I really hate to say this,
But I think i'm beginning to hate my family.

No, it's not an overstatement.
Honestly, so what if you're angry? This might be your house but there are others living here, please BE CONSIDERATE. God. And i'm doing nothing productive like listening to music?
Oh my god i'm going to faint.

I will not tolerate stubborn, unreasonable adults. I will not tolerate yelling in my room. I will not tolerate myself being insulted for being a useless bum. I will not, no way in hell, tolerate any of it. And I'm going to come up with plans to handle this.
LIKE PERMANENTLY LOCKING MY ROOM DOOR.
Omg the end to all my problems, I swear.

GAH.
CONTROLLLL.

Lately she's just been getting on everyone's nerves and not caring about it. So what, because we're not your clients you don't really take us seriously?
Why am I not surprised. Just tell me why, Mum.

Kids will be kids.
Like just shut up if you don't have anything half-intelligent to say, you know? I understand if you all are stupid and failing your exams but please go elsewhere to vent and don't insult Imran or i'm gonna fucking get mad. It's like, we're OLD NEWS what the heck is so interesting anyway.

Today- the day my family fell apart.
I told you, I told you we were all a screwed up bunch.
It took you so long to notice it. And acting all shocked and disappointed- Look, I really did warn you. But you thought that I was lying and made sure everyone knew that. So in a sense... it's your retribution.

I don't think there's anyone else to blame but yourself for the way your kids turned out. Like why would you, an adult, come bursting into my room and getting mad at me when I have absolutely nothing to do with it? Stop being so unreasonable and stubborn, please.
You shouldn't need a teenage girl to tell you that there's really something wrong with the way you operate and handle the kids.
I've had enough.

Really, it can be such a pain sometimes to just stay here.

And I really hate people who say this, but I think it ought to be said (i'm such a hypocrite, right here):
"I told you so."

But anyway, sorry everyone cause i'm in such a foul mood.
And to those I ignored please don't take it personally.
My everything's just in a mess right now. Can't think straight, can't study, can't do anything right. I need to just get away and sort my thoughts out. But guess what? I can't. -_-

And thanks boy for listening and everything.
I'm so glad I have you. (You're slowly turning Chinese.)

I'm dating a guy whose idea of fun is shooting bottle caps into people's curry and throwing his slippers at the Indian roti prata man.
.....


(Talk about self-racism.)

Tomorrow is H2 Economics paper.
What the fuck are you doing reading Noelle's blog!!
(Unless you're J. Choong or someone who got quarantined.)

Yeah, the ass is back. (Rofflelemao)

But anyway,
I'm like screwed for economics.
I should just like start crying now.

Whoever thinks i'm smart, you're like absolutely wrong.
If I knew better and were any smarter, I would've started studying BEFORE the last week of the holidays. -_-
But I don't think I can pass anything anyway. So I won't pretend that I can and that I mugged and i'm just gonna whack the paper.

(Okay fine. I'm just a lazy ass k. My brain might've been smart but it's been stuffed fat with lard and fat and mayonnaise and potato chips and fries and popcorn and dumplings and chocolate and gummies.)

And no, i'm not studying now.
I'm going to be a cool prick and go downstairs and watch tv/ watch my brother play his awesome game on PS3. What was it called? Ah, PROTOTYPE. Awesome game to chill your jittery brain cells.

And I met the sweetest thing today.
I made friends with a black maomao. :D:D:D:D:D
(Cat lah:D)

I've spent the whole morning in bed, doing using the computer and just being a fat lazy ass.
):
Speaking of which, I have completely disappointed myself. I put on one fucking kg during the days. F.
FFFFFFFFFFF.
That totally ruins my plan of getting back to the sacred number...
45.
-mourns

I swear, my thighs have grown thicker this holiday.
Must be all that pigging.

Anyway while being a fat lazy ass, I ran across one of the blogs I used to faithfully follow (harharharhar) and herein lies the secret of telling whether...... a girl is wearing a pushup bra.
I sense alot of ??????????? !!!!!!!!!!! ?!?!?!?!?s but don't fret!
http://wewank.blogspot.com/2006/07/womens-best-friend-kenny.html

I know i'm very commonly accused of wearing those, but sorry to disappoint Tj! Distinct circumference not seen. Hawhawhawhaw.
Well just to confirm, I shall go question the boyf on it later.
.......
Looks like he's going to have a hard time.

HAHAHAH STOP THINKING DIRTY ALL YOU PERVERTS.

Anyway, boyf's going to pangseh me for the Idkhowmanyth time today. I should like whoop his ass or something but i'm sorry, i'm not quite into bondage.
......

HAHAHHA OKAY FINE SORRY.
I'm feeling decidedly mischievious today- I don't know why. Perhaps the studying is getting to my head. Yes, that's it.

You know, I know there's JCTs next week but I don't really feel like studying because there's no motivation or anything. All along i've been motivated by the prospect of good grades but this time... I can't help but wonder what i'm studying for. What grades, what job, what money?
It's kinda sad that most decisions you make these days revolve around the three. And i'm sick of living like that.

So i'll rely on my last-minute chiongs and i've decided that's it's more important to rest and recuperate for the upcoming term(s) than to murder my brain cells trying to stuff things in.
Good luck to you, muggers.

I'm actually loving my life right now.

My brother swearing his ass off in the next room, over the really sucky internet.
My mum, questioning me on who/where/why I went out.
My dinner, consisting of 3 bowls of mee siam, tons of sushi, spring rolls, fried chicken, and a lot of watermelon. Cooked by a possible future mum-in-law.
My 1st lunch: a big bowl of home-fried fries, and a huge chunk of fillet and yum yum lettuce.
My 2nd lunch: Mee siam. Slurp slurp.
My day, spent fruitfully with a possible husband, thowing our papers all over the table and just whacking the questions.

I feel loved. (:
In an oddly strange, strangely odd way.

Anyway, i'm extremely proud of myself.
I survived an entire Korean drama WITHOUT CRYING.
:) :)) :D
Even when the guy died!
And the girl found out about her guy's engagement!
And the guy shuns the girl cruelly!
And they finally get together!

SO PROUD. :D
-pat on back
(okay maybe everyone except the guy lead was not so hot and not so convincing that's why I didn't feel very greatly for them)

I'm guessing that kinda sounds familiar for every Kdrama... Ah well. But you know it's so good to watch!
The guys are... fucking gods.
Like sculptures. They should be put in the Smithsonian!
Like they look just right and you can't help but want one of your own.
(That's it- my next holiday: KOREA. -giddy with joy)

IT'S LIKE, YOU DON'T EVEN see THOSE KIND OF GUYS IN SINGAPORE. Although I must adknowledge most guys as the unsung heroes, for trying so hard to chase girls and keep us happy.
-applaud
Koreans over angmohs?
Still pretty undecided on that.

But that's for my next lifetime luh. (:
Right now... (:

Gah, i'm turning into such a romantic.
Help!

And I somehow think i'm turning back into the ultimate headband lover. Remember my crazily cute hairbands at the start of school? :D
Seems like my fetish is growing back.
What's wrong with Minnie Mouse anyway!
(:

I think if you see me everyday, you'll be entertained by what I wear.
Hahahahha sorry I just don't like looking the same every day and i'm experimental okay! Don't you agree?
Bet you loved my peroxide blonde highlight uh. Hahaha it's awesome! :D

Two words, to end off my wonderful post about my wonderful life:
Fuck JCTs.
(Hell yeah!)

Imran:
See, i've found the song! (: Aren't I awesome!
I'll see you in a bit, let's work hard today k. Really, MUST.
*hugs*

FINALLY.
I'll give a brief explanation of the lack of blog posts... even when i'm online. I've been watching countless dramas. BUT, I'M DONE! :D
(Oh wait, there are those awesome Youtube vids too!)

Thank God.
You know how you can't eat sleep or do anything properly till you've finished the whole series? Or at least till the latest episode? *heaves huge gigantic sigh of relief* Even though I reach home tired and aching I still watch till I K.O., no joke. It's the kind of thing to do ONLY during the holidays, no? (:

Anyway, this comes a bit belated,
But it's been a great one month I. (:
(: (: (:
Hahahha okay enough smileys.

The dramas create this insatiable want for the perfect guy.
He doesn't have to be rich (okay that's a plus), or goodlooking (fine, another plus), but he's got to be there at the right times, doing the right thing. And i'm an idiot but I love supporting the supporting actor more than the main because most of the time, the mains screw up too badly. And the supporting actors are so sweet, so charming... (: Sigh.

Disclaimer: Despite this. I like my man k. He's good enough. (:
No one's perfect, anyway!
(BESIDES, IT'S NOT LIKE GUYS DON'T THINK ABOUT OTHER GIRLS RIGHT. YOU ALL WANT MEGAN FOX and hotter girls in school SO THERE'S ABSOLUTELY NOTHING WRONG WITH THIS.)
(:


I'm really screwed for the upcoming JCTs.
I've been studying really little, on-off-on-off.
Next week is our last, so gah. All dates = study dates!
):
My punishment for playing for most of the holidays.

I think recently there's been this big ugly wallet thief going around. On thursday my mum's wallet got stolen, and today, Fb's! ):
TERRIBLE.
The thief totally picked the wrong people k.
(I wonder why i'm so affected. LOL.)

I feel really bad for being so high-maintenance.
Actually no, I was never this troublesome but lately we've just been spending $$ just having fun, and eating good food. I should really give in return. (Although you would insist that my time and company is more than good enough, I have a conscience, I feel bad. Admittedly.) Till I find something good, then! (: I really really had lots of fun this holiday.
I'm sorry, and grateful. *hugs*

But I just thought i'd give a random shoutout to someone.
The number 1 playboy in the whole of Singapore (I would award him that, really), my good (girl)friend, the truest biggest Noelle-addict. (: No matter what, you know i'm here for you.
No matter how many times I think about it, I think you know me best. And sometimes it scares me how alike we can be, especially when it comes to... stuff.
So much for our... wishful thinking. (a bit ironic, no?) Would there really be someone else, someone better, someone good enough to replace all the others out there?

I love you (too much) (to date you again)!
HAHAHAHHAHAHHA.
WHO WANTS YOU ANYWAYYYYYYY! (:

xoxo

I think the way i'm living now is pretty sad.
No purpose, no game, nothing!

Anyway I woke up to a bad start today.
I had the queerest 20 minute nightmare.
Which I can still remember super clearly (how rare) up till now. It had huge mutated swordfish- with translucent skin and visible innards and huge bloodshot eyes, and other mutant sea creatures and involved my dear maternal grandpa getting pierced through the stomach. Okay, enough, it was pretty gruesome and as funny as it sounds, IT'S NOT and i'm still disturbed.

Hahahha okay actually i'm laughing.
D:
Nyeh!

C and I decided to head out last minute. (As always..) And I must admit, it was pretty fun! (: I haven't seen him in outside clothes in ages and it felt a bit weird but I missed it. Heh heh heh.
I dragged him around shoe-shopping etc, and we hung out and studied. It was one of the most productive sessions i've had in a while! (: See, who says you can't study outside huh.
His hair is finally out of the China bowl shape, it's longer, messier, a lot a lot nicer. :D Well done! Hahahahah.
Thank you for everything today(:

SURPRISE SURPRISE,
DSL knows my ex-eyecandy! :D:D:D
(All these track people... tskk.)
Hahahahahhaha do not doubt the term "high-profile"..!

I'm making like the fullest possible use of my time, catching up with the people I love while Fb's busy with things! Anyway I hope you had fun and did well today(: In any case, i'm proud of you awesome boy!
Sigh I think the minute holidays are over, i'm going to have withdrawal symptoms. Just look at how many times we go out a week. D:
Plus someone's MIA-ing to Msia tomorrow, poor me!
The moment you're back, i'm gonna sing you a Westlife song. HAHAHHAHA omg we're total pros at Westlife lyrics. :D
): ); ),;


Nontheless,
I'm looking forward to tomorrow. (:
(WHY WHY WHY? Hmmmmmmmmmmmmm.)


Xoxo,
You know you love me.
(And I wonder which guy loves to sign off with this!)

I have an urge for Gossip Girl. ):
Someone, quickly get me the new season!
D:

We should totally have one too.
But I think our Tj's Gossip Girl wouldn't have much to talk about. A certain couple found making out in school (like anyone would dare to do that) (well, I dare... heh heh heh), a girl found in a magazine, a certain school party, a playboy.. how dull and dreadful. I think our GGirl might be so bored having nothing to do as her job she'll just go back to mugging.
That's Tj.
And that's so sad.

Well anyway.
Doubt anyone would have the time to set up a gossip site.
We're all too busy trying to mug and all.

Today was my first FREEEEE day in... months!
No school, no dance, no boyfriend, no family, nothing!
So as you would probably guess,
I spent my day in my room.
On my bed.
I think I left the bed for at most two hours?
Oooooops.

Man, this is the life!
....
Well okay, I know it isn't- but we all need days like these once in a while! Not that I dislike going out and having fun with people, I just like time to myself and to do whatever I want to.
(Of course I love going out. (: What's there not to love about getting to spend time with the boy? Awwwwwww.)

And I've no idea what's gotten into my parents lately;
We've been having awesome food this weekend.
Beef noodles, dinner out, cold crab, homemade apple pie, mixed yoghurt, homemade beef patties, shanghai dumplings, everything!
(:
Ah well. (:
Okay actually I know why.
My mum thought today was Fathers' Day and made the apple pie and good food yesterday. Lol. It's awesome.


So much for keeping my blog alive.
There isn't much that i've been doing except for going out and spending money like CRA-ZY and shopping so.. yeah. It's kinda cool, we've even gone bra shopping together. ..... (: HAHAHAHHHA OH WELL.
And i'd like to announce my boob growth officially but I suppose that's a bit too raw for a public blog. As any other girl should be when this happens, I'm happy. .... (: HAHAHAHHAHAH.
We shop for other things too! Like um. FRAGRANCES.
:D

But most of the time, we're just walking around and admiring stuff. Okay FINE, I AM. I admire everything and I so faithfully wish that i'm the richest girl in the universe and i'll buy everything nice. :D

Okay, big dreams small girl move on.

I'm sort of in a weird situation.
I miss somebody alot. ):
And i've began humming songs we both love to myself like crazy for no reason. I'm damn sad okay. ): Hahaha and now I have no one to complain to and obsess over things with! Gah. Withdrawal symptoms.

I'm also sort of happy.
Cause I feel very loved. (:
-toothy grin.
By everyone, actually. Especially the boy and the ex-boys. Long story how it came to that.. but let's just say, we all still share a special bond. And I'm really happy they all come talk to me when they're ): and (: and D: and everything! OR FEEL LONELY OR HAVE URGES. Hahahhhahahahhahah:D ANONYMOUS.
(Don't worry, it's all purely platonic nothing to kp about)

And i'm leaving you with a picture of
Choong Lee's Dragon Blasting Fire At Leon's Balls.
(And he looking all sad about it HAHAHHAHAHAH:D)
Not kidding. :D

Look, I know i'm a really twisted being and I hardly ever confess my feelings openly. (Well, in a non-joking, completely honest way) But today- it was supposed to be yesterday but I was way too tired- I will tell you how I've really come to love someone.

It took me 5 years.

But,
I love you Jamie. (:
You're my favourite bimbo and you make me cry like a baby and I love everyone but you know, you're special to me. (: Really.
I'll really really miss you after you're gone. And just like how you'll always be here for me, I promise i'll be here for you too.

Hell, I love Tj dance. ):

Oh my dear G,
Megan Fox is a man.
Megan Fox is a man.
Megan Fox is a man.
Megan Fox is a man.
Megan Fox is a man.

And a punch in the air- serves you all right guys, for going so crazy over her! Her (awesome) boobs are fake, her everything is! Okay. I hope it's true. Cause then we can all excuse her bodily perfection as fake, and the rest of us can feel a little bit more happier about ourselves. Girls these days are miserable, I mean, all the pressure to look good? Neh. Not worth it. Food glorious food! :D

I know- here's the undeniable truth:
My blog is dying.
-gasps in horror.

Neh but I still love my Lj!

I've just been wayy too tired to do anything upon reaching home these days. I hit the bed within minutes and I stay there till the next morning. And honestly I haven't been doing much... Except of course for yesterday's Dance Camp and today's dance prac.
I must say that I got fried during camp yesterday. It was gross to the MAX, I swear to God. Eggs, mango, flour, koropok, watermelon, brocolli, SAUCE SAUCE SAUCE, ahyo alamak can kill people yknow! Hahaha but it was awesome fun. (And awesomely tiring too)

And so I reached home and I fell sick.
And i'm amazed I survived through dance despite feeling very light headed and having the want-to-puke-guts-out feeling! (: Did some funny combi that was pretty fun.

Caught Monsters Vs Aliens today omg so fucking cute can.
I want BOB and his green jello with 14 pineapple cubes inside!
:D
:D:D:D:D:D
And i've decided that we're gonna grow fat cause we've been eating a hell lot of junk and awesome food lately. Our fetish for chocolate, and today's tao huay! OMG ownage. We're going back tomorrow, I think.
Hengggg we never eat jalan kayu prata yesterday.
Fattening to the max mannnn.

Met Jason and his nameless friend for a while.
Jason so pro neh. I stare until my eyes glazed over.
....
Heh heh heh heh.
He's super annoying.

Noelle ; says:
*you very what lehhh!
Noelle ; says:
*D:
Noelle ; says:
*not romantic also say until like that.
JASONIC says:
*LOL
JASONIC says:
*EH DAMN ROMANTIC K
JASONIC says:
*CROSS ARMS, THEN FEED EACH OTHER
JASONIC says:
*HHAHAHA
Noelle ; says:
*...................
Noelle ; says:
*IN YOUR DREAMS LAH BODOH
Noelle ; says:
*WHERE GOT PEOPLE LIKE THAT IN REAL LIFE
JASONIC says:
*then.. "eh your mouth got tao huay"
JASONIC says:
*then
JASONIC says:
*you take the tissue
JASONIC says:
*but he say "NO! DONT USE THE TISSUE"
Noelle ; says:
*hahahahha for a moment i thought you were gonna say lick.
Noelle ; says:
*...
Noelle ; says:
*oh.
JASONIC says:
*;) use mouth
Noelle ; says:
*here it comes.
Noelle ; says:
*....
Noelle ; says:
*-_-
JASONIC says:
*HAHAHAHAH
Noelle ; says:
*ANNOYINGGG

Neh I very tired already.
Sleep awaits!

Oh by the way...
WE have gone Facebook-official. (Lol, I dislike that term)
Okay fine, he has and I haven't.
It's just Facebook... It gets really boring after a while:/

My absolute reluctance to watch Horror Movies.

Despite really needing to catch up with someone.. sigh.

(SMS)
LYM: You wanna catch drag me to hell? LOL
Noelle: NO.

LYM: WHY. LOL. I realie even guys give this kinda reply
Noelle: I can't watch horror movies you evil person! REMEMBER 4BIA?!?!? D:
LYM: LOL/ YOU COULD WAD. Like, for 3 stories, the last one you didn't watch. LOL
Noelle: NO.
LYM: Ok ok == =" so fierce

Okay,
I just suddenly decided that I really miss a lot of people.
And that was a big, painful hit. ):

Man I'm getting all emo and I feel like crying.

It's like...
I should really be using this holiday to catch up with the people I love. Really, really. Not that I haven't been having fun these past three days: believe me, you're the bestest, but... Gah. I don't know. ):
I miss the manbitch. I miss the dancers. I miss the ctcg. I miss Alisha. I miss the Tkg gang. I miss L.Y.M. I miss Sam. I miss Tkgs. I miss... her.
I know that's just so fucking wrong,
But what wouldn't I give just to catch up with her over Starbucks and rant and get a nice big warm hug from her again?
Okay. That's fucking wrong. I'm just being sentimental today.

And up till now I can't forget leadership camp. And somehow I still envision it as one of the best moments of my life. And that was 2 fucking years ago. And I can remember every little detail about it.
I need to forget. It's doing me no good whatsoever.

Who the heck is she. Why can she make me think about stuff when I haven't seen her for... 6 months? Omg. I'm sick.
She's a bitch. She's a Fab bitch. She's... she. (: ): ): ): Wtf.

And cursed be blogs...
(I can still remember hers, fuck this.)
I miss someone's retarded HURHURHURHUR laughter, how he gets excited so easily over girls and his old hairstyle. Don't ask me why.


Where have you gone, my dear friends? :/

Ps. Manbitch, we need to study asap.

Pss. FB don't take this the wrong way. I'm just.. bothered.

Forgive me- this post is going to be....
Graphic.

Let's... fast-forward this.
We do this slowly. Slowly, at first, and then it quickens.
And, we take turns.

I cupped it, in my cold hands. (It was cold.)
It's warm,
It's hard.
I ran my index finger around the tip. Circled, repeatedly. (Ah, I get impatient.) I raised it to my lips,
sucked... And got my mouth covered with...
cream. Virgin-white, lightly frothy cream.

The taste.
I swirled the fluid in my mouth. It's... fucking awesome.
It ran, a hot droplet down my throat.
A shudder down my spine. Man that felt good.

I looked up. It was... steamy. Literally.
I was tempted to do so much more.
And so we switched. (I did so reluctantly)
Perhaps he experienced the same things as me- I wouldn't know.
Except that he was constantly burying his head between his hands. Either that, or going "Oh my God." repeatedly. It must've been at least... 10 times? I think he got high. I think we got high.
(:
Sigh. Was it that nice hunny?
It didn't look that good though. The white on brown- or brown on white? But holy, it was beyond good. (: Right down to the last bit.
I tilted, all the way back, just to get the last bit.

Hopefully... it didn't look that obscene. Or dumb.

Enough for one day.
Or maybe... never enough. (heh heh hehhh! :D)
God, save us.

That... was the best mug of hot chocolate I have ever had.
(:

HAHAHHAHAHAHA. HAHAHAHHAHAHAHHAAH.
Okay you know what I think i'm high. :D
That's gonna remain our secret, yes? (: I make the awesomest recommendations, no kidding! Heh heh heh heh.

We're chucking coffee.
Goodbye vanilla latte,
Helloooooo Venezuela. (;

I've been sick, on and off for the past few days.
And it really sucks. D:
But still I managed to go out today so i'm quite (:
(What did I miss from chinese yesterday uh?)

Gah. Perhaps I should really consider taking medicine. :/
Get well soon, me.

Ps.
I hate pangseh kias. D: TO THE MAXXXXXXX.