.
You choose your victims wisely.
What did I do to deserve this.
Your old habits die hard. I am merely a ________ to you.
We are cruel, ugly, selfish creatures.
And I am merely destroyed. Vulnerable, and naive.
Extreme
Monday, April 20, 2009
Today is fking SIAN day.
Something's very wrong with my brain today):
I screwed up big time for econs..
By substituting demand with supply for the second part and i'm going to get a blardy big fat egg. I soompa (it means "I swear") I wanna kill myelf over it i damn malu lah. But hopefully I can get full marks for the first question): I want to pass. If I don't... ); ); );
Then I made such a fool of myself.
I rushed down to NDC (all the way in Outram please) to collect my retainers only to find out that.. my appointment is tomorrow. And because of that I missed a jolly half an hour of dance and ended up learning the moves in like 5 minutes-_-
And screwing it up further.
One hour there.. one hour back.. wth is wrong with me.
Ah, let's just say today ain't my day. );
Plus I majorly made a fool of myself...
):
I do not have hope.
Okay from now on I shall not care about such things anymore! I was so freaking scared I didn't even dare to look him in the face (except for once) and and and ): Ah I don't know. I don't really stand much chance I guess. I know "shy" would be the last word to describe me but in this case... I've become very, very very shy.
I haven't even smiled or said "Hi" or something. ):
Okay stop freaking people out.
I'll just wait and see if anything happens cause right now I really don't have the courage to do anything. ): Demoralised, majorly.
On a side note,
Clement sends really O_O queer messages sometimes.
I really wonder what goes on in his brain. Hahahah you confusing little thing. You stress me out more than you think.
But dance was so awesome today(:
I really missed seeing everyone- and I forgot for a while how fun dance could be. We accomplished quite a bit, all the while having fun and laughing our butts off. I really love dance. And the dancers(:
It's been a while since someone cheered me up with good music. (: Thank you- I am absolutely loving your taste in music. Sadly not everyone shares our sentiments!
Am so screwed for math- someone please save me I don't know what I should do. ): I really should take tuition but I can't find the time.
Waiting for your call i'm sick, call i'm angry
I am desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car- do you remember- butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
This song has alot more sentimental value than you think.
Oh i'm waiting, hurry. (:
Maybe one day i'll play. Maaaaaaaaybe.
No more Low cause i'm angry with Jason as of today.
No more.
Something's very wrong with my brain today):
I screwed up big time for econs..
By substituting demand with supply for the second part and i'm going to get a blardy big fat egg. I soompa (it means "I swear") I wanna kill myelf over it i damn malu lah. But hopefully I can get full marks for the first question): I want to pass. If I don't... ); ); );
Then I made such a fool of myself.
I rushed down to NDC (all the way in Outram please) to collect my retainers only to find out that.. my appointment is tomorrow. And because of that I missed a jolly half an hour of dance and ended up learning the moves in like 5 minutes-_-
And screwing it up further.
One hour there.. one hour back.. wth is wrong with me.
Ah, let's just say today ain't my day. );
Plus I majorly made a fool of myself...
):
I do not have hope.
Okay from now on I shall not care about such things anymore! I was so freaking scared I didn't even dare to look him in the face (except for once) and and and ): Ah I don't know. I don't really stand much chance I guess. I know "shy" would be the last word to describe me but in this case... I've become very, very very shy.
I haven't even smiled or said "Hi" or something. ):
Okay stop freaking people out.
I'll just wait and see if anything happens cause right now I really don't have the courage to do anything. ): Demoralised, majorly.
On a side note,
Clement sends really O_O queer messages sometimes.
I really wonder what goes on in his brain. Hahahah you confusing little thing. You stress me out more than you think.
But dance was so awesome today(:
I really missed seeing everyone- and I forgot for a while how fun dance could be. We accomplished quite a bit, all the while having fun and laughing our butts off. I really love dance. And the dancers(:
It's been a while since someone cheered me up with good music. (: Thank you- I am absolutely loving your taste in music. Sadly not everyone shares our sentiments!
Am so screwed for math- someone please save me I don't know what I should do. ): I really should take tuition but I can't find the time.
Waiting for your call i'm sick, call i'm angry
I am desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car- do you remember- butterfly, early summer?
It's playing on repeat,
Just like when we would meet
This song has alot more sentimental value than you think.
Oh i'm waiting, hurry. (:
Maybe one day i'll play. Maaaaaaaaybe.
No more Low cause i'm angry with Jason as of today.
No more.
Love
Sunday, April 19, 2009
After all this while..
You're still the only one who would tell me i'm pretty to my face (abeit in an annoying manner), tease me non-stop, tell me I look skinnier, call me stupid but say that you're stupider, smell my hair so much, and say that right things that make me (:
Plus, you're totally unafraid of me. And of holding me.
Goodnight you. (:
I wonder why we failed to work out but... some things never do change after all. Perhaps we're both better off this way.
(But sometimes, the past is too sweet to forget.)
Hold your head high my friend. (: You'll always have me.
You're still the only one who would tell me i'm pretty to my face (abeit in an annoying manner), tease me non-stop, tell me I look skinnier, call me stupid but say that you're stupider, smell my hair so much, and say that right things that make me (:
Plus, you're totally unafraid of me. And of holding me.
Goodnight you. (:
I wonder why we failed to work out but... some things never do change after all. Perhaps we're both better off this way.
(But sometimes, the past is too sweet to forget.)
Hold your head high my friend. (: You'll always have me.
Boyish
Today is a happy day.
(:
Neh neh.
Went out with my favourite rugger boy L.Y.M.
On an all-expenses-paid trip(: Heh heh omg he's damn nice.
And following his request, we caught 17 Again.
(What kind of gay boy would want to watch that movie!)
It was kinda nice- better than I expected(:
Zac E looks good in biker jackets and aviators. (:
We smuggled in vinegar fish and chips omg the smell was damn strong- luckily we didn't get caught!
It's damn funny how everytime I see Lym he changes hairstyle): Now it's some uber short Idk spikey spikey thing. What's with guys and short hair.. competition period only what. :/
For once, he didn't appear in berms and slippers.
And finally after two years, he decided to wear shoes apart from his white/gold Converse sneaks and his havaianas. FINALLY. But he still carries the same (nice-smelling) jacket. That one I won't complain(:
Went to NYNY for more makan after that.
Had waffles w/ choc and ice-cream which wasn't too bad- and I conclude again that Lym is unglam to the max! Table manners helloo.
Our sexist debate on Asian men and women turned out damn funny. I became the typical submissive Asian woman and he tried to be the domineering Asian man. Hahahah and soon everything we did became related to that!
"Sorry I traditional Asian woman I got no education so I not so smart"
):
Hahahhaha!
Being gentlemanly he sent me all the way home and wahlao he forgot where my house was. Hahaha but cannot blame him luh- I hope you didn't get lost on your LONGGG way home. Woodlands damn unhip please- move to my (rich taitai) area! (:
I had lots of fun today, thank you strong boy(: Don't think anyone else can take my weight lo. Hahaha fine lah rugger lah.
Next time you plan everything uh!
Our relationship is so weird and in-between but nontheless, I heart you much. (: Awwww so touched right. I deserve (another) prize(:
So apart from many hours of :D today,
LAST NIGHT WAS :D OMG! :D :D :D :D :D
Favourite Boy gave me the best and worst news... but right now I suppose I can only think of the best. Hahahah omg, I can't believe I embarrassed myself luh. Be honoured k you're like the 3rd person to ever experience that! But omg, i'm daaaaamn happy!
But it's going to be so so so awkward. );
And not like anything's ever going to happen.
So.... sigh. Omg now he knows! Shit i'm so screwed.
I got no more 'face'! ); ); );
I feel like hiding in a corner. I think if I see XXX in school i'll just immediately cover my face and bolt. Shucks.
School. Sigh.
Got damn bloody alot of work to catch up on.
I think i'm nearly one full tutorial behind in every subject!
And i'll be quite lonely in class I think. :/ Nvm must catch up.
And last thing-
Jason, no more "Ying Bao" from now on k. (;
Hahahahhahahahahha!
LOWWWWWWWWWWWW ftw!
(:
Neh neh.
Went out with my favourite rugger boy L.Y.M.
On an all-expenses-paid trip(: Heh heh omg he's damn nice.
And following his request, we caught 17 Again.
(What kind of gay boy would want to watch that movie!)
It was kinda nice- better than I expected(:
Zac E looks good in biker jackets and aviators. (:
We smuggled in vinegar fish and chips omg the smell was damn strong- luckily we didn't get caught!
It's damn funny how everytime I see Lym he changes hairstyle): Now it's some uber short Idk spikey spikey thing. What's with guys and short hair.. competition period only what. :/
For once, he didn't appear in berms and slippers.
And finally after two years, he decided to wear shoes apart from his white/gold Converse sneaks and his havaianas. FINALLY. But he still carries the same (nice-smelling) jacket. That one I won't complain(:
Went to NYNY for more makan after that.
Had waffles w/ choc and ice-cream which wasn't too bad- and I conclude again that Lym is unglam to the max! Table manners helloo.
Our sexist debate on Asian men and women turned out damn funny. I became the typical submissive Asian woman and he tried to be the domineering Asian man. Hahahah and soon everything we did became related to that!
"Sorry I traditional Asian woman I got no education so I not so smart"
):
Hahahhaha!
Being gentlemanly he sent me all the way home and wahlao he forgot where my house was. Hahaha but cannot blame him luh- I hope you didn't get lost on your LONGGG way home. Woodlands damn unhip please- move to my (rich taitai) area! (:
I had lots of fun today, thank you strong boy(: Don't think anyone else can take my weight lo. Hahaha fine lah rugger lah.
Next time you plan everything uh!
Our relationship is so weird and in-between but nontheless, I heart you much. (: Awwww so touched right. I deserve (another) prize(:
So apart from many hours of :D today,
LAST NIGHT WAS :D OMG! :D :D :D :D :D
Favourite Boy gave me the best and worst news... but right now I suppose I can only think of the best. Hahahah omg, I can't believe I embarrassed myself luh. Be honoured k you're like the 3rd person to ever experience that! But omg, i'm daaaaamn happy!
But it's going to be so so so awkward. );
And not like anything's ever going to happen.
So.... sigh. Omg now he knows! Shit i'm so screwed.
I got no more 'face'! ); ); );
I feel like hiding in a corner. I think if I see XXX in school i'll just immediately cover my face and bolt. Shucks.
School. Sigh.
Got damn bloody alot of work to catch up on.
I think i'm nearly one full tutorial behind in every subject!
And i'll be quite lonely in class I think. :/ Nvm must catch up.
And last thing-
Jason, no more "Ying Bao" from now on k. (;
Hahahahhahahahahha!
LOWWWWWWWWWWWW ftw!
Inspired
Friday, April 17, 2009
Omg, what an awesome song.
.....
Lol okay.
Flo Rida - LOW
Specially for Jason Choong.
But for reasons very different from what everyone's probably thinking... Inside joke! Enjoy. (: Hahahhaha omg I bet you get excited once you hear "Low!" right. Tsktsktsktsktsk.
Got so many "Low!"s leh. Happy not!
Forgive my awesome sense of humour! (;
HAHAHAHHAHAHHA.
.....
Lol okay.
Flo Rida - LOW
Specially for Jason Choong.
But for reasons very different from what everyone's probably thinking... Inside joke! Enjoy. (: Hahahhaha omg I bet you get excited once you hear "Low!" right. Tsktsktsktsktsk.
Got so many "Low!"s leh. Happy not!
Forgive my awesome sense of humour! (;
HAHAHAHHAHAHHA.
Draw the line
Am too tired to migrate out of my room.
Will go back to bed in a few secs.
But I must applaud my fellow dancers for a job well done;
It's no small feat. (:
We weren't the best... but at least people didn't fall asleep watching ours right. (; So nice how to miss! And thanks to all the supporters who tagged along, and everyone who wished us luck. I admit I might've been a bit ambitious, but i'm satisfied(:
The Exco did so many wonderful things for us geez I don't know what to say! (: Except that i'll strive to serve Tj(mod) Dance just as well(: Yeah, I guess i'll try running for some position lah. Don't know what yet.. but it's not really that important.
Team dinner was darn good.
I had uh pasta, cream white, mushroom, prawn and salmon! Whooots the prawns were so heavenly and the beef slice I stole from Leon omg awesome:D Will definitely order that next time(: We're all such pigs but nvm.. Syf's over! (I bet Dicky's over the moon!)
Imma Super Yakky Fun Dancer! (:
Last night went horribly wrong after I got home.
And in the end Mum offered to let me stay home today. Thank goodness- I have no idea how I would've survived today. Thanks Favourite Boy and M for being so concerned(: And ordering me straight off to bed. Am feeling lots better now!
And goodness, it's damn hot today. ):
I want ice-cream. ):
And I don't think i'm going to cut bangs since everyone likes my hair now! Hahaha and I won't cut my hair short since i get an extra 0.5 with my hair down(; Hahahahhaah omg I miss having short hair. ): Mine was so low maintenance.. just leave it messy and out of bed.
Those were the days. (:
Having issue with guys in general cause they can be such asses. Except for my Good Friend hahaha omg! Thanks for being such an awesome (petty) person and nagging at me! Tell me yours and i'll tell you mine. (: But I veh scared of rejection.
Fear of rejection.
The fear of rejection.
Will you rise above it? (:
Have been recently uninspired to blog.
Either that or i'm really too tired. :/
Oh well.
"TEACHER I WANT TO----!"
Anyway, inside joke(: Hahaha I love it how Kenneth still doesn't get it, damn funny! That night was fun, really. Love you people(:
Will go back to bed in a few secs.
But I must applaud my fellow dancers for a job well done;
It's no small feat. (:
We weren't the best... but at least people didn't fall asleep watching ours right. (; So nice how to miss! And thanks to all the supporters who tagged along, and everyone who wished us luck. I admit I might've been a bit ambitious, but i'm satisfied(:
The Exco did so many wonderful things for us geez I don't know what to say! (: Except that i'll strive to serve Tj(mod) Dance just as well(: Yeah, I guess i'll try running for some position lah. Don't know what yet.. but it's not really that important.
Team dinner was darn good.
I had uh pasta, cream white, mushroom, prawn and salmon! Whooots the prawns were so heavenly and the beef slice I stole from Leon omg awesome:D Will definitely order that next time(: We're all such pigs but nvm.. Syf's over! (I bet Dicky's over the moon!)
Imma Super Yakky Fun Dancer! (:
Last night went horribly wrong after I got home.
And in the end Mum offered to let me stay home today. Thank goodness- I have no idea how I would've survived today. Thanks Favourite Boy and M for being so concerned(: And ordering me straight off to bed. Am feeling lots better now!
And goodness, it's damn hot today. ):
I want ice-cream. ):
And I don't think i'm going to cut bangs since everyone likes my hair now! Hahaha and I won't cut my hair short since i get an extra 0.5 with my hair down(; Hahahahhaah omg I miss having short hair. ): Mine was so low maintenance.. just leave it messy and out of bed.
Those were the days. (:
Having issue with guys in general cause they can be such asses. Except for my Good Friend hahaha omg! Thanks for being such an awesome (petty) person and nagging at me! Tell me yours and i'll tell you mine. (: But I veh scared of rejection.
Fear of rejection.
The fear of rejection.
Will you rise above it? (:
Have been recently uninspired to blog.
Either that or i'm really too tired. :/
Oh well.
"TEACHER I WANT TO----!"
Anyway, inside joke(: Hahaha I love it how Kenneth still doesn't get it, damn funny! That night was fun, really. Love you people(:
Smouldering
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
I admit.
I've been keeping it all cooped up for too long.
The inner darkness is slowly seeping out.
It's becoming visible- oh, how I dread.
Insomnia- sleeping at 1 used to be bad enough, now I can't sleep till 2. The only way to survive... Work. Distractions. Thankfully, there are plenty.
Everything has turned dull.
My hair. It's listless, lackluster; missing it's old shine, bounce, and smell, even.
My eyes.
Oh, the most telltale sign.
Sunken in, occasionally puffy. The dark circles? A permanent curse. No cure, no, none at all. The whites have not stayed white, and they haven't sparkled for a while now.
Breathlessness.
The body.
Slowly dying down like an old machine.
Nearly every fibre is coated in fatigue.
Stairs are my nightmare, and the sly sudden pangs of pain in my knee are my greatest fear. But it gives me satisfaction to tire myself out to the fullest. The slight moments of light-headedness feel so surreal; I sometimes wish it would develop into something else.
I know I should rest.
I know it.
Secretly,
Meals skipped.
Disgusting hunger pangs.
What was previously The Black Hole is now simply an indent; I just need 3 cups of soya bean to last me a day.
I feel like creeping away into deep, dark, dusty corners. I cannot do this for much longer. I need... to relax.
And don't rely on others.
You'll realise how everything is just a scam in the end.
Avoid getting involved altogether- it prevents you from that dreadful heartache. Close both eyes, look away, do everything in your power to put on a brave smile. If you think whatever's going to come out from your mouth next is going to be nasty, don't breathe a word.
I'm going to release.
I've been keeping it all cooped up for too long.
The inner darkness is slowly seeping out.
It's becoming visible- oh, how I dread.
Insomnia- sleeping at 1 used to be bad enough, now I can't sleep till 2. The only way to survive... Work. Distractions. Thankfully, there are plenty.
Everything has turned dull.
My hair. It's listless, lackluster; missing it's old shine, bounce, and smell, even.
My eyes.
Oh, the most telltale sign.
Sunken in, occasionally puffy. The dark circles? A permanent curse. No cure, no, none at all. The whites have not stayed white, and they haven't sparkled for a while now.
Breathlessness.
The body.
Slowly dying down like an old machine.
Nearly every fibre is coated in fatigue.
Stairs are my nightmare, and the sly sudden pangs of pain in my knee are my greatest fear. But it gives me satisfaction to tire myself out to the fullest. The slight moments of light-headedness feel so surreal; I sometimes wish it would develop into something else.
I know I should rest.
I know it.
Secretly,
Meals skipped.
Disgusting hunger pangs.
What was previously The Black Hole is now simply an indent; I just need 3 cups of soya bean to last me a day.
I feel like creeping away into deep, dark, dusty corners. I cannot do this for much longer. I need... to relax.
And don't rely on others.
You'll realise how everything is just a scam in the end.
Avoid getting involved altogether- it prevents you from that dreadful heartache. Close both eyes, look away, do everything in your power to put on a brave smile. If you think whatever's going to come out from your mouth next is going to be nasty, don't breathe a word.
I'm going to release.
25th December
Monday, April 13, 2009
You shall see me tomorrow. (:
If I want to let you see me.
I look different but it's not a good thing/ bad thing so yeah.
(:
Ah, this feels funny.
I need to do Math tutorials or die tmr.
):
I think the Mr Lim hates me. );
Dance was tiring today, I don't know why!
But I think we're quite prepared for Syf, no? (:
30 HOUR FAMINE ANYONE WANTS TO GO.
I KNOW I'M SO TOTALLY THE LAST PERSON WHO SHOULD SIGN UP (I MEAN LOOK AT MY REGULAR PORTIONS) BUT BUT BUT ABS AND AISYAH GOING:/
Hahahhaha let's support the cause (Gosh I sound like Sportsexcel wannabe) and fight global hunger! (By being hungry too!)
30 hours.
Omg you should just kill me instead.
);
ABIGAIL MY TASTE NOT TOO BAD RIGHT(:
Hahahahhaha damn i'm sad I didn't get to watch today lorh. CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT RIGHT! :D
Okay i'm getting excited, too excited! Hahahah okay finally got someone to share my sentiments with. Damn happy!
NOT EVERYONE IS BLIND AFTER ALLLL.
Anyway I can't wait till Wednesday.
(:
(Or whenever!)
AMANDA LEE IS ON FACEBOOK!
This calls for some celebration, yo(:
Damn I needa go upload some pics.
Ps. I realise (again) I have a soft spot for you M. Too late?
Yup. I know. ): It's too late.
If I want to let you see me.
I look different but it's not a good thing/ bad thing so yeah.
(:
Ah, this feels funny.
I need to do Math tutorials or die tmr.
):
I think the Mr Lim hates me. );
Dance was tiring today, I don't know why!
But I think we're quite prepared for Syf, no? (:
30 HOUR FAMINE ANYONE WANTS TO GO.
I KNOW I'M SO TOTALLY THE LAST PERSON WHO SHOULD SIGN UP (I MEAN LOOK AT MY REGULAR PORTIONS) BUT BUT BUT ABS AND AISYAH GOING:/
Hahahhaha let's support the cause (Gosh I sound like Sportsexcel wannabe) and fight global hunger! (By being hungry too!)
30 hours.
Omg you should just kill me instead.
);
ABIGAIL MY TASTE NOT TOO BAD RIGHT(:
Hahahahhaha damn i'm sad I didn't get to watch today lorh. CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT CUTE RIGHT HOT HOT HOT HOT HOT RIGHT! :D
Okay i'm getting excited, too excited! Hahahah okay finally got someone to share my sentiments with. Damn happy!
NOT EVERYONE IS BLIND AFTER ALLLL.
Anyway I can't wait till Wednesday.
(:
(Or whenever!)
AMANDA LEE IS ON FACEBOOK!
This calls for some celebration, yo(:
Damn I needa go upload some pics.
Ps. I realise (again) I have a soft spot for you M. Too late?
Yup. I know. ): It's too late.
Minute
Officially, my new favourite symbol:
Ü
Heeheeheehee(: Naughty aren't you.
I'm still up,
Doing the debate for tomorrow. Only Shaun and I are working on it (thanks Glen for helping, and thanks YS for wanting to help) but I think it's going pretty well! Shaun and I are just able to bounce ideas off each other and come up with good stuff(:
Oh Shaun, we're more alike than we think (oh no).
Thanks for bothering to do this with me and for staying up(: I hope it goes well tomorrow because I think we did our best- it's a last minute effort. You asshole!
And tomorrow...
Well. I'll be prettier. :D
Ü
Heeheeheehee(: Naughty aren't you.
I'm still up,
Doing the debate for tomorrow. Only Shaun and I are working on it (thanks Glen for helping, and thanks YS for wanting to help) but I think it's going pretty well! Shaun and I are just able to bounce ideas off each other and come up with good stuff(:
Oh Shaun, we're more alike than we think (oh no).
Thanks for bothering to do this with me and for staying up(: I hope it goes well tomorrow because I think we did our best- it's a last minute effort. You asshole!
And tomorrow...
Well. I'll be prettier. :D
Present Woes!
Sunday, April 12, 2009
Happy Birthday Underwear/Topman (:
Hope you had a brilliant 18th yesterday!
"Teen drinking is very bad"
Love you D!
And today,
Happy Birthday TYS:D
Will be seeing you later!
(omg I didn't notice your name was so cool la;D)
And of course to my dear senior Daphne Tan too.
Hope your day goes great hunny(:
Today I was woken up by a very cute Easter message. (:
Hahahaha omg you gay person. (See, I haven't forgotten about you) Must go out soon k- I haven't seen you since school started): Movie date like I promised, soon!
And finally, thank you Favourite Boy(:
I missed those longgggg late night phone calls.
We're both gonna be free soon so you know you know!
-8:10PM
HOLY COW I HAVE A SHITLOAD OF WORK TO DO.
):
Gotta start now!
Had a great time with Yimin Glen Yingtai Yuan Song Reuben and Chloe today(: Hahahaha pictures next time! I'm loving orange all over again man. Happy Birthday you, and i'm glad I went. (:
-What should I wear to Megahouse? (: Omg.
-8:44PM
I just did Strengthsquest.
And I am a Maximizer.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
just when I was thinking about buying a bra as a present and oh no omg i've become the bra!
-10:02PM
I feel like such a loser crybaby.
Why do you end up hurting me so often?
);
Hope you had a brilliant 18th yesterday!
"Teen drinking is very bad"
Love you D!
And today,
Happy Birthday TYS:D
Will be seeing you later!
(omg I didn't notice your name was so cool la;D)
And of course to my dear senior Daphne Tan too.
Hope your day goes great hunny(:
Today I was woken up by a very cute Easter message. (:
Hahahaha omg you gay person. (See, I haven't forgotten about you) Must go out soon k- I haven't seen you since school started): Movie date like I promised, soon!
And finally, thank you Favourite Boy(:
I missed those longgggg late night phone calls.
We're both gonna be free soon so you know you know!
-8:10PM
HOLY COW I HAVE A SHITLOAD OF WORK TO DO.
):
Gotta start now!
Had a great time with Yimin Glen Yingtai Yuan Song Reuben and Chloe today(: Hahahaha pictures next time! I'm loving orange all over again man. Happy Birthday you, and i'm glad I went. (:
-What should I wear to Megahouse? (: Omg.
-8:44PM
I just did Strengthsquest.
And I am a Maximizer.
HAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHA
just when I was thinking about buying a bra as a present and oh no omg i've become the bra!
-10:02PM
I feel like such a loser crybaby.
Why do you end up hurting me so often?
);
Secrets
Friday, April 10, 2009
My not-so-secret secret.
(:
Suddenly thought of the Tkg days and I remember..
My eyecandy(s)!
Hahaha whoa that was drama. (: But hahahha oh well.
Went out for dinner to celebrate Ahma's birthday!
Had some major seafood fest- whole pieces of abalone, tons of prawns and crabs and etc. Darn good omg. And the coolest thing was in the VIP room, there was an LCD and karaoke system!
Not that I sang. No. O:
Butttt, I watched many Michael Jackson vids:D So forgive me if I seem slightly obsessed now but he is seriously epic! And one of the best live entertainers EVER- have you seen the way he dances???
The hip thrusting (O_O) and the hand permanently on his crotch and the moonwalk and the tophat flicking and the famous pose!
THIS ONE:D
Omgggggggggggg talk about stage presence.
I think if I were in the crowd and watching him live a few years ago I would've cried too! He's like what, 50 now. Too old to dance. ));
And then the waiter came in to karaoke-style sing my grandma a birthday song whoa he's damn spontaneous, really!
Okay looking at the above picture, i'm inspired to wear suspenders. (: Dang why don't guys dress properly and stylo these days):
BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN
HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE BILLIE JEAN
Last night was fun. (:
And finally, someone's becoming a gentleman.
Am proud of you boy. (: Heeheeheehee.
Anywayyyyyyy,
Who's my eyecandy uh? (:
(:
Suddenly thought of the Tkg days and I remember..
My eyecandy(s)!
Hahaha whoa that was drama. (: But hahahha oh well.
Went out for dinner to celebrate Ahma's birthday!
Had some major seafood fest- whole pieces of abalone, tons of prawns and crabs and etc. Darn good omg. And the coolest thing was in the VIP room, there was an LCD and karaoke system!
Not that I sang. No. O:
Butttt, I watched many Michael Jackson vids:D So forgive me if I seem slightly obsessed now but he is seriously epic! And one of the best live entertainers EVER- have you seen the way he dances???
The hip thrusting (O_O) and the hand permanently on his crotch and the moonwalk and the tophat flicking and the famous pose!
THIS ONE:D
Omgggggggggggg talk about stage presence.
I think if I were in the crowd and watching him live a few years ago I would've cried too! He's like what, 50 now. Too old to dance. ));
And then the waiter came in to karaoke-style sing my grandma a birthday song whoa he's damn spontaneous, really!
Okay looking at the above picture, i'm inspired to wear suspenders. (: Dang why don't guys dress properly and stylo these days):
BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN BILLIE JEAN
HOW CAN ANYONE NOT LIKE BILLIE JEAN
Last night was fun. (:
And finally, someone's becoming a gentleman.
Am proud of you boy. (: Heeheeheehee.
Anywayyyyyyy,
Who's my eyecandy uh? (:
KNN
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
FUCKKKK
BIOLOGY!
WAHLAO EH. SIBEI SIAN.
So many freaking chapters. I started studying early now also still so stress. Angry leh. I wanna be a PRC with good brains. (Minus the sharing and applying of sunblock in toilet before PE lesson and shielding from sun under umbrellas walking across the field.)
Hokkien comes out when I pissed off.
i bui tahan already i tell you.
LECTURE TEST ONLY
Study until want to die
Fail then fail lorh
They say you fail in Tj all the way until A levels then you get A anyway.
Come we shall have a major muggerfest. Massorgy tutorial.
(i'm sure will have some cb come kao bei about theorgy)
BIOLOGY!
WAHLAO EH. SIBEI SIAN.
So many freaking chapters. I started studying early now also still so stress. Angry leh. I wanna be a PRC with good brains. (Minus the sharing and applying of sunblock in toilet before PE lesson and shielding from sun under umbrellas walking across the field.)
Hokkien comes out when I pissed off.
i bui tahan already i tell you.
LECTURE TEST ONLY
Study until want to die
Fail then fail lorh
They say you fail in Tj all the way until A levels then you get A anyway.
Come we shall have a major muggerfest. Mass
(i'm sure will have some cb come kao bei about the
Unwritten
I feel a surge of... emptiness.
I wish I could put it in proper words.
A slight sense of inferiority. But I know it's nothing. It's just one of those days where you end up thinking too much. And you do stupid things and you really wonder why.
The pictures speak out to you. They always do.
I know i'm in trouble, big trouble, this time.
I want to escape (you).
It takes time.
But i'm hoping for a lost cause.
At this point, everything is so dull. I have a slight dread- I might have missed the moment. The feeling is terrible. (Really, it sucks)
All I want is for you to hold me.
But my anger burns on. Some things i've been wanting to say for ages cannot be contained much longer. I wish I could do some (physical) damage. For there's this cold lonliness, somewhere in me. Perhaps solitude is becoming. Hate can be an understatement, sometimes.
I wonder how that happened. I'm not like that. But looking at him.. it's no wonder anymore. I should've known. All along.
Just come.
Warm laughter to heat the aching freeze.
You're so sly with your stares and so darn oblivious- it's driving me crazy. Please don't victimize me. Spare me whatever dignity I have.
(Or maybe... please do.)
I wish I could put it in proper words.
A slight sense of inferiority. But I know it's nothing. It's just one of those days where you end up thinking too much. And you do stupid things and you really wonder why.
The pictures speak out to you. They always do.
I know i'm in trouble, big trouble, this time.
I want to escape (you).
It takes time.
But i'm hoping for a lost cause.
At this point, everything is so dull. I have a slight dread- I might have missed the moment. The feeling is terrible. (Really, it sucks)
All I want is for you to hold me.
But my anger burns on. Some things i've been wanting to say for ages cannot be contained much longer. I wish I could do some (physical) damage. For there's this cold lonliness, somewhere in me. Perhaps solitude is becoming. Hate can be an understatement, sometimes.
I wonder how that happened. I'm not like that. But looking at him.. it's no wonder anymore. I should've known. All along.
Just come.
Warm laughter to heat the aching freeze.
You're so sly with your stares and so darn oblivious- it's driving me crazy. Please don't victimize me. Spare me whatever dignity I have.
(Or maybe... please do.)
Dedication
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP CHOMP
I seriously LOVE CHOMP CHOMP OMG:D
My supper:
Hokkien Mee
Satay
Fried corn with salt and pepper
Big-ass glass of sugarcane.
Flying high mannn. :D
Just realised how busy things are gonna be from now on zomg! Buttttttttt hahaha let's go out this Friday leh(: Tan Kor Woong I want a nice sexy even tan. Shall tty tomorrow k(: Heeheehee I love holidays to the max I tell ya.
And then there's the Mount Sohpia flea this Saturday- I assure you it's gonna be a hit because many savvy stalls are gonna be there and I WANNA GO TOOOO. (: Damn damn damn I need time.
Then from next week onwards,
I'll be prettier.
(:
Heeheeheeheee i'm sure you all can guess!
Then there are all the tests and SYF ZOMG and Megahouse(:
Exciting right.
Tonight I feel like being serenaded..
But the two people who usually would do the job are busy and going to watch Man Utd. After recent events, i'm a bit afraid to watch. Nvm shall serenade myself. Hmph. (: Hahahahha omg okay I think the food re-wired my brain a bit.
Anyway i'm quite happy I finally got to do something I wanted to do for a long time... scold someone. Tadahhhh:D :D :D :D :D
Noelle ; says:
*FUCK YOU
Noelle ; says:
*ANSWER
JASONIC says:
*have an early night
JASONIC says:
*HAHAH OMG
Noelle ; says:
*..........
JASONIC says:
*SCOLD ME
Noelle ; says:
*HAHAHHA YEAH
Noelle ; says:
*BITCH.
Noelle ; says:
*ANSWER MEEEE
Noelle ; says:
*jasonnnnnn.
Noelle ; says:
*hahahha you want me to pester you in school is it?
Noelle ; says:
*also can. (:
JASONIC says:
*haahaha
JASONIC says:
*you scold me fuck you
Noelle ; says:
*hahahha answer me lah(:
Noelle ; says:
*if you say the right thing i'll take the fuck you back.
Noelle ; says:
*and i'll call you grandpa.
HAHAHAHHA Omg okay shit I promised Jason to be nicer to him. Okay i'm so sorry Jason last time I will bully you k. I promise I will sleep in five minutes don't be scary!
And omg see this!
David Beckham says:
*cheer up k noelle leow
OMG DAVID BECKHAM HAHAHAHHA I LOVE YOU MAN.
You dao me lah fine you die. Forever afk until I damn sian who cares you Beckham anot. Where got Beckham play goalie one.
Okay Goodnight world I must keep my promise.
(Whoa you honoured anot!)
I seriously LOVE CHOMP CHOMP OMG:D
My supper:
Hokkien Mee
Satay
Fried corn with salt and pepper
Big-ass glass of sugarcane.
Flying high mannn. :D
Just realised how busy things are gonna be from now on zomg! Buttttttttt hahaha let's go out this Friday leh(: Tan Kor Woong I want a nice sexy even tan. Shall tty tomorrow k(: Heeheehee I love holidays to the max I tell ya.
And then there's the Mount Sohpia flea this Saturday- I assure you it's gonna be a hit because many savvy stalls are gonna be there and I WANNA GO TOOOO. (: Damn damn damn I need time.
Then from next week onwards,
I'll be prettier.
(:
Heeheeheeheee i'm sure you all can guess!
Then there are all the tests and SYF ZOMG and Megahouse(:
Exciting right.
Tonight I feel like being serenaded..
But the two people who usually would do the job are busy and going to watch Man Utd. After recent events, i'm a bit afraid to watch. Nvm shall serenade myself. Hmph. (: Hahahahha omg okay I think the food re-wired my brain a bit.
Anyway i'm quite happy I finally got to do something I wanted to do for a long time... scold someone. Tadahhhh:D :D :D :D :D
Noelle ; says:
*FUCK YOU
Noelle ; says:
*ANSWER
JASONIC says:
*have an early night
JASONIC says:
*HAHAH OMG
Noelle ; says:
*..........
JASONIC says:
*SCOLD ME
Noelle ; says:
*HAHAHHA YEAH
Noelle ; says:
*BITCH.
Noelle ; says:
*ANSWER MEEEE
Noelle ; says:
*jasonnnnnn.
Noelle ; says:
*hahahha you want me to pester you in school is it?
Noelle ; says:
*also can. (:
JASONIC says:
*haahaha
JASONIC says:
*you scold me fuck you
Noelle ; says:
*hahahha answer me lah(:
Noelle ; says:
*if you say the right thing i'll take the fuck you back.
Noelle ; says:
*and i'll call you grandpa.
HAHAHAHHA Omg okay shit I promised Jason to be nicer to him. Okay i'm so sorry Jason last time I will bully you k. I promise I will sleep in five minutes don't be scary!
And omg see this!
David Beckham says:
*cheer up k noelle leow
OMG DAVID BECKHAM HAHAHAHHA I LOVE YOU MAN.
You dao me lah fine you die. Forever afk until I damn sian who cares you Beckham anot. Where got Beckham play goalie one.
Okay Goodnight world I must keep my promise.
(Whoa you honoured anot!)
Love Hate
I've been in a fucking bad mood these few days.
So from now on i'm not going to be as nice anymore. The anonymous taggers are getting on my nerves and they're seriously fucking loser. Just piss off and get a life and stop bitching. It's damn lame.
On the other hand, i'm falling more in love with the people around me these days(: Classmates, CTCG people, dancers, omg.
The more I talk to Yuan Song the more I can't stop laughing.
He's like forever sleeping in class and trying to make comments that'll make him look less dumb and sotong. (Which nearly always FAILs) I'm so glad i'm in my Pw group(: Yes we shall all get As.
And of course, I still love you my Favourite Boy. (:
Haha EVEN THOUGH IT DOESN'T WORK BOTH WAYS. Nvm.
I shall close my eyes and keep you away from awkward situations.
A few more weeks and i'll steal you away. (:
You make me smile you know.
It's kinda funny cause for the first time in my entire life,
the family's heading out for supper on a working weekday.
O:
Satay and hokkien mee omg! I'm quite afraid of chicken rice now, after yesterday. Well. It's deserved I guess.
Cheer up me. (:
And go sleep all you tired people.
So from now on i'm not going to be as nice anymore. The anonymous taggers are getting on my nerves and they're seriously fucking loser. Just piss off and get a life and stop bitching. It's damn lame.
On the other hand, i'm falling more in love with the people around me these days(: Classmates, CTCG people, dancers, omg.
The more I talk to Yuan Song the more I can't stop laughing.
He's like forever sleeping in class and trying to make comments that'll make him look less dumb and sotong. (Which nearly always FAILs) I'm so glad i'm in my Pw group(: Yes we shall all get As.
And of course, I still love you my Favourite Boy. (:
Haha EVEN THOUGH IT DOESN'T WORK BOTH WAYS. Nvm.
I shall close my eyes and keep you away from awkward situations.
A few more weeks and i'll steal you away. (:
You make me smile you know.
It's kinda funny cause for the first time in my entire life,
the family's heading out for supper on a working weekday.
O:
Satay and hokkien mee omg! I'm quite afraid of chicken rice now, after yesterday. Well. It's deserved I guess.
Cheer up me. (:
And go sleep all you tired people.
Gibberish
So tired. (:
I thought our runs at UCC today were quite good compared to our usual leh. Mcflurry love after that- my gosh I love Macs:D
Jason Choong (and Tan Kor Woong) will you please stop laughing at me it's not even that funny lorh. Everytime also target me I effing sian okay. What kind of gentleman are you, disgrace to Cat High man. (Hahaha actually all of them also CMI.)
Hahahah nvm, at least I managed to get somebody to eyecandy me- accomplishment. (: Hopefully I get free green tea everyday!
Ate chicken rice four times today.
Break lunch before reh after reh.
Chicken rice overkill.
Okay I think I cannot blog i'm feeling decidedly cheenapok and Singlish-esque tonight. Too tired. ):
I don't like people who pangseh.
I like people who surprise me.
PE tomorrow YESSSS games whoots. (:
Anyway.
Longer post tomorrow!
I think Favourite boy fell asleep.
I thought our runs at UCC today were quite good compared to our usual leh. Mcflurry love after that- my gosh I love Macs:D
Jason Choong (and Tan Kor Woong) will you please stop laughing at me it's not even that funny lorh. Everytime also target me I effing sian okay. What kind of gentleman are you, disgrace to Cat High man. (Hahaha actually all of them also CMI.)
Hahahah nvm, at least I managed to get somebody to eyecandy me- accomplishment. (: Hopefully I get free green tea everyday!
Ate chicken rice four times today.
Break lunch before reh after reh.
Chicken rice overkill.
Okay I think I cannot blog i'm feeling decidedly cheenapok and Singlish-esque tonight. Too tired. ):
I don't like people who pangseh.
I like people who surprise me.
PE tomorrow YESSSS games whoots. (:
Anyway.
Longer post tomorrow!
I think Favourite boy fell asleep.
Self-something
Saturday, April 4, 2009
Okay I was mostly dead today.
Reason being me not sleeping till nearly 3.
Because I was having major emo pangs and sobbing my eyes out and thus I couldn't sleep or get my mind off things. But well, it worked- i'm better now. (: Although I woke up with a throbbing headache and puffy sore eyes. So not worth it.
Went for dance late after a quick stop at the doctor's to get med. Not like i'll eat it anyway. I swear I couldn't stay awake during dance and Zaki made multiple comments about me looking sad.
Just for you my dear Zaki, i'll smile my ass off on Monday. You'll be able to see it even outside the auditorium I swear.
Went impromptu present shopping with Kenneth after.
Okay fine so he has good pretty good taste and he's not that bad lah. (: (He says I insult him) I got to eat my yummy deep friend sweet potato with plum powder zomg DON'T YOU LOVE IT! (:
I have learnt a new stylo milo way of tying a (skinny) tie!
I ate super alot today.
For lunch I had two slices of pizza and char kway tiao.
Everyone had like one slice and that was it but.. I went out of school to continue eating? Such a pig I know right):
And we started dance barely half an hour later. Whoots.
Okay I can't stop thinking about it-
The moment you put down the phone I felt immensely regretful. I know I was being real harsh and a bit bitchy.. But I didn't want you to confuse yourself (anymore). Besides we all know the ending right- don't deceive me. You know it well too.
I cut off my lifeline.
Great job Noelle you do so well making your own life harder all the time. Well if it's worth it and makes someone else happy then.. why not.
Okay I should just stop thinking about it. ):
Fuck.
Cause I can't sleep through the pain.
(Neyo's Mad is stuck in my head oh gosh.)
Screwed up girl stop screwing up damn it.
Reason being me not sleeping till nearly 3.
Because I was having major emo pangs and sobbing my eyes out and thus I couldn't sleep or get my mind off things. But well, it worked- i'm better now. (: Although I woke up with a throbbing headache and puffy sore eyes. So not worth it.
Went for dance late after a quick stop at the doctor's to get med. Not like i'll eat it anyway. I swear I couldn't stay awake during dance and Zaki made multiple comments about me looking sad.
Just for you my dear Zaki, i'll smile my ass off on Monday. You'll be able to see it even outside the auditorium I swear.
Went impromptu present shopping with Kenneth after.
Okay fine so he has good pretty good taste and he's not that bad lah. (: (He says I insult him) I got to eat my yummy deep friend sweet potato with plum powder zomg DON'T YOU LOVE IT! (:
I have learnt a new stylo milo way of tying a (skinny) tie!
I ate super alot today.
For lunch I had two slices of pizza and char kway tiao.
Everyone had like one slice and that was it but.. I went out of school to continue eating? Such a pig I know right):
And we started dance barely half an hour later. Whoots.
Okay I can't stop thinking about it-
The moment you put down the phone I felt immensely regretful. I know I was being real harsh and a bit bitchy.. But I didn't want you to confuse yourself (anymore). Besides we all know the ending right- don't deceive me. You know it well too.
I cut off my lifeline.
Great job Noelle you do so well making your own life harder all the time. Well if it's worth it and makes someone else happy then.. why not.
Okay I should just stop thinking about it. ):
Fuck.
Cause I can't sleep through the pain.
(Neyo's Mad is stuck in my head oh gosh.)
Screwed up girl stop screwing up damn it.
Closure
Friday, April 3, 2009
None.
Perhaps the sudden wave of realisation that swept over me was too much to bear. But I should've seen it coming earlier. How scary this world looks- it reeks of loneliness and despair. What should I do? What do you want me to do? It's awkward, it's sort of unexpected, and it's maybe even a little wrong.
And I look on in cowardice, regret and envy. I'll never be able to hold you or have you, and you'll never even know.
Solace. Comfort.
They don't come as they used to, anymore. Where are the warm arms of care around me, that protect me from everything scary, and adhere me to someone who understands? Maybe it's time I wait. I just need a special friend.
Maybe closure should be created.
So that we might end up somewhere else beyond here.
And I might tell you the things i've been keeping quiet about for quite some time now. Would you take up that job?
Perhaps the sudden wave of realisation that swept over me was too much to bear. But I should've seen it coming earlier. How scary this world looks- it reeks of loneliness and despair. What should I do? What do you want me to do? It's awkward, it's sort of unexpected, and it's maybe even a little wrong.
And I look on in cowardice, regret and envy. I'll never be able to hold you or have you, and you'll never even know.
Solace. Comfort.
They don't come as they used to, anymore. Where are the warm arms of care around me, that protect me from everything scary, and adhere me to someone who understands? Maybe it's time I wait. I just need a special friend.
Maybe closure should be created.
So that we might end up somewhere else beyond here.
And I might tell you the things i've been keeping quiet about for quite some time now. Would you take up that job?
Point Blank
-No I don't have a new target. Whatever it is it's not new but it's.. secret. I think I should just give up already lah I totally no hope can):
-Whoever you think i'm talking about, you're probably wrong.
-Met Abs, Am, Aisyah and a few of them at Tpj.
-I love Abs and Am and Aisyah so so much. (:
-I made new friends today. Um Joseph and Idk who and Idk who (i'm terrible with names) from Tpj, nice friendly cute people.
-Aisyah gave my number to some dude.
-Dude called me. (Aisyah wth mannnnnn hahahha)
-Bused home with Joseph Abs and Am.
-Abs cheer up(: You're a strong strong girl.
-Happy Birthday Amanda. (:
-You're a lot older than me
-I might crash while you're working and demand free ice-cream.
-I'm really happy I saw you today. And made you happy too!
-Imran is botak.
-I am upset.
-Imran's nice hair is gone.
-I am in mourning.
-Oh my God.
-My whole PI looks like that just FYI, bullets and points.
-Shiok right.
-Am not going to eat much tomorrow.
-Practicing with costume. I think i'll be very busy wrapping my arms around my waist and pulling up the costume.
-Am going to try french-rolling my hair.
-I'm actually quite excited.
-I miss talking to you. );
-Whoever you think i'm talking about, you're probably wrong.
-Met Abs, Am, Aisyah and a few of them at Tpj.
-I love Abs and Am and Aisyah so so much. (:
-I made new friends today. Um Joseph and Idk who and Idk who (i'm terrible with names) from Tpj, nice friendly cute people.
-Aisyah gave my number to some dude.
-Dude called me. (Aisyah wth mannnnnn hahahha)
-Bused home with Joseph Abs and Am.
-Abs cheer up(: You're a strong strong girl.
-Happy Birthday Amanda. (:
-You're a lot older than me
-I might crash while you're working and demand free ice-cream.
-I'm really happy I saw you today. And made you happy too!
-Imran is botak.
-I am upset.
-Imran's nice hair is gone.
-I am in mourning.
-Oh my God.
-My whole PI looks like that just FYI, bullets and points.
-Shiok right.
-Am not going to eat much tomorrow.
-Practicing with costume. I think i'll be very busy wrapping my arms around my waist and pulling up the costume.
-Am going to try french-rolling my hair.
-I'm actually quite excited.
-I miss talking to you. );
Don't lauuughh
Thursday, April 2, 2009
I'm freaking busy rushing out tons of work,
but I must blog because currently i'm very happy. (:
This boy's so damned cute he falls asleep while on the phone and occasionally goes "huuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhh?". Crap lah, I sure get bullied by this sort of people. Haha shucks I think I go soft too easily(:
And he calls me to tell me the most random of things and tells me to sing to him. And thankfully I didn't.
And falls asleep 5 minutes later despite "I'm not tired I can't sleeeep." Face it, you now need to hear me before you sleep right(; Heehee.
Perhaps i'm hearing the most peaceful thing: slow, light breathing, and occasional sighs. (Damn, I need a lover. Hahahahaha!)
For some strange reason i'm all smiley and calm now(:
So, when should I put down the phone hunny? (:
Hearts all over the world tonight.
but I must blog because currently i'm very happy. (:
This boy's so damned cute he falls asleep while on the phone and occasionally goes "huuuuuuuuuuuuuuhhhh?". Crap lah, I sure get bullied by this sort of people. Haha shucks I think I go soft too easily(:
And he calls me to tell me the most random of things and tells me to sing to him. And thankfully I didn't.
And falls asleep 5 minutes later despite "I'm not tired I can't sleeeep." Face it, you now need to hear me before you sleep right(; Heehee.
Perhaps i'm hearing the most peaceful thing: slow, light breathing, and occasional sighs. (Damn, I need a lover. Hahahahaha!)
For some strange reason i'm all smiley and calm now(:
So, when should I put down the phone hunny? (:
Hearts all over the world tonight.
